Xu Tangcheng finally realized his wish to take YiZhe for a ride with a small electric donkey.
Although the two big men were a little crowded together, YiZhe's gesture of embracing him blatantly made him feel that the size of this little electric donkey was just right.
Yi Zhe stayed in Sanya for a few days. In Xu Tangxi's words, the two of them were like conjoined babies, and they could not wait to go to the toilet together. Xu Tangcheng realized that it might have been confiscated, and he was a little presumptuous, but he did not deliberately make any changes - they hadn't seen each other for so long, even if they hugged each other every day, it wouldn't be too much.
The bed in Xu Tangcheng's room was a bit small, but at night they insisted on sleeping on the same bed.
Even after a few days, when Xu Tangcheng lay beside Yi Zhe, he still felt very unreal. He didn't fall asleep, squinted his eyes, and raised his hands to touch his arms and stomach from time to time.
YiZhe endured it for a while, but then he couldn't bear it any longer. He grabbed his hand that was moving around on his stomach, turned to his side, and whispered in his ear, "Stop touching it, I can't stand it anymore."
Xu Tangcheng closed his eyes and laughed, opened his eyes, and leaned closer to kiss him.
Next door are Zhou Hui and Xu Yueliang. In the few days after entering the hall, YiZhe didn't dare to do anything. He raised one leg, pressed Xu Tangcheng's leg under it, and restrained his wiggling arm with his arm.
Xu Tangcheng turned his arm over and squeezed the arm in front of him with his hand: "It's getting thicker."
"Exercise every day." YiZhe said, and raised his hand to let him feel the muscles on his arm.
After pinching it twice, Xu Tangcheng inevitably remembered that sentence again, giving him old age and dying.
It's getting late, I have to go to work tomorrow, and Xu Tangcheng has to go to bed early as usual. But today, he suddenly raised his hand, squeezed YiZhe's chin, and said, "Let's talk."
"Okay," YiZhe asked, lying flat, "what do you want to say?"
"Tell me about your stay in Antarctica?"
"It's nothing too special, it's just cold." YiZhe thought for a while, then said, "We went with the Americans, not at a Chinese scientific research station. We did a lot of psychological tests before we went, because It is allowed to carry guns there. Living in that kind of place for a long time can easily lead to mental instability. I am afraid that if someone has a mental abnormality, they will hold guns randomly. In fact, when I took the psychological test, I was very afraid that I would not pass, because too much I miss you, and I feel like I'm about to get sick, but fortunately, I passed the test in the end."
Xu Tangcheng listened carefully and shook YiZhe's hand.
Thanks a lot.
"Over there, you basically eat meat, and you can eat vegetables only one day a week, and the vegetables are airlifted from Ireland. I stayed there for a year, and my position is very close to the extreme. In all, it feels like this year. It's either polar day or polar night. It's normal in a few days. I saw the aurora in the polar night. It's very beautiful. I took a picture and I'll show it to you when I go back. But there is nothing good about the polar night except the aurora. Now, I can't see the sun all day, my biological clock is messed up, I don't know what time it is, it's really hard. My roommate and I have lost hair for a while, especially him, it's very serious. I thought the extreme day would be better, But it was actually very uncomfortable. At that time, I could basically feel the feeling of wanting to sleep but not being able to sleep. But our curtains are good and have good light-blocking properties,” YiZhe complained a little unhappily, "But when I left, I wanted to buy some curtains from them, but they didn't sell them to me."
Xu Tangcheng smiled: "Why do you buy other people's curtains?"
"Fit it for our house, it's better than the one I bought."
Xu Tangcheng listened, bent his legs, and swayed and laughed non-stop.
"I wonder if there is anything fun... Oh, yes, after the polar night, they are running naked."
"Running naked? In Antarctica?"
"Yes, I found that they are really not afraid of the cold. But there was an American who ran out for three minutes and didn't come back, so the search and rescue team rushed to search and rescue. That place would be cold after ten minutes of freezing... "
"Did you find it?"
"I found it. Oh, by the way, in the Antarctic, it is very easy to get lost, because the surrounding is white, there is no difference, and there is no direction. If you walk a little further, it is easy to find your way back."
Xu Tangcheng nodded in the darkness and asked worriedly, "Then you haven't run around, have you?"
"Me?" YiZhe was about to deny it, but when he thought of something, he lowered his voice guiltily, "Once..."
"Um?"
"But there's a reason for that. My mother..." YiZhe was silent for a moment, then said, "She passed away."
Weed to the west
Xu Tangcheng turned his head in surprise. He couldn't see YiZhe's face, but he could roughly see that he was looking up at the ceiling.
"how come?"
"I fell ill but died. I passed away last year. At that time, I couldn't accept it, so I was in a bad mood and went out once without saying hello. But I went back by myself."
After he finished speaking, the two did not speak for a while.
"You know what? I suddenly... like her a little bit. But it's too late."
Xu Tangcheng turned sideways wordlessly, put a hand on YiZhe's chest, and patted it.
"In the past two years, I want to understand one thing. I used to think she was bitter, mean, and didn't love anyone, but then I suddenly thought that she was not like that from the beginning." YiZhe paused, " If she had been a person who lived only for herself from the beginning, she would not have gotten married, and there would have been no Yi Xun and I. So I think, before, she should have been a completely different person from later."
Maybe simple, maybe affectionate.
"Um."
On closer inspection, no one's past is wasted in vain, but if this person doesn't become your concern, you will never appreciate his troubles.
"So I thought, it would be better if she met Duan Xiqiao at the beginning."
At this moment, when Xu Tangcheng heard these words, he realized the change in Yi Zhe more clearly. - He is still that simple and brave boy, but he is accepting the world, whether it is good or bad, full or regretful.
The silent night couldn't hide YiZhe's feelings, nor Xu Tangcheng's. He stretched his neck and kissed YiZhe's jawbone, and YiZhe quickly shared the kiss with him.
"Tang Cheng."
After chatting a lot, when he was about to fall asleep, YiZhe suddenly called out to him.
"Um?"
"In the past two years, do you miss me?"
Xu Tangcheng squinted his eyes and was about to fall asleep. Hearing this, he suddenly woke up again.
A word brought him back to the busy two years. He opened his eyes, leaned his head close to Yizhe's shoulder, and thought seriously about the answer to this question.
"I also understand one thing."
"What's up?"
Xu Tangcheng stared blankly at the smallpox for a while, and said, "It doesn't have to be a happy ending to make people full of expectations."
YiZhe tried his best to understand, but still felt that Xu Tangcheng was embarrassing him. He rolled over and suppressed Xu Tangcheng, looked into his eyes in the dark, and said, "I don't understand."
"You don't understand?" Xu Tangcheng propped up his head with his neck, and pushed his head against Yizhe's forehead, laughing, "Stupid."
YiZhe didn't mind when he said he was stupid, but he immediately put his hand under his back and pulled his entire upper body into his arms, threatening: "Come on, what do you mean?"
"Meaning..." Xu Tangcheng smiled and tugged YiZhe's hair with his hand, explaining, "It's people who make people look forward to it."
Yi Zhe then quietly understood again, he took apart these words one by one, put them together again, and finally kissed Xu Tangcheng fiercely.
"I still don't understand it. But, just pretend I have no culture. If I don't understand these profound things, I will have a happy ending."
Xu Tangcheng was stunned for a moment, then smiled.
Um.
I don't know if this is a distraction, YiZhe lay back, and after a while, he remembered: "No, you haven't said whether you want me or not."
Xu Tangcheng was confused and said, "Didn't you just answer?"
"No."
"say it."
"I didn't say it."
"say it."
YiZhe remembered the incomprehensible sentence, and felt a little depressed: "That doesn't count..."
"Forget it..."
Yi Zhe thought about the question for a night, but in the end he didn't get the answer he wanted. Xu Tangcheng fell asleep first, and Yi Zhe gently kissed his forehead and whispered, "Anyway, I miss you every day."
I ate too much fruit during the day, and drank several cups of flower and fruit tea made by Xu Tangxi. In the middle of the night, Yi Zhe woke up unexpectedly and wanted to go to the toilet very much. But they slept late, Xu Tangcheng had to go to work again in the morning, Yi Zhe was afraid that he would wake up Xu Tangcheng, he couldn't sleep well, so he froze and didn't dare to move, trying to let himself sleep again.
But this is not something that can be held back, YiZhe lay on the bed in despair for a quarter of an hour, still stretched out, crept up, bowed his waist, and got out of bed with his arms blown, like a The cat that stole from the kitchen.
He didn't wear slippers and went to the toilet inside the house on his toes, but after finishing the solution, he found that Xu Tangcheng was turning over on the bed.
Startled, he climbed into bed quickly and with equal care. Seeing that Xu Tangcheng had opened his eyes, he quickly took the person into his arms and coaxed in a low voice, "Wake you up? I went to the toilet. It's still early, go to sleep."
Xu Tangcheng didn't say anything, but YiZhe saw that he closed his eyes, and closed them too.
Just when he was about to fall asleep, YiZhe suddenly heard a voice saying, "I woke up just now and found that the side is empty."
Yi Zhe opened his eyes immediately, only to realize that Xu Tangcheng had completely woken up at some point. He was leaning on his shoulder, opened the curtain with one hand, and looked at the moon outside the window.
Moonlight ran in and stopped in his face. In such a quiet scene, YiZhe suddenly felt as if he had seen Xu Tangcheng who had been alone for the past two years.
"Actually, I also thought about it."
As YiZhe gradually tightened his arms, Xu Tangcheng said this.
The seemingly endless sentence, but YiZhe quickly understood that he was answering the question he had been investigating before going to bed.
"Even if you deliberately fill up your time, deliberately make yourself too busy to have time, sometimes you still can't arrange it in time, and you can't control yourself."
Since they met again, Xu Tangcheng has been warm and smiling. He didn't mention how he had lived in the past two years, nor how much he suffered because of a person named "Yizhe". He didn't even say a word when I asked YiZhe just now, I miss you, miss you Can't stand it.
But at this moment, his voice was quiet, and suddenly he lost his usual strength, revealing the weakness that he couldn't resist.
"When?" YiZhe felt distressed, put his arms around him, and asked softly.
Xu Tangcheng lowered the curtains, and the room returned to darkness, as if one after another were similar to midnight, trapped by people who had accidentally woken up from their dreams.
"It's like now, sometimes, I fell asleep at night and suddenly woke up. The first second, the second second, I was still awake and didn't know anything, but in the third second, my eyes were not fully open. When I open it, I will think of the same... one thing. Even when I woke up just now, I was still thinking about it."
He had a premonition that he might finally hear the answer he wanted, but Yizhe suddenly didn't want to hear it, because Xu Tangcheng was so lonely when he said this, like a kid in a kindergarten who suddenly couldn't find a game partner.
Yi Zhe couldn't help lowering his head, pressed his nose to Xu Tangcheng's profile, and asked, "What are you thinking?"
"think… "
Xu Tangcheng stared blankly at the darkness in front of him. After a while, he slowly said, "I think...Yizhe is so far away."
————
After finishing the last chapter on the train going south, I felt a little emotional.
I want to say something to the characters in the text, I'm sorry I couldn't give you a fairy tale world, I can't do it, and then it's up to you. Please be happy.
sideshow
Yi Zhelai didn't leave in Hainan, and half a month later, he was forced back to Beijing by his tutor on the grounds that he was going to report. He thought he was just giving a report to a few teachers related to this topic, but he didn't think so. The teacher told him that this time he was going to hold a popular science lecture for colleges and universities and the aerospace system. YiZhe's first reaction was to refuse, but after thinking about it, he quickly nodded.
In the evening, I told Xu Tangcheng about it, and Xu Tangcheng was a little surprised on the other end of the phone: "You don't like doing this kind of thing, right?"
YiZhe was talking in front of hundreds of people. This was a scene that Xu Tangcheng could never imagine.
"Well..." After a little pondering, Yi Zhe said, "It's not a bad thing, you can try it if you don't like it."
Xu Tangcheng suddenly realized the complicated feeling of watching a child grow up. In fact, he never expected YiZhe to become mature and stable. He always felt that this person was just right in the past and the way he is now, whether he is not good at words or dislikes crowds, there is no need to deliberately adapt to anything. Change. After all, no one can live like a superman, and when he loves this person, he feels that it is also lovely to be short.
Xu Tangcheng needed to stay in Hainan to finish his current work, but after learning that the lecture was on Monday, he immediately booked a flight ticket back to Beijing for the previous weekend.
It was a surprise. He didn't tell YiZhe. After getting off the plane, he secretly went to the school and arrived at the door of YiZhe's laboratory.
Yizhe's seat was chosen by himself, in the corner by the window. Standing at the door and looking for him with his eyes, Xu Tangcheng suddenly realized that they had been together for so long, but he didn't have any impression of what YiZhe looked like in the laboratory - because every time he left, he always came to YiZhe. Wait at the door of his laboratory.
Thinking like this, Xu Tangcheng stopped and didn't move, wanting to look at it carefully for a while.
YiZhe has the same habit as him. He wears headphones to his ears. He doesn't know if the headphones are still playing the "more irritable" music.
The people outside the house were thinking wildly, and the people in the house suddenly raised their heads for no apparent reason. Xu Tangcheng quickly retracted his body and went behind the wall. After a minute, he stuck his head out again and glanced at it.
Xu Tangcheng didn't have any idea on how to appear in order to achieve the effect of surprise. YiZhe sat facing the door and quietly sneaked behind him. The plan was unrealistic. This was a laboratory with many people, and he couldn't make any big noises. So when he had enough sneak peeks, Xu Tangcheng took out his phone. .
"Easy."
A few seconds after the message was sent, YiZhe had already returned.
"Um?"
Xu Tangcheng showed half of his body and looked at the man who was holding the phone with his head down.
"You look up."
If there is a scene in the world that Xu Tangcheng feels most worthwhile, it should be that in a very short moment, the expression on Yi Zhe's face changed from calm to excited. His eyes will light up all of a sudden, and his mouth will not laugh immediately, but move twice in a disorderly manner, and then spread his mood at this time to both sides.
YiZhe strode towards him, the earphones that had been torn off were still tangled up in a ball, and were held indiscriminately in his hands.
"Why did you come back? Why didn't you tell me?"
Someone passed by in the corridor, YiZhe gradually lowered his voice when he spoke, but he couldn't suppress the rush of joy.
"Come back and listen to Dr. Yi's lecture," Xu Tangcheng took the earphone in his hand, straightened the line, circled the ground again, and slowly wrapped it between his fingers, "What's going on? I think tonight or tomorrow, I'll take you to get dressed up."
"Formal wear?"
"Well," Xu Tangcheng smiled and handed him the headphone cord wrapped in a circle, "Isn't it going to be a lecture?"
Although I have never seen Yi Zhe in a suit, just thinking about it, Xu Tang's achievements are enough to look forward to. YiZhe's skeleton is bigger than his, Xu Tangcheng thought, just like that watch, YiZhe should be a little more heroic than himself when he wears a suit.
Facts have proved that Xu Tangcheng's conjecture is not wrong. YiZhe came out of the fitting room after changing his clothes, and Xu Tangcheng stopped there with his hand holding the clothes.
"What?" It was the first time that YiZhe put on such serious clothes, and he felt uncomfortable. Seeing Xu Tangcheng standing there in a daze, he quickly asked, "Doesn't it look good?"
"No. Yes..." Xu Tangcheng shook his head quickly, but his next praise was delayed by two seconds because he couldn't find a very suitable word, "It's a little too good-looking."
The result of "a little too good-looking" is that Xu Tangcheng bought a more refined outfit for Yi Zhe at a price that was double the budget. When paying, YiZhe frowned and muttered that it was too expensive.
"You will often wear it in the future. You will soon be looking for a job. You will need to wear it for an interview. Many of your classmates are already married, so you can wear it for weddings in the future." Speaking of this, Xu Tangcheng stopped abruptly, I thought to myself that it would not be good if I stole the groom's limelight.
He thought so and laughed.
"What are you laughing at?"
"Just wanted to..."
Perhaps because of the involvement of a certain keyword, an idea suddenly popped into Xu Tangcheng's mind when he met YiZhe's gaze.
"Please sign here." A gentle female voice interrupted Xu Tangcheng's hesitation, he replied, and when he lowered his head to sign, he still remembered the thought just now.
Xu Tangcheng has not returned to their rental house for two years. Two years ago, when he found the landlord before leaving and said that he would renew the lease for three years, the aunt replied with some humor: "I won't let you live, why are you in such a hurry?"
How can you not hurry
After so long, Xu Tangcheng can still remember the anxiety he felt before he left. He really didn't know what to do to make YiZhe's two years go smoothly. He left a video letter and continued Years of rent, exchange of bank cards with him, this one thing that comes to mind is just a drop in the bucket in his opinion.
Good thing…
The door opened, but nothing inside had changed.
YiZhe took Xu Tangcheng's slippers out of the shoe cabinet and put them on the ground. Xu Tangcheng stepped on the slippers and glanced down again: "The slippers are a bit old, so I'll buy new ones another day."
"it is good."
After a long time of tossing on the plane, he went shopping and eating non-stop. He didn't feel anything when he had something to do. After taking a shower and letting go of his energy, Xu Tangcheng felt sore all over his body and completely lost his strength. He wiped his hair a few times with a towel, then lay down on the edge of the bed with his head in the air. In a daze, he closed his eyes while holding the wet towel.
After an unknown amount of time, he felt something dry and soft covering his head, Xu Tangcheng opened his eyes and saw YiZhe sitting next to him.
"Why did you fall asleep like this?" YiZhe took the towel from Xu Tangcheng's hand, and sure enough, the newly changed pajamas were soaked in a large area.
"Tired and tired."
Hearing this, YiZhe got up and plugged the hair dryer on the head of the bed: "Then you have to blow your hair, I'll blow it for you."
Xu Tangcheng half-closed his eyes, laughed, then rolled twice towards the head of the bed and sat up cross-legged.
There was a hard object beside the pillow, Xu Tangcheng touched it, and when he touched it, he found that it was their camera.
"Why did you throw the camera here?"
"Sometimes I want to watch it before going to bed." YiZhe said softly, standing aside holding the hair dryer.
Xu Tangcheng turned on the machine and broadcast the picture on his own video letter.
"Have you seen this?"
Originally, many words should be said face to face to be more sincere. But at that time, Xu Tangcheng's heart was not much calmer than Yizhe's. He didn't think that if he faced Yizhe, he could restrain his emotions and express what he wanted to say clearly, so he wrote the manuscript in advance and recorded the video.
"I saw it. But I saw it too late. When I came back from the Antarctic, we were having a party. I heard someone sing "The Favorite of My Life" and turned to the camera before I saw the video you left for me." YiZhe paused. "If I had seen it earlier, I would have flown over to find you without delay."
After he finished speaking, he pushed the switch of the hair dryer. In the midst of the loud noise, Yi Zhe thought again, but if he flew to Hainan after returning from Antarctica, he still didn't know what Xu Tangcheng was humming to him. Ecuadorian birthday song.
"Brother Tang Cheng..." After slowly drying Xu Tangcheng's hair, Yi Zhe suddenly called out this very cleverly. Xu Tangcheng was still shaking his head because of Yizhe's words just now, and when he heard the call, he looked up at him dully.
A pair of burning eyes stared at him, and the owner of the eyes raised the corner of his mouth slightly and asked, "Have you lied to me yet?"
Xu Tangcheng was taken aback for a moment, and immediately denied: "No."
YiZhe didn't continue talking, but put down the hair dryer and took the camera from Xu Tangcheng's hand. After pressing a few times, he handed the camera back to Xu Tangcheng and said, "You lied."
Xu Tangcheng looked at the picture displayed by the camera in his head full of doubts, and found that it was the scene where he was cooking for his birthday at Yizhe's house.
"Remember?"
What do you remember
Xu Tangcheng blinked and shook his head.
YiZhe thought about it carefully, then turned off the camera: "That's it."
Xu Tangcheng didn't know when Yizhe had learned this trick, until Yizhe cleaned up and went to turn off the lights, Xu Tangcheng still sat on the bed and kept urging him to tell him quickly. Yi Zhe pursed his lips and couldn't hold back his smile. After turning off the lights, he hugged Xu Tangcheng and lay down, saying, "Go to sleep."
"I found out that you have grown up after not seeing you for two years, huh?" Xu Tangcheng turned his head away, avoided kissing, and squeezed his face with one hand and threatened, "You talk first, and then kiss."
YiZhe smiled lowly and surrendered: "Noodles, do you remember?"
The refrigerator at home in City C used to be the storage place for quick-frozen dumplings. But before going to Antarctica, he found a bag of noodles that had been frozen for some time.
When I was young, I didn't know how much noodles the two of them should buy, and I didn't know that the bag of noodles would be terrifying if they were all boiled. It was also because I was young, so I was unequivocal when speaking of rhetoric.
He once swore to the camera that he would eat all the noodles cooked by Xu Tangcheng. And Xu Tangcheng was smiling at the camera at that time, he didn't refute him, he didn't question him, he just hid half a bag secretly, indulging his childish vows.
Xu Tang's achievements are like this, he does everything silently, even loves him. If it weren't for chance, too much love would always be hidden in their ordinary past. Even now, YiZhe knew that there must be so much that he didn't know before.
Zheng Yikun once asked Yi Zhe why he liked Xu Tangcheng. YiZhe didn't think about this question at all, and didn't want to answer it at all. At that time, he was squatting in front of the refrigerator with the half bag of noodles in his hands. He was attacked by the cold air. I like Xu Tangcheng.
He fell in love with Xu Tangcheng, but others could only have a relationship with Xu Tangcheng. Just thinking about it, Yi Zhe felt that his life was too good.
Both of them were lying on the bed, their thoughts were going around in circles, but Xu Tangcheng thought differently from YiZhe. The noodle thing was not special to him, but he couldn't help but delve into the other thing.
"Easy."
"Um?"
Xu Tangcheng lay on his side and put one hand on YiZhe's arm: "Did you see that video after returning from Antarctica? It's the one I left for you."
"Um."
The duvet is light and weightless. Lying under it, the warm feeling is as real as it is without a quilt. Xu Tangcheng couldn't help but leaned over to YiZhe's side. Feeling his movement, YiZhe immediately turned around and put his arms around his waist.
"cold?"
Xu Tangcheng shook his head, rubbing his ear against the pillow, making a sticky sound.
"No. Just thinking, you saw that video after you came back..." In the darkness, Xu Tangcheng couldn't see Yi Zhe's eyes, so he raised his hand and touched it. YiZhe's eyelashes flickered twice, and then he closed his eyes under his fingers.
"How did the two years go?"
Did not hear him say "I love you", did not hear him say "wait for me to come back", how did it go
Xu Tangcheng thought that he really left Yi Zhe with a sense of security, but it turned out that he had survived for two years.
There was a kind of staggered harmony this evening, just as Xu Tangcheng didn't care about the half-bag of noodles, YiZhe didn't care about it either.
"I'm thinking of what you've been through." He kissed Xu Tangcheng and said, "And, no matter how you passed, haven't you already come over?"
When he was about to be unable to resist the sleepiness, a hand patted his waist lightly, and the voice that Xu Tangcheng heard was right in his ear.
"Go to sleep."
"Yizhe." Very stubborn, Xu Tangcheng opened his eyelids again, "Do you want a wedding?"
That suit looks so good on Yi Zhe, so that it can be worn for lectures, interviews, and other people's weddings...
That... In fact, you can also wear it to your own wedding.
"wedding?"
"Yeah." Xu Tangcheng was so sleepy that he finally closed his eyes, describing what he had been thinking about all night, "You are about to graduate, and the project in Sanya is almost over by then, I will change it when I return to Beijing. I have a job, so I can quit my job first and give myself a vacation. Let's go out with the two of us, find a beautiful place, have a wedding... preferably the seaside... You don't like crowds, and I don't like it either, we don't have to. Guests are invited, but the venue must be well arranged and the host must be formal…”
The picture that appeared in front of YiZhe was so beautiful that he stared blankly at the empty darkness and forgot to answer.
"I think you should like it."
Xu Tangcheng has no obsession with the wedding, whether it is Chinese or Western, in his view, it is just a ceremony looking forward to the eternal knot, but the real eternal knot has nothing to do with this ceremony.
But he thought, a person who will be thinking about going to the blue harbor with him to see the sea of lights should like such a ceremony—
They will solemnly say an oath, and then no matter whether they are poor, rich, healthy or sick, they will never see the same back as when they were separated.