"As long as you want, I will always be with you."
Huo Sheng had mentioned to Cheng Yan that he had something to do on the fourth day of the new year, but Cheng Yan thought it might be work or a family matter, but he never thought that this day would be Xiaoman's mother's death anniversary.
In the early morning of the fourth day of the new year, there were not many people on the street. When I went downstairs, there was still a thin layer of ice on the car.
The cemetery where Xiaoman's mother is located is located on the outskirts of the city. After waking up in the morning, Cheng Yan put on a darker sweater and went out with Huo Sheng.
Although Cheng Yan doesn't care about Huo Sheng's past, or in other words, he is completely willing to accept everything about Huo Sheng, but because he has experienced his father's affairs, he will feel unexpectedly heavy about the death of his family. Therefore, along the way, he was watching Huo Sheng's emotions without restraint, afraid that Huo Sheng would remember something and feel sad.
But Huo Sheng may be really stronger than him. After all, if he remembers correctly, Huo Sheng seems to have said that Xiaoman's mother died two years ago. If this is on him, He probably hasn't been able to get out of it yet.
But the people in front of him were not like him. Whether it was buying flowers, sweeping graves, or going down the mountain, Huo Sheng only looked a little more serious than usual, but he did not show any sadness. Cheng Yan was so confused, but he couldn't speak.
He didn't ask, but Huo Sheng seemed to have thought about it early in the morning.
Not long after the two returned home, Huo Sheng spoke ahead of him and said, "Would you like to see Xiaoman's photos when he was a child?"
"Huh?" Cheng Yan was a little surprised, and paused: "Well, okay."
Seeing his answer, Huo Sheng got up and went to the study to get a heavy album.
Cheng Yan sat on the sofa, took it and spread it out on his lap. Then, just like the expectations that he quickly thought about in his mind in these few seconds, he saw the woman he had seen in the photo.
The woman's appearance is the same as the one in the photo. She looks three-point similar to Huo Xiaoman, with the same high ponytail, and Xiaoman, who is holding the baby, smiles happily.
Looking at such a person, he couldn't hold back, and gently rubbed the edge of the photo with his fingertips.
He turned the page gently, looked at the photos after that, and tried to find other group photos, but what surprised him was that, except for the first few photos of Xiaoman and her mother, most of them were Xiaoman's personal photos, not even a few photos of Huo Sheng and Xiaoman.
Cheng Yan couldn't help but be full of doubts, but he didn't dare to ask him. He just left the photo on that page and didn't turn it over.
But Huo Sheng seemed to have guessed what he was thinking early on, and asked his question directly.
Then, when he looked at each other, the man twitched the corners of his mouth slightly and explained to him softly: "I took those photos, and when I found out that there were almost no group photos left, Xiaoman had already When I grow up, it's not the same as before."
"Then..." Cheng Yan asked hesitantly, "why..."
"Did you want to ask," Huo Sheng said, "why are there no photos of Xiaoman's mother on the back except for the first page. Most of them are only Xiaoman, or I appear occasionally."
"Yeah." Cheng Yan nodded, but the next second, he didn't wait for the other party's answer but thought of something, and suddenly said, "Actually, you don't need to tell me, I actually don't care about it. "
Hearing this sentence, Huo Sheng was stunned for a moment, and when he saw Cheng Yan staring at him in such a daze, he turned around and pulled the corner of his mouth, took the other's hand from the sofa, and shook his hand. He stopped and said, "No, whether you care or not, I think you should tell you."
"Before," Huo Sheng continued, "I wanted to tell you before, but I didn't find the right opportunity."
"Well." Cheng Yan replied in a low voice, and asked, "So, why? Why is there no photo of Xiaoman's mother in the back..."
"That's because she and I got divorced when we were one and a half years old." Huo Sheng lowered his eyes and said, "However, it's a different choice."
Huo Sheng said indifferently: "Actually, there are some problems between me and her. We met in college and later in the workplace. When we got to twenty-six-seven, when we felt it was suitable, we naturally chose to get married."
"Of course," he laughed suddenly, "this seems to sound a bit strange, like getting married casually, but no, there are still feelings."
"Well, then what?" Cheng Yan turned to look at him.
Huo Sheng continued: "After getting married, it was good at the beginning, both of them were working, and they were still in the previous company at the time. The large company was busy, and the two of them also squeezed time to live. Later, with Xiaoman, they had to Someone compromised and wanted to make time for the children. So I changed jobs and came to the place where I met you later."
"Then..." Cheng Yan said hesitantly, "isn't that good?"
"Sounds good, at the time... I felt the same way." Huo Sheng smiled, "I didn't even think about continuing to work there, even though the company has a better future. But, she is probably a very strong person. Well, I'm more inclined to live a normal life."
In ordinary days, Cheng Yan whispered in his heart.
"I think it's normal, and it's good to be here." Huo Sheng said, "but she is better and stronger than me, so she chose to go abroad. I felt that the child was so young and she had to leave again, and there were many things that could not be done. balance, so…”
"So you separated." Cheng Yan said.
"Yes, what she mentioned is also in line with my thoughts." Huo Sheng looked at him and said, "So, we also separated peacefully, but I didn't expect that she would meet on the way to the airport a few months later. Car accident. I was a little surprised and a little sad when I first heard the news, but now I have seen it all."
Hearing this, Cheng Yan was silent and said nothing more.
It is true that he is not such a strong person, and may not understand all the thoughts of Xiaoman's mother to a certain extent, but he can somewhat understand Huo Sheng's wish to live a normal life, just like this two people take the child and keep going.
So when, a few hours after they ended these conversations, it was dead of night.
Cheng Yan listened to the steady breathing behind him, couldn't help but turned sideways, held the other's hand, and then spoke inaudibly to the outline reflected by the moonlight.
"I'll be with you," he said.
He said: "As long as you want, I will always be with you."
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