Deep rain is soaking in the bathtub at the moment.
She felt that her body seemed to be emptied, and her soul seemed to be no longer in her body.
What is the meaning of my existence in this world? After all, who should I live for? To this world, am I really a "sinner" who is not accepted by anyone
Suddenly, she opened her eyes.
"is it him?"
"Is that black shadow that I can't draw, the man who brought me into this world? Is it the man who committed the sins of human taboo?"
That man, out of what mentality, let himself be born? How do you see yourself
He is the source of all her pain, but without that man, she would not exist in this world. This is a paradox, so hating him and denying him is tantamount to denying one's own existence.
When Li Yin chose to sacrifice three bloody instructions to rescue Ying Ziye, Shen Yu's long-term persistence collapsed.
Is there really anyone in this world who can love someone to such an extent
Min hated her, and people in this world regarded her as a heretic and discriminated against, disgusted, or ridiculed. Even if there are people who sympathize with her, they are just standing on the moral high ground and gaining self-satisfaction.
The only one who really agrees with her, appreciates her, and treats her as a normal person is Murong Mirage.
It's just that person...
Shen Yu suddenly wished that she could meet her biological father. Does he need himself? Do you love yourself? Do you regret letting her be born in this world
But that man is dead.
She remembered that his name was Pu Meiling. That's what Min told her.
However, even if he is dead, at least he wants to know how that man sees himself. From Min's words before his death, she can roughly judge one thing.
Her father wanted her to be born. Even, she was very happy to be born.
He didn't hate himself, but looked forward to the people he was born with. In other words, he may be the one in this world who has truly loved himself.
She hopes to know about her father's past. She wanted to know everything about him. If that man is really the only one who has ever loved her, the only one who has expected her to be born, then...
After Ah Xin helped her put on her clothes, she sat in a wheelchair and came to the mirror.
In fact, if her legs continue to be treated, there is still hope that she can stand up. Murong Mirage also checked her several times, and said that there is still hope of walking again after receiving regular treatment, but the money spent is naturally not a small amount.
However, Shen Yu didn't care if he could stand up again.
She looked at herself in the mirror and seemed to understand something.
"Li Yin...does that man really love Ying Ziye that much? If you love someone so much that you can forget everything, can you really make such a big sacrifice? Then, there will be people who will make such sacrifices for me. love?"
Deep Rain, I really hope to get an answer to this question.
"Love or hate are just two sides of a mirror."
This is a line from a novel she likes very much, "Bullets Fly Over". The author described the era of war and the love and hatred between people.
The author of that book is Li Yin. Even while living in this apartment, he didn't stop writing. Later, writing was no longer a means of earning a living, but a place where Li Yin sought spiritual sustenance in the apartment. So when he went to Youshui Village, he even took his laptop with him, and updated a few chapters when he had time.
This man, Li Yin, made Shen Yu start to think about it, to seriously seek the value of his own existence. As long as there is someone who loved her, she is willing to live for that person.
It doesn't matter if that person is dead.
The sky has completely darkened.
At this time, the doorbell rang. The maid Ah Xin went to open the door, and it was Murong Mirage who came in. He casually came to the living room, Ah Xin came out pushing Shen Yu's wheelchair.
"The new instructions in blood have been released." Murong Mi said straight to the point: "This time, the whereabouts of the fourth fragment of the hell contract has been released, and the location is in the No. 6 forest area of Feiyun District."
"Is that so." Shen Yu said lightly, "What else?"
"Bian Xingchen, I received instructions in blood. According to the agreement between you and him, you are going to draw the picture in blood this time. How? Do you want to save him, or kill him?"
"It doesn't matter whether you kill him or not. Li Yin already knows my identity. Next, try not to come to see me if you have nothing to do."
Shen Yu's tone was very flat, without any emotional fluctuations.
"You..." Murong Mi showed a sinister smile: "Are you going to kill Li Yin? Or...continue to observe him?"
"Forget about Li Yin. I have a new plan now. I, I want to meet my aunt. The younger sister of the man who gave birth to me. I want to meet her. She should know something about my father. I I want to know what that man thinks of me. Why I was born, why I exist... I hope to know. Maybe then, I can find the meaning of my life."
"Oh?" Murong Mirage came over suddenly, put his face close to Shen Yu, and said, "Is that how you think about it?"
"I want to find the meaning of my existence. No matter what, I want to find that meaning."
This is what Deep Rain hoped for.
"Your aunt, do you know where she is?"
"Yes, I know. Besides, Li Yin has already contacted her. I hope you can bring her to see me."
Hearing what she said, Murong Mi moved closer to Shen Yu's face and said, "Are you sure? You should know that since Li Yin has already had contact with her, if you do that, you may be exposed." .”
"It's okay to be exposed... I hope I can find my value."
"What do you mean?" Murong Mi immediately asked, "You don't want to continue this experiment, do you?"
"Almost. This experiment is no longer important to me. Li Yin's decision has already proved that my experiment failed. In fact, Ke Yinyu had already dealt me a very big blow at that time, but Li Yin gave me an even bigger blow." Bigger. And he is getting closer and closer to me now. I don't want to have anything to do with that apartment anymore. Of course, I will still... "
Suddenly, Murong Mirage's hand immediately stretched out, tightly strangling Shen Yu's neck!
"You... actually said you want to stop? Stop this interesting experiment? How dare you do that?"
Murong Mirage's face was contorted continuously, and her eyes were full of terrifying anger: "Such an interesting experiment, it can let us see the beautiful side of the real and evil people! Thinking back, Xia Xiaomei had to kill her beloved one in order to survive. The death scene, just thinking about it makes me feel extremely happy! This is even more exciting than dissecting countless female corpses... "
Then, he grabbed Shen Yu violently, smashed it towards the floor, and then rode on her, tore off the clothes on her chest, pointed his right index finger on her chest, and said, "You, I hope that I will dissect you." Are you? Well, a very beautiful body, so beautiful, is this the body of the child of the devil who committed the sin of taboo? Such a beautiful body... "
"You... Murong Mirage, what are you going to do!" Shen Yu suddenly became terrified, her legs could not walk, if Murong Mirage wanted to kill her, she would have no way to resist!
"Ah Xin, Ah Xin, help! Help!"
The maid Ah Xin came slowly into the living room, but she looked at the two of them calmly and said, "Master, are you going to fuck her?"
"Ah Xin, you came just in time, hold her hand for me!"
The clothes on the chest were completely ripped off, and Murong Mi was excited when he saw it, and his lower body immediately reacted.
Ah Xin came over and pressed Shen Yu's hands according to Murong Mi's instructions.
"You said you want to find the meaning of your own existence?" Murong Mirage lowered his head and said, "You, the son of the devil, live to let human beings reveal their true beauty! Just remember, you It is enough to be the most beautiful! In our world, you are the most beautiful! How can you stop this experiment? The reason why I don't kill anyone is to see them kill each other because of you!"
"Ah Xin... What is your relationship with you?" Shen Yu suddenly remembered that Axin was introduced by Murong Mi.
Could it be that, like this person, are all perverts? She just called Murong Mirage "Master"
Murong Mi did not answer her directly, but said: "You are not allowed to stop, and you must not stop! Do you understand? You can only live to make human beings evil, and you can only live to show your beauty!" Are you going to give up this beautiful experiment just because of Li Yin alone? Don’t you think our determination is nothing more than that? Remember, you can’t give up! Otherwise, I will dissect your body with my own hands!”
"Ah, master." Ah Xin said, "How about dissecting her? Dissecting a living person is also very interesting. I really want to see how you dissect a living person..."
crazy…
Shen Yu felt very trembling, these two people are perverts!
"Ah, what a beautiful body! I can't help it anymore, I can't help but want to dissect you!" Murong Mirage's expression made Shen Yu feel extremely scary. Will she really die here
"I, I know!" Shen Yu had to give in to this pervert: "I will continue! Continue this experiment! Do as you say! Please, please don't kill me!"
"Huh? Really, won't you lie to me?" Murong Mi continued to smile and said, "Ah Xin will keep monitoring you, if you dare to stop, then... I will dissect you alive! Well, the first cut, start here..."
The maid at the side, Ah Xin, pursed her lips and smiled, lowered her head, fixed her eyes on Shen Yu, and said, "Did you hear what the master said? If you dare to act against the master's wishes, then you will be dissected." Well, I really want to see what your beautiful body looks like after being dismembered, it must be very beautiful, yes, it must be like this."
"Okay, Ah Xin, let her go." Murong Mi let go of her hand and said, "Shen Yu, remember what you said. This is an agreement between me and you. I'm really sorry for scaring you just now. Right? It's okay, come on, get dressed. This is good..."
"You, did you let Ah Xin monitor me from the beginning?" Shen Yu covered her chest with both hands, and said to Murong Mi: "What do you think of me from the beginning?"
"Ah? Of course it's a work of art, or a collection."
"You... haven't loved me?" Shen Yu burst into tears suddenly: "Have you never treated me as a 'person'?"
"Human?" Murong Mirage looked at Shen Yu as if he had heard something from the Arabian Nights, and said, "Hehe, almost? For me, people can only be divided into works of art and defective products. When I first saw Seeing your pics and knowing the blood you're bleeding I'm obsessed with you, ah, want to violate your body, you know? I've wanted to fuck you more than once, thinking I could do an incest Giving birth to a woman with such a beautiful body makes me extremely happy! Even Ah Xin can't make me so satisfied!"
Ah Xin is a woman Murong Mi met on a perverted forum before, she is a person with extremely serious symptoms of masochism, and was assigned by Murong Mi to monitor Shen Yu.
"You... Murong Mi, you... you pervert!"
Suddenly Ah Xin ran up and grabbed her by the hair, pinned her down on the floor, and shouted angrily, "How dare you insult the master? You bitch! Look at me..."
"Don't do this." Murong Mi said, "Let go, Ah Xin. Shen Yu, I have longed for your body until now. But, now is not the time, I want to make you degenerate even further , stain more blood, release more evil, then you will become more beautiful. At that time, when I violate you, I will have the most wonderful pleasure! Before that, I have to Take Ah Xin instead. She is my most loyal servant, and will monitor your every word and deed in the future. By the way, draw the picture for Bian Xingchen well, and then continue to use him... Remember, we, only It's the most beautiful! Wait for me, ah, I really want to touch you now... "
This perverted and extremely obscene words made Shen Yu truly feel the horror of Murong Mirage!
"You are mine... Remember, Shen Yu, you are mine! You are the most beautiful... a work of art!"
Shen Yu finally understood at this time.
Murong Mirage doesn't love her at all. Because he also regards himself as filthy and evil, and also regards her as a child of the devil.
Nor did he see her as a person. He just looks at himself with an aesthetic view that is completely reversed from that of normal people.
Shen Yu's body kept trembling, and she secretly swore in her heart that she must kill this man!
Must kill him!
At this time, Bian Xingchen received a call.
He was discussing with Huangfuhe and others, and the "unknown caller" on the top immediately let him know who the caller was.
"Hello," he answered the phone, stepped aside, and whispered, "You..."
"I will give you the drawing. But when you are instructed in blood, you just need to bring your mobile phone, and I will send you a multimedia message. Remember, in the future, there will be places where you will be needed."
Then, the phone was hung up.