Qi Shu and Wen Yan came back not long after, I couldn't guess what they said, and I didn't bother to guess.
There are not many people in this world who dare to reprimand Qi Shu face to face, but Wen Yan is one of them. They grew up together as childhood sweethearts, and Qi Shu showed incomparable tolerance towards him.
I have personally seen Qi Shu and others taking Wen Yan home outside the coffee shop. The atmosphere between them is relaxed and comfortable, and there is no room for a third person.
Even now, the two of them obviously had an awkward fight and disliked each other, and I feel that I am the redundant one.
Just as I was thinking, Qi Shu suddenly hugged me without warning.
Unexpectedly, my body flew into the air, I let out a soft cry, and hugged his neck reflexively, and my whole body hung on him like a koala.
"what are you doing… "
There are so many clerks in the store, he is not ashamed and I am ashamed.
"Go home." He said coldly.
Wen Yan watched us hesitate to speak, and finally sighed: "I'll go back first too. Xiao Xiao, take care of yourself."
I felt uncomfortable being hugged by Qi Shu, so I hurriedly said goodbye to him: "Goodbye, senior."
Back home, Qi Shu was smoking in the living room. I smelled the smoke and felt uncomfortable, so I wanted to go upstairs to rest.
When passing by the kitchen, I was stopped by Aunt Zhang, who said that I received several couriers during my absence, and she put them in the storage room on the third floor for me.
Express delivery... I remember, I used to buy clothes and toys for little babies.
"... Throw it away for me." My chest was tight, and I waved my hand wearily.
She wasn't sure: "Throw it away?"
"Yeah. Throw it all away."
I didn't know the gender of the baby at the time, so I bought two sets of blue and pink clothes, but in the end, I didn't know whether I was pregnant with a boy or a girl.
I must have done something wrong in my previous life to be reminded over and over again that I lost a child.
I didn't sleep well at night, and when I woke up, it was pitch black outside the window and there was no moonlight. There seemed to be a damp smell in the air, like it was going to rain.
With the help of the night light beside the bed, I vaguely saw Qi Shu sitting on the sofa in the corner, silently lowering his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.
Several large and small packages were scattered on the ground. I only took one look, and there was a bang in my head.
—Didn't you throw it away
I struggled to sit up with a splitting headache.
Qi Shu raised his eyes when he heard the voice, his eyes were dim.
"What are these..." His voice was harsh and hoarse, "Are you pregnant?"
Although it is a question, there is no doubt.
I wouldn't throw them away if I got pregnant.
If I am pregnant, calculated according to the time, it will not be completely invisible.
If I were pregnant, I would not have surgery to remove my glands.
Qi Shu understood.
"No..." I tried to smile at him, knelt on the ground and picked up the scattered clothes and toys into the box one by one.
"I used to be envious of others having children, and bought them for fun..."
"Xiao Yu!" He bent down and grabbed my wrist, forcing me to stop.
I looked up and saw his bloodshot eyes, and the veins on his neck were bulging because of too much force.
"Don't lie to me..." he said hoarsely.
cheat? When did I lie to him
I poured out my heart and soul to him, and he abandoned it like walking shoes.
I have said so much like and love, he treats the benefactor as a lover to curry favor with him.
Now that I finally finally want to lie to him once, can't he cooperate with me for a while
After staring at each other for a long time, he took a deep breath, let go of me and stood up. "If you don't want to say it, I'll check it myself."
"Don't check."
Isn't it just pregnancy? Anyway, it's gone, so there's nothing I can't say.
I closed my eyes, "Yes, I have."
"What?!" His eyes widened in disbelief, then he staggered and grabbed the armrest of the sofa when he almost fell.
"I have... What do you mean by have?"
My heart was throbbing with pain, like a thousand needles were being poked.
Despair is like a flood, wave after wave trying to break the embankment of my body.
I really want to beg him to stop asking.
But I still answered him as if I was masochistic: "I have, but now I don't have it."
With a plop, Qi Shu fell to the ground.
A flash of lightning split the night, and immediately after that, countless raindrops whipped on the glass.
Thunder roared outside the window, but only the two of us were breathing hard and intertwined in the room.
My hands were in my pockets tightly clutching the first aid medicine.
And when he raised his head again, his eyes were red and filled with grief, "How could there be no..."
Look, he really forgot what he did to me, and even asked me why I didn't.
how ridiculous...
"Killed."
I lied to him again.
This time he believed it.
"You just... hate me so much?" A tear rolled out of his eye socket, hit the carpet, and disappeared.
"I would rather destroy it than give birth to my child..."
This is the first time I saw Qi Shu's tears.
I suffer more than him.
I loved him with such joy that in the end all he left me was pain.
"Do you still remember what you said?" Trembling, I raised my hand and touched the corner of his eyes, "You said you would not get married or have children."
He opened his mouth, but made no sound.
"You don't want it, and I don't want it, so I just... knocked it out."
My voice is very soft, I really have no strength.
His tears flowed down, "I thought, I thought..."
Until the end, he didn't say what he thought.
Or maybe he said it, but I couldn't hear it.
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