"I would also think, and I would also be afraid. I was afraid that if it was over, I would really lose you completely, but standing on the edge of a cliff, I have no second choice, as you said, rather than seeing you forever , I choose to gamble."
From the moment he heard the other party's words, Cheng Yan felt like he was floating, floating in the air, unable to step on the ground.
I was excited at first, but it didn't take long for someone to go upstairs, my mind calmed down a little, and there was a trace of unease in those emotions.
He was not afraid that Huo Sheng was impulsive or repented. After all, with his understanding of Huo Sheng, since this person could say it, he was naturally serious. It's just that he was afraid that he would be foolish or have hallucinations.
But if there is an auditory hallucination, why would Huo Sheng let him wait here? When he picks up the things, they will pick up Huo Xiaoman together. He looks at the pedestrians in the hall, holding the steaming convenience store Coffee, thought silently.
This coffee is hot, it's definitely not a dream.
"Hey." Cheng Yan stared at it for a while, then sighed, wondering if he could find someone to confirm it again, but he didn't know how to ask.
"What are you thinking?" Huo Sheng suddenly appeared behind him and asked.
"Ah? Nothing." Cheng Yan heard the sound, shook his head quickly, looked at the time on his phone again, and said, "Are you going to pick up Xiaoman so early?"
"Well," Huo Sheng smiled slightly and said, "Let's get in the car first." Then he led people to the parking lot.
The parking lot is underground, which is a little warmer than the upstairs front-facing lobby.
As soon as the elevator door opened, Cheng Yan didn't feel so cold, and his arms that were originally close to his sides stretched out slightly.
The coffee was steaming hot in his hand, he held it for a while, thought about it and didn't drink it.
Unexpectedly, when he got into the car, Huo Sheng took the cup in his hand naturally, put it on the middle shelf, and then took out a gray-black coat from the back seat of the car and put it in him. : "You cover it first, and you will put it on when you get off the bus later."
After he finished speaking, he asked him with a smile, "Why didn't you drink it when you held it in your hand? Is it because you don't like coffee?"
"No, it's not." Cheng Yan whispered, he just didn't think that Huo Sheng handed it directly to him, not to warm his hands, but to let him drink.
"Let's have a drink soon. I just drove when I entered the building. I haven't had one yet, so you don't need to be embarrassed." Huo Sheng laughed when he saw this, then started the car and turned up the air conditioner twice. , exit the parking lot.
Cheng Yan then blushed, quietly picked it up, took a sip, and felt a little warm.
The side glass of the car window became foggy shortly after it came into contact with the outside air. Cheng Yan couldn't see the outside, so he scratched the glass twice and wiped out a small piece of transparency.
Huo Sheng held the steering wheel and turned right. Seeing his small gesture, he laughed out loud.
Hearing the laughter, Cheng Yan glanced at the other party a little embarrassedly. After waiting for a while, no one said a word, and seeing that the car was about to drive near the kindergarten, I thought about it and said it myself.
He said, "What you... said today, is it true?"
"Huh?" Huo Sheng raised the corner of his mouth and glanced at him as he continued to speak.
Cheng Yan explained: "I just feel a little, um... a little too sudden. I didn't expect you to think of being together, and I didn't expect to resign for this."
"Resignation is something that I have thought about for a long time, not only because of this." Huo Sheng confessed, "It is indeed after consideration that there is a certain element, but it is not the main reason. I have told you before that there is consideration for independence. matter."
After he said that, he smiled twice, "It's just that with you, I originally wanted to wait until everything was settled, and then I'd talk to you after you've figured it out. Today is indeed a bit sudden, but now that I think about it, It's good too."
"Well, I'm just a little surprised." Seeing that no one was hiding anything, Cheng Yan also tried to say: "In fact, what I said that day was true, I knew that my path was not easy to walk, so... So before, I did never thought about… "
To be together, he hesitated for a moment, but swallowed the second half of his words.
In fact, this is also true, but saying it makes people think too much, as if others are self-indulgent. But at the end of the day, he didn't want Huo Sheng to easily decide to take this road and regret it later. After all, he is different from himself, it's not that he can't like the opposite sex, and there is also Huo Xiaoman.
What's more, if after being together, because of these problems, and then separated, can we still be friends
The problem was in front of him, but he didn't know how to talk to the other party.
After driving aside for a while, the car slowly entered the roadside parking area next to the kindergarten, but stopped but did not turn off the engine.
Huo Sheng glanced at the time in the car, there was still a while before Huo Xiaoman got out of school, he turned around, looked at the other person and said, "I know what you think, although I didn't think about it before, you would treat me like this. This kind of feeling, but after knowing it, I have also thought about this issue carefully and seriously in the past few days."
"If I hadn't become friends at the beginning, or didn't know about these things, I wouldn't have thought about it that much." Huo Sheng said, bowing his head and smiling, "But now that I know, I can't pretend that I don't know everything. Let you stay by my side like this as a friend and enjoy the kindness you treat me."
"Actually, it doesn't matter. I also said that it's all my own volition. You don't have to worry so much. There are too many things to face, and it's too... ," Cheng Yan took a deep breath and whispered, "Maybe you can't understand it for a while. , because you've never entered the circle..."
For a moment, Cheng Yan suddenly thought of Liu Rong's verbal attacks on him, those words, and the tone and eyes of people around them when they talked about these topics.
"But I know, I don't want to either..." He continued: "I don't want Xiaoman to her later..."
"Yes," the words were suddenly interrupted, Huo Sheng took his hand, squeezed it, and said with a smile: "It is true that there may be many problems in the future, but... how should I put it, these are not your fault in the first place, There's no need to change my mind for prejudice. What's more, if I knew it like this, it would be unfair to be friends with you as if I didn't know. I don't want to hurt you, and I don't want to know your feelings clearly, but No response."
"Of course," he continued without waiting for the other party to speak: "If you refuse directly, there will be no such problems. I also... I don't understand, so I have been completely no longer in contact with you these days. At the time, I was thinking, which of the two would I prefer to choose for myself.”
"As a result, hey, I was also quite surprised. I found that I might... miss you quite a bit." He smiled and said, "So I thought about it, I want to try it. Everything has a beginning, and I know it. Impossible."
Cheng Yan was very surprised when he heard these words, his eyes were full of disbelief, but he couldn't say a word.
"However," before he could speak, Huo Sheng said again, "If you don't want to, I won't force it. That being said, I am indeed a little reckless today, and I didn't ask you in detail what you think. If you..."
No, I really never wanted to, Cheng Yan replied in a low voice immediately in his heart, but...
It is indeed as the other party said, and regardless of whether he has not considered the issue of fairness and injustice, it is impossible for the other party to no longer be with other people. At that time, can he let go, or Stay by each other's side without a trace of superfluous feelings? Don't think about it, there's a high probability that you can't, and then you will eventually return to a stranger.
If so, he thought, why not try it. Since we're not together, we'll never see each other again, so it's better not to imagine the worst possible outcomes, just give it a try. If it really can go on like this... Really...
so…
"I'm willing." Cheng Yan looked at the other party's eyes and finally said, "I'm willing, although there are many things I can't do well, I still want to be with you."
"I'm very happy, really," he said, "very happy."
Huo Sheng looked at the reddened ears of the person in front of him, and glanced to the side, and couldn't help thinking that he really didn't make a mistake. He smiled gently, raised his hand and stroked the other person's hair, and then somehow, an inexplicable impulse drove him to hug the other person, and he couldn't help but want to really feel the current relationship.
Unexpectedly, at this moment, the car window was gently buckled twice, making a sound.
Huo Sheng stopped when he heard it, and Cheng Yan, who was immersed in the atmosphere at the time, was also surprised and turned his head quickly.
Immediately, I saw the chubby girl in the teacher's arms, with one hand on the cold car window glass, grinning like this, and shouting 'brother' inside with a smile. '
Cheng Yan was instantly amused and laughed, while Huo Sheng glanced at it, then shook his head and sighed, thinking, sure enough, the other party thought more comprehensively.
No, the problem will come soon.