Chi Huan opened his eyes wide and looked at the man in front of him.
Looking at him, she couldn't help but have those tumultuous scenes appear in her mind.
Then the memory jumps automatically...
It was her birthday that day. After school, she asked the driver to take her to her father's place of work. As a result, she excitedly opened the office door and saw two naked people on the desk... without warning.
The man is her father, and she doesn't know the woman. Anyway, she's not her mother.
Then, her mind went blank and she ran home in a panic.
Just as he was about to go upstairs, he was stopped by the servant.
She was not very young at that time, but she was not ignorant either. She felt something strange about the servants' embarrassing and obscure expressions, so she pushed them away and rushed upstairs.
Then in the parents' bedroom, I saw clothes scattered on the floor and another couple of lingering men and women.
She was fourteen years old that year.
Her reaction then was the same as now. She rushed to the bathroom in her room and vomited.
I vomited to the point where I wanted to spit out all my internal organs.
The fourteen-year-old Chi Huan had never been exposed to sex. For the first time, she faced the most dirty and exciting scene, and she was hit twice in one day. Before that, she was a carefree, arrogant and willful woman. The rich lady simply cannot bear such a blow.
For two years, she felt that sex was a disgusting thing.
Even if she has a slightly intimate contact with a man, those images will appear in her mind -
Uncontrollable.
Later, when she entered the entertainment industry, her age and outlook gradually changed, and after meeting Mo Xigu, she began to realize that she was abnormal in this regard and tried to adjust herself.
Until she was sixteen years old. At that time, although she was an actress whose name the audience could barely recognize, she was not a famous person. Once, a wealthy businessman who didn't know her at all saw her young and beautiful. The box just wanted to rape her.
The aversion to contact with men and the fear of being raped made her almost collapse at that time.
A beer bottle was smashed on the head of the wealthy businessman, causing blood all over his head.
Fortunately, Sister Yao rushed in later, and because her father was the mayor, the matter was settled.
But that incident directly affected her normal life and communication. Not to mention that she couldn't act normally with male actors when acting. Even in life, she also disliked the physical contact of people around her.
In the end, Sister Yao had no choice but to call a psychiatrist for her.
I changed doctors two or three times in a row but failed to enlighten me.
And Chi Huan was not willing to talk to another doctor about those things that she found disgusting and unspeakable. Dr. Guan was the last one.
The result of the diagnosis was that she was no longer affected by stimulation, but had already formed psychological trauma, so she obviously didn't want to recall those things, but they would always appear in front of her eyes from time to time.
At that time, the doctor also said that since you are young now, you are showing aversion to physical contact. If you fall in love and get married in the future, there is a high possibility of developing psychological sexual apathy.
Later, she received hypnotherapy to forcibly erase that memory.
After hypnosis, her condition improved a lot, and she was no longer disturbed by the pictures that popped up from time to time. Although she still didn't like others to come into contact with her, she just didn't like it, and she wouldn't lose control.
She had always subconsciously felt that she would be sexually frigid, so after getting engaged to Mo Xigu, she drugged herself to solve or confirm this problem in advance.
Even when she was raped by Mo Shiqian, she chose to be with him. In addition to her state of mind at that time, and as he said, she fell in love with his responsibility and loyalty. There were also reasons for this.
She always felt that it was difficult for her to accept a man physically.
Mo Shiqian looked at her with confused and sharp eyes, but his hands still stopped.
"Huanhuan."
That was all when she was sixteen, and he became her bodyguard a year after that.
He knew her basic life from childhood to adulthood, so he naturally knew about this matter.
But I know very little, just one sentence -
At that time, he only regarded her as his employer and had no intention of getting to know her in depth.
After Chi Huan was with him, it was normal, and he never wanted to know the details.
Her breathing was rapid and ragged.
She looked at the man who was only one step away from her.
They were so intimate last night, but now they suddenly feel indescribably far away.
Mo Shiqian raised his feet and wanted to get closer to her.
Chi Huan immediately reflexively wanted to retreat, although there was no way to retreat.
Dr. Guan's voice sounded behind him, "Mr. Mo, Miss Chi is emotionally unstable right now. It's best not to irritate her."
She lowered her head. There were still water drops on her face and her long hair was wet with water. She looked tired and a little embarrassed, "Mo Shiqian... I want to calm down."
"Okay, let's go back."
She nodded silently, crossed her arms, lowered her head and walked past him.
Mo Shiqian wanted to reach out and hug her several times, but finally held back.
After Chi Huan came out of the bathroom, he walked directly out the door.
The man followed her in a few steps and called her name in a low voice, "Huanhuan."
"I'm so tired, I want to go back to sleep... let's go back."
Hypnosis is very tiring and mentally draining, especially in situations where there are high emotional ups and downs.
Mo Shiqian tilted his head, his cold gaze passing over Dr. Guan's face, and finally he obeyed the woman's wishes and left.
She walked in front, always avoiding his touch intentionally or unintentionally.
He opened the passenger door for her.
Chi Huan glanced at him and bent down to get in the car.
She was silent all the way, and she didn't say a word until the car stopped on the parking lot of the villa.
Mo Shiqian often looked sideways at her, but she kept her eyes closed from beginning to end, hanging her head as if she was concentrating with her eyes closed.
After the car stopped, she opened the door and got out of the car.
Chi Huan walked in front, and the man followed her without saying a word, two steps apart.
When she opened the bedroom door and walked in, Mo Shiqian's tense nerves relaxed a bit...
At least, she is still willing to come back here.
She raised her hand to touch her long hair, tilted her head and said to him, "I feel very tired, and my head hurts a little. I want to take a nap."
The woman's expression was barely normal except for being a little pale.
Mo Shiqian lowered his eyes and stared at her face closely, "I'll give you a hug, okay?"
She pursed her lips, and after a while, nodded slightly.
The man reached out and took her directly into his arms, holding her tightly as if he wanted to embed her into his bones.
Chi Huan breathed heavily and stretched out his hand to break free.
The next second, the arms holding her were tighter.
"You're trying too hard...it hurts."