Cheng Ke has always felt that he is a person who is used to being alone.
He can stay in his room all day, reading, listening to music, playing in the sand, watching the sky in the most secluded corner of the garden at home.
Even if he goes out with friends, in lively bars and KTVs, he can stay away from all the sounds and pictures.
He will have people he likes, people who are interested, and will be ambiguous and tempted, but once his private domain is invaded a little bit, he will start to avoid it.
Cheng Ke never thought that one day he would face the loneliness that was so sharp that he couldn't ignore it and even more intolerable.
Right now.
at the moment.
He sat alone in Jiang Yuduo's house, where Jiang Yuduo was gone.
Sitting on the floor in front of Jiang Yuduo's bed where soot is often flicked.
There is no sound in the room, and the occasional noises coming from outside after nightfall will make the surroundings quieter.
He was suffocated by the intense feeling of loneliness of a man, and he could hardly catch his breath when Meow gently walked by and lay down at his feet.
Quieter because of the sound.
Lonely because of meow's company.
All of this is because of Jiang Yuduo's disappearance.
He has always been very clear about how he feels about Jiang Yuduo, from "having a little idea" at the beginning, to some interest, to liking, and now.
Every step you take comes from your true heart.
He didn't know what it was like for Jiang Yuduo to be afraid of losing, and to be afraid of the disappearance of the people he cared about. He only knew that what he was facing now was loss, and what he experienced was disappearance.
Not feeling well.
Time seemed to stop.
He kept thinking about it in his mind, going back little by little from those cigarette case papers, minute by minute, like a movie that would end in an instant because he was afraid of missing any frame.
The mobile phone has been held in his hand, and Jiang Yuduo's mobile phone has never been turned on again.
And his cell phone never rang again.
Sister Luo and Chen Qing all seemed to disappear with Jiang Yuduo, without any news.
Cheng Ke admitted that he was in a very complicated mood now.
One second, he still misses and worries about Jiang Yuduo strongly, the next second he will be angry, and the next second he can understand that Jiang Yuduo is a patient, there will be many uncontrollable thoughts and behaviors, and the next second he will want to fall cell phone.
So it fell.
The phone was smashed to the ground by him and bounced to the wall.
Meow jumped into bed in fright.
The phone was smashed and rang.
Staring at the lit screen of the phone for ten seconds, Cheng Ke realized that there was a call coming in.
When he rushed over to pick up the phone, his shoulder hit the wall. It was heavy, but he didn't feel anything.
The caller on the phone was Xu Ding.
His shoulders started to hurt.
"Hello." He answered the phone.
"Are you going to the store tomorrow?" Xu Ding asked.
It has already opened. Today, not only has he not been to the store, he has not even called Xu Ding on the phone.
"I'll go," Cheng Ke cleared his throat, "I'm sorry for a little delay today."
"Xiao Ke," Xu Ding hesitated, "did you encounter something? Would you like to help?"
"I... I'm fine." Cheng Ke said.
"There will be a few interviews in the store tomorrow. Mi Li'er will come to help this month. She knows the exact time," Xu Ding said. "If you... I can go."
"No," Cheng Ke said quickly, "I'll go."
It was agreed from the very beginning that he was mainly in charge of management, and Xu Ding had a company to take care of.
"That's fine," Xu Ding said, and added after a pause, "Xiao Ke, I don't want to ask about your personal affairs, but if you need help, you have to tell me. We are friends after all."
"I know," Cheng Ke smiled, "Thank you."
After hanging up the phone, he was stunned for a long time. When he stood up, he felt that he didn't belong to him from the waist down. First, he couldn't feel existence at all, then he felt numb, and after a while, he started to feel sore.
He stood against the wall for five minutes before slowly walking out of the bedroom and into the bathroom.
The bathroom was still the same. Jiang Yuduo's towels and toothbrushes were still in place, and the body wash and shampoo were also left as they were. He also saw a T-shirt of Jiang Yuduo that was thrown aside before he could wash it.
He could even hear gasps in the bathroom that day when he saw these things in front of him.
Cheng Ke turned on the faucet, buried his face in his left hand, and the cold water splashed on his face.
When he raised his head again, he felt that he was much more awake, just as he looked in the mirror, with exhaustion that could be seen at a glance.
He opened the cabinet under the sink and took out a new towel and toothbrush.
I bought two sets of these things, and Jiang Yuduo took one.
He was a little upset when he wiped his face with a towel. Jiang Yuduo wanted to use the same thing as him, so he bought the same thing and took it with him when he left.
He didn't want to cooperate.
He didn't know when his anger would subside.
But he still used it.
Before he came out of the bathroom, he put his new toothbrush on Jiang Yuduo's old toothbrush.
Thinking about it, Jiang Yuduo's brush head was swung down again.
"Just use this position," he said. "Wait to cry, idiot!"
Cheng Ke went out. It was a bit late for dinner now, but he still planned to eat casually.
I walked slowly around the familiar bar street, bought a bowl of oden in the small shop, and felt a lot more comfortable.
As soon as he walked out of the store, he heard someone calling him.
"Brother Ke?"
Cheng Ke turned his head and saw that it was Da Bin with several little brothers.
"Where's Brother Ke to eat?" Da Bin came over, and several little brothers stopped a few steps away.
"Well, just eat something," Cheng Ke glanced at them, "you..."
"Zhang Daqi's bar," said Da Bin, "Brother Qing is waiting there."
"What? Didn't you say it's been resolved?" Cheng Ke asked.
"Yes," Da Bin nodded, "Zhang Daqi made an appointment today and made it clear that no one should provoke anyone in the future."
"Then... will there be a problem?" Cheng Ke was a little worried.
"There shouldn't be any problem," Dabin said. "The appointment is... Third brother, isn't the third brother going out? Let's go."
"I'll go." Cheng Ke said.
"Brother Qing said no." Dabin said, "Just to chat for a while, we have people with us. If we really want to fight, we also have people."
"I invested in this." Cheng Ke said.
"Cho..." Da Bin was stunned, then sighed, took out his mobile phone and called Chen Qing.
Cheng Ke had no idea of taking over the great cause of the third brother, nor did he plan to get too close to his little brothers, but he knew that these people were part of Jiang Yuduo's sense of security, proof of his existence, part of his life for so many years.
If Jiang Yu takes it back, Cheng Ke hopes that this place will be the same as before.
Chen Qing, Da Bin, those little brothers, the trash cans Jiang Yuduo had counted.
Besides, this solution is also proposed by myself. Since it has already been effective, then I will close it and end it.
…
In fact, maybe he just wanted to do something to distract him and calm down his excessively depressed mood, and these people could also make him feel the existence of Jiang Yuduo.
There should be quite a lot of people in the bar at this time, but Zhang Daqi's bar is very small, half of the tables in the hall are empty, it seems that the previous reserved room still has an impact on the bar, no one If you are willing to go to a bar and worry about hanging yourself, the business will take at least another month to recover.
Chen Qing sat in a booth in the corner with his feet crossed.
When he saw Cheng Ke coming over, he quickly stood up: "Brother Ke."
Cheng Keting admires his ability to change his name freely and never has a fixed one.
"Actually, you don't use it," Chen Qing said. "Zhang Daqi just wanted to make sure that they won't make trouble with each other in the future."
"I'm free anyway." Cheng Ke sat down.
"His business is very weak now," Chen Qing said. "I guess he doesn't want to toss with us anymore."
Cheng Ke had never seen Zhang Daqi, but when the man came over, he was sure at a glance that this was Zhang Daqi.
At the same time, I remembered that it was him who blocked Jiang Yuduo behind this bar when Jiang Yuduo was most helpless and flustered...
"Where's the third child," Zhang Daqi brought the two of them, frowning after coming over, and didn't sit down, his tone was not polite, "The third child I asked is not you."
"This is our brother Ke," Chen Qing said, "just like him."
"You don't need to talk about the third child." Zhang Daqi turned around with a cold face and was about to leave.
"I'm not coming, the third child is a fart after talking to you." Cheng Ke leaned on the sofa and said.
Zhang Daqi turned his face and sneered: "I know you, you have been messing with the third child for a while, why, you have seized power? It's awesome, but if you have seized power, I have to recognize it, I will recognize the third child."
"My surname is Cheng," Cheng Ke looked at him, "Cheng Ke."
Zhang Daqi had an expression of "I don't care who the hell you are".
"You rent here, right?" Cheng Ke took a cup of orange juice and took a sip. "Go back and ask what the name of this street is."
Zhang Daqi turned around, and although he was still unhappy, he put away his sneer: "What do you mean?"
"If you want to open your bar, no one will take care of you," Cheng Ke said, "and no one will charge you for protection. You will be endless, and no one will bother you when you are full."
A man standing behind Zhang Daqi called and whispered something in his ear. Zhang Daqi narrowed his eyes and looked at Cheng Ke.
"Even if it's over here, it's all over for everyone to talk about," Cheng Ke stood up. "It's just a matter of a word if you don't want to do it in this bar. Boss Zhang can try it if you want."
After speaking, he threw the cup in his hand on the ground: "Go."
"Go!" Chen Qing waved his hand.
Cheng Ke took two steps forward and stood face to face with Zhang Daqi. After a few seconds of silence, Zhang Daqi gave way to the side.
Cheng Ke kicked away the cup that rolled to his feet and walked out of the booth from his side.
After walking out of the door of the bar, several people were silent and followed behind Cheng Ke without any intention of leaving.
Cheng Ke was about to speak when he heard Da Bin's laughing voice: "Fuck."
Then another little brother's voice: "Enjoy it, fuck it."
"Be civilized." Cheng Ke smiled and took a cigarette from his pocket.
"Brother Ke," Chen Qing took out a lighter and lit a cigarette for him, "You can! Pretend to be more authentic than the third brother?"
"It's not a style." Dabin said beside him.
"If this is the third brother today..." Chen Qing's eyes suddenly darkened in the middle of speaking, and he didn't continue to talk, just lowered his voice and changed the subject, "But does this work? This street belongs to your father, right? , as soon as people ask, they know that you have been swept out of the house..."
"It's two different things," Cheng Ke said. "I was driven to the moon. I really bowed my head and made an interplanetary phone call with my dad. This thing can be done."
Chen Qing laughed: "It's cool!"
"Cool!" Several people shouted.
"I'm going back, and I have a busy day tomorrow." Cheng Ke said.
"Okay," Chen Qing nodded, "I'll go eat something with them."
When Cheng Ke turned around to leave, Chen Qing followed in two steps: "Jaeger-LeCoultre."
"Huh?" Cheng Ke looked at him.
"Is there any news?" Chen Qing asked.
"Not yet." Cheng Ke said.
Chen Qing didn't speak, but his face was full of disappointment, looking a little uncomfortable.
"I promise to notify you as soon as there is news," Cheng Ke said, thinking about it and adding, "If you have news, let me know."
"Yeah." Chen Qing nodded.
Cheng Ke patted his shoulder and turned away.
Jiang Yuduo's first day of escape. want to fuck him.
Cheng Ke sat behind the bar and listened to Mi Lier telling him about the situation of the few people who were coming for an interview today.
"Both of the piano players are students. I'm not very good at listening. This is up to you to judge," Mi Li'er said. "It's all about ten o'clock."
"Well." Cheng Ke nodded, "I just pretended to understand."
He is not too familiar with Mi Li'er, but Mi Li'er is familiar with him, and he talks a lot, so he doesn't need to bother to say anything.
"You don't need to worry about the waiter. I'll choose. I have many years of experience in the waiter industry," Mi Lier said with a smile. "Senior theme restaurant waiter."
Cheng Ke nodded: "Okay."
"Three of the sand painting performances," Mi Li'er said, "in the afternoon of the appointment, this must be yours."
"Well," Cheng Ke glanced at her, "the arrangement is so tight."
"Hurry up and you can see the work situation when you're done. If you can't do it, you can change people immediately." Mi Li'er said.
"Thank you," Cheng Ke said, "if you weren't there, I would have no clue."
"It's alright, I just quit my job and wanted to take a break. I have nothing to do every day," Mi Li'er said. "But if I change to another store, I won't do it for nothing."
Cheng Ke looked up at her: "Bai Gan?"
"Well, Brother Xu asked me if I wanted to come and do it. I said I don't want to go to work now, but I can help for free," Mi Li'er said with a smile, "I'm your number one fan."
Cheng Ke pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled, but said nothing.
"I thought the third child would come with you," Mi Li'er looked out the door, "Isn't he always here to help? I saw him on the opening day."
Cheng Ke felt a pain in his heart: "Going to travel."
"Wow, envious." Mi Li'er said.
The door was knocked.
Jiang Yuduo, who was sitting by the window, asked in a calm voice, "Who?"
"Young man, I brought you dinner," the lady boss's voice sounded from outside, "Is it better for you to put it on the table at the door?"
Jiang Yuduo didn't speak, got up and walked to the door, opened the door a crack, and looked out with his foot against it.
Only the proprietress was outside the door.
Seeing him open the door, the proprietress smiled: "Hurry up and eat, it will be cold in a while."
"Well." Jiang Yuduo opened the door and took the tray handed over by the proprietress. There were two plates of stir-fry, a small bowl of soup, and a large bowl of rice on the small table outside the door.
"I'll bring it in for you." The proprietress picked up the bowl of rice.
Jiang Yuduo hesitated for a few seconds, then turned around with the tray and walked over to the table in the room.
It's okay, it's okay, it's been three days, there's no danger.
No danger.
"You're not going out now," the proprietress sighed, and came over and put the meal on the table, "I don't know what happened to you, young man, but cheer up, there's nothing that can't be overcome."
Jiang Yuduo didn't speak.
"Tomorrow morning, I'll still bring you breakfast at eight o'clock," said the proprietress.
Jiang Yuduo nodded.
After watching the proprietress go out and close the door, he sat down at the table.
The proprietress should be a good person. Jiang Yuduo lived in this small and dilapidated hostel for three days and paid her for her meals. She would deliver three meals a day to the door on time every day.
Talk to him every day.
Jiang Yuduo didn't want to talk to the proprietress, but he would not stop the proprietress from speaking.
He knew that the voice of the proprietress was the only real sound in his life.
Besides, the last sound he heard was Cheng Ke's gentle breathing.
Real, gentle, let him hear the warm breath.
He tugged on Cheng Ke's jacket.
It's a little hot, it's been raining here, but the temperature is still a little too high for this coat, but he's been wearing it all the time and hasn't taken it off to sleep.
Before eating, he got up and looked out the window again. As long as the rainy day didn't end, they would always be there...
You can try giving them a deadline, telling yourself that they will leave at a certain time, what time of day, when it's dawn, when it's dark.
Jiang Yuduo stared at the figure under the tree outside.
When the rainy day is over, they leave.
Jiang Yuduo had never tried such a method, and he knew that he had rejected all attempts.
It was the first time he hadn't gotten rid of them in so long, and the first time he was desperate to get rid of them.