[I can't go back anymore. 】
It has been three days since Su An returned to City A, and three days have been living in Han Jiabi’s apartment.
Originally, his Su Su finally came back to accompany him. Han Jiabi was very happy at first, but soon discovered something was wrong.
Byan's first album "The Other Side" has been officially released.
After "Voice of China" became famous, "Star Academy" became known to the audience. In this highly rated youth song and dance drama, Han Jiabi and Su An showed everyone that they were handsome. The appearance, their unique voice and superb singing skills are even more impressive.
The album "Beyond Shore" contains all 5 songs sung by Byan group in "Star Academy", and 5 unexposed new songs. This design and Mars's efforts to promote through wide channels has finally brought about the already sluggish. A year-end miracle in the record market.
The pre-sale volume of the album "Beyond Shore" was almost 100,000, and after the official release, the official sales exceeded 250,000 in just one week.
You know, in the popularization of the music mp3 format on the Internet, most of them are willing to listen to and download free songs online. Who wants to spend money to buy records? In the current market conditions, album sales in Hong Kong and Taiwan can reach more than 50,000, which can be called the queen of heaven, and the total sales of albums in the mainland can reach 100,000, which can only be achieved by very famous singers. The pre-sale volume of Byan's albums can reach 100,000, which is the only album this year to achieve this result. Not to mention that the number is still rising after the official sales exceeded 250,000. It is more than Han Dongyun last month. The 180,000 counted is even more alarming.
The insiders all show that the general trend of Byan and Han Dongyun all proves the power of the talent show.
In order to promote the album, Bjork arranged countless announcements for Han Jiabi and Su An, and the two of them were very busy.
There is nothing unusual about Su An in the show. It can be cute, funny, and revealing, which made all the program groups quite satisfied. However, Su An, who left the studio, was silent and almost depressed.
A pair of hollow cat eyes seemed to be covered with gray smoke.
Why? How did it change after returning from Korea? Han Jiabi was very worried and wanted to know the reason.
Obviously the TV series are very popular, and the album is also very well received. At the end of the year, the uncle said that they even had the opportunity to hold a song club, but Su An seemed unhappy at all, more than unhappy. Han Jiabi even felt that Su An was quieter and quieter in front of him. The more it feels about to collapse.
Bjork also quickly discovered the anomaly. He wanted to ask his assistant Aaron to ask what happened to Su An in South Korea, but he couldn't contact him for several days. The day before, he finally got through the phone, but Aaron on the other end of the phone looked quite similar. Tired, but asked about Su An's situation, and then hung up the phone.
At this point, neither Han Jiabi nor Bjork asked Su An much. Both believe that Su An’s current state is not derived from his acting career, but from his other identity, the adopted son of the underworld godfather of City A. Obviously this is not something they interfered with. They can’t help except for more care. What busy.
The people around him care about Su An carefully, and Su An himself can clearly feel that he is not a person who likes to cause confusion around him, but he finds that he can no longer pretend.
It seemed that a large part of the body had been hollowed out, staying in a distant country, and staying beside that person.
Su Anguang recalled what he said in a hurry that day, and he couldn't wait to slap himself in the face.
Yes, he really couldn’t accept what happened that night. He was a big man who had sex with his adoptive father, or the person he was fucked with. Whether it was because of homosexuality, incest, or the frustration of male self-esteem, all kinds of reasons made him unhappy, but This is not an excuse he used to hurt that person.
Su An couldn't forget the way Su Xitang looked at him at the time, with gray eyes and bloody lips.
The person who was like a god of death in a city finally only silently accepted his sharp words, and even bowed his head to apologize. It sounds like a drama to Su An’s counterattack, but what does he rely on for Su An?
The reason is that Su Xitang likes him, even loves him.
Because I don’t want to admit that my heart throbs in the kiss, I don’t want to confess my self-closing heart has a gap at the moment of the confession, I don’t want to say that my soul was so refreshed in that ruinous sex, Su An didn't want to admit, he didn't want to admit that he was a pervert, incest, gay, and oppressed sissy who might like his adoptive father. This was never a vocabulary that Su An could accept.
In terms of feelings, he has always been a normal or even ordinary man.
So he shirks all responsibilities like a coward and immediately makes himself a victim.
Dare to do this, can do it, but he depends on the other party and will silently accept all the blame, because that person loves him.
How many people spoil the love given by others in this way? Unscrupulous, squandered without guilt, thinking that it is inexhaustible, just a useful resource, not a human heart.
After thinking about it for a long time, Su An realized that the real scumbag was himself.
But he dared not do anything.
Go and call Su Xitang and go back to the Su’s villa to take a look. He dared not touch anything related to Su Xitang.
I just don’t dare, it’s like desperately wanting to leave the abyss, leaving those things he doesn’t want to admit, no matter if he’s already those things, he just wants to close his eyes and cover his ears and hide away, so that he can tell himself it’s not. , Nothing.
It's fine if you haven't known that person.
Also, such a perfect person should sit high in the clouds, how could he fall into the mud because of him.
Even though he suffers from insomnia every night, the short dream is full of Su Xitang's desperate eyes looking at him, and Su An, who is curled up on the bedside, still tells himself over and over again.
He is about to succeed.
He is still a normal person, can realize his dream, can marry a girl who doesn't need to be beautiful but only has a good personality, and has two children.
Isn't that his goal in life? Isn't it the same plan before or after rebirth
Don't waver, Su An.
Don't waver.
Su An picked up and shook the phone, and pressed the answer button.
"You dead boy finally answered the phone, Wang Chou has turned the sky upside down here, do you know, you can quickly return to me—"
When Chen Hao's manic voice was halfway through, Su An hung up the phone blankly and threw the phone aside.
The whole body was curled up and buried in the bed. Su An pretended not to hear the constant vibration of the phone, but closed his eyes tightly and told him that he was going to fall asleep soon.
Then he really fell asleep slowly.
Look, what is it, as long as you persist, you will definitely be able to do it.
Su An awoke from the lack of oxygen in the bed, and subconsciously took the phone to check the time.
3:20 in the morning.
The mobile phone prompts that there are 7 missed calls and one unread text message.
Su An was silent for a long time, and finally unlocked by sliding the screen.
"The boss was seriously injured, and he woke up today when he came back from South Korea, Wang Chou Private Hospital 301, love will not come."
After reading it three times before reading the message, Su An shook his hand, and the phone fell onto the bed with a snap.
The phone screen slammed dark.
—
"Yang Li is missing, only Zhao Zhenzhen was caught." Chen Hao reported from the hospital bed.
The face of the man lying on the hospital bed was paler than the white sheets, his eyes could hardly be opened, and his voice was extremely weak, but his tone was steady and calm.
"If you find it, Yang Ping, Yang Li's sister, will be able to catch Yang Li."
The man on the hospital bed was obviously difficult to speak, but he gave orders every word.
Chen Hao didn’t ask too much why he caught Yang Li’s sister so that Yang Li could be arrested. He never questioned or wondered the reason for every order Su Xitang gave, even if the man was still lying in the key care ward and even had the strength to get up. No.
Nodded immediately, Chen Hao stood up and wanted to say something, knowing that his boss never needed any comfort, and in the end he just twisted the quilt for the person on the bed and silently exited the ward.
After closing the door, only Su Xitang was left in the huge ward.
The clock on the bedside table said 3:50.
Su Xitang recalled slowly, sure that he hadn't suffered such a serious injury in several years. And in his life, he has never been so careless. He opened the door rashly without knowing who is outside. In his capacity, such a slackness may be the price of death, even if he escapes by chance. , Is also lying in bed like now, unable to move.
Those who came to the assassination tried their best. Although Su Xitang also injured him, the assassin finally escaped.
Fortunately, Su An was okay, and Yang Li was only targeting himself from the beginning.
Su Xitang thought with some gratefulness, and then laughed somewhat self-deprecatingly the next moment, but he didn't even have much strength to keep the corners of his mouth raised.
The quilt covering the body is very thick, and there is sufficient heating in the ward, which was opened by Chen Hao who said he was seriously injured.
Su Xitang still felt cold. It's really cold. The hands and feet, bones and internal organs are all frozen in ice, and even the breath can spit out ice slag at any time.
With his eyes open, Su Xitang blinked slowly, only admitting that he felt tired even blinking, so he could only close his eyes and start trying to fall asleep.
It's like falling asleep in a snowy field where the icy wind is whistling.
Fortunately, two months ago, this was something he had to do every day, he just needed to get used to it again.
It seemed that after a long time, and it seemed that they had just closed their eyes, several people guarding the door of the ward suddenly made noises.
"... Little Master... It's coming..."
"... Boss, he has taken a rest... He is badly injured... You can go in..."
…Little Master
There was the sound of the door rubbing against the floor, and it softly remembered being in the quiet empty room.
It's like the polar regions of Yonghan finally have light.
Su Xitang trembling eyelashes, but still gave up opening his eyes.
After all, you can tell yourself that the aurora will not disappear without opening your eyes, right.
The clock on the wall shows 3:59.
Su An, who ran into the hospital after getting off the taxi, was breathing a little short now. After gently opening the door, Su An immediately suppressed his loud breathing.
Snow-white room, snow-white bed, snow-white figure on the bed.
Obviously the heating in the room is adequate, but Su An subconsciously feels that the person in the hospital bed must feel cold.
Su An, who was standing at the door, did not take a step forward.
Obviously, after receiving the text message, he immediately called for a taxi and rushed through most of the city in the darkness. However, at this point, Su An was immediately defeated by the timidity in his heart.
Can't go any further.
Anyway, this person has already come to the rescue, and there are so many people from the whole Wang Chou, how can a underworld godfather lack someone to take care of, really don't need to have one more.
Anyway, I just came here to take a look, didn't he.
Su An blinked twice, then glanced at the figure on the hospital bed one last time, then silently stepped back two steps and closed the door again.
Su An didn't see it. The moment he closed the door, the man on the bed immediately opened his eyes and looked sideways at the door he closed.
Once again, he shut the man at the other end of the door.
After explaining to the people who were in charge of guarding outside the ward, Su An turned and walked towards the elevator.
The sweat on my back due to strenuous exercise has already cooled down, and it is uncomfortable to stick to it cold and wet.
Go back and take a bath and sleep, Su An told himself.
Arriving at Su An on the first floor, on the way to the gate, a doctor in a white lab coat came to face him, putting on a mask for himself.
Su An glanced over, and it seemed that two moles were found on the doctor's chin, but they were quickly covered by the mask.
Seeing Su An's sight, the doctor nodded to Su An, Su An nodded in response, and quickly walked to the door.
After a few steps, the doctor turned his head and saw that the boy had gone out of the gate without looking back. He turned and walked towards the elevator.
Why did you feel that the boy was a little familiar just now? The doctor thought with some confusion, but quickly eliminated distractions and calmly pressed the elevator button on the third floor.
—
"Dr. Xu, it's only been two hours for another check-up."
The little brother Wang Chou outside the ward said with some confusion.
"Although I transferred from the key nursing room, it is still in a critical period. Checking every two hours is necessary. Don't worry, you don't need to wake up the chairman if your hands and feet are lighter." Dr. Xu explained patiently.
"Okay, we two will go with you." One of them said with a smile.
Pushing Su Xitang's bed, Dr. Xu and two caregivers walked into the elevator.
There was also a doctor wearing a mask in the elevator, studying the physical examination report he was working on. When someone came in, he just nodded in a hurry, and immediately turned his eyes back to continue looking at the report in his hand.
In Wang Chou’s private hospital, the doctors are of very high quality. The two caregivers who have always been thugs in Wang Chouzhong have never graduated from high school. They admire doctors with a higher degree of education, so they dare not to bother and stand silently. By the hospital bed.
Only Doctor Xu couldn't help but glance at the doctor in the corner, his eyes full of pleading and fear.
It seemed that he could feel Dr. Xu's gaze, and the doctor who was immersed in the report also raised his head to look at Dr. Xu, his eyes cold.
A strong smell of blood wafted from the hospital monitoring room.
The monitor was lying in the seat with his neck back. He had lost his breath, and a huge gap was cut in his throat.
The monitoring screens of various locations in the hospital were displayed normally, but it happened that the monitoring screen playback screen at the elevator was covered with blood, and the situation could not be seen clearly.
—
"-Ding."
When the second floor arrived, the elevator door slowly opened.
Only one person got out of the elevator.
The doctor wearing a mask slowly pushed the hospital bed in his hand and walked in the empty corridor.
"I know you are awake, Su Xitang, stop pretending."
The doctor opened his mouth slowly, as if taking a walk. He lowered his head and opened the quilt covering the hospital bed. He threw it on the ground at random, and exclaimed, "It seems that I really hurt you. It's not light, you shouldn't be able to move until now, and that's how I dare to show up openly."
The person lying on the hospital bed slowly opened his eyes and looked at the person walking forward holding the hospital bed indifferently.
"I've actually heard of your name a long time ago. Actually, Yang Li paid me a low price, but I thought it was so interesting to pass you on. I thought it would be nice to meet in the future, but it's actually pretty good. Disappointed."
The doctor seemed to be talking to Su Xitang, it was more like talking to himself, babbling: "But although I am disappointed in South Korea, I feel much more interesting when I come to City A. You deserve it. The city, it took me a lot of effort to not be discovered by your people, and this hospital should be the most difficult one to get into in the hospital I sneaked into. Interesting, uncle I find it interesting."
"... So in order to express my gratitude," the man dressed as a doctor stopped and laughed slowly, "I will make your death easier."
Even at the juncture of the life and death crisis, the man whose face was so pale that he was almost terrified did not have any extra expressions, as if he had just heard a message that was neither salty nor weak, and even his eyelashes did not tremble.
Taking off the mask on his face, the man with two moles on his chin put his gloved hand into his pocket.
Under the light, the figure was drawn to the old man, and on the ground where the light could be seen, the figure was gradually distorting.
"Boo—"
The gunfire suddenly sounded!
A bouquet of blood splashed, and the blue and white hospital bed clothes smeared with blood red.
The eyes of the person in the hospital bed suddenly widened, and they were extremely calm in the face of death threats, but at this moment they could no longer conceal their surprise.
"How can..."
The man lowered his head, looked at the bleeding chest in disbelief, subconsciously stretched out his hand to plug the wound, but it was useless, blood gurgling continuously from his fingers.
Looking back hard, the man wanted to see who actually shot himself.
Was it still discovered by the caregivers outside the ward? Damn... I was a killer who was offered a high price reward in the United States, and he was going to die in this place...
The young man who appeared at the corner still held up his pistol cautiously, pointed the gun at the fallen man and slowly approached.
The man whose vision was gradually blurred finally saw the boy's face.
It was not the thugs of Wang Chou that he thought, but the young man he met on the first floor! At that time, the young man obviously left like a okay person! The expression is so natural, is it all acting
Probably because he was about to die, the dying killer finally recalled why he thought this boy was familiar, because he had also seen him at the airport in South Korea!
Damn, I was fooled like this... I was fooled by someone who deceived and murdered countless people... This boy... Isn't he an actor...
Mr. Killer, who closed his eyes unwillingly, didn't know that he had guessed the truth.
Su An was still holding his pistol firmly, but after lowering his arm, he began to tremble slightly.
Su Xitang turned her head with difficulty, looking at the boy who was returning, looking at his red eyes, pale face and trembling arms.
Su An looked down at Su Xitang, suddenly smiled tragically, and slumped directly on the ground with his feet soft.
"I thought I could pretend that nothing happened, just as before and tell myself that nothing has changed. This is really stupid." The boy leaned against the wall and didn't care about the blood on his trousers. He just opened his mouth numbly. .
But Su Xitang wanted to wipe off the blood stains for him, but he couldn't move, and in the end he could only look at the desperate cat-eye boy in silence.
"Look, I didn't even dare to kill people before, but after I killed people once, I shot a lot more quickly this time," Su An looked down at the gun in his hand and opened his mouth coldly, "... So, I really can't go back."
"I don't know what to do anymore, or you can tell me what to do... I will listen to you."
Su An closed his bloodshot eyes wearily.