Later, as he got older, he realized that this desire to prove himself to her was because he liked her.
He felt himself a mean person.
He shouldn't have any fantasies about his eldest brother's wife, but he still can't control his thoughts. He also knows that once his dirty thoughts that can't be put on the table are exposed, all the people he cherishes will be brought into a mess. In such an embarrassing situation, his eldest brother and sister-in-law dangled affectionately as husband and wife in front of him, and he could only swallow his pain silently.
After listening to his story, Su Mu strangely didn't feel that he should get angry, but said calmly: "Mrs. Wen is not an ordinary woman, it's normal that you will fall in love with her, and the feelings you like are not high or low. There is no distinction between should or should not, despicable or not, just because people live in a world with moral norms, so you will understand that some emotions can only be buried deep in your heart and should not be spoken, but it does not represent you If you have this kind of emotion, you are a shameless villain."
At least, Wen Qing never thought of taking Zhao Furong over and becoming the "little third" in the marriage between Zhao Furong and Wen Guan. He restrained himself very much, and this kind of restraint was often impossible for many people.
Wen Qing was slightly startled, and then smiled wryly, "Every time I see my eldest brother and sister-in-law standing together, I know that I have no hope. They are very good, and I shouldn't be involved."
"It's good that you can think like this." Su Mu somehow felt that he was a little pitiful. He fell in love with an impossible person and troubled him for many years. She had also heard that when Wen Qing went to the battlefield, that usually They all rushed forward recklessly, others only said that he was brave, but she thought, maybe this "reckless impulse" was also because of this incident.
Wen Qing's mood was turbulent, and he couldn't help holding her wrist tighter, "At that time, I thought I was going to die, but my sister-in-law's face appeared in my mind, I didn't want to leave with regrets, so I I want to see her, I don't want her to accept me, I just want to tell her that I like her, and I'm not the boy who didn't grow up in her eyes. It's really over."
His face appeared in Su Mu's eyes, but he just looked at him quietly.
"At that time I thought I was going to die, so I thought about dying without regrets. The young Wen Qing has always been buried in my heart, and I want to say goodbye to him." Wen Qing paused for a while, his eyes flickered, and he said again : "But when I found myself alive, the first person I wanted to see was you."
Su Mu was stunned for a moment, and said uncertainly: "Me?"
"Yes, when I come back to life, I want to see you."
The young man buried in Wen Qing's heart disappeared. When his poison was cured, but he was still in a dazed state, he was not unconscious. On the contrary, he thought a lot, he thought When will he get out of bed, when will he be able to go out with Su Mu again, and when will he marry her, about his and her future... He couldn't help thinking of countless possibilities.
He suddenly realized that the former self was always looking back at the past, the self who couldn't love him, but now he couldn't help but look forward to the future, the future with her.