That night, Lu Yan was forced to wake up several times.
She finally understood why Shen Kuo chose this time.
He has accumulated a lot of emotions in his heart, and these emotions cannot be expressed in words.
But Lu Yan felt it, she could feel it from his […] which is sometimes gentle and sometimes […], from his obsessive eyes, and from every inch of him […].
Shen Kuo loves her to the extreme.
His [...]is not suitable for her. The first few times, Lu Yan almost fainted.
However, Shen Kuo's excellence does not lie in work and study. His excellence permeates all aspects of life, such as these things. Every time, he has new attempts and breakthroughs. Gradually, life became unusually harmonious.
When Lu Yan no longer feels the pain, the feeling of floating in the clouds is really incomprehensible to outsiders.
She started to get to know Shen Kuo again, and knew him as a male creature that exploded from A to B, completely different from the other side of the past.
There was an old saying in that era that men conquered the world and women conquered men.
But Lu Yan felt that this was wrong, she was just Xiaobai, how could she have such a great ability to conquer Shen Kuo, she was the one who cried and shouted every time.
Shen Kuo completely conquered her, without leaving any room...convinced her.
So during that time, Lu Yan's attitude towards Chen Kuo was exceptionally docile.
Even Lu Zhen rubbed Lu Yan's little head from time to time, saying that she seemed to have changed a bit recently.
Lu Yan's petite body instinctively nestled against the tall and straight Shen Kuo, holding him, rubbing against him, eyes full of tenderness.
Men and women are so compatible, especially them.
Shen Kuo loved her more and more, the pain pierced to the marrow.
During that time, the air was always filled with extremely sweet rose-red bubbles.
Life and career always complement each other. After experiencing this crisis, Shen Kuo's career finally began to show a sub-square upward trend.
Even an old-school big capitalist like Lu Jian failed to defeat him, and since then, no one has been able to defeat him.
Later, Shen Kuo took Lu Yan to the seaside for a trip, and the two of them were like newlywed honey dolls, like glue, arousing envy.
But the peaceful leisure time did not last long, and the matter of Jian Yao's death was accumulated in Lu Yan's heart like a dark cloud.
Especially after they came back from their trip, Lu Yan and Jian Yao met several times, and she could clearly feel that Jian Yao was not in a good mood, irritable, and had a lot of bad temper.
That night, the brothers had dinner together. At the dinner table, because Jian Yao didn't like to eat bitter melon, and Lu Zhen put the bitter melon in her bowl, Jian Yao directly put the food in the bowl upside down on the table, completely ignoring Lu Zhen's taste. In Zhen's face, he got angry at him—
"I said if I don't eat it, I won't eat it. Don't you understand people's words!"
The embarrassment on Lu Zhen's face was visible to the naked eye. He pulled Jian Yao's hand and said in a low voice, "Okay, let's not eat bitter gourd. Don't eat it. Waiter, bring another set of bowls and chopsticks."
Jian Yao's heart was filled with an unknown fire, and she had nowhere to vent, so she got up and left the dinner table with her bag: "Don't eat, let's go."
No one in this world dared to throw face at Lu Zhen like this. Except for Lu Yan, everyone was a little surprised.
Liang Ting immediately eased the atmosphere, and said to Lu Zhen with a smile, "I spoiled my wife so much, it's better for you, Lu Zhen."
Lu Zhen smiled wryly: "She has a lot of work pressure."
Lu Yan and Chen Kuo looked at each other, their expressions were a little subtle.
Ye Jiaqi hung himself high, and casually commented: "It's just you who like this one, it doesn't look like a girl at all."
"none of your business."
"It's none of my business. It's not my girlfriend anyway. Whoever suffers will know."
The meal broke up badly. At first, Lu Yan wanted to stop Lu Zhen and talk about Jian Yao's affairs, but Jian Yao called Lu Zhen three times on the way, urging him to go home quickly, so Lu Yan said Before she could say anything, Lu Zhen hurried back without stopping.
It's not that Lu Zhen has no temper, but he would never lose his temper with Jian Yao in front of outsiders or even Lu Yan.
But at home, the two of them would inevitably knock and quarrel.
Lu Zhen had already prepared a set of lines for an attack, took a deep breath, pretended to be fierce, turned the door with a key, and shouted: "Jian Yao, get out of here!"
The room was empty, the lights were not turned on, and the surroundings were pitch black.
There seemed to be a faint light overflowing from the kitchen, Lu Zhen changed his shoes, went to the kitchen and opened the door—
With her back to him, Jian Yao seemed to be cooking something, eating while cooking.
I didn't eat dinner, maybe I was starving.
Lu Zhen rubbed her nose and shouted at her: "Just now you made me lose face, you know."
Jian Yao ignored him and continued eating with chopsticks.
"Apologize quickly, or I won't be finished with you tonight!" Lu Zhen said angrily, "You still eat, what a fart..."
Before Lu Zhen finished speaking, he suddenly saw half of a bitter gourd on the chopping board next to him. He suddenly opened his eyes wide and froze.
"What are you eating?" Lu Zhen walked over and saw that Jian Yao was chewing a half-cooked bitter gourd, and another one was cooking in a steaming pot.
"Jian Yao!" Lu Zhen's face changed slightly: "You don't...don't like this?"
Jian Yao swallowed heavily, and tears rolled out: "I'm sorry."
Lu Zhen frowned, grabbed the bitter gourd in her hand, and threw it into the trash can: "If you don't like it, don't eat it, what a big deal."
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." She said a dozen "I'm sorry" in a row, crying as she spoke.
"I shouldn't lose my temper with you. I shouldn't embarrass you in front of so many people. I'm sorry."
Lu Zhen's words about getting angry before... were all thrown out of the blue. He quickly hugged Jian Yao, stroked the back of her head gently, and said softly: "Shh, it's okay, it's okay, I'm not angry, Not angry at all."
Jian Yao's mood didn't seem right, she was very broken, and she regretted it on the way back, almost crying all the way back.
"I bought bitter gourd." Jian Yao pointed at the table, cried and said to Lu Zhen, "I ate them all, and I apologize to you after eating them all."
Lu Zhen felt that his internal organs were twisted together. He held Jian Yao's shoulder and shook it vigorously: "Yaoyao, what's the matter with you? Don't scare me."
Jian Yao shook her head vigorously, kissed Lu Zhen on tiptoe, and cried while kissing, tears fell between her lips, with salty taste.
"Lu Zhen, let me make it up to you."
Before Lu Zhen could react, Jian Yao had already knelt down and reached out to grab Lu Zhen's...
Lu Zhen felt his scalp explode instantly.
…
It's not like it didn't happen before, Jian Yao had a psychological barrier and didn't want Lu Zhen to see her legs, so they learned to solve the problem in other ways.
But every time he did this, Lu Zhen felt a strong sense of guilt and felt very sorry for her, but he had no way to refuse, how could he refuse, unless he was not a man.
Lu Zhen couldn't think at all, and grabbed her hair...
Half an hour later, Jian Yao went to the bathroom, took a shower and rinsed her mouth. She stopped crying and her emotions calmed down a lot.
After applying layer after layer of skin care products, her face was slightly flushed.
Lu Zhen was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze, the wise man's time was not over yet.
Jian Yao walked over, and the little bird lay beside him like a human being, and buried her head in his arms. Lu Zhen embraced her smoothly and said, "From now on, don't do this."
Jian Yao curled her lips: "The body seems to be very honest."
"This... I can't control this." Lu Zhen's cheeks were blushing, and she reached out to touch Jian Yao's soft earlobe, and played with it gently.
"Besides, your way of apologizing is very disadvantageous. I didn't blame you in the first place."
Jian Yao hugged his waist and closed her eyes: "I'm getting worse and worse, Lu Zhen, if this continues, sooner or later you will hate me."
She was very scared and terrified, so she could only use this way to make him happy.
Lu Zhen's hand paused, then she sat up and put her hand on her shoulder: "There will never be that day, I swear."
Jian Yao's eyes were wet, she looked at him with tears in her eyes, like a helpless child: "Really?"
Lu Zhen reached out and rubbed her eyes with her fingertips: "You are by my side, talking to me, even arguing with me, these things make me the happiest."
She blinked her eyes: "Then don't you want anything else?"
Lu Zhen paused and rubbed the back of his head: "Of course, if you're in a good mood and want to give me something else, I... I won't refuse."
During that time, Lu Zhen could always see the same man downstairs at home.
He is tall and thin, with extremely fair skin, and a little handsome. Lu Zhen passed him by a few times, and his white eyes were slightly yellow, and he was a bit depressed when he looked at him.
At first, Lu Zhen didn't pay attention to it, until one day when she came home from get off work, she saw Jian Yao and that man standing in the corner talking, Jian Yao seemed agitated, her face turned red.
She is particularly prone to anger recently, and her nerves are very sensitive. Lu Zhen thought it was malicious harassment from fans, and was about to step forward to stop him, but suddenly saw Jian Yao take out money from her bag and throw it on the person.
Lu Zhen immediately stopped, hid behind the tree, and observed the two of them.
Jian Yao stepped on her high heels and left angrily. The man picked up the banknotes scattered on the ground with a smile on his lips.
Over the years, Lu Zhen's temperament has calmed down a lot, and he is no longer as impulsive and reckless as in the past, so he didn't ask directly.
At night, when Jian Yao was taking a bath, Lu Zhen walked to the bathroom door, hesitated for a moment, and finally asked, "Yao Yao, what's going on with you recently?"
In the bathroom, the sound of water flow suddenly stopped, Jian Yao was silent for half a minute, and said, "What's going on?"
"There's something wrong with you." He said in a deep voice, "Just now downstairs, I saw you give that man..."
Before he finished speaking, Jian Yao suddenly opened the bathroom door, startled Lu Zhen, and instinctively took two steps back.
Jian Yao wore a black pajamas with long sleeves and trousers, wiped her hair with a towel, and said, "What did you see?"
"that is... "
Stared at by her pitch-black eyes, Lu Zhen was inexplicably guilty, as if he had done something invisible: "I saw you gave him money."
Jian Yao said with a sullen expression, "Oh, a colleague from the company, he lent me money before and returned it to him."
"yes."
"Otherwise." Jian Yao turned her back, picked up the comb and hair dryer and began to comb her hair, she didn't look at him anymore, or rather, she didn't dare to look at him.
Jian Yao has a straightforward personality and is not good at lying. Even if her lies are as clumsy as Lu Zhen, she can see through them at a glance.
But he didn't expose her, walked behind her, lowered his head and kissed the back of her smooth neck: "You can tell me anything, you know."
Jian Yao's figure was visibly stiff, but she still didn't say anything.
…
Lu Yan went to consult a doctor on purpose, and Jian Yao's condition is very consistent with the early symptoms of depression.
Doctors say that depression is like heart disease and other diseases. It is not just a simple psychological disorder, but also has physiological reactions, such as insomnia, loss of appetite, numbness of thinking, and physical pain.
Lu Yan had no choice but to hide it from Lu Zhen. She called Lu Zhen out on purpose, and told him the matter and her guess.
"What are you talking about?"
Lu Zhen obviously had never heard of "depression", so she didn't understand, and asked nervously: "Did she encounter any unhappy things? Or encounter some difficulties?"
Lu Yan shook her head, handed Lu Zhen the information on depression that the doctor gave her, and explained to him: "Although there is no clear medical evidence that depression is genetically inherited, the doctor said that most depressions occur in families. Features, Jian Yao's mother used to suffer from depression, and... committed suicide."
Lu Zhen's hand holding the information began to tremble. Before he could recover, Lu Yan continued, "There is something that I have never told you."
Lu Zhen raised her head, her eyes were slightly bloodshot: "What?"
She took a sip of coffee and tried to calm herself down, but her voice was still difficult to stabilize: "The future Jian Yao committed suicide less than three months after giving birth to your first child, which is me gone."
With a "pop", the coffee cup in Lu Zhen's hand fell to the ground and shattered.
"suicide... "
He shook his head in a daze, unable to accept: "What do you care about?"
"I'm not talking nonsense." Lu Yan suddenly held his hand: "Dad, we can't let the tragedy happen again, absolutely not!"
Lu Zhen's hands were already as cold as iron. He couldn't believe it, and tightly clutched the information on depression: "How could it be..."
Lu Yan understood that Lu Zhen, who suddenly knew about this matter, would definitely not be able to accept it.
She gave him time and waited for him to calm down slowly.
"You should have noticed that Jian Yao's mood is very strange, and she already has the early symptoms of depression."
"Yes, she's been... not quite right recently, but... it's just too much work pressure, and she apologized to me in tears that night, I... I didn't even think about it, I'm such a jerk! "
Lu Zhen rubbed her hands, she was in a mess right now.
Lu Yan held Lu Zhen's hand: "Dad, don't be nervous. Depression is not a cure. As long as you take good care of it, you will get better."
"But you just said her... said her..." His voice trembled, and he didn't even dare to say those two words.
"A lot of things have changed, haven't they? You and Shen Kuo were so at odds in the past, haven't you already shake hands and make peace?"
Lu Yan tried to comfort him: "With me here, nothing will happen, but the premise is that we don't mess around."
Lu Zhen looked at Lu Yan: "Tell me, when did she have an accident in the last life?"
"Three months after I was born." Lu Yan said in a deep voice: "If her condition really gets worse after giving birth, then you can't consider having a child. At least, until her condition is stable, you can't... "
Before she finished speaking, Lu Zhen suddenly stood up as if she suddenly thought of something, and stumbled out the door.
…
On the computer screen in the office, the video of Jian Yao's variety show is playing.
The girl in the picture is optimistic and cheerful, her words are witty and funny, even the host sometimes thinks less than her, she is sincere and frank, without the affectation of other actresses at all.
In Lu Zhen's eyes, she is the best, whether it is the Jian Yao who used to drive him on a motorcycle, or the sensitive and fragile Jian Yao who is trying to hide her flaws...
In Lu Zhen's eyes, Jian Yao is the best.
At this moment, Liang Ting pushed the door open, handed the folder to the desk, and said, "I found it."
Lu Zhen presses Enter, the video pauses, and it freezes when Jian Yao is smiling.
"Say."
Liang Ting opened the file and handed the information to Lu Zhen: "This man's name is Chen Luan, from Beicheng, Jian Yao's ex-boyfriend, and the two had a relationship when they were in junior high school."
Liang Ting and Lu Zhen have been close friends for many years, so they have no scruples about speaking—
"Considering that our sister-in-law used to be a 'girl like the wind' as you said, so his ex-boyfriend was also a young boy like the wind. To be precise, he was a gangster who dropped out of high school before finishing high school. Work, has been mixed until now... It is said that he loves gambling."
Lu Zhen's hand holding the information was suddenly clenched.
"Is it accurate?"
Liang Ting came over and patted him on the shoulder: "Your brother, when did I give you false news?"
Indeed, since childhood, Lu Zhen has relied on Liang Ting very much. He seems to be able to see all directions and listen to all directions, and has helped Lu Zhen solve many problems.
"Liang Ting, this man... I want to see him, try to get in touch with him, and he will also come to me."
The corner of Liang Ting's mouth raised, "I've already brought you the man, it's just outside the door. You don't need to tie him up. Our Xingchen's boss wanted to see him, so he rushed over with just one phone call."