The carriage was once the place where their feelings sprouted. Ren Yi is the fertile soil of enthusiasm, and Gong Yingxian is the seed of indifference anywhere, but in this carriage that wraps the two of them in warmth and safety, whether it is a greenhouse or a shed, in short, everything is right , it sprouted.
This is out of control.
After they left the car, they experienced the wind and rain and were covered with bruises. They fled back into the car, heard each other's breath, smelled each other's smell, and once again felt the initial quiet and unstoppable germination power.
The two can feel what the other is thinking at this time, and they are very sure.
It's just that Ren Yi chose to remain silent, while Gong Yingxian chose to speak: "Do you remember, we used to eat boxed lunches in the car."
Ren Yi's Adam's apple slid slightly, and he stared at the traffic lights ahead.
"I never like people approaching me. If I were in other places, I could avoid you, but I have no place to hide in the carriage, so gradually, I got used to you being so close to me." Gong Yingxian moved slightly Leaning in Ren Yi's direction, "After you get used to it, it won't work if you stay away from me."
Ren Yi was a little annoyed, Gong Yingxian was right, there was nowhere to hide in the carriage, he didn't even dare to look around, but there was a faint scent of grass and trees unique to Gong Yingxian in his breath, he couldn't ignore this person The presence.
"You said I have a problem, yes, I do have a problem, I have also communicated with Dr. Pompeii, and I know where my problem lies." Gong Yingxian's eyes fell on his knees, "You are a People who always put other people's feelings before their own, but I am just the opposite, I don't even care about my own feelings. People will have pain when they have feelings, so at the beginning of the accident in my family, I put all my feelings They are all closed, do not communicate with others, and prevent others from coming in and going out by myself. It is too tiring to bear other people's feelings, and I can't even bear my own."
Ren Yi took a deep breath, and there was a dense tingling pain in his heart, did Gong Yingxian pinpoint his weakness and exert his strength? He hesitated for a long time, and finally said: "Since you are aware of your problem, have you thought about doing something?"
While waiting for the red light, Gong Yingxian tilted his head on Ren Yi's shoulder: "I didn't have it before, but now that I have you, I want to change everything. I want to make you like everything about me."
Ren Yi sat up straight.
Gong Yingxian's head lost its support, so he had to back away in disappointment. He carefully traced Ren Yi's side face with his eyes, and said seriously: "Because I like everything about you, and I hope you can get it too." As satisfied as I am."
Ren Yi pursed his lips and did not answer.
"I'll change it. I've been changing it all the time. Maybe I haven't done it yet. Give me some time and I'll make it better. Don't give up on me." Gong Yingxian's gaze was so earnest and moving, it seemed so sincere and simple, Can't help people don't believe it.
Ren Yi sighed: "You have never been so good at talking before, who taught you this."
"No one taught me, just a lot of things I only said to you."
"Ying Xian, you can't just try to fool me with a few words every time."
"Then what do you want me to do?"
Ren Yi paused, made up his mind and said generally: "I hope we will be apart for a while, I don't see the possibility that we can last for a long time, once or twice, maybe more times, it's like a ticking time bomb, I'm afraid there will be One day I will hate you."
Gong Yingxian bit her lower lip: "I don't want to be separated from you, what if you go away and never come back?"
"...I can't guarantee anything."
"'You can't guarantee anything'." Gong Yingxian repeated this sentence, heartbroken, "I often feel that you are a lifetime to me, but I am just a paragraph to you, so you can give up ,I can not."
Ren Yi was stunned, he turned the steering wheel suddenly, parked the car on the side of the road, and then turned to look at Gong Yingxian: "You don't want to be kidnapped by morality, what is life, what period? I treat you this 'section' Heart and soul, without reservation, I am in my thirties, not a teenager, do you know how difficult it is for a person in his thirties to dare to love someone like a teenager. You treat me like a lifetime ? Then what the hell did you do to me? Who dares to live with someone like you forever!"
In one breath, he let out all the stagnant things in his heart, and Ren Yi suddenly felt that the air exchanged in and out was a bit clearer. He tried his best to deal with it calmly these days. Following the doctor's advice was just an excuse, he was just, just afraid, He was afraid that once a gap was opened, Gong Yingxian's impurity and unreserved feelings would penetrate everywhere.
There is a person who loves you deeply, but doesn't mind lying to you and hurting you. How can there be such a fucking thing in the world.
There was clear pain in Gong Yingxian's eyes, and he said softly: "You have held it in for a long time, you can say whatever you want, don't hold back." Poking the heart is better than ignoring Ren Yi.
"I don't know what else to say before you can understand." Ren Yi didn't want to say anymore, he found himself hopeless, at this point, he still didn't want to hurt Gong Yingxian, but he couldn't let Gong Yingxian come again hurt him.
Gong Yingxian said sadly: "A person like me, is he doomed to die alone?"
"... I didn't say that, maybe it's just us... not being right."
"Even if it's not suitable for two people to be happy, or a life-and-death relationship, who else can I be suitable for?" Gong Yingxian stared at Ren Yi without blinking, his eyes were red, "As you said, no one would Follow me forever."
Ren Yi turned his face away in anger: "Gong Yingxian, don't you fucking pretend to be pitiful." A person who is like a beast when he is fierce, why should he act like a cat in front of him!
But Gong Yingxian reached out and broke Ren Yi's chin: "You dare not face me."
Ren Yi pulled away Gong Yingxian's hand, started the car again, and muttered: "Enough, enough, shut up, get out of the car if you say anything else."
Gong Yingxian leaned back in the chair.
There was silence in the carriage for a while, and Gong Yingxian said again: "Do you still like me?"
Ren Yi said in a deep voice, "I said shut up."
"After you answer this question, I will shut up."
Ren Yi couldn't answer. In front of Gong Yingxian, he could neither lie nor tell the truth.
After waiting for a long time, Gong Yingxian smiled lightly and said with relief, "You still like me."
With a dark face, Ren Yi stared ahead and drove quietly.
"Sometimes, I really want to hide you." Gong Yingxian stared at Ren Yi, his eyes were like a wolf, but his voice was very soft, "I don't care about anything, I don't care about anything, let you become mine alone."
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When the car arrived at the place, Ren Yi quickly put into gear, pulled out the key, opened the door, and got out of the car in one go, as if staying in the car for a second longer would explode.
Gong Yingxian followed, and he looked at the surrounding environment: "It's okay here, how about the security?"
"good."
"What about medical treatment?"
"good."
"I don't think it's good, that camera is broken." Gong Yingxian pointed to the camera at the entrance, "I'll complain later and ask them to replace it with a new one as soon as possible."
Before entering the door, Ren Yi suddenly stopped and looked at Gong Yingxian: "When you see my dad, don't talk nonsense."
Gong Yingxian also looked at Ren Yi: "What do you mean?"
"You understand in your heart." Ren Yi opened the door and went in, and went straight to the front desk to register.
"Mr. Ren, please come with me." The nurse led the two of them to the housing department. From the office building to the housing department, you have to pass through the atrium. This is the activity area for the elderly. There is a large garden, as well as fitness and entertainment facilities. At this time, the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming. If it is not just at the meal time, there should be many people.
As soon as they walked to the garden, they heard a noise coming from a distance, Ren Yi turned his head to look, and was dumbfounded.
He actually saw his father and a few caretakers tearing apart in the garden, yelling vaguely, and he couldn't hear clearly from this distance.
Ren Yi rushed forward.
Taking a closer look, Ren Xiangrong was holding a fire extinguisher in his hand, the safety pin had been torn off, there was dry powder splashed on the ground, and beside it, there was a burnt and deformed trash can. Several nurses were about to snatch it from him, but they didn't dare to snatch it.
"Don't come here, what are you guys doing!" Ren Xiangrong was inconvenient in his legs and feet, and was trembling just standing, but he was full of anger when he shouted, "You are hindering the firefighters from performing their official duties!"
Ren Yi sighed inwardly, and he called out, "Dad."
Several nurses looked at him: "Are you a family member? Think of a solution quickly."
Ren Yi walked over: "Dad, what are you doing, the fire is already out, you can put your things down."
"Don't come here, it's dangerous here, who told you to come here." Ren Xiangrong blushed with anger, and was about to spray the fire extinguisher.
"Dad, there's no fire anymore, it's just a trash can, it's gone out long ago, look." Ren Yi didn't dare to grab it for fear of hurting his father, so he could only coax.
Gong Yingxian stood behind Ren Xiangrong and spread his arms to prevent Ren Xiangrong from falling.
"What do you know? There are safety hazards everywhere. You have to investigate, go, call Xiaofei, who approved the firefighting here, and I will definitely not approve it." Ren Xiangrong looked around nervously with anger.
Ren Yi said helplessly: "Captain Ren, if you have anything to do, let's go back to the squadron. You can put down the fire extinguisher first." Seeing his father's legs shaking, he was afraid that although he might fall, his heart was pounding, and he was extremely nervous.
Ren Xiangrong was holding the fire extinguisher, like a soldier holding a weapon on the battlefield. He refused to let go no matter what, but looked around vigilantly with a solemn expression.
Ren Yi approached cautiously, trying to take the fire extinguisher from Ren Xiangrong.
But at this moment, a nurse's mobile phone rang, and the ringtone was somewhat similar to that of the fire brigade. Ren Xiangrong suddenly picked up the fire extinguisher, held the nozzle in one hand, and pressed the mouth with the other, using the training methods that every firefighter has trained. Thousands of times of the most standard and fastest posture, aiming at the trash can and starting to spray.
Ren Yi was standing next to him, even if he turned around to cover his face in time, the dry powder got in from his mouth and nose, choking him so much that he could not stop coughing.
At the same time, Ren Xiangrong's legs softened and he sat down on the ground.
Gong Yingxian and the nurse quickly supported him, put him on the wheelchair, and took the opportunity to grab the fire extinguisher.
Ren Xiangrong looked around nervously: "Check again, look at the ceiling, look inside the wall."
Two nurses pushed Ren Xiangrong away, and the other asked with concern: "Mr. Ren, are you okay? Go wash your face and rinse your mouth."
Ren Yi wiped his face with white powder, and he stood stiffly in place, not even caring about the embarrassment on his face.
Gong Yingxian said to the nurse, "Go and do your work." He took out a handkerchief from his pocket, wanted to wipe Ren Yi's face, and said distressedly, "Did you inhale it?"
Ren Yi looked away and said in a low voice, "I'll go wash it."
Gong Yingxian's hands froze in mid-air, feeling extremely uncomfortable.