The vehicle slowly drove out of the urban area and drove up a lush mountain.
The scenery outside the window is vaguely familiar, like a memory separated by frosted glass in the depths of a dream.
I held the plush rabbit in one hand, and Qi Shu held the other hand.
He mosuo my tiger's mouth with his fingertips, lowered his eyes slightly and wrote lightly: "Do you know... what it's like to have an elder brother who has dominated you everywhere since childhood?"
Ask me... I don't know.
He didn't need my answer, so he continued: "I wanted to compare with him in everything, but I couldn't compare to anything. Later, I finally proved that I could do better than him, but he patted his ass and left, saying that he would not compete with me. "
Then he turned his head to look at me, and curled his lips, "But he has been a shopkeeper for a few years, and recently he suddenly started to manage things. Guess why?"
I can't guess... I don't know who he's talking about.
Qi Shu is so strange today, he never talked to me about family affairs before.
Maybe it was because my expression was too dull, he shook his head helplessly: "So you're so deceitful... Do you think he's a gentle, respectful and frugal person..."
As he spoke, he thought of something and swallowed half the sentence back.
"...Forget it, I'm not qualified to talk about others."
There was silence again in the carriage.
A large expanse of fiery phoenix trees appeared in front of my eyes, and the gate of my memory was finally slowly opened.
—Summer, roses, twilight, cello... and that man.
The one who pulled me out of the night and left me in the dusk.
Zhou Shen...
I couldn't believe everything in front of me, so I grabbed Qi Shu tightly.
He smiled bitterly: "This may be the most regretful thing I have ever done in my life."
A small white building appeared in sight, and as it approached slowly, my heart beat faster and faster.
I saw Zhou Chen's car parked outside the gate, the trunk was open, and the housekeeper was putting a suitcase in.
Who is leaving, Zhou Chen? Where is he going
As soon as the car stopped, I ran down. I didn't move for a long time, and I stumbled.
Mr. Housekeeper saw me from a distance, he was taken aback for a moment, and was about to turn around to call for someone, when he saw a familiar tall figure coming out from behind the door—it was Zhou Chen.
He lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking, but when he walked to the side of the car, he suddenly raised his eyes and saw me.
I didn't stop, I ran the last few steps vigorously, and fell into an expected warm embrace.
"Xiao, Xiaoyu..." His voice trembled, and he hugged me cautiously.
I have a sore nose, "Sir."
—Why am I so easily wronged in front of him.
"I'm back... sorry..."
The familiar smell entered my nostrils, and I vented my emotions unscrupulously, wrinkling his clothes as I did many times, without worrying that he would push me away.
"Where are you going... don't go... I'm back..."
"Didn't you say that you would save me?"
"Why don't you come to me... liar..."
We all seem to have forgotten that it was I who said too much, and it was I who wanted to leave on my own initiative.
He always tolerated my unreasonableness infinitely, patted my back to comfort me and said that he was not going anywhere, it was his fault.
Qi Shu came up behind me, and said slowly, "I can't take care of it, so I'll give it back to you."
I couldn't see their faces, but I could feel Zhou Chen's body froze.
He let go of me a little, lowered his head and looked at my neck, "... Where's the necklace?"
"Throw it away." Qi Shu replied for me, "You are so rich, what's the point of giving him a silver dress?"
At that moment, I felt unprecedented violence and danger from Zhou Chen.
He took a deep breath, opened the door and hugged me to the co-pilot, then covered my eyes with his palm, and said, "Don't look, be good."
I closed my eyes obediently, and he let go of me and turned around.
The next second, I heard the muffled sound of fists passing through the air and falling on the flesh, and the thud of a person falling to the ground.
Zhou Chen's voice followed: "Qi Shu, you fucking beast!"
—It turns out that he can hit people and swear...
"Do you know what that is? It's your child's ashes!"
The air was quiet for a few seconds, Qi Shu got up from the ground, his voice was full of shock and suspicion: "The ashes..."
"Xiaoyu, is what he said true..."
"That's... our child's... ashes...?"
He seemed to want to come to me, and his voice got closer and closer, but halfway through, Zhou Chen punched him to the ground again.
With Qi Shu's temper, it would be extremely abnormal not to fight back the first time, and it is absolutely impossible to bear it the second time.
"Our two children are none of your business! You fucking get out of the way!"
He jumped up and pushed Zhou Chen away fiercely, I could imagine his expression without opening my eyes.
"It's none of my business..." Zhou Chen sneered, "It's none of my business if a single hair of the person I tried my best to save came back."
"It's you, now remembering that you had children? Where were you when he went to the hospital alone for an examination, and where were you when he had the operation alone?"
"I don't fucking know!" After Qi Shu yelled, Zhou Chen turned to me again: "Why, why didn't you tell me..."
"Tell you, are you worthy?" Zhou Chen's emotions have never been so excited, "Why do you think that child is gone? You kicked it away!"
The two wrestled together, punching to the flesh, and dust scattered. Their movements were so terrifying that I was so frightened that I wanted to open my eyes several times, but I finally held back.
Until the smell of blood wafted in the air, my whole body trembled with fear, and I said tremblingly: "Zhou Chen..."
They finally stopped, and I opened my eyes, a mess. Before I could see clearly, Zhou Chen stood in front of me and hugged me into his arms.
"Sorry to scare you." He tried to keep his voice calm.
I peeked forward quietly from the corner of my eye, and saw Qi Shu bent over and propped up his knees in a state of embarrassment, his clothes and hair were in a mess, covered with mud and blood, struggling to get up staggeringly.
There was not much anger in his eyes, but more pain and unwillingness. He stared at Zhou Chen's back standing in front of me without blinking.
"Speak clearly..." He spat out bloody saliva, wiped the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, and said with difficulty.
I raised my head, Zhou Chen also had injuries on his face, fortunately, it didn't look that bad.
I pushed him: "Let me tell."
Zhou Chen looked down at me, as if he wanted to make sure I was okay. After watching for a while, he let me go and moved aside.
I looked at Qi Shu: "I'll tell you what you want to know."
Qi Shu opened his mouth, but seemed unable to make a sound.
"The baby? I thought about having it..." I guessed that was his main concern, "but you didn't give me the chance."
"Do you still remember what happened that day in Qi's old house?"
His pupils constricted suddenly, as if struck by a thunderbolt.
"Yes, that day..."
"right."
I can still recall the desperation of that day. The dark and cold basement, the pain in every bone and flesh of my body, and the humiliation and blows from my beloved are all pains that I can't forget in my midnight dreams.
"Not only the child, but I myself almost died that day."
I have had many questions about him, am I not good enough, or am I not loving him enough, I have done nothing wrong, and I have never been sorry to him, how could he have the heart to treat me like that
But now I don't care about the answer.
"Qi Shu." Zhou Chen walked up to him and said indifferently: "You know what you did, I don't ask too much about the previous things, but this time, I clearly told you that he had a heart attack, how did you treat him?" his?"
"I managed to snatch him back from the god of death. I didn't want to let him suffer even if I frowned. You turned me into this and said it back to me? If you weren't my cousin, I would have already Killed you."
I can't see Zhou Chen's face from my angle, but his alpha aura is so strong that even I feel nervous.
Qi Shu smiled sarcastically, "The person who robbed me and slept with me, you are really my cousin."
"It's not yours anymore." Zhou Chen was not provoked, on the contrary, he raised his hand to grab Qi Shu's neck in a very gentle manner.
But I don't know why, I always feel that he can easily cut off that neck.
"Whether he wants to or not in the future, I will never let him come back to you again."
Qi Shu's hand held Zhou Chen's wrist weakly, and he could still laugh: "Can't pretend anymore? Don't you worry that he is afraid of you like me?"
After a moment of silence, Zhou Chen let go of his hand, "I'm different from you."
When he turned around again, his cruelty towards Qi Shu had completely disappeared, which made me suspect that I was hallucinating.
"Going home?" He squatted in front of me, took out a handkerchief to wipe off the blood, and then handed me his hand.
"Yeah." I grabbed his hand and got out of the car with strength, and was about to say that I can walk by myself, but he had already picked me up by the middle.
"...It's lighter again." He sighed, "I don't know how long it will take this time."
I lowered my head, not daring to look him in the eye.
Looking over Zhou Chen's shoulder, Qi Shu was still standing there with a haggard face and a dazed expression.
I haven't looked closely during this period of time, and it seems that I haven't seen him in high spirits for a long time.
I looked away and saw a bruise on Zhou Chen's cheekbone, and felt worried after knowing it.
"Does it hurt..." I wanted to touch it, but I was afraid that it would hurt him.
He smiled lightly: "It doesn't hurt when you're here."
Back in the living room, Mr. Housekeeper had prepared the medicine box and was waiting there anxiously. He seemed to want to say something, but when he saw me, he swallowed the words back.
I guess he must be blaming me in his heart, if it wasn't for me, Zhou Chen wouldn't be hurt either.
"I'll come." I whispered to him.
He looked at Zhou Chen, and after getting a nodding reply, he handed the medicine box to me.
When I was young, no one cared about me. I was often bullied at school, and sometimes I got into fights, so I was very good at taking medicine.
Zhou Chen was sitting on the sofa. Apart from the red marks on his cheekbones, the corner of his mouth was also a little bit broken, and there was a small wound on his jaw that was scratched by something, and it was scabbed with blood.
I carefully disinfected, applied medicine, and applied ice to him, but he kept looking at me without saying a word.
"It's really hard to start..." I was upset and couldn't help talking to myself.
He finally said, "Don't worry, I didn't suffer."
I see it.
This may be the first time in his life that Qi Shu didn't take advantage of the fight.
"Xiaoyu..." He seemed to have something to say to me.
I raised my head and waited for his next words.
Zhou Chen's expression has never been so tangled. Since we met, he has always been calm.
"If I... I'm not the person you imagine..."
—It turned out to be this.
Although I didn't quite understand the last two sentences of the conversation between him and Qi Shu, I can guess some clues. Obviously, Zhou Chen was not as indifferent as he appeared.
"Well, maybe..." I lowered my eyes and packed the medicine box, "but so what?"
He froze for a moment, "... huh?"
"It's what you said to me, have you forgotten?"
—When I despise myself, he said: Human nature is inherently inferior, who dares to say that they are different.
After a while, he sighed inaudibly, "I remember."
"What's more, there is no such person as I imagined."
My legs became numb after squatting for a long time, so I just sat on the carpet. This body is so unbelievable now that I feel tired even riding in a car. I put Zhou Chen's knee on it and put my chin on it.
"You are what you look like in front of me."
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