"The confession is to confirm the result that I expected."
Cheng Yan couldn't remember how he got out of that building. I only know that I know that after the person came in, I ran away.
There was a mess in his mind, and the sounds around him seemed to have been amplified several times and mixed into his thoughts, making a mess.
I don't know when it snowed outside the hotel, and it danced silently in the air, quietly reflecting the surrounding scene.
Cheng Yan ran not far, and it felt as if the nerves were so tense from just now that his body felt a kind of pulling pain from the inside to the outside.
Roughly away from the space that people wanted to escape, the surroundings gradually became quiet, and then he could clearly hear the whistle on the street and the footsteps following him.
He blinked his eyes, as if he didn't have time to react.
But the feeling of the other party touching his sleeve is so real. He heard the other person ask him, "Cheng Yan, is everything that person just said true?"
"Yes," Cheng Yan clenched his fists with both hands, and his body trembled slightly, as if he had exhausted all his strength.
Then, without waiting for the other party to speak, he continued: "Yes, I like you, you heard it right, it's not my colleague's liking, nor my friend's liking, but..."
He sighed, paused and said, "It's like the kind of love between a man and a woman, but..."
Cheng Yan's eyes blushed suddenly. He had been tangled in his mind and imagined the question and answer countless times. It seemed that in the few seconds of this short pause, it was repeated back and forth in his mind several times, and then he opened his mouth.
"But, I didn't think about asking you to respond to me, maybe," his words seemed a little confused, "No, it's not right to say that I didn't expect it at all, but this road is too difficult to walk, I didn't think about it. you are the same with me."
"I..." The explanation was clearly prepared, but when I said it, it was like a stick in my throat: "I am willing to treat you and Xiaoman. You really don't need to think about it, really."
"I'm obviously, I really just want to watch you from a distance and see that you can live well." He shook his head and said.
He knows that he has naturally thought about it for so long. Even if he gives himself the answer of denial and denial over and over again, to say that he does not have the expectation of 1% or 1/1,000, 1/10,000, that is Self-deception.
But so what? Huo Sheng is not, he is different from himself.
Silence permeated between the two, and the snowflakes seemed to stop in the air.
Cheng Yan lowered his head and looked at the little water spots on the ground. After all, he couldn't wait for the answer from the person on the other side.
Whether it is the one that I hoped for in my heart, or the one I expected to disappoint. Huo Sheng didn't answer, and Cheng Yan didn't know whether he should be lucky or...
Still desperate, but no matter what, as far as he is now, he just wants to get out of here.
If you leave here, you may find that all this is just a dream.
Yes, yes.
But why does it hurt so much.
After returning home that day, Cheng Yan was like a snail, shrinking into his shell and unwilling to contact anyone.
For three consecutive days, the only time he touched his mobile phone was to send an email to the company, requesting that his annual leave be cleared together, for a total of ten days.
Counting New Year's Day, you can hide for thirteen days.
Cheng Yan believes that he is not someone who is unwilling to face things, and even most of the time, he will choose to face it early and solve it early. But in this case, he couldn't do it.
Why, because he asked himself countless times.
Want to give up? think. Are you willing? unwilling.
He sat on the sofa with his legs curled up, watching the entertainment programs on TV, accompanied by the laughter, occasionally twitching the corners of his mouth.
In the afternoon, most of the time was difficult to kill. Cheng Yan watched it for two hours, and really felt that it was boring, so he hugged the book and moved a small reclining chair, sat beside the bed, and read a book with the snow scene.
The temperature has dropped a lot in the past few days, and the heavy snow has not stopped.
The small water spots that melted on the ground before were slowly covered with snow.
Although he didn't contact anyone, Cheng Yan still carried his mobile phone with him and didn't dare to leave it anywhere else.
It's just that the person's contact has never come, and some are only occasionally concerned by Miao Yu, and asked Liang Chen where he went, but he did not reply to either of them.
When the phone is used for a long time, the battery is not good.
Cheng Yan glanced at the phone whose screen went completely black, and pulled the data cable to charge it.
It took about a few minutes for the screen to light up slowly, and two messages popped up the moment it turned on.
He glanced that the contact was Miao Yu, he wanted to put it aside, but for the time being.
But unexpectedly, when he unlocked it, the preview of the information displayed made him catch the word 'rumor'.
The screen swipes from the bottom and the information expands.
Miao Yu said: [Cheng Yan, why didn't you reply to the news? I only heard about the rumors you said the other day, that is, what may be a little bad for you, are you sure you want to listen?]
The last two messages were separated by a little time, but not long, only twenty minutes.
[Hey, forget it, you don't answer me, I'll tell you directly. I don't even know who spread the rumors, but I said that you and Brother Sheng are very close, so Brother Sheng will open the back door for you.]
[The other thing is... There is another way of saying that your relationship with Brother Sheng is a bit, uh... ambiguous? How can I say it, I won't repeat it to you as far as what they said is not very pleasant. But I think these are all rumors, don't take it to heart.]
Seeing these two pieces of information, Cheng Yan suddenly recalled what Huo Sheng said that day, 'a good relationship is a fact, let them say it, I won't listen to other rumors, after all, it's not true, you don't need to Care', he couldn't help but smile.
Maybe that person didn't expect that these feelings of his are all true, and the rumors outside are all things that he hoped to become 'facts' by luck.
So, Huo Sheng's answer is obvious.
I don't know why, suddenly the things hanging in my heart seemed to fall to the ground, a little disappointed and relieved.
He thought for a while, and finally replied to Miao Yu: [Understood, I have nothing to do, I just want to rest and go back when the holiday is over.]
Miao Yu came back after two seconds: [Okay, I heard that there will be team adjustment after the year, but I have already asked Brother Sheng, and he said that we are still in the same group, don't worry.]
[By the way, you... don't presume in front of the minister... ] Cheng Yan typed these words quickly, and after a few seconds, he thought about it with his head lowered, and then deleted all of them.
Think, forget it.
But all things, obviously should be like this, and this is the end, and they will all be colleagues in the future.
He never expected that after a few days, Miao Yu brought a piece of news that he couldn't believe.
She said: [Cheng Yan, do you know that Brother Sheng is going to resign? ? ? Said to leave after New Year's Day.]
And Cheng Yan, the moment he saw the news, was stunned, as if he was fixed in place by a nail.
It wasn't until after a long time, when he couldn't even figure out when his body regained consciousness, he subconsciously opened the door of the house and rushed out, completely ignoring the heavy snow outside, more than that day. Also cold.
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