After I went back, I started to have a fever, which was probably the retribution of the wind blowing all night last night.
During this period of time, I was taken care of so well by Zhou Chen that I almost forgot that my body was a tattered plastic bag leaking air, and the once strong resistance was long gone.
If he knew that I had caught a cold, he would inevitably blame me. It's a good thing he doesn't know.
I was thinking about Zhou Chen, and seeing the blurry figure in front of me, I unconsciously called out "Sir".
That's what the housekeeper and servants called him, and I did too.
When he yelled for the first time, he dropped the spoon he was stirring the honey water on the ground, and for the second time he accidentally cut off a blooming flower, and for the third time he covered his mouth and coughed before answering nonchalantly, "Yeah." ".
I asked him if he didn't like the name, and he said it didn't matter, I could call it whatever I wanted.
The back of the person in front of me froze for a moment, turned around and pressed my shoulder, gritted his teeth and said, "You can see who I am."
I was in pain, and my eyes became clearer, and then I saw Qi Shu's face.
Oh...it's Qi Shu.
"Senior." I called out weakly, turned over and curled myself up under the quilt.
I'm burned like this, dizzy and weak, he doesn't want to sleep with me now.
But I underestimated Qi Shu, he actually came up and pulled my clothes.
"What are you doing! Qi Shu, you..." I struggled with all my strength, but was still pinned tightly on the bed by him.
"I'll fucking take your temperature! What do you think I'm going to do?"
He unbuttoned my neckline, and his eyes suddenly became very gloomy. I suddenly thought of something, raised my hand to protect the pendant on my chest, and looked at him warily.
"Where's your necklace?" He asked coldly.
The necklace... that coin.
"threw."
"Throw it away... Okay, throw it away." He pointed to the position of my pendant, "What is this, Zhou Chen gave it to you?"
I don't know whether Zhou Chen gave it to me or Qi Shu gave it to me.
He probably took my silence as a default, his eyes darkened, he pulled me up by the neckline, and then reached out to snatch my pendant.
"Qi Shu!" I screamed in panic, clutching my chest tightly, "Stop!"
"Who allowed you to keep his things? Give it to me!"
…
I am no match for him.
During the fight, his elbow hit my face, the pain made me stare at me, and I exhausted all my energy. Then the necklace was ripped off and it finally fell into his hands.
He stood by the bed holding the pendant, looking down at me.
"Give it back to me... Qi Shu..."
I heard the crying of the dying cub, terrible and sad.
It took me a long time to realize that it was my own voice.
"I'll give you whatever you want... You give him back to me..."
"I beg you… "
"Qi Shu..."
…
I crawled over to explore the corner of his clothes, and I was dodged before I touched him. Then he glanced coldly at the things in his hand, and walked to the window.
"don't want!"
I have never made such a sharp sound before, but Qi Shu turned a deaf ear to it and threw the pendant out of the window with his hand.
The small lantern drew a silver parabola in the air and disappeared into a corner of the courtyard.
I rushed over desperately, but was dragged back by Qi Shu just before I jumped down.
"Are you crazy!" He snapped at me, "You're dying!"
I don't want it anymore, I don't want it anymore.
If there is only pain in life, I might as well die that night.
I tried my best to break away from Qi Shu, stood one step away from him, and said to him with the most venomous eyes and voice I could, "I hate you."
He shook his whole body, seemed to be in disbelief, stared at me blankly and asked, "What did you say...?"
"I said, I hate you, I will always hate you."
After I finished speaking, I pushed him away and ran out, and I seemed to see his absent-minded expression in a trance.
I bumped into a maid at the corner of the stairs, and the cup and saucer were knocked over and smashed to the ground. I apologized in despair, and continued to stumble out without caring what she said.
The courtyard is too big, I squatted on the ground looking for it for a long time, and finally found the lantern by the pool.
The small glass cover has been broken into pieces, and the powder inside is scattered on the ground, blown away by the wind, and cannot return.
Maybe it was because she shed too many tears, but at this moment, there was only a emptiness in her heart.
Couldn't keep it...
No matter what.
I knelt down, carefully gathered up the fragments, and buried them together with the silver lamp stand under a lush camphor tree in the garden.
We were a bad pair of parents, and made it difficult for him to live after death.
After doing all this, I have no strength left, as if my whole body has become a shell, and my soul is floating in mid-air, watching numbly.
The pajamas on his body were torn into a mess by Qi Shu, and he was barefoot when he came down, and now it is also covered with mud. There are several cuts on the feet, I don't know if they were scratched by branches and grass blades, or they were scratched by porcelain in the house just now.
I suddenly felt sorry for Zhou Chen. On the first day I left him, I made myself like this.
He will be very disappointed.
The high fever blurred my vision again. I stood up while supporting the tree trunk.
I'm tired.
let me sleep.
This sleep lasted for two full days, and when I woke up, there was a new pendant on my neck—a ring made of diamonds, the size of the coin it used to be, simple and extravagant.
Qi Shu wanted to tell me that I would still go back to his beautiful cage after going round and round.
I was about to reach out to take it off, when a cold voice came from beside the bed: "Don't take it off."
Qi Shu sat there, looking at me like he was examining a prisoner.
"I don't want to." I said.
"You want what he gives you, but don't want what I give you?" His eyes were cloudy, "We have been together for four years, how long have you known him?"
I smiled wryly, "Together... Do we count as being together?"
Respect, love, and companionship, he never gave me any of them, even saying that we are together.
Qi Shu's expression changed, he opened his mouth to say something, but finally swallowed it back.
"... In short, you are not allowed to pick it."
"I said no!" I didn't know where the strength came from and yelled at him, "I'm already here, what's the point of doing these extra things?"
"Xiao Yu, have you made enough trouble!"
He is not a good-natured guy after all, he gets easily annoyed by me. I watched his raised slap, ready to hit his face, but unexpectedly he clenched his fists in mid-air, shivered a few times, and then moved back to his side.
"Don't you just want revenge? You should be satisfied with this step, right?" He stared at me fiercely, "I don't believe you really like Zhou Chen."
Revenge...
He thought I was using Zhou Chen to take revenge on him.
"Do you think that I, like you, can sleep with someone I don't like?"
I was surprisingly calm, but I really wanted to take revenge on him.
"Did Wen Ziqing tell you that I spent the susceptible period with Zhou Chen?"
"What..." There was surprise in his eyes, and there was even a hint of... pain.
At this time, I should obviously feel happy, but looking at Qi Shu, I don't have any comfort.
"You like young, beautiful and clean. I don't take any of them now. Don't you think it's an eyesore if you keep me?"
"...Where did Zhou Chen touch you?" He ignored my words, leaned over and grabbed my arm, his eyes were terribly red.
"How could you let him touch you..."
I didn't answer.
The air was quiet and oppressive, and Qi Shu was trembling all over. After an unknown amount of time, he finally let go of his hand and sat back down.
"It's okay..." The corners of his mouth twitched slightly, and finally drew an arc, "We... still have a lot of time."
I haven't understood why he has such an attitude. I saw him standing up slowly with a chair, his eyes wandering, "You have a good rest, let's go to see the dress together tomorrow."
As if thinking of something, he suddenly smiled relaxedly, looked at me and said, "We are getting married, are you happy?"
marry
My throat choked, and my heart ached.
Qi Shu wants to marry me...
"too late… "
"It's not too late!" He interrupted me roughly, changing his face like flipping through a book, "It's never too late."
How do I tell him that the pendant he threw away contained the ashes of our child.
If I can still marry him like this, then I would be too cheap.
"Qi Shu, I can't..."
"Don't let me hear you say no again."
He touched my face like a cold venomous snake.
"I've heard enough today. If you make me unhappy again, I can't promise what I will do."
Sure enough, the fake warmth is just an appearance, and this is his original appearance.
My fear of Qi Shu has become a kind of physical instinct. Everything I want to say is stuck in my throat, and I am forced to retreat by his gloomy gaze.
"Be obedient." He kissed the corner of my lips in satisfaction.