There have been a lot of rewards recently, and they lasted for a long time. Perhaps the correct way to say it is that since this book was put on the shelves, various rewards have continued. It is not an exaggeration to describe it as overwhelming. There is a soldier who is serving in the military. Spending huge sums of money, many rich readers have spent huge sums of money to ask for more updates, and many more have received swipes that I can’t even count.
thank you all!
I feel that besides being able to say thank you here, the best reward is to work hard on writing and code well.
but…
There are many things that I need to explain and have the responsibility to explain. Whether everyone understands or scorns me, when I decided to write down these truest thoughts in my heart, I was ready to respond positively to all right and wrong.
The following two paragraphs are highlighted, don’t get me wrong:
[The first thing I want to explain and guarantee is that readers can rest assured that this book will not be unfinished or unfinished. This is certain, and it is also my minimum bottom line as the author.]
[The second thing I want to say is that in the days to come, I will try my best to keep updating and write as much as I can.]
I guarantee that I have said it, and I can’t tell what I want to express in the following content.
The creative process is very hard, how hard is it? If you don’t go deep into this field, you can’t deeply understand it. Moreover, each author’s hard work is different. People have different trivial matters, troubles and distress. Unprepared emergencies constantly occur in real life, and once someone chases a book, it will be impossible. Avoid negative comments, all of the above are sources of stress.
This is a muddy road that gets deeper and deeper, with strong people running fast and weak people struggling.
I am a person who disdains showing my weakness on the outside. This kind of inner feeling is extremely inconsistent with my outer appearance, which often makes people have the illusion that talking online and meeting offline are completely different people.
For a long time in my life before today, I felt embarrassed even crying in front of my closest friends. I was afraid of showing my unbearable and vulnerable side. I felt that not only would it make people feel more stressed, but I would also have no right to express my negative side. Emotions thrown at others.
But now when I write these words, the more emotion I feel is relief.
Resonating with people is an extremely difficult thing in itself. There are no two identical leaves in the world, and there are no two souls that are completely compatible.
However, I choose to tell you, my readers, many of these words that even my parents don’t know.
Why
Because there is no group that is closer to an author than the readers who have followed this book all the way to this day. The words narrated by each author often directly reflect his inner intuitive thoughts. They are read and liked. A manifestation of spiritual resonance.
I firmly and somewhat stubbornly believe that those of you who like the book "The End of the World" and have followed it all the way to this day can best understand what I want to express at this moment.
There is a huge group of readers, maybe as young as ten years old, maybe not much different from me.
A large portion of the readership group prefers to pursue books silently, and does not leave comments or join groups to interact. They never fall behind when they contribute subscriptions.
As a long work published on China Literature's platform, it has slowly gathered a lot of people in the past ten months from May last year to October now.
The cultivation of reading materials, the appreciation of editors, and the expectations of readers have gradually pushed this book to a level that I, as a new author, had never imagined.
How could I live up to such high expectations
The further this book went on, the harder it became to write it. There were a lot of pitfalls and all kinds of immature ideas that I poured into it, which made me feel more and more deeply how little I was capable of.
Can I master this style that is not easy to write in my first book, and such a long novel that is beyond my capabilities
I don’t know. I can only explore step by step, constantly innovate, constantly reflect, and keep improving. If you can’t do it, try your best. It may seem like a deep quagmire, but after driving away the mud, you will find the treasure hidden at the bottom. Who knows what I will gain
I have always held this idea in mind, and I have always strived to be a mature author with a wide range of ideas. I must not only write good novels, but also guide young readers to have correct views.
Then…
This morning, I suddenly felt extremely stressed, several times more than before. My emotions, which I could calm down in the past, suddenly became extremely restless and anxious, making me unable to do anything.
Not knowing who to tell, I sought help from a senior who took good care of me.
When I expressed my troubles in confusing and illogical words, the four words blurted out by this senior made me burst into tears for a moment.
He said: You are upset.
Many things that I don’t want to admit and dare not express are reflected in these four words.
Last month, I didn't sleep for forty hours on two days in early September.
For nearly half a month from mid-September to the end of the month, I slept for 2-3 hours a day. I was extremely lethargic and confused, and I looked exhausted.
Outsiders only saw that I was in poor spirits, but they didn’t know what I was enduring. During this period, I still had to type and update every day.
The biggest difference between online writers and traditional writers is the amount of updates every day, which is similar to competitions. Creations of more than two million words a year are common in this circle. There are several gods in the year.
Occupational diseases, cervical spine problems, waist and back problems, mental problems, insomnia and neurasthenia, a lot of comments about online violence, I have them all...
I even want to say something very ugly here that I least want to face:
Twenty-Two Swordsman Style turns out to be a female author! No wonder the more you write, the more you write, and girls become more verbose!
Including the editors who took me under my wing, they were only surprised before the recent photos were leaked. It turned out that the author who wrote about the big return was a girl
I never want to show the vulnerable side of girls in front of others. Before this, I have never used gender to seek understanding, because I feel that once I do this, I am escaping and regressing, facing the problem that should be solved. problem, slacking off and receiving consideration and preferential treatment that normal male authors do not have.
This isn't fair.
Now that I have spoken out, I have been enlightened and I have realized my own weakness. I am not that powerful or powerful, and sometimes I am even ignorant and insignificant.
If I want tolerance and understanding, and want to feel warmth and care, I can't find a group more suitable to give me this than the readers who have been supporting me.
So I wasted my coding time and wrote so much nonsense.
Finally, thank you for your love and support, and thank you to all the readers who encouraged, supported and criticized me.
From now on, I will no longer avoid problems, I will accept my shortcomings well, and I will face my heart correctly.
thank you all!
Oh, by the way, is there a monthly pass
Crazy request! !