Antidote

Chapter 83

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I don't know who touched the switch, and the water that was sprayed out of the nozzle suddenly fell down.

Cheng Ke leaned against the wall, Jiang Yuduo leaned against him, with his forehead against the wall.

The movements of the two people had stopped, but the gasping was still chaotic in his ears, and the cold water sprayed from the nozzle could not cool everything down immediately.

After the water temperature began to rise, Cheng Ke raised his hand and slapped the nozzle. The nozzle turned around and continued to spray towards the toilet.

Jiang Yuduo's breathing became lower, and he said, "I'll help you..."

"What..." Cheng Ke is now sensitive to this sentence, even if they have just finished their work, his first reaction is still unsightly. Fortunately, Jiang Yuduo stretched out his hand to the nozzle while saying this. He quickly grabbed Jiang Yuduo's hand, "No, I'll rush, one hand is enough, you... help me take off this sleeve."

"Yeah." Jiang Yuduo responded, helped him tore off the sleeve of the sweater, kissed him in the corner of his eye, turned around and walked out of the bathroom with a full body of water.

Cheng Ke moved the nozzle back to face himself, put the plaster on the wall, lowered his head and closed his eyes.

When he came out of the bathroom, Jiang Yuduo took off only a pair of underwear and sat on the chair. When he saw him coming out, he jumped up from the chair and covered it with his hands in embarrassment.

When I met a few times, I dared to open the door naked to others, and now I have finished masturbating and I have to wear underwear to cover it... The stinky shame is probably sorted by age.

Cheng Ke turned his face away, poured himself a glass of water, turned around and sat on the sofa after hearing that Jiang Yuduo had entered the bathroom.

Jiang Yuduo turned on the TV and was watching a cartoon. Meow sat on the coffee table and watched it very deeply. Cheng Ke didn't change the channel and watched it together.

Anyway, everything looks the same now, my mind is not confused, it is empty.

Jiang Yuduo took longer to take a bath than usual, Cheng Ke was a little worried, and called him halfway, he agreed, and it took another ten minutes to come out with a head full of water.

"Are you asleep?" Cheng Ke asked.

"No," Jiang Yuduo grabbed the towel and rubbed it in his hair, "I just... I'm sorry."

"...Oh," Cheng Ke was stunned, "it's alright, just pretend it never happened."

"How is it possible," Jiang Yuduo said, "even if you forget it, it happened before."

Cheng Ke didn't speak, he felt that this was not what Jiang Yuduo said.

"Nothing leaves no trace," Jiang Yuduo sat beside him and wiped his hair with his head down. "Even if you pretend you can't see, they will leave a mark where you can't."

Cheng Ke reached behind Jiang Yuduo's neck and wanted to pinch it, but as soon as his fingers touched his skin, Jiang Yuduo suddenly turned back and grabbed his hand.

"Me!" Cheng Ke responded quickly and immediately shouted.

Jiang Yuduo's hand paused, then let go, lowered his head and continued to wipe his hair.

Cheng Ke hesitated for a moment, but still squeezed lightly on the back of his neck.

After what happened in the video, Jiang Yuduo's repressed nervousness did not dissipate even though they experienced the intimate contact they had never had before.

Some things cannot be vented.

As Jiang Yuduo said, when something happens, it will always be there, leaving a trail of traces that you can see or not, and it will not change.

"Want to go to the supermarket?" Jiang Yuduo said, "Stock some food."

"Is it gone?" Cheng Ke asked.

"Also, but not much, I want to... go for a walk," Jiang Yuduo rubbed his nose, "and have something to eat by the way."

"Okay." Cheng Ke nodded.

When he was about to stand up, Jiang Yuduo turned around and hugged him again, burying his face in his shoulder and rubbing hard.

"Are you acting like a spoiled brat?" Cheng Ke asked.

"No," Jiang Yuduo said in a muffled voice, "I'm sorry."

Cheng Ke laughed and rubbed his back: "How long will it take for you to be embarrassed?"

"I don't know," Jiang Yuduo leaned against him and rubbed hard on him, and finally pushed him down on the sofa, lying on top of him, "you don't even have a little... Are you sorry?"

"No," Cheng Ke said, "I think my left-hand skills are not bad, I didn't pay attention to it before."

"Shut up." Jiang Yuduo arched him.

"If you say you're not feeling well, I'll be embarrassed," Cheng Ke patted him on the back. "After all, I'm... a lot older... "

"Cheng Ke!" Jiang Yuduo raised his head and stared at him, "Can you be like an old rascal all the time."

"Be careful when you speak," Cheng Ke said. "It's okay for hooligans, but not for old hooligans."

"Fuck." Jiang Yuduo laughed, his breath caught on his neck, it was warm, and after a while, he cleared his throat, "Then you..."

"It's cool," Cheng Ke said, "I was a little worried at first. I didn't know if you would do this with the same level of strength as rubbing someone's back."

"... I find that you react very quickly when you talk about this kind of topic." Jiang Yuduo said.

"Nonsense, just finished." Cheng Ke said.

"Shut up," Jiang Yuduo jumped off the sofa from him, "get up, change clothes and go to the supermarket."

Cheng Ke didn't know why Jiang Yuduo suddenly wanted to go to the supermarket. He usually wouldn't go shopping unless he ate the bread crumbs.

Before going out, Cheng Ke took a look. There was quite a lot to eat, so he stuffed half of the refrigerator.

But he didn't ask any more questions. If the two of them continued to stay alone in the room, Jiang Yuduo's embarrassment might not be over that night. Going to the supermarket for a walk would help his attention change from the first shameless activity he experienced in his life. transfer away.

"Did you say these cookies are delicious?" Jiang Yuduo asked while pushing the cart, picking up a box of cookies.

"Well," Cheng Ke nodded, "Take two boxes, sometimes you can eat if you're hungry before dinner time."

Jiang Yuduo directly put four boxes in the car, took two steps forward and stopped: "Where's this little cake?"

"I haven't eaten it," Cheng Ke looked at it, "I have eaten that egg roll, and it's not bad."

Jiang Yuduo put down the small cake and took a few boxes of egg rolls.

"Why do you take so much?" Cheng Ke couldn't help but ask.

"You eat it," Jiang Yuduo said. "I'll get some instant noodles and instant rice later. Didn't you buy them one by one? You can eat them when you don't want to eat takeout and are too lazy to go out."

"You can do it when you don't want to eat takeout and are too lazy to go out." Cheng Ke said.

Jiang Yuduo glanced at him: "If I want to cook, my hand is still hurt."

"Oh," Cheng Ke smiled, "Okay, let's stock up on it. If you want to get some ham, sausage, luncheon meat or something, you can add it and cook it together."

"Okay." Jiang Yuduo nodded.

Maybe Jiang Yuduo's mood is a little different today. Shopping is different from usual. No matter what he takes, he takes a bunch of them as if they are stocked.

Cheng Ke hesitated when he wanted to buy a face towel. He didn't dare to reach out after watching it for a long time, for fear that Jiang Yuduo would approve twenty of them back for him.

"It's so hard to choose a towel?" Jiang Yuduo stood behind him at some point, put his hand on his waist, and put his chin directly on his shoulder.

Cheng Ke tilted his head in surprise, and glanced down at Jiang Yuduo's hand on his waist.

"What?" Jiang Yuduo asked.

"Suddenly so generous? Not to mention the public?" Cheng Ke asked softly, reaching out and grabbing on the towel, wanting to pick one that was thick and soft.

"I just want to try," Jiang Yuduo smiled, "what does it feel like."

"How do you feel?" Cheng Ke asked.

"Comfortable," Jiang Yuduo said, "Hello everyone, this is my boyfriend."

Cheng Ke laughed and flicked his hand back on the tip of his nose.

"I want this," Jiang Yuduo pointed to the towel on the shelf, "I'll change this one too, we both use the same one."

"Okay." Cheng Ke took the towel and put it in the car.

"You should also buy the same toothbrushes," Jiang Yuduo said, "but I'm not used to using electric ones, so you can do it manually with me."

"Okay." Cheng Ke said.

Today, Jiang Yuduo has an extraordinary enthusiasm for purchasing. He turns around in the supermarket, and the shopping cart is full.

"It's almost there," Cheng Ke looked at both sides, feeling that this was the third time he had walked through the underwear area. "I feel like eating this whole lot will be enough to eat within the shelf life."

"You can throw it away if you can't finish it," Jiang Yuduo also looked at both sides, "Hey, Cheng Ke."

"Huh?" Cheng Ke responded.

"Do you remember meeting me in the supermarket at that time?" Jiang Yuduo asked.

"Remember," Cheng Ke said, "you bumped into me and you were arrogant."

"You don't even say it's okay," Jiang Yuduo clicked, "Who is arrogant?"

"I see it's you, I'll say if I want to change someone else." Cheng Ke laughed.

"Did you hate me so much then?" Jiang Yuduo asked.

"No," Cheng Ke thought for a while, "I was very annoying to see everyone at that time."

"You wrote me something... Do you remember?" Jiang Yuduo asked again.

"What?" Cheng Ke was stunned, and suddenly remembered that he had written risperidone on Jiang Yuduo's cigarette paper, "I wrote it casually, I know which one Medicine... Jiang Yu takes you... "

"You said, isn't it a bit of a coincidence," Jiang Yuduo smiled and lowered his eyelids, "In the end, I really..."

"Jiang Yuduo." Cheng Ke interrupted him.

"Will you regret it?" Jiang Yuduo looked up at him.

"What do you regret?" Cheng Ke asked, "Do you regret liking you? This thing is out of my control. Even if I regret it, I will do it again. If I like it, I will still like it."

Cheng Ke didn't know the stamina would be so great.

Jiang Yuduo has been sticking to him like a plaster ever since he finished masturbating, sticking it from the supermarket to eating to watching TV at home, and finally sticking it to his back when he goes to bed.

But these are nothing, what makes Cheng Ke a little uneasy is what Jiang Yuduo said.

Jiang Yuduo didn't have the excited state that he should have when opening the door to the new world, or, in other words, his state went wrong.

"Cheng Ke," Jiang Yuduo hugged him tightly and whispered against his ear, "If you didn't know me, would you have gone home now?"

"No," Cheng Ke said. "With Cheng Yi here, he won't let me go home. Maybe... He will keep tossing with him endlessly. After all, there is no third brother to help me."

Jiang Yuduo laughed: "He's not my brother anyway."

"Well, if I don't know you, I may have to be angry with him for another year or two before I break out." Cheng Ke said.

"So, no matter how much you can endure it," Jiang Yuduo said, "if there is always something bad to follow, sooner or later, it will not be able to sustain the outbreak, right?"

Cheng Ke didn't speak, turned over and faced him: "Jiang Yuduo, what happened to you today?"

"Nothing." Jiang Yuduo said.

"If you feel something is wrong, just tell me," Cheng Ke said, "I said, let's meet together..."

"How long can you carry it?" Jiang Yuduo asked in a low voice.

"I don't know, and I won't think about it either," Cheng Ke frowned, "I only look at the general direction, whether there is progress or not, and don't care about anything else."

"I'm afraid." Jiang Yuduo was still very quiet.

"When you used to be afraid, there was only one person, and now there is me when you are afraid." Cheng Ke said.

Jiang Yuduo didn't speak. He sat up and looked at him: "If I stabbed you today, would you still say such a thing?"

"But you didn't poke." Cheng Ke said.

"In case..." Jiang Yuduo frowned.

"There are no emergencies, only facts." Cheng Ke said.

"It's not like I haven't hurt you," Jiang Yuduo looked at him, "If I can hurt you once, I will hurt you the second time, the third time, this time I'm under control, what about the next time? Once, twice, three times, How many times can you carry it?"

"You already want to work hard," Cheng Ke also sat up, "if you manage..."

"If the treatment is useless!" Jiang Yuduo suddenly roared, "Before it is cured! I will kill you before it is cured!"

Cheng Ke was stunned by his roar, and it took a while before he regained his senses, and shouted at Jiang Yuduo: "Then kill one and see! You said let me save you! Help you! But you Let me pull you!"

Jiang Yuduo stared at him without speaking.

Cheng Ke fell back on the pillow.

Today's video, Cheng Ke has already uploaded it to his mobile phone, and deleted the one on Jiang Yuduo's mobile phone. He knows the blow to Jiang Yuduo.

When I tried to change, I found that I was still a time bomb.

Self-harm is not what Jiang Yuduo is afraid of, it is his fear that he almost stabs Cheng Ke.

Cheng Ke didn't know how to deal with Jiang Yuduo's fears. He didn't have a chance to contact Sister Luo today. When he went to the store tomorrow, he planned to ask Sister Luo.

Now he looks at Jiang Yuduo who is still sitting beside him, and just wants to hug him.

"Jiang Yuduo," he called out and stretched out his hand, "Come here."

"Well." Jiang Yuduo lay down and put his face in his palm.

He touched Jiang Yuduo's face, and when he was about to hug him, Jiang Yuduo grabbed his hand and kissed him in the palm: "Cheng Ke."

"Huh?" Cheng Ke replied softly.

"Are you angry?" Jiang Yuduo asked.

"No." Cheng Ke said.

"Then are you tired now?" Jiang Yuduo asked again.

"It's okay," Cheng Ke said, "what's the matter?"

Jiang Yuduo took his hand and stuffed it into the quilt.

"Fuck," Cheng Ke was stunned, "you..."

Jiang Yuduo came over and kissed him: "If you can't do it...help me..."

"You can't fucking do it." Cheng Ke said.

Jiang Yuduo smiled.

This smile is very clean, there is no worry, no fear, and no entanglement, just a simple smile that makes people move.

Cheng Ke's sleep has been quite regular for the past half month, but yesterday, both mentally and physically, he was exhausted. The moment he fell asleep at night, he knew that he would be able to sleep until noon the next day.

So when he opened his eyes and touched the phone, he was not particularly surprised when he saw that it was almost three in the afternoon.

"Jiang Yuduo." He touched the side, empty.

Jiang Yuduo is different from him. No matter what the situation is, he gets up at almost the same time, and sometimes he doesn't sleep at all.

"Did you eat lunch first, and breakfast alone..." Cheng Ke yawned and got out of bed, and walked to the living room in his slippers, "I should have breakfast now..."

There was no one in the living room, Cheng Ke went into the kitchen to take a look, then glanced at the bathroom, Meow walked by his feet, he bent down and touched Meow: "Where's your third brother?"

With a meow, he walked away.

"Jiang Yuduo!" Cheng Ke went to the backyard again.

There was no one in the backyard. Jiang Yuduo's blood was still on the ground when he was injured, and it had turned black.

Cheng Ke stood for a while, walked over to the courtyard wall, looked carefully, and found the faint red in yesterday's video.

Unlike the blood on the ground, this place has become very light, mixed with the mottled wall, and almost no longer comes out.

The sun in the yard was good today, but Cheng Ke suddenly felt that the light around him was getting dim a little bit, and the whole person seemed to be slowly wrapped in ice and began to get cold.

"Jiang Yuduo!" He roared, ran into the room, rushed to the bedroom and picked up his mobile phone. When dialing the number, his hands trembled so much that he poked twice but he didn't hit Jiang Yuduo's number, and he roared again. With a sound, "Fuck!"

Finally got it right.

But before the phone was brought to his ear, he had already heard the voice coming from the receiver.

The user you dialed is powered off.

"Fuck you, uncle!" Cheng Ke smashed his phone on the bed.

Two seconds later, he reluctantly jumped over to pick up the phone and dialed the number again.

Heard the same thing.

"Fuck me!" Cheng Ke gritted his teeth and pulled out Chen Qing's number again.

This time I heard the normal dial tone, and Chen Qing's voice over there sounded: "Jaeger-LeCoultre?"

"Where's Jiang Yuduo?" Cheng Ke walked out of the bedroom, turned around in the room, and opened the curtains to look out.

"What?" Chen Qing was stunned.

"Where's the third brother! Has he contacted you!" Cheng Ke raised his voice.

"No," Chen Qing raised his voice, "what happened to him?"

"I don't know," Cheng Ke stood in the middle of the living room and turned around several times, "he's gone, the phone is turned off..."

There are a few cigarette case papers on the table.

Cheng Ke suddenly felt that his breathing was a little short. Chen Qing was still talking on the phone. He couldn't hear clearly. He walked slowly to the table, glanced at the cigarette case, and sat on the chair.

After being stunned for a while, he slammed into the table with one foot, and shouted until his throat split: "Fuck! I'll fuck your uncle Jiang Yuduo!"