YiZhe didn't eat that night, and after turning off the computer, he was lying on the bed as if he was empty. The sun was out, the sky was dark, and there was no light in sight. In addition, the roommates have already returned home, and the room is very empty. In this way, it seems that he even has more space to think. He can finally spread out everything one by one and put it on the table. In front of you, you don't have to think about it furtively.
The current situation seems to be bad, not the worst. At least Xu Tangcheng did not clearly draw a line with him. It's just that YiZhe was somewhat remorseful, and felt that maybe it was too late for him to understand. If you restrained your emotions earlier, there would not be such an embarrassing situation between the two.
He was so fascinated that he didn't even hear Zheng Yikun push the door in and call him.
"What are you thinking?" Seeing that he didn't respond, Zheng Yikun turned on the light and walked over, patting the edge of his bed, "Let's go, let's play billiards."
billiards.
After a brief trance, YiZhe got used to the bright light, turned his head and looked at Zheng Yikun's face, but he was always blocked by another blurry face.
Can't touch, can't move.
I am afraid that I have thought too much in the past two days, and I am stunned. In other words, Xu Tangcheng's shadow is really everywhere, and anything can be related to him here.
It seemed that there was a sour feeling oozing out of the bone marrow, but after blending into the blood, it could feel a subtle sweetness. YiZhe blinked, thinking that this is also good.
"You..." Zheng Yikun looked at him for a long time, then raised his eyebrows, "Love breakup."
After being stunned for two seconds, YiZhe suddenly sat up and looked at the person standing beside the bed with his legs crossed.
Zheng Yikun looked at him with a vigilant look, lowered his head and smiled: "Why are you nervous, I don't laugh at you."
YiZhe didn't say anything, but kept his original posture and stared at him for a few seconds before staggering his eyes.
"You..." Zheng Yikun put his hand on the railing beside the bed, raised his finger and pointed a few times before saying, "It's actually quite simple."
Meeting YiZhe's unfriendly gaze, he raised the corner of his mouth indifferently. Then, leaning on the ladder to go to bed, he felt a cigarette from his pocket.
YiZhe immediately stated calmly: "Smoking is not allowed in the dormitory, so I have to take it out."
"Yes," Zheng Yikun put away the lighter, but didn't put the cigarette out. He played with his fingers between his fingers, and then said, "Then let me guess your story, and you don't need to express your opinion. If what I said is useful, Just listen. If you think it's all farting, squeak and I'll just roll around, okay?"
After looking at him for a while, Yi Zhe acquiesced.
This was the first time he had spoken to people about those hidden emotions. Although if Zheng Yikun was taken out and told that he was a big A, people would definitely not believe him. But there is one thing that can be confirmed. Zheng Yikun lives a very selfish life and will never take other people's affairs seriously. In other words, as long as he goes out this door later, Zheng Yikun will say nothing about what he said today. Will not mention it.
"In your state, it's definitely a crush, right?"
Zheng Yikun suddenly threw out such a sentence with certainty, and Yi Zhe could only stare at him in silence.
"With your character, and your emotional history that is definitely blank at first glance. If you're in a relationship, you can't be in this state," Zheng Yikun said, and he turned his head to think about it and added, " I reckon your mouth has to go to your temple every day."
Yi Zhe didn't like that he made such nonsense jokes when he was talking about this serious to some serious issue. He glanced at Zheng Yikun and felt that he wouldn't say anything useful today. Turning around, laying down again without hope: "You give me a look."
"Believe it or not, you absolutely have to be like this. I don't dare to say anything about your grades. It depends on the person. I bet no one in the A University is more cruel than me. You look like the kind of stubborn one."
YiZhe couldn't help staring at him, how could he become obsessed with his feelings for so many years.
"It's okay, it's not stubborn, it's all about affection, right? But in my opinion, it's all the same." Zheng Yikun was good-tempered, but kept smiling, "Why do I say you are innocent, it's one aspect of being stubborn, On the other hand, you don't really think that your crush is your business, right?"
Although YiZhe thought that he did not fully understand the issue, his heart sank for some reason. Perhaps it was because of a question from Zheng Yikun that pierced his once lucky heart, or perhaps it was a premonition that what Zheng Yikun said next was what he wanted to say today.
"Brother, let me tell you, don't believe in any secret love. Unless you really have a crush on him from a distance, and you don't usually see each other at all, otherwise, as long as the two of you know each other and are connected, it's impossible. Sooner or later, he has to know about a person's business. For example, if someone has a crush on me, I can see it at a glance. "
Of course, Yi Zhe didn't want to discuss with him whether anyone would have a crush on him. He is still stubbornly denying Zheng Yikun's words from his heart. If anyone other than Xu Tangcheng has a crush on him, he probably won't notice it in his life.
"I see you like this, I guess you have just been smashed recently, and the other party has no attitude." Zheng Yikun reached into the gap between the railings and patted YiZhe's arm, "Innocent little virgin, I have to remind you, don't go to the horns of bullshit. , this situation is the most popular. In fact, it's the best solution. If you don't take the initiative to tell him about it, and pretend to be a joke, no one will chase after you and say, 'Hey, I found out that you like me, I warn you You don't like me'. The two pretended to each other, opened one eye and closed the other, and they passed."
Reversing the previous silence, after Zheng Yikun finished speaking these worldly words, Yi Zhe turned over, looked at Zheng Yikun, and asked, "What is the past?"
Zheng Yikun thought about it for a while this time, and took out all his talents and learnings: "Playing stupid to each other, not to mention these bad things, at least they are still good friends on the surface."
Naturally, Yi Zhe didn't follow Zheng Yikun to play billiards. After Zheng Yikun left, he lay down again and continued to stare at the ceiling in a daze. The mobile phone was placed beside the pillow. When he was too hungry, he finally seemed to have made up his mind and picked up the mobile phone.
Just when he hesitated and hadn't pressed the call button, the screen lit up first. It was the same name that flashed.
In one second, YiZhe had already propped himself up with one arm, and answered the phone with the other hand.
"Brother Tang Cheng." He stiffened, stared at the corner of the table opposite, tensed, and focused all his attention.
There Xu Tangcheng responded and asked, "Are you busy?"
"No."
The corner of the table has fallen off a little bit. I don't know if the quality of the table bought by Big A is not good, or if my roommate has to think about the corner of the table every day when he writes code.
"I want to ask when you will go home. If everything is fine at school, how will you go tomorrow?" Xu Tangcheng paused and explained, "I was planning on the day after tomorrow, but the day after tomorrow, my classmates asked me for something, so I thought about having dinner tomorrow night. Let's go."
"Okay." YiZhe agreed.
I felt that my words were thin, and I wanted to say something, but I was completely speechless.
"okay."
Over there, Xu Tangcheng repeated a sentence redundantly, and suddenly fell silent.
The two had never called like this before, as if everyone was so careful that even normal communication was limited. Even if he asked "Is he busy, did he eat?", YiZhe was so guilty that he couldn't ask. Even though they could hear each other's breathing, they were actually separated by thousands of mountains and rivers.
This embarrassment was beginning to embarrass him, and Xu Tangcheng spoke again.
"That's it?"
YiZhe clenched his fists and responded, "En."
The phone was cut off, and YiZhe tugged at his short hair irritably, and buried his head. He thought of what Zheng Yikun said just now - pretending to be okay with each other, not to mention these bad things, at least they are still friends who are decent on the surface.
According to YiZhe's previous habit, if it was a dinner party, he would step on it. But this time, he arrived at the restaurant a full 20 minutes earlier than agreed.
Lu Ming booked a nearby Xinjiang restaurant that was very popular recently. The lobby was a bit narrow. Although they booked a seat for nine people, there were only small square tables in the hall. The waiter put the two tables together and placed seven chairs—four on each of the long sides, and one on the short side like a large parent's seat.
Subconsciously, YiZhe sat in the last position.
This seat had its back to the door, the door was pushed open from time to time, the cold wind swept in, and the voice came over, YiZhe couldn't help but look back. It's just that most of the time, before he has completely turned his head, he has already judged that there is no Xu Tangcheng among the people.
After waiting like this for a few minutes, the waiter standing by the side kept looking at him. Xu thought he was in a hurry, and even brought the menu and asked him if he wanted to order first. YiZhe shook his head, feeling that the yellow lights in the store made him uneasy. After the waiter walked away, he got up and changed to the direction facing the door.
Lu Ming and the others came very quickly. After a few freshmen saw the layout of the seats, they coaxed the minister Lu Ming to sit in the middle. Lu Ming smacked his lips and joked with them with a pinch of tone, saying that the two seniors were coming, how could he sit in the middle.
Yu An occasionally appeared in various activities of the student union. He was very good at talking, and he was always held in the hands of the current minister and president. Basically, everyone in the student union knew him. But Xu Tangcheng didn't like to join the student union, at least Yizhe never saw him appear.
After Lu Ming said this, some people naturally wondered who the other senior was. After complimenting Xu Tangcheng, Lu Ming specifically mentioned the most important point for them: "Let's not say anything else, the reputation of the A University Singing Star Competition was created by him. When he was a minister, he definitely It was by far the most awesome of all Beijing colleges and universities, and the school's Internet was well-received at the time. How many schools took his class as a model."
Lu Ming shook his head: "But the template is the template, it is out of reach, and now we can't do that."
One of the juniors wondered: "Is there anything I can't do?"
"You don't understand," Lu Ming glanced at him, raised the chopsticks in his hand, and knocked on the table twice, "Don't think that if you have enough sponsorships and enough guests, you can run a successful singer contest. Singing also requires musical literacy. How to determine the rules of each round, how to make the rhythm of the game comfortable while ensuring fairness, and how to make more sparks in the singing of the contestants and the feelings of the audience, all of which have to be Take your time…”
For these, Yi Zhe has never experienced it, and has never heard Xu Tangcheng mention it. When he became a good man in college, he was still in that small town, mingling.
When such a group of people from the Literature and Art Department gather together, of course they can't be cold during the time they wait for them. It is common for several topics to be paralleled at the same time. Yi Zhe drank cups of barley tea, and listened to them talking about serious or funny points one after another. If he came across something related to Xu Tangcheng, he would turn the porcelain cup with both hands and watch the light above change. Listen carefully for a while.
Xu Tangcheng never came, and Yi Zhe was thinking that Lu Ming wouldn't give him a call, and Yu An entered the door. He was pressed into the special "parent seat", smiled helplessly, and said that Xu Tangcheng was still at the teacher's place and would arrive later, so they should eat first.
This news made Yi Zhe feel a little discouraged, but he seemed to have gotten away with some unease and hesitant, and he was temporarily relieved.
The dishes have been ordered before, and soon, a few dishes were served. The steaming hot air gives people a real sense of life.
Everyone said that the taste of this restaurant is good. Although it is Xinjiang cuisine, it has actually been improved a little, and it is more special than ordinary. However, YiZhe didn't find anything delicious or not. He didn't move much with his chopsticks, and the plate was kept clean. When Xu Tangcheng opened the door and came in, he caught two peanuts and a piece of potato.
It was Xu Tangcheng who first discovered by Yi Zhe came in, but it was Lu Ming who called out first.
YiZhe watched him enter the door silently, and walked towards this direction, only to feel that as he walked step by step, he just stepped on the beat of his heartbeat.
The light that made him feel uneasy just now seemed to be more magical, giving him an illusory sense of separation from his mind and body.
"Senior, sit here, sit here."
There was a seat beside Lu Ming, and another seat beside Yi Zhe. For the first time, Xu Tangcheng's thinking was short-circuited on such an issue.
Yi Zhe probably thought that staring at him in the eyes of everyone would not be discovered, but in fact, since Xu Tangcheng entered the door, he had already felt this too special gaze. He didn't dare to confront him, so he responded to Lu Ming who had been greeting him from beginning to end.
It was also this feeling of avoidance that made him choose the position beside Lu Ming under the close gaze of those eyes.
YiZhe sat diagonally across from him, and after sitting down, Xu Tangcheng raised his head while answering the question from the person next to him. It was also tonight that he met his eyes for the first time.
Unexpectedly, he suddenly felt a sharp pain in his heart.
It was also a glance that no one else noticed, which made Xu Tangcheng realize with certainty that he had hurt him irreparably.
YiZhe just sat there staring blankly at him.
No sadness, no disappointment, no grievance, just stunned, as if completely unable to understand what just happened.
He sat on the edge, with an empty seat next to him, which seemed to separate him from everyone.