Even though she is now signed to a record company, Jian Yao still likes to go to the bar to sing, she likes the relaxed and free atmosphere there, and likes the feeling that everyone is attracted by her singing, puts down everything in their hands, and concentrates on listening to her singing.
Lu Zhen often said that Jian Yao's free-spirited personality is not suitable for the entertainment industry.
Jian Yao has only signed with the company for only half a year, counting it in detail, there are countless times of violations, large and small.
The first one is to try not to show your face and go out to sing easily. Jian Yao can't do it at all. She has many friends, and she often sings in bars, making the scene very lively.
It is also rare, her personality is a bit biased towards boys, carefree and informal, so it is very easy to make friends.
Jian Yao's life never seems to be lacking in excitement. Her personal style is too strong, and she always has her own light, so where she stands, it must be the place where people's eyes gather.
So even though she has a rebellious personality and is unrestrained, her company still insists on signing her, and always unconditionally tolerates her various bottom-line temptations and all her willful behavior.
They were sure that she would be on fire, not only on fire, but also explode, like the brightest fireworks in the night sky.
She will be more beautiful than fireworks.
Jian Yao's first single album was released when she was in her junior year, and once it was released, it triggered a frenzy of sales.
The whole album has an unrestrained style, even the photo of her on the album cover is an enlarged black and white face, only her lips are bright red, her hair is disheveled by the wind, her jaw is slightly lifted, showing a bit of arrogance Temperament, looking down on everyone.
At that time, the entertainment industry was still dominated by sweet, cute and playful styles. Jian Yao's painting style was so unique that she attracted everyone's attention as soon as she appeared.
Her voice is even more unique, with a faint smoky voice, and the songs she sings are also a little lazy and rebellious.
That summer, Jian Yao became popular.
Just as her company expected, Jian Yao's rise to fame was so rapid that it could almost be called a blockbuster.
However, Jian Yao, who has become a star, has not become restrained and well-behaved as everyone expected.
On the contrary, she is still the same, still self-willed, doing what she likes, saying what she wants to say, living a real and lively life.
Lu Yan knew that her mother was a star, and a superstar.
When she was a child, she was very ignorant. She always showed off her mother's photo to the children around her, saying that my mother is a big star.
The children were all envious of Lu Yan having a celebrity mother, until one day, a female classmate in the kindergarten said to Lu Yan, "Although you have a celebrity mother, but your mother is not by your side, you are just a child without a mother. I don't envy you."
Lu Yan's hand holding her mother's photo suddenly tightened...
Although she's a star, she's no longer by her side, she's gone, and she's never coming back.
Lu Yan has forgotten many things from her childhood. Only that incident, she remembers clearly, and even the different expressions on the faces of the children at that time, she can clearly recall now...
At that time, Jian Yao was really like fireworks, blooming enthusiastically in the night sky, and then disappearing in a flash...
In the past, her father never mentioned the cause of Jian Yao's death, and never told Lu Yan the reason, but after all, her mother is a public figure, so there are many speculations from the outside world, with different opinions.
Some people said that she committed suicide because of her extreme personality; others said that she was sick and died in the hospital...
Sometimes the Internet is not well developed, and a lot of news comes from entertainment tabloids. After the accident, Lu Zhen used all his connections and forces to block the news about the cause of Jian Yao's death, so as to prevent people from speculating for no reason...
This was the last thing he could do for her.
Regarding the two statements that she heard when she was a child, Lu Yan felt that neither was possible. First of all, Jian Yao has always been in good health, without any diseases or hidden dangers;
As for the second theory, suicide, seems even more unlikely.
With Jian Yao's bright personality, how could she commit suicide? Besides, she left behind a child who was waiting to be fed, and Lu Zhen, who was a father, and left this world...
Lu Yan rubbed her head, almost bored to death!
Seeing the days go by day by day, Jian Yao and Lu Zhen have gradually moved from being in a relationship to living together. Lu Zhen has graduated and started working, and has achieved a little success. The two are about to talk about marriage.
She must immediately find out the cause of Jian Yao's death.
As long as the cause is found, it is possible to eliminate and prevent it. After being reborn this time, she must keep her mother's life no matter what.
During the winter break of junior year, Lu Yan and Shen Kuo went back to Beicheng.
Because Jian Yao is too busy with work, she has no time to go home. For her who is already a little famous, there is no winter and summer vacation anymore, and her work schedule is already full.
In the evening, Lu Yan took fruits and gifts and went to a small courtyard house near the suburbs in the south of Beicheng.
This is Jian Yao's home.
She knocked on the door of Jian Yao's house, and soon, a thin middle-aged man opened the door.
Of course Lu Yan recognized him, he was her grandfather, Jian Hongliang.
Lu Yan only met Jian Hongliang a few times when she was very young, and Lu Zhen never let her meet her grandfather.
Because grandpa is a gambler, addicted to gambling, and also an alcoholic, he spends most of the day drunk...
Jian Yao said that her father treated her badly. He liked to drink, and when he was drunk, he beat and scolded her frequently.
Therefore, Lu Zhen never had a good face towards this father-in-law, and it was even more impossible for him to get in touch with Lu Yan.
Seeing Jian Hongliang suddenly, Lu Yan felt very strange.
Jian Hongliang seemed to be sober at the moment, but as soon as the door was opened, a strong smell of alcohol came into his nostrils.
"Who are you looking for?"
Lu Yan said to him politely: "I'm Jian Yao's good friend, she can't come back this summer vacation, so she asked me to come and see my uncle."
Jian Hongliang frowned: "She can be so kind, remember me?"
He looked down and saw the gift box and fruit in Lu Yan's hand, his face softened a little.
Reaching out without slapping a smiling person, even if someone came to give gifts with good intentions, it is impossible for Jian Hongliang to turn him away.
He rubbed his nose and said, "Come in."
Lu Yan and Chen Kuo walked into the room. The furnishings in the room were simple. The furniture and appliances were old styles many years ago and had not been replaced. There were a few bottles of Erguotou on the coffee table, some of which were empty and lying on the side of the table.
The window was closed tightly, and the room smelled strongly of alcohol. It could be seen that Jian Hongliang had just woken up from a hangover.
When he entered the kitchen to pour water, Shen Kuo grabbed Lu Yan's sleeve and asked softly, "What are you doing?"
"Shh, don't talk."
Before Shen Kuo could speak, Jian Hongliang came out with two glasses filled with cold water, put them on the table, and said, "Sit whatever you want."
Lu Yan tugged at the corner of Shen Kuo's clothes, motioning him to stop talking, and the two sat on the chair.
"My daughter didn't recognize me as a father for a long time." Jian Hongliang sneered: "Now that she is a big star, she doesn't take me seriously."
Lu Yan said: "Uncle, is your relationship with Jian Yao very bad?"
"Hmph, since her crazy mother left, she hasn't had a good look at me for a day. Now that she has grown up, her wings have grown stronger, and she has long since denied me as a father."
"You drink water."
Jian Hongliang handed the water glasses to the two of them, insisting on letting them drink.
Shen Kuo picked up the cup, put it down immediately, and felt nauseated.
The water cup looks very old, I don't know how long it has not been used, and it is not clean with the naked eye.
Lu Yan picked up the water glass, paused for a while, and then drank the water in the glass.
Shen Kuo was stunned, and slowly swallowed his saliva, a little unbelievable.
Too hard.
Although Shen Kuo's family background is not good, but the house is kept clean and tidy, and the cups and bowls are also clean. He is a very clean boy, so when he enters the house, he can't stand the slovenliness and filth in the house.
Lu Yan knew that he thought the cup was dirty, and it was indeed dirty, so dirty that Lu Yan didn't even want to take a second look.
But since she came here, she must first gain Jian Hongliang's trust and favor before she can ask the information she wants to know.
"I'm so thirsty, give me a drink if you don't drink." After she finished speaking, she grabbed Shen Kuo's water glass and drank it with her eyes closed.
Shen Kuo: ...
Jian Hongliang finally had a smile on his face, and he was not so defensive anymore, and he easily chatted with Lu Yan: "Jian Yao is doing well at school, is anyone bullying her?"
"Everything is fine, and she always misses you, Uncle."
"She misses me? She misses me dying soon."
Lu Yan smiled awkwardly: "Uncle, don't say such things."
"Hmph, since her mother died, she doesn't recognize me as her father."
Lu Yan asked casually: "Mother Jian Yao, when did you die?"
"When she was six or seven years old."
"She was very young then."
"No, she's still a little yellow-haired girl. Her mother cries at home every day, like a mourner, and the neighbors around her complain every day."
Lu Yan and Chen Kuo looked at each other, not knowing what it meant.
"Is Auntie sick?"
"I have a fart disease, I think I am poor, I think I am poor, I cry every day, saying that I can't live... That day I went to work on the construction site, jumped off the building, and died."
Lu Yan covered her mouth and looked at Shen Kuo in astonishment, who also frowned.
It seemed that Jian Hongliang hadn't talked to anyone for a long time, and he couldn't close the chatterbox once he opened it. He continued: "The little girl was at home at that time, here, stand there."
He pointed to the balcony opposite the living room: "Standing there, hugging her doll, watching her mother jump from upstairs, she was so frightened, she didn't even cry, the neighbor behind called the police and called an ambulance , the brains are all thrown out, it can still be saved, but it can't be saved..."
Jian Hongliang lightly described the circumstances of his wife's suicide, but Lu Yan was horrified when he heard it.
"Uncle...Auntie, why did she commit suicide? There must be a reason. "
"How do I know, she's mentally ill, really ill."
"What is the disease?"
Shen Kuo frowned. He didn't understand why Lu Yan had to break the sand jar to ask the truth. Speaking of it, it was quite abrupt for her to come here so rashly today.
Lu Yan doesn't seem like someone who would do such a thing, there must be a reason.
Although Shen Kuo had doubts in his heart, he did not interrupt her, but analyzed: "Could it be a mental illness?"
Jian Hongliang said casually: "When she was introduced to her for marriage, she didn't say that she was mentally ill. After giving birth, she cried every day, like a crazy person, and said that I was not good to her, and she would die or live."
"Did my aunt have these symptoms after giving birth?"
"Anyway, I didn't notice it when I got married. If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have been taken advantage of!"
…
When he came out of Jian Hongliang's house, the sky was gloomy and night fell.
Lu Yan seemed to be thinking about what Jian Hongliang said, and murmured: "What kind of disease will attack after giving birth?"
"depression."
"what?"
He looked at Lu Yan, and said calmly: "Crying every day, looking for death and life, these are the manifestations of depression, but the man doesn't understand these, so it's her brain that is wrong, and she didn't treat it in time."
"how do you know?"
"There used to be a family across from our house. That aunt had depression, which was similar to your grandmother's symptoms. I met it a few times. Once, the woman ran out like crazy and hit her head against the wall. Broken blood, such a scene, I have seen it once, and I will never forget it in this life."
Shen Kuo said lightly: "This kind of severe depression is easy to commit suicide, and it is obviously familial."
"What do you mean?"
"It could be hereditary."
As soon as he finished speaking, Lu Yan stepped on the ground suddenly, if Shen Kuo hadn't been quick-eyed and hugged her lazily, she would have rolled down the narrow and steep corridor.
Shen Kuo frowned: "What's the matter, don't you look at the road?"
Lu Yan seemed to lose her soul, and murmured: "Severe depression... will be inherited, so Jian Yao..."
Depression too!
The truth seems to be slowly surfacing, revealing the tip of the iceberg.
As soon as Shen Kuo let go, the little girl's body fell down, as if all the strength in her body had been drained.
He had no choice but to take off his schoolbag and place it on the ground, help her to sit on the edge of the steps, and asked, "What's going on?"
"Shen Kuo, she has depression..." She tightly clutched the corner of his clothes, her whole body was shaking, and even her voice trembled uncontrollably.
"She has depression!"
Her tears fell uncontrollably: "I never knew, no one told me, they didn't tell anything, they kept it from me...my dad also kept it from me..."
never say.
Everything about the mother, her illness, her death...they didn't say a word.
Shen Kuo suddenly understood, he frowned slightly, wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with the palm of his hand, hugged her distressedly, and softly comforted her: "Okay, don't cry."
Lu Yan hugged his neck, choking out of breath.
Everything is clear, the rumors of suicide are not groundless, her mother passed away due to depression, so suicide is logical...
Shen Kuo's heart twisted into a ball, extremely uncomfortable, the last thing he could see was Lu Yan crying.
He hugged her and silently comforted her back.
The little girl had had enough crying and wiped her tears on his shoulder.
Shen Kuo's hand landed on her thin shoulders, gently embracing her: "Actually, there is no need to worry too much. Although depression is hereditary, it is also closely related to the surrounding environment. Your brother loves his girlfriend very much. Maybe you will be happy in this life." It won't happen."
She knew that Lu Zhen loved Jian Yao very much. Jian Yao didn't have any signs of depression now, but... Lu Yan knew the future outcome, and she was sure that Jian Yao's future death must be related to this disease.
How can I save her, how can I save her!
Lu Yan's mind was in a mess.
Shen Kuo sent Lu Yan downstairs, patted her head, and said, "It seems that you are not in the mood to 'say goodbye' to me today, go home, take a hot bath, rest well, and stop thinking about these things."
"Um."
Lu Yan grabbed the corner of his clothes and tiptoed to kiss his lips.
Still have to say goodbye.
Jian Yao gave birth to her only a few months before something happened. Jian Yao's mother also suffered from postpartum depression after giving birth. Does this mean...
Shen Kuo's lower lip was bitten suddenly, he felt the pain, and frowned, "What are you doing?"
Lu Yan opened her eyes wide and looked at the young man who was close at hand, her eyes were full of fear.
If so, as long as Jian Yao doesn't have a baby, as long as Lu Yan doesn't come to this world, will she just...
won't die!