Shen Shao stumbled out all the way, his expression was bleak, those eyes that were quite similar to Li Qinyuan seemed to have extinguished all the light at this time, and it was actually a bit more empty than this late night.
Seeing his expression, Chang Feng was startled, and he hurried over to meet him, holding Shen Shao's arm, and worriedly said, "Master, are you alright?"
"… fine."
Shen Shao shook his head, his voice was hoarse, if he didn't listen carefully, he might not even be able to hear clearly.
Without letting Chang Feng help him, he turned his head and glanced behind him, the night was dark, the curtains lifted by him earlier had long since returned to calm, and the hand behind him was tightly clenched by him. Gu Yu had said those words to him earlier. It was still lingering in his ears, every word like a knife, piercing into his heart again and again, so painful that he even wanted to curl up on the ground regardless of his dignity.
"Did anyone see it?" He asked Chang Feng in a hoarse voice.
Even at such a time, he still cared about her, and did not want others to know, for fear of ruining her reputation.
"No, my subordinates have been guarding outside, and no one has come in. Only the maidservant next to Miss Gu..." Chang Feng hesitated, "She came from the small kitchen, and the subordinates were too far away to stop her."
"She's fine." Shen Shao said in a hoarse voice, then glanced at the curtain again, then withdrew his gaze and said solemnly, "...Let's go."
After thinking about it—
He will not come again.
He was never afraid of offending the powerful, nor was he afraid of offending His Majesty. Even if he lost everything and had to start all over again, he was never afraid... But what to do? His son doesn't want him at all. To her, he is both a burden and a burden.
His existence will only make her uncomfortable and make her miserable.
Shen Shao wanted to laugh, but he couldn't, and Qing Jun's face had a smile that was even uglier than crying.
When he was young, he also hated Gu Yu, and felt that his love was wasted like this, and that the sincere love of so many years was just a lie. At that time, he even thought about waiting until one day, When he ascends to a high position, he must bring his sweet wife and children to stand in front of Gu Yu and make her regret it.
But later...
He left the capital, went to many places, and finally returned to the capital. He originally thought that after such a long time, he could let it go... No longer loving her, not hating her, treating her as a stranger, also Or an old friend.
Maybe,
Wait a few more years.
When his mind is more stable, he may also sit with her and toast a cup of tea to the past.
But in the end, he still looked at himself highly, Gu Chu was his calamity, a mortal evil that he could never penetrate in his life... He was also his female bodhisattva, and was his only hope to support him in the dark years. .
But his female bodhisattva doesn't want him anymore.
No matter what he does, she doesn't want him.
The smile on Shen Shao's face was really ugly. He walked out step by step, although his figure was still as straight as a green bamboo, but it made people feel as if he would fall down at any time.
Chang Feng, who was standing beside him, saw him like this, he didn't know how to persuade him. He was a stupid mouth. He just thought that if the master is like this, it would be better to cry a lot. One sentence, I heard footsteps behind me.
Shen Shao also heard it.
He stopped and turned his head, his dim eyes reflecting a dazzling light, but when he saw the person coming, the light that only rose in his eyes suddenly went out.
Not her.
He had no interest in talking, and looked at Qiuyue lightly.
Qiuyue ran too fast, and her breathing would be a little difficult, but her eyes were fixed on Shen Shao, as if she had cried, and she was red. How long are you going to torture Miss?!"
Before Shen Shao could speak, Chang Feng frowned.
He frowned and said solemnly, "What do you mean? The master is here to deliver medicine to Miss Gu today! That ginseng Yangrong Pill is the master's reference to an ancient book, and it was prepared by countless famous doctors, you... "
He couldn't bear his master's good intentions being misunderstood, but Shen Shao didn't want to talk about it. Just as he was about to interrupt Chang Feng's words, he heard the always calm Qiuyue sneer: "Deliver medicine? Our government is short of this bottle. Two bottles of medicine? Want you to deliver it at night?!"
Before waiting for the master and servant to speak, she said again: "Sir Shen, you and the young lady have known each other since childhood, don't you know what her illness is? You know that the young lady should not be sad or happy, why do you keep appearing again and again? in front of her!"
Shen Shao frowned, stopped what he was about to say, and asked her, "What do you mean?"
Is it...
His heart skipped a beat, Gu Ting got sick this time because of him
But why
Doesn't she love him? Don't you wish you never knew him? When I saw him just now, I could look at him with a cold expression, and the words he said were more severe than the knife of Bitter Winter. How could such a Gu Yu get sick for him
There seemed to be a thought flashing in his mind, but that thought was too fast and too hasty, and it disappeared before he caught it.
Seeing Qiuyue with red eyes, looking at him with hatred, Shen Shao suddenly became anxious, he took a step and grabbed Qiuyue's arm, almost eagerly asked: "Say, what do you mean?! Gu Away from her, she to me…”
Her arm was grabbed so hard, Qiuyue frowned in pain, but she didn't struggle, she pursed her red lips and said hatefully, "Sir Shen, everyone says you are smart, they say you are powerful, and they say you are rare in this world. You are a sensible person, but why are you acting like a fool in some matters!"
This is really not a nice word.
Chang Feng's face changed on the spot, but without Shen Shao's instructions, he didn't dare to act rashly, and could only look at Qiu Yue with unhappy eyes.
And what about Qiuyue
Her face was full of ridicule and hatred, "Don't you think it's strange? The lady is careful and kind, and she usually gets out of the car to give some money when she sees a beggar she doesn't know. If there is a sick girl in the family, she is also a helper. I'm looking for a doctor and giving me money... But why would you say such resolute words when you need her the most?"
"After so many years, don't you doubt it?"
"I… "
Shen Shao looked panicked and his voice was hoarse, "I don't believe she is that kind of person, but she said..."
Qiuyue interrupted him without waiting for him to finish, "She said she didn't love you, she said she could live well without you..." Seeing the expression on Shen Shao's face, she wanted to laugh out loud, but she felt that she The lady is really pitiful.
Her young lady lost her parents since she was a child and was raised by the old lady.
Other children can cry and laugh, act coquettishly and playfully, but what about her young lady? She had already read Buddhist scriptures when she was still literate. Just because Buddhist scriptures could calm her mind, she followed the rules every day, never laughed, and rarely cried.
Her young lady is smart, gentle, and tolerant. Who doesn't like her in the family
The only time she was presumptuous in her life was to secretly like someone without telling others.
Qiuyue still remembers that a long, long time ago, her young lady once told her, "Qiuyue, I seem to have fallen in love with someone." She also remembered that when the young lady agreed to Shen Gongzi's pursuit, she was very drunk for the first time, holding a wine glass and bringing She said to her with unconcealed joy, "I know that a person like me is not qualified to be with other people, but he is so good, I like him so much, I like him so much that I know it shouldn't be, it's impossible, and it's impossible. I still can't help but want to be closer to him, closer."
…
"If I don't care about you, why did Miss Nian bother to inquire about you?"
"If I didn't like you, why would she be so sad to know that you and Princess Changping got engaged? Do you know how hard the young lady has been in the past few years? Do you know how much she felt in her heart when she said those words to you? Suffering?!"
"You don't know anything..."
"You only know that the miss has failed you, and you only know that the miss can't handle you."
"But who knows her suffering?"
Tears streamed down, Qiuyue broke away from Shen Shao's hand, squatted on the ground with her knees in her arms, and began to cry, she didn't know how long it took before she said hoarsely: "Shen Shao, Lord Shen, if you want to know the past If you want to do something about it, just ask your good mother and ask her what she said to the lady back then..."
Shen Shao said hoarsely, "Mother..."
He looked down at Qiuyue, who was crying, and then looked at the peaceful curtain in the distance, and suddenly strode over there, with urgency and panic, he wanted to know what happened that year, but he When his hand touched the curtain, he paused.
There was a loud cry from the room, like a whimper from hiding under a quilt, with restraint and depression...
It seems that he was afraid that others would find out, so he didn't even dare to cry.
Shen Shao suddenly did not dare to go in.
He already understood what Qiuyue said in his heart, and also understood that her previous cold words were all disguise.
It was because he understood that he did not dare to go in at this time.
If everything is as Qiuyue said, then what is his hatred for her for so many years
Knowing that she was not in good health, she had to come to her again and again, and it was impossible to see that she was on good terms with others, so when she saw her and Han Ziqian together that day, he went on a rampage regardless of his identity and wanted her answer, so he used his drunkenness to coerce her...
It was as if a needle had been stabbed in the heart, causing dense pain.
Shen Shao stood at the door clutching his heart. He didn't know how long he had been standing, but he only knew that the night was getting darker. He only knew that the people in the room were tired from crying and passed out, so he dared to sneak in, sit beside the bed, and take care of him. She wiped away the tears from her face, then watched her sit for a while before walking out.
Qiuyue and Changfeng are outside.
Seeing him come out, Qiuyue didn't say a word, she wanted to lift the curtain and go in on the spot.
"Take care of her." Hearing Shen Shao's voice behind her, Qiuyue paused and went in without saying a word.
Only Shen Shao's master and servant were left in the yard, Chang Feng looked at Shen Shao who looked bad, and said in a low voice, "Master, we are now..."
"go home."
He needs to know what happened back then!
Shen family.
In the old lady Shen's house.
Before the lights went out, the plain-clothed old lady Shen knelt down on the futon, twisted the beads in her hand, opened her mouth, and recited the Buddhist scriptures silently. She heard the sound from outside and the approaching footsteps. She didn't open her eyes, she still recited the Buddhist scriptures, and she didn't open her mouth until she finished reading a scroll of scriptures, "I'm back."
The sound is very low.
Shen Shao didn't speak, looked down at his mother's figure, and said for a long time, "What did you tell her back then?"
She twisted the hand of the Buddha bead for a while, but it was only a momentary effort, and Mrs. Shen returned to normal. She raised her eyes and looked at the Buddha who rescued the suffering in the Buddhist altar. Ask again."
"Mother,"
Shen Shao said in a deep voice, "I want to know."
A slight sigh rang out in the room, and Mrs. Shen saw the young son's red eyes from the corner of his eye, and finally removed the Buddha beads in her hand, and said in a low voice, "You and your sister have two children in my life, your sister. It's a bad guy, you left me early, and you... but you like a bad guy."
As soon as Shen Shao heard this, he understood.
He looked at his mother's figure in disbelief, and said in a hoarse voice, "Are you because of Ah Ling's body? But you clearly like her, you... "
"I like her." Mrs. Shen interrupted him, "A-chan is a good boy, no one dislikes her, but it doesn't mean that I know she is weak and she is a premature death, and I can still watch you all over the place. Together."
"I know what kind of temper you are, and what kind of affection you have towards her."
"Just like your sister, you are both amorous. If one day, the child will leave you, I'm afraid you won't live long."
"Yu Qian—"
She sighed in a low voice, "I've already sent your sister away. I really don't want the white-haired person to send the black-haired person."
Shen Shao was speechless, before he said after a while: "But you shouldn't... You shouldn't let her open this mouth, you shouldn't let me misunderstand and resent her for so many years. You know she's not in good health, you know... Mother, You also really loved her, you, how can you bear it?"
Madam Shen was silent for a while, "If I tell you, would you agree?"
Shen Shao pursed his lips and did not answer.
He naturally refused. He knew from the beginning that she was not in good health, but even so, he loved her deeply. For him, the more he could spend with Gu Tuo, the more they would be. A day of joy.
"Neither would she."
Mrs. Shen said: "She said, she didn't want to last long, she just wanted to accompany you through this difficult time... I was the one who knelt down in front of her and begged her to let you go. Yuqian, you can blame me, hate me. I don't care, as your mother, I never seek glory and wealth, but only hope that you will be safe in your life."
Shen Shao didn't know what to say, he couldn't blame her.
His mother lost her daughter in middle age, and then lost her husband. She watched the Shen family fall and others ridiculed... But she never bowed her head to anyone.
Over the years, his mother has accompanied him around. As she said, she only wants him to be safe in his life.
But what about his grandfather? What's wrong with her
He couldn't imagine how her mother felt when she knelt in front of her back then? She loved her elders since childhood, but one day she knelt down in front of her and begged her to let her son go. He couldn't imagine what kind of will she used to walk in front of him later and say such resolute words.
I can't even imagine how difficult it has been for her in the past few years.
The bloody smell in his throat seemed to be thicker, Shen Shao pinched his fingers tightly, his eyes were red, and he forcibly endured it.
Suddenly there was no sound in the room, and neither mother nor son spoke.
The evening wind patted the window wood, and it took a moment for Old Shen Furen to hear a slightly tired voice, "Whatever you want to do, just do it. I originally thought that if you stay far away, you'll be fine."
"But the years you..."
"I'm watching you go down day by day, it's better... let you be together from the beginning."
that way,
At least live a few years.
She spent five years trying to prove that there was no future between them, and that they could live well with each other after they were separated. Unexpectedly, five years later, the girl from the preface Xiaoyanyan became more and more quiet, and Her gentle and graceful son... is also getting more and more depressed.
Thinking of Gu Yu's "Old Madam Shen" that day, her hand trembled slightly while pinching the Buddha beads.
It was she who destroyed these two children with her own hands.
the next day.
Gu Wuyou and Changping were enjoying the shade in the yard. It rained last night. Today, the temperature is not as high as before, but the sky is bluer than before... The two sisters haven't seen each other for a while. No one will be served at this meeting, and they will speak their own words.
"After a while, the princess' mansion is cleaned up, and you can leave the palace." Gu Wuyou held a round fan in his hand, and he was not fanning it for a while, but his expression was a little happy, "We will meet in the future. It's much easier to talk."
Chang Ping said distressedly: "The queen mother can't bear me, she insists that I come out to live after the big wedding."
"It won't be long." Gu Wuyou smiled and said, "You, you have been staying with your aunt for a while, and when you get married, you won't be able to go back from time to time." After thinking about it, he asked again, "You and Shen Have you ever gotten along with your uncle?"
Hearing her talk about this, Changping was a little unhappy.
He couldn't eat the fruit in his hand anymore. He wiped his hands while holding the handkerchief, pouted, and said with an unhappy face, "Originally, my brother opened the banquet yesterday, invited him to come, and also called me, thinking about it. Let's get along before we get married, so as not to become estranged in the future."
"What would you think..."
"I've waited for him for a long time and haven't seen him come. Later, someone came and talked back and forth, saying that there was something wrong and he couldn't come."
The more she talked, the more unhappy she became, but she wasn't the kind of master who would beat people and smash things when she was angry, twisted her veil, and said angrily, "I don't even want to marry him."
"You can't say that."
Gu Wuyou took the fan and patted the back of her hand lightly, "You and Uncle Shen were married by your uncle personally, and besides, Uncle Shen is not an unruly person, I'm afraid something happened yesterday, so it was delayed. ."
Just after saying this, Bai Lu came to pass the word, "Master, Lord Shen is here."
These words made the two masters in the yard stunned. After a while, Gu Wuyou smiled and said to Changping, "Look, what I said, Uncle Shen must know that you are here, so I came here to apologize to you. ."
Although Chang Ping did not speak, his cheeks were slightly red, and the small mouth that was still pouting just now was slightly raised.
It's kind of happy.
His eyes were also looking outside, and his expression was noble and expectant.
Gu Wuyou followed Li Qinyuan to call Shen Shao uncle, and he did not shy away, and invited someone in. Seeing that he was not wearing an official uniform today, he came in from outside in white clothes. direction, knelt straight down.