[Can be loved and loved. 】
In the sixth year of Huangchu, that is, 225 AD, in October, the ancient city of Guangling, Linjiang watched soldiers, more than 100,000 soldiers, and hundreds of miles of flags. In the cold, the waterway was frozen, and the boat could not enter the river. During the period, after passing Yongqiu, I went to Cao Zhi’s premises and met with Cao Zhi. No one knew what the two brothers had talked about. What this has to do with the son of a talented hero who has had family affection, has fought, has turned against each other, and has murdered intent. After the end, Cao Pi ordered the increase of Cao Zhi's households by five hundred.
In the first month of the seventh year of Huangchu, Cao Pi returned to Luoyang's palace. In May Bingchen, that is, June 28, Cao Pi became seriously ill, and ordered Chen Qun, Cao Zhen, Cao Xiu, and Sima Yi to receive the bequest, and jointly assisted the heir Cao Rui. Let the harem Shuyuan and Zhaoyi return to their homes. In May Ding Si day, Cao Pi died at the age of 40. According to his proclamation during his lifetime, he was buried in Shouyang Mausoleum without a tree or grave.
At this point, Cao Pi's role has come to an end.
The shooting time of more than three months was not too long, but Su An was still a little bit lost on the day when it was finished.
He knows how much he has paid for this role. He has read "Three Kingdoms", "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", studied "Weiwen Di Ji", "Dian Lun" and "Yan Ge Xing", and tried to figure this out from the legacy works of Barnyard Officials and Cao Pi. The character of the character, and tried his best to bring himself into the role of Cao Cao's eldest son, making a reasonable interpretation with the style of "Su An".
After finally being able to rest, Su An and Han Jiabi, who had been killed before him, went out to play crazy for a few days.
It's crazy fun, but public figures like them have limited places to go. To be crazy, it's basically two people wearing hats, sunglasses and scarves, and they climbed the Great Wall fully armed.
After calling out Lu Shuangshuang and Han Dongyun, the four of them frustrated Mahjong enthusiastically.
In the end, Bjork was so lazy and depraved that he couldn't stand the celebrities. He angered Su An with a period drama of the upper level of the team, and also found a musical program for him to be a long-term host.
And Han Jiabi, Bjork began planning his solo album.
At this point, Bjork no longer intends to force Su An and Han Jiabi to sell them together. At the beginning, the combination was established because in the entertainment circle where the good and the bad, there was no strong newcomer to come out for a long time, the two men's combination is really rare, and Bjork may not be thinking about gambling.
From the talent show "Voice of China" to the idol drama "Star Academy", and from the album "The Other Side" to the historical drama "Avenger", the group Byan has already gained enough popularity. It will be divided for a long time. Su An and Han Jiabidu An artist who can be alone, just a profound acting skill, a singing voice that shocks the heavens, and when there is enough foundation, there is no need to continue to tie together, then it becomes a restriction and restriction.
Su An was picked up by a martial arts drama. Because he didn't have enough martial arts skills and enough time to practice martial arts, Su An played a weak scholar in white clothes in this "Dragon Fights in the Wild", and was disturbed by chance. In the disputes between the rivers and lakes, I became obsessed with the heroine, but never confessed his true feelings, but silently guarded the heroine.
This is a fairly facial character, a classic male match, and it's not too difficult. The cast is naturally not as strong as "Avenger". Both the heroine and the male protagonist are only second-tier stars, but they are both considered to be popular with the audience.
Every actor hopes that every one of his works is a big production, but the ideal fullness and reality are often just an A cup, even the son of Chairman Mars may not be treated like this. Su An also understands that newcomers like him who debuted for a year have received a lot of popularity because of talent shows, idol dramas, and gossip. They are very virtual and easily unstable. Therefore, while pursuing quality, the pursuit of quantity is also very important.
After "Avenging", Bjork did not find a suitable good opportunity for Su An, but it is impossible to sit at home and wait for the opportunity. The audience will not wait for you, so transitional works like "Dragon Fights in the Wild" are also Very necessary.
Su An soon joined the filming of "Dragon Fighting in the Wild".
In a few days, it was mid-April.
The city in early spring is full of joyful vigor, like buds dotted on the branches overnight, the chirping birds one after another, the unknown flowers blooming at the corners, all revealing the message of spring.
The whole city seems to be waking up gradually in the long and gloomy hibernation, wiping the sharp high-rise buildings with sunlight, looking like new.
Su An once woke up in the middle of the night, only to remember that it seemed that his death day had arrived.
One year ago and today, I fully and truly tasted the taste of death, such powerlessness, such irreversible, as if everything I did during my lifetime was futile, it was a ridiculous struggle, and I was dying. It turned into worthless dust in front of him.
Su An opened his eyes in sweat and looked straight at Su Xitang's peaceful sleeping face beside the pillow.
The whole body trapped in the terrible memories was trembling, like a thief guarding the stolen goods, for fear that someday the treasures he cherished but never really belonged to him disappeared. The panic from the heart, the saw generally grinds and grinds back and forth.
For a moment, Su An almost woke up Su Xitang, talked to him about his previous life, his mediocre appearance and failed career, and his unpleasant voice, and talk about his sad and embarrassing death. It was a short time ago. The sentence of life is nothing but a failure.
But Su An clenched his teeth the next moment, almost holding his breath.
It's ridiculous to myself. Su An told himself mockingly.
How dare he. The matter of rebirth is bizarre enough, and everyone will only think that he is a lunatic. What's more, his previous life was such a failed person. He was too afraid to let Su Xitang know that he was such a downright coward and loser, and he would curl up his heart just thinking about it.
Under the moonlight, Su Xitang’s sleeping face peacefully resembles a water lily floating on the water. It has a transcendent indifferent indifferent, but it also has a superficial lightness and temptation. It can only be seen from a distance and not be indecent. Everyone wants to make such a beauty. Grab it in the palm of your hand.
The more you look at it, the more it pales in comparison, Su An only feels the bone-worn inferiority and panic.
He can make derogatory judgments of extremeness, stubbornness, selfishness, laziness, arrogance, childishness, etc. as long as he examines himself a little bit. Maybe it's not that there is no good side, but the ugly side of human nature can find all the examples in him.
Most importantly, he is a liar.
Su Xitang will share with him bit by bit his own experience when he was young, his struggles and his reflections on the negligence committed by his youth and frivolousness. These experiences and memories have made Su An more and more aware of Su Xitang’s truth and how impeccable he is. , But when there were always troubles and depressions, Su Xitang gradually no longer concealed his fragile side to him.
On the other hand, I never dared to mention another name I had once, and another life behind that name. I always want to show my best side to Su Xitang, always want to hear Su Xitang’s praise and confession time and time again, but I am always shy to give the same response, and sometimes even take it for granted.
Such a self, I was really afraid that Su Xitang would suddenly get bored that day. But the more I think about it, the more I am afraid, the more I am afraid and the more I think about it, the more I am afraid, the more I want to cover it up, the more I cover it, the more I am afraid, and it has almost become a vicious circle.
Whenever he was free and alone, Su An was always concerned about gains and losses, suspicious. In fact, I really dislike this naive and fierce virtue, but I can't restrain it.
Gradually, Su An took the initiative to ask for sex more and more times, as if this could prove the bond between the two and bring a reliable sense of security.
But Su Xitang's occasional joke or a erratic look can make Su An disappear all the information.
It's not that I haven't thought about sitting down and telling a man about my thoughts bit by bit, but I can't talk about it after all. Su An’s somewhat introverted character has been caused by too many hardships, so he is so sensitive and suspicious. Su An also knows that this is wrong. It is almost as unreasonable as a little girl. However, the rich thinking brought about by the actor’s career is as if he can’t shut his mouth. The gates of the flood of negative, certain, and hesitant thoughts are pouring out every day. They are magnificent, but they flow silently and depressively.
Su An stepped forward and kissed Su Xitang's tall nose, and closed his eyes tiredly.
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I don't know if I suddenly regained my consciousness or what, I have been avoiding contact with Su An, who was once familiar but unfamiliar with Su An, and finally was able to calmly face his previous life again.
In front of his tombstone.
In a remote corner of the cemetery on the outskirts of the city.
After going to Su’an’s former economic company for inquiries, Su An learned that his friends and colleagues who were still affectionate in his previous life jointly organized a simple funeral for Su’an and buried him in a remote corner of the cemetery. Although it is for the reason of spending less money, this corner is extremely quiet and it is a good place to return.
Su An stared blankly at the name on the tombstone and the slightly blurred photo in the upper right corner. The man in the blackboard photo looked at himself silently, without sorrow or joy.
The branches above my head rattled, and the ground was covered with unburned paper money and the remains of firecrackers. The dust was swept back and forth, and everything settled down quietly.
At first I couldn't calm down, and gradually I could receive the fact that my body that I had used for 26 years has turned into a small altar of ashes lying on the ground.
Life is actually unknown. Looking at it this way, everything is possible. What happens is the truth. Instead of falsification and refutation, you should enjoy it. It is a gift from the goodwill of the universe, for example—
The bouquet of flowers in front of the tombstone still has dew on the delicate petals.
Su An never imagined that someone would come to his tomb to pay his respects after the death of a former widow like himself, and even bring him a bunch of blooming flowers.
Su An wanted to know who this person was.
Suddenly flashed in my mind the sighing words of an employee of Su An's former management company: "In fact, Su An is quite talented, but his voice is a bit short and unpleasant. It may be because these characters are very inferior. They usually don't talk to people. It's really true. Too lonely. Tell me, in our circle, how can you not have contacts if you want to be famous? In fact, Su An used to be successful, but... Alas, when the funeral was held, I heard that Zhang Liubai and Zhang Tianwang were also there. Oh..."
It's a pity that there is absolutely no such word in life. Su An's greatest blessing is that he has a second chance to chase his dreams.
Can be loved and loved.
Su An, who had walked out of the cemetery, originally planned to go home, but was suddenly dragged towards Wang Chou's company building by the throbbing of his heart.
Suddenly I wanted to see you very much.
Su Xitang was surprised when he heard the secretary report that the young master had come. Because Su An had never been to the company before, Su Xitang wondered that his cat-eyed teenager was unwilling to come into contact with these things that involve the darkness of the bottom of society, so he rarely talked to him about his work at Wang Chou.
But what happened this time...
Su Xitang, who thought something was wrong, quickly walked out of the office, but saw the young man standing outside the door with a smile and handing him a paper bowl.
"Here, the lees I bought just now are all made up with hot water, and you can get fever if you drink it."
Su Xitang took the paper bowl and felt the piping hot temperature across the thin paper wall, ironing it extremely.
"What's the matter..." Su Xitang pondered.
"Nothing." The boy smiled and said, his hair was softly attached to his forehead, and a pair of clear cat eyes squinted playfully.
"... I just miss you."