This time, Chu Yu only made a small cut on the skin, but it was a little deep. After loosening the tooth, it took a while for it to fully heal.
Seeing Chu Yu wrapped in a thin black coat one size larger, sitting on a heavy motorcycle with his head down.
Lu Shi pulled up his collar and raised his eyebrows, "Is this a reflection?"
"I just... couldn't hold back."
The moment he let go of the handlebars, Chu Yu was so restless in his body that he didn't have much energy in his body, and his fingertips were still shaking with excitement. The desire to suck blood surged up and couldn't hold back, and when he bit down, he didn't have the usual restraint.
Chu Yu quickly promised, "I will be lighter next time!"
In the past, even today, during the day, Chu Yu would be nervous, worried that Lu Shi would be cold-faced because of it. But now, he is not afraid at all, and even stretched out his hand to tug at the hem of Lu Shi's clothes, raised his head, and emphasized, "Really!"
"Um."
Lu Shi put his left hand in his pocket, and his right hand pulled back Chu Yu's wet forehead, revealing his eyebrows and eyes. He lowered his head, approached, looked directly into Chu Yu's eyes, and asked in a low voice, "Are you still sad?"
This was a very aggressive and powerful move, which Lu Shi did, but Chu Yu was not at all disgusted.
"Don't be sad."
Chu Yu lowered his eyes, his fingers unconsciously played with the metal zipper of Lu Shi's coat, "I just can't accept it for a while..."
Compared with Lu Shi's bedroom, his tone was calm.
"Everyone around me thinks that my mother spoils me very much. She buys whatever she wants. She even spends money to buy a school for me to be happy in school. I am not as strict and demanding as my brothers and sisters. They thought so, and they instilled it in me."
"So, I used to think it was really like this."
"Even all her indifference towards me, I try to attribute it to her busy work. But, where is so much busy? She just doesn't care or even ignores it."
Lu Shi listened quietly.
Chu Yu wrapped the coat on his body.
The clothes were Lu Shi's, one size larger, and had a touch of Lu Shi's smell on them.
"My brother and my sister attended the graduation ceremonies of elementary school, middle school, and university. My mother attended the graduation ceremony. Aunt Lan was always the one occupying that seat."
"I used to be scared, so I deceived myself. But now I think, what's there to be afraid of? Just admit it,"
He tightened his hand when pulling the zipper, and after a long pause, he said softly, "Just admit that she doesn't love me."
Speaking of which, it doesn't seem as uncomfortable as I imagined.
"My mother is a typical person in power and superior thinking. That is to say, she will only devote her attention and energy to those who are capable and useful. As for me, it is estimated that it is only because of this blood relationship, so , she gave me the best living environment, gave me endless money, built me a glass greenhouse, let me be obedient in it, don't cause her any trouble. You see, even her requirements for me Just be healthy, happy, safe, don't let her worry."
Chu Yu's brain gradually became clearer, and his words were not organized, and he said,
"When I was young, my mother treated me like my elder brothers and sisters. She hired many teachers for me, and the class was full. I was lazy, didn't appear to be particularly smart, didn't have self-discipline, liked to sleep in late, like to play. Etc. When I was older, my mother never asked me for a tutor, nor did she ask me to take classes or get good grades."
He bent the corner of his mouth and pulled out an arc without a smile, "Looking back now, it is estimated that at that time, my mother felt that there was no hope in me, so she just gave up on me."
"Chu Yu."
"Well." Chu Yu raised his eyes and opened his eyes wide, "I didn't cry, really, don't believe me."
"I know."
There was no pity in Lu Shi's eyes, and no other superfluous emotions. He just said, "Do you want to comfort me?"
"What comfort?"
"What comfort do you want?"
Chu Yu couldn't think of it for a while, so he tentatively suggested, "... Hug?"
"it is good."
Before Chu Yu could react, Lu Shi took action.
He leaned over, stretched out his arms, and hugged Chu Yu, who was sitting on a heavy motorcycle and wrapped in a large black coat.
With his arms closed, Chu Yu fell into Lu Shi's arms.
Lingering on the tip of the nose is the clean smell of the familiar laundry detergent.
Chu Yu froze and didn't dare to move. After a while, he relaxed and rested his chin on Lu Shi's shoulder.
"Am I... useless?"
"no."
"real?"
"Um."
On the way back, Lu Shi rode his bike at a very slow speed.
The night wind is light.
Chu Yu leaned on Lu Shi's back, was quiet for a long time, and suddenly asked, "If, I mean if, I really got into the 220th grade, or even the top 120, the top 20, my mother Will you...will you give me a look?"
"Want to try?"
"Well, I want to try it."
The reloaded motorcycle rushed into the tunnel with the heavy roar of the engine. In the early hours of the morning, there were no other vehicles. The orange light at the top of the tunnel fell, like the light of a shredded sunset.
Chu Yu grabbed Lu Shi's clothes, and his eyes fell on the dazzling street lights. He didn't know whether to tell Lu Shi or himself, "Probably still unwilling, unwilling to be given up so easily."
"I will help you."
Lu Shi parked the car on the side of the road, propped his long legs on the ground, and turned to look at Chu Yu.
"But no matter the outcome, don't cry."
Chu Yu was poked by another sentence, "I'm not a crybaby! How can I cry so easily?"
Lu Shi chuckled and sat down again, "Hold me tightly, little crying bag, back to school."
I returned the car, took a taxi, and went back to school.
Walking to the door of the dormitory, Chu Yu suddenly remembered, "Wait for me!"
He took two quick steps, opened the bedroom door a crack, squeezed in, and closed the door with a bang, not giving Lu Shi a chance to see inside.
There was a sound inside the door, and soon, Chu Yu opened the door again.
He was holding two bottles of blood supplement oral liquid in his hand.
He plugged in the straw and handed it to Lu Shi, annoyed, "Hurry up, drink one more bottle, it's my fault, too unrestrained! What if you are anemic!"
Lu Shi was too lazy to stretch out his hand, so he took Chu Yu's hand, lowered his head and finished drinking it, commenting, "It tastes strange."
"It tastes strange, but I have to drink it. I have asked the chef in the cafeteria to make black chicken soup, and I will bring it to you in a thermos tomorrow."
After saying two more words, Chu Yu yawned, "I'm so sleepy, I'm going to sleep, see you tomorrow."
Back in the bedroom, Chu Yu took a quick shower, put on pajamas, and fell on the soft bed.
I was too excited when I was riding the bike, and the weakness of my limbs was not completely overwhelmed until now.
He closed his eyes and was about to go to sleep. He faintly smelled a familiar smell. He stood up and saw the thin black coat that was still beside the bed. Only then did he remember that the clothes had not been returned to Lu Shi.
After sitting for a while, Chu Yu took the coat over and put it on the pillow.
Lie down again, Chu Yu clutched an inch of cloth and slept soundly.
separated by a wall.
After taking a shower, Lu Shi sat down at the desk with wet hair without wiping.
Before the paper spread out on the table was finished, he took a pencil and began to solve the problem.
The white light of the lamp only enveloped a small area in front of him, and behind him was darkness.
Phone vibrates.
Lu Shi glanced at the number he knew.
He didn't answer and continued to solve the problem, letting the phone vibrate over and over again.
Lu Shi didn't press answer until he wrote the final answer in the blank area under the question.
"Lu Shi, aren't you ready to answer your dad's call from me? How about your courtesy! How about your upbringing! Do you really think I have so much time to spend with you time and time again?"
After Lu Shi took a shower, he didn't wear the black wrist guard or watch, revealing his thin wrist.
He flexibly turned the pencil in his left hand, there was nothing in his dark eyes, and his voice was light, "I'm working on the question, the phone is turned off and muted."
Lu Shaochu's mood was a little more stable, "Is it still hard to study so late?"
"It's not hard."
"If you don't want to study in City A, if you have to run so far, it's you who suffers!"
Lu Shaochu repeated his old words, "Your mother misses you very much, and your grandfather also talked about you several times, when will you come back?"
"I'm busy, I don't plan to come back for the time being."
"Lu Shi!" Lu Shaochu's voice rose suddenly, his anger couldn't help, "you are busy, you can count, how long have you not been home, ah? A year and a half! Last year's New Year's dinner, everyone was there Ask, why are you not here, what do you want me to answer? Where do you want your mother to save face! Do you really think your wings grow hard, and you won't come back when you fly out? Ah!"
Lu Shi listened to Lu Shaochu's scolding in silence.
There was no change in his expression.
Lu Shaochu eased his tone again, "Lu Shi, your mother has a headache recently, and the family doctor has seen it several times and she can't get better. I'm not at home, so I don't care. She raised you so much, if you have a conscience, come back and have a look. . She will be very happy when she sees you."
Lu Shi said coldly, "I guess you don't want to hear me repeat what I just said."
Lu Shaochu didn't speak for a few seconds.
"You paid 300,000 yuan in your card. If you don't have any money, just say it."
With a sigh of relief, Lu Shaochu gave the candy, and threatened again, "I'll treat you as a youthful rebellious period, but when I tell you Lu, I have taught you a lot, everything has to be in moderation, I'm with you Here, you came out with ten-tenths of patience, and you know it yourself. It really exceeds the limit, and you know what the consequences will be!"
The phone hung up, and Lu Shi threw the phone on the table with a "bang" sound.
After sitting quietly for a while, Lu Shi took out a piece of white paper and wrote carefully with a pencil stroke by stroke.
"... Seeing the peach blossoming at first, the peach is dyed like yan fat, you must believe it. Spring is early in the south of the Yangtze River. There are also several branches, scattered and scattered flowers, floating all over the ground, but never swept away.... Come. I'm just afraid, don't have deep feelings, I forgot the words of the alliance."
Finally, he wrote the name of the word brand, "Xijiang Moon Slow".
Too much force, the flexed knuckles turned white, and the tip of the pen trembled slightly. The handwriting sinks into the paper.
His eyes fell on the sharpened pencil tip, Lu Shi opened the drawer, took out a sharpener from inside, and sharpened the pencil.
Sawdust and lead ashes fell on the pure white paper piecemeal, covering the last three words of the word plaque and smearing the surface of the paper.
The blade is sharp.
Lu Shi's pencil sharpening suddenly stopped.
The sharpener moved down, and the blade finally stopped at the wrist of the left hand.
On the cold white skin, there are several deep and shallow fine scars, which are eye-catching and dazzling.
Thinking of the knife tip piercing the skin, the blood spilling out, and the sobering pain, Lu Shi's eyes became focused.
The tip of the knife is pressed down, the skin is sunken, and there is a stinging pain.
But this time, Lu Shi didn't push the tip of the knife deeper.
Throw away the pencil sharpener and close the drawer.
Under the lamp, Lu Shi stared at the blue blood vessels under the skin of his wrist—
His blood cannot be wasted.
If there is no blood to drink, that little crying bag will cry.