From Xu Tangcheng's point of view, YiZhe seems to have quickly returned to his previous appearance. He no longer actively looks for him frequently, but when two people meet by chance, there will be no shortage of things that should be there, and there must be all the cares that should be taken. Sometimes when he went out, he could see that the door on the opposite side was open again, and YiZhe was flipping the keys around the house again. He made a few jokes in the past, and YiZhe smiled at him embarrassedly, saying that he couldn't do anything about it, he just couldn't fix this stinky problem.
As usual, the scene will give Xu Tangcheng a sense of trance, as if the period before the holiday was tangled and in a dilemma, it was just that he was not awake and had a dream in a daze.
But every night, when he suddenly woke up due to various reasons, he would see those eyes again in a drowsy state - still with a dazed and confused look, in the midst of the roar of people, he crossed a bright light, look at him.
The owner of those eyes clearly didn't want to express anything, but in Xu Tangcheng's heart, he seemed to be silently complaining.
Every time he saw this, he couldn't let the scene of that night continue to play out in his mind. YiZhe's apology and departure, along with the melting snow, gradually became something he didn't dare to remember.
I feel ashamed, so every time it stops abruptly, leaving only the warm yellow lights and people separated by loneliness.
After tossing and turning on the pillow, he did not expect that the sentence "reluctant to bear" would be such a bittersweet taste.
Xu Tangcheng dangled around the house with a pair of big dark circles under his eyes, which made Zhou Hui think he was digging into some way of making money.
"Did you lose the stock again?"
Xu Tangcheng was inexplicably asked by Zhou Hui: "No."
"I don't sleep and watch stocks in front of you all day long. Don't be so cruel. The family has enough money, so don't miss you."
When Xu Tangcheng was just in college, he caught up with Xu Yueliang for an operation, and Xu Tangxi just changed an imported medicine, and the family's funds suddenly seemed a little tight. It won't affect his life, but Xu Tangcheng is used to preventing problems before they happen. In addition, he has set a scientific research path for himself. Knowing that he is still far from earning money, he starts to think about how to start a side business. He felt that doing odd jobs to earn too little money and taking care of his studies made it impossible to spend a lot of time outside of school. After thinking about it, he thought of buying stocks at that time.
Now that I think about it, I was very fearless back then. A total of 10,000 yuan of principal, dare to invest in such a risky thing. Probably still young, so think things straight and simple. But at that time, he was really working hard. It is not easy for a layman to trade stocks. In order to ponder those, he often stayed up all night, reading materials and doing analysis. Although the final result was also good, Zhou Hui was frightened enough by his desperate look.
"Where are you going?" Xu Tangcheng was choked up by Zhou Hui's words, holding a slice of bread in his mouth. He suddenly felt like he was living in two worlds, one world was the reality of the present, and Zhou Hui was talking off topic, and the other was a secret that belonged only to Yi Zhe and him.
It's just that the light in that secret world was dim, and he was confined to the spot, unable to touch him, and gradually, as if he couldn't see him.
Thirty this year was no different from usual. The lights in Yizhe's house were still dark. Xu Tangcheng returned from dinner at his uncle's house, and asked Xu Tangxi to go upstairs first. He squatted downstairs and smoked a few cigarettes. At this time, Yi Zhe sent a message of "Happy New Year". He read it for a long time before returning the same four words.
Looking up again, the sky above is already covered with colorful fireworks.
Obviously it was a gorgeous scenery, but there was no reason to induce a burst of loss in him. He watched as the fireworks exploded into the darkness one by one, clamoring to break through the sky. The ups and downs of competition, the cheers against the light, all seemed to tell him that no matter who experienced what kind of story, the New Year is still lively.
The world is so big and contains so many things and emotions. Time always moves forward normally, and festivals repeat one after another. It never cares which light is on and which light is off. Whoever went where and what kind of mood they had would not have any influence on the excitement at all.
In the final analysis, you are an indispensable existence to the people close to you, but to the space of the whole world, you are just an ordinary floating dust, life or death, joy or anger, it is really insignificant.
The color of the fireworks disappeared in the eyes, and a terrible hypothesis was formed.
Xu Tangcheng raised his head and blinked, suddenly thinking, in case, someone has never encountered that indispensable share.
His throat was itchy and uncomfortable, he held the cigarette and coughed for a long time. After calming down, I found out that I was smoking too fiercely during this time.
Xu Tangxi is keen on baking this holiday. He often goes to classmates' houses to tinker with them. Sometimes he is very excited to bring back a few cookies and small cakes, asking Xu Tangcheng and the others to taste them. Seeing that she likes doing these things so much, Xu Tangcheng quietly summed up the money in his hand, took out some, and bought a very good oven for his family. For this reason, Zhou Hui scolded him for a long time, saying that the oven could be used a few times, and it was enough to have a microwave at home. Xu Tangcheng smiled, took the manual, and explained to her one by one what the oven can do that the microwave cannot.
He blew an oven bells and whistles, but Zhou Hui disapproved: "Come on, I don't know her yet, she likes this one today and that one tomorrow, when is it not hot in ten minutes? I think she can use this oven five times. It's all good."
Xu Tangxi on the side was of course unconvinced: "Impossible, I have learned a lot from my classmates, and I will bake cookies for you tomorrow."
Zhou Hui asserted that she would not be able to bake, but Xu Yueliang laughed while watching the news, saying that she would wait to eat.
Xu Tangxi made up his mind, and Xu Tangcheng naturally wanted to take her to buy materials. The two were going out after lunch, and they were just stepping up the stairs two steps at a time.
Seeing the expression on the person who came up, Xu Tangcheng was slightly taken aback: "Why are you so happy?"
Yi Zhe put both hands in the pockets of his down jacket. He walked up a step and got closer to them before saying, "Yi Xun is coming."
"Yixun?" Xu Tangxi repeated suspiciously.
YiZhe's father and brother moved away for so many years and never came back. So for Xu Tangxi, the name "Yixun" has long since become extremely vague. Xu Tangcheng, who was standing on the side, was as happy as Yi Zhe was infected at first, and then he was a little surprised why Yi Xun came here all of a sudden.
But seeing the corners of YiZhe's mouth that had been slightly upturned, he didn't say anything, thinking that as long as he was happy, it would be fine.
However, Yi Zhe seemed to understand his doubts and explained simply: "He wants to go to Beijing to see some concert, so I asked him if he wanted to come back here to see it, he said he would come after watching it, and how long would he stay there? sky."
Listening to their words, Xu Tangxi also remembered who Yi Xun was. Speaking of which, she often played with Yi Xun when she was a child. After all, when Yi Xun moved away, she was still a child who didn't understand anything. He doesn't have the sensitivity to change, he doesn't have the inferiority complex caused by his family, and of course he doesn't know what it means to keep a distance. He likes to run to Xu Tangcheng's house very much, saying that Aunt Zhou Hui's cooking is delicious, sister Tang Xi has a lot of storybooks, and brother Tang Cheng will take him to play games, which is very kind to him.
"What are you doing?" YiZhe asked.
"Go buy the ingredients for making cookies," Xu Tangxi smiled, and then suddenly thought of something, and said quickly, "Brother Yizhe, when I make the cookies and send them to you, just in time, when Yi Xun arrives, I can give them to you. What a delicious meal you make."
YiZhe nodded in response, then turned sideways, wanting them to pass first. But Xu Tangcheng stopped when he walked in front of him. He looked at him and said, "Go for a walk if you have nothing to do."
When he said this, Xu Tangcheng felt uneasy in his heart. In the past, he always felt that he knew YiZhe very well, and he knew what decision he would make, whether he would agree to a thing, and he never guessed right. But after what happened before, he was no longer so sure.
Because it seems that whether YiZhe wants to go out with them or not, there are very good reasons.
However, YiZhe didn't leave him much uneasy time. He nodded quickly: "Okay."
Yi Zhe followed Xu Tangcheng down, thinking that until now, his performance has been remarkable.
During the few days of vacation, he thought about it a lot, and the most important thing to think about was what kind of attitude should he take to face Xu Tangcheng. In front of him what to say, what not to say, what to do, what not to do, these questions have been in his mind many times. In the end, he figured it out and came up with a very useful point - that what he showed was a little less good to him than he actually thought he was.
Xiang Xiwei hasn't come back these days. He has always been at home by himself. When he can't sleep at night, he just turns on the TV and watches it casually. At this time, TV drama channels will always broadcast some translated films, most of which are Japanese and Korean family dramas, trivial and lengthy, starting from fifty episodes. YiZhe had nothing to do, so he let the people on the TV shout and chant.
He also summed up such a principle of getting along in such a night. Coincidentally, within two minutes of summing up, he heard a middle-aged woman on the TV who burned her mother's head and said: "Restraint is the first step in growth. ."
These words sounded high-sounding, but YiZhe seemed to have been hit with a hammer on his heart. An empty and boring word, once you have personal experience, you will have your own understanding. He felt that this sentence was quite reasonable, and he should have weighed it long ago.
In the picture, the heroine shouted hoarsely in the heavy rain, "You don't understand me at all."
YiZhe suddenly felt something absurd in the dim light. He actually picked up the word "growth" in such a soap opera.
But sometimes it is like this, people or things, or reasons, after you pay attention to them, you will find that you have been encountering them constantly in your life. It's just that you didn't realize that there was a man in green clothes before. Even if he passed you by countless times, you didn't give him the slightest attention.
Xu Tangxi's cookies failed in the end. In the kitchen full of faint scents, Xu Tangcheng looked at the soft lump, and said cautiously, "Are you sure... Cookie does this?"
Xu Tangxi held up his hands covered with the butter-flour mixture, hesitating: "Well... I think it's right... "
The two siblings looked at each other, and for a long time, neither of them said a word.
This unidentified object was laughed at by Zhou Hui for a long time, so angry that Xu Tangxi took this baking guide and ran to Xu Tangcheng's house to study it, saying that he must succeed tomorrow and prove it to himself. She looked at it and fell asleep. Xu Tangcheng took her back to the room and put her on the bed. She squinted and muttered, "Brother, help me."
"Do it for you," Xu Tangcheng suppressed a smile and replied softly, "Go to sleep."
She turned off the light and closed the door. After Xu Tangcheng returned to the house, he studied the baking guide and the computer for a while, and made the cookie the next day.
Holding a small plate, Xu Tangxi ran to Zhou Hui's house in small steps, clamoring to let them taste the fruits of victory. Xu Tangcheng looked at the pile of cookies and thought for a while, put some on, and sent them to YiZhe.
But he didn't expect to knock on the door for a long time and no one answered. He called and asked, only to know that Yi Xun had come, and now they are playing outside.
"Have you come?" Xu Tangcheng went back with the cookie, and after entering the room, he thought about it and said, "Then if you have time, come and have a meal at home? I told my mother about this before, and she said it really. I haven't seen Yi Xun for a long time, I guess he's grown up to be a big boy, and I don't know him anymore."
The person on the other end of the phone seemed to hesitate for two seconds before saying, "Let me ask him."
After hanging up the phone, Xu Tangcheng looked at the plate of cookies for a while, then heaved a sigh of relief. He squeezed the ugliest piece and put it in his mouth, sitting on a chair and chewing slowly.
Although not so successful, the taste and texture are justified.
A little sense of achievement, but can not cover the greater sense of loss.
He had been raising money for a few days, but when it came time to invite him, he even forgot to say: I want you to come over for dinner, too.
Yi Xun has indeed become a big boy. Therefore, Xu Tangcheng had to respect and admire the gene. Yi Xun was already taller than him before he even went to high school. Xu Yueliang and Zhou Hui both praised that the two children of the Yi family were growing well. Standing beside the two tall men, Xu Tangcheng suddenly felt that he had lost the majesty of a big brother, and it kind of means "time makes people grow old". .
Zhou Hui used to like Yi Xun very much. At first, she also felt sorry for him as a child. She couldn't eat well at home, so she always invited him and Yi Zhe to come to her house to eat. Compared with Yi Zhe's silence, Yi Xun's mouth is much sweeter, always "delicious" one bite at a time, and he eats as much as he wants like a bottomless pit. For Zhou Hui, who has always focused on the family, a child who can't lie is sure of his cooking skills, but he couldn't be happier.
Yi Xun came over and brought a lot of gifts, Xu Tangcheng glanced at it inadvertently, and was a little startled. He glanced at Yi Zhe and found that he was also looking at him.
Zhou Hui made a large table of dishes, and specially made the sweet and sour pork ribs that Yi Xun liked to eat when he was a child. When setting the table, he kept saying that there were more dishes today, so that he and Yi Zhe would both eat more. Xu Tangcheng went to the kitchen to prepare dishes and chopsticks. When he entered, he gave YiZhe who was sitting on the sofa a wink. YiZhe immediately stood up and followed him into the kitchen.
When no one was around, Xu Tangcheng asked in a low voice, "Why did Yi Xun buy such an expensive thing?"
He was really surprised when he saw those bags just now. Several things are of great value. Just by looking at the brand, it belongs to the kind that Xu Tangcheng would not usually read. Zhou Hui and Xu Yueliang didn't know about these brands. Although they kept saying that they didn't need to buy them, Yi Xun took it one by one with his heart.
Xu Tangcheng couldn't say anything about the situation at that time, but no matter how he thought about it, he felt it was inappropriate.
Yi Zhe didn't know how to explain it, but in fact, Yi Xun's food and clothing has always been this standard. But he didn't want to tell Xu Tangcheng this, because he also felt that Yi Xun's way of spending money was very strange. No matter what, he seems to only buy the most expensive. He accompanies him to the shopping mall. If Yi Xun likes something, he will just check out without asking the price.
"He probably just thinks... I haven't seen you for a long time, so I want to send some nice gifts." YiZhe lied against his heart.
Xu Tangcheng frowned while holding the chopsticks, wondering what he was thinking.
Seeing that he didn't speak anymore, YiZhe didn't want to continue talking about this issue. He took a stack of bowls and was about to go out, but Xu Tangcheng behind him stopped him again and asked, "Where have you been staying these two days? I don't think you live at home."
After pausing for a moment, after being silent, YiZhe said "um".
"At Xingkai."
Xingkai is their most high-end hotel, and the positioning of the hotel is not the kind for the public. When it comes to this matter, YiZhe still feels uncomfortable. He knew that Yi Xun should not want to live at home, so he had already picked a hotel. Who knows, Yi Xun and he sat there in a taxi, but they didn't get off the car. They just glanced through the car window and said that the place was too broken, and told the driver to go to the best hotel in the city.
Over the years, Xiangxi's way of raising Yi Zhe was to give him money every three months, and he didn't even bother to transfer money, so he just threw him a pile of cash. YiZhe's expenses were very small, only a small part of the money was used, and the rest was thrown into the cabinet.
In many things, the principle of Yizhe is actually terrifyingly strong. He wasn't really unaffordable for Xingkai's expenses, but he thought that it was totally unnecessary to spend so much money on Xiangxi Weed to stay in such a hotel.
The younger brother came to play with him, or the younger brother paid for the accommodation. Even if Yi Zhe didn't like the interpersonal style, he would still find it really embarrassing and awkward.
Xu Tangcheng realized that YiZhe didn't want to talk about these things, so he immediately changed the subject and ended the question about Yi Xun. He didn't really take it seriously at that time, he just thought that Yi Xun was coddled by his father and didn't know how to control his money.
Unexpectedly, in just a few days, he completely subverted the image of the little brother in his memory.