Ren Yi washed his face and rinsed his mouth several times before washing away the dry powder from his mouth and nose.
The dry powder has low toxicity, so it’s okay to eat a little bit, but he still has difficulty breathing as if he had been poisoned. Something was stuck in his throat, and he couldn’t swallow it or spit it out, which gave him a headache.
Supporting the sink with both hands, he looked at the wet face in the mirror, with strands of limp hair sticking to his cheeks, just as listless as its owner.
My hair is long, it's time to cut it.
Ren Yi thought to himself.
It seemed that he hadn't looked in the mirror seriously for a long time, and only now did he realize that his appearance had changed.
The first thing his father said when he saw him was probably "Why are you so skinny again?" He had already thought up his words, but he didn't expect that his father didn't ask him, and he didn't even remember who he was.
His father has been ill for several years. It's not that he is not mentally prepared to face out of control, but every time he sees him, he feels sad, without exception.
Another person appeared in the mirror, looking at Ren Yi in the mirror.
Gong Yingxian looked at him with concern, and handed him a bottle of mineral water: "Is it better, do you want to go to the hospital for gastric lavage?"
"It's not that serious." Ren Yi took the water and took a sip, "Where's my dad?"
"He's fine, the doctor gave him a little sedative."
Ren Yi lowered his head and breathed slowly.
"I can provide Captain Ren with..."
"No need." Ren Yi stopped him and said, "Stop talking."
Gong Yingxian looked at Ren Yi's tired face from the mirror, feeling extremely distressed, he walked over, and gently stroked Ren Yi's spine with his big hand: "It's too hard to take care of the patients alone, I really want to help you. "
Ren Yi silently shook his head. Thinking back seriously, ever since his father fell ill, the most relaxed and comfortable period for him and his father was in Gong Yingxian's private hospital, but he also knew that it was impossible for him to accept these in public and private.
There is no such thing as hard life, at least he still has a father.
Ren Yi got up and wanted to avoid Gong Yingxian, but was suddenly hugged by Gong Yingxian.
The long-lost embrace, the familiar generous chest, warm breath, and domineering strength made Ren Yi lose his mind for a moment. He should have refused, but he found that he really wanted a hug now.
Gong Yingxian's voice was hoarse, "I really want to help you, I really want to solve all your troubles for you, so that you will never worry about anything, but you never ask me for help, and you take care of everything by yourself, why are you not alone? Ordinary... ordinary people."
"... I was originally an ordinary person, and ordinary people just want to solve their own troubles."
"But I hope you can rely on me."
Ren Yi really wanted to ask, are you reliable, but he held back and sighed softly, "I'm going to see my dad."
Gong Yingxian let go reluctantly.
Ren Yi turned to leave, but Gong Yingxian grabbed him again: "Wait a minute." As he spoke, he carefully brushed off the dry powder on his hair with his hands.
The two stood facing each other, each other's breath sprayed on each other's face, hot and itchy, Gong Yingxian didn't know whether it was intentional or not, and his lips were about to bump into the tip of Ren Yi's nose several times.
While Ren Yi was in a trance, Gong Yingxian suddenly lowered his head and kissed the small mole on the bridge of Ren Yi's nose.
It is reasonable to say that the two of them have done all kinds of shameful things, so they couldn't be distracted because of a restrained kiss, but Ren Yi couldn't restrain his heart palpitations. He took a step back, passed Gong Yingxian and left.
Gong Yingxian looked at the empty hands and felt lost. It turns out that being able to embrace the person who wants to hug to the heart's content is hard-won luck.
The doctor gave Ren Xiangrong a very low dose of sedative. He didn't fall asleep, but calmed down from the state of restlessness and anxiety. He lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, chanting words.
Ren Yi sat on the bed and looked at his father silently, with melancholy in his eyes and speechless in his mouth.
Gong Yingxian found a chair, sat beside Ren Yi, and stayed silent with him.
After a long time, Ren Yi said, "My dad was just like me when he was young. Everyone said that we are alike, in appearance, temperament, and experience. They are so similar." Ren Yi said softly, "My dad used to be like me. As healthy and strong as I am, I am always the first to go into a fire, and I am unambiguous in saving lives. My dad has saved countless people in his life, and he has made great achievements. But when it was time to enjoy his retirement life, he fell ill. I'm sick without any symptoms."
Gong Yingxian looked at Ren Yi, feeling his heart ache.
"My dad has thought about it many times, what he will do after retirement, where he will travel by car, and visit places that he has never had the opportunity to see when he served in the squadron all year round. In the end... I don't understand, my dad is like this. At that time, I felt a lot of resentment in my heart." Ren Yi said, his voice choked up a little, "A person who seems to have endless energy is suddenly tied up by illness. , He even needed help downstairs. He was much more uncomfortable than me, but he never complained in front of me. He always said, he said... he was very lucky to be able to retire with all his needs."
Gong Yingxian comforted in a soft voice: "The old captain has seen more life and death, and is more open-minded than you imagine."
Ren Yi took his father's hand and held it gently: "Did you know that this disease has a certain chance of being inherited."
Gong Yingxian immediately said: "Don't worry, the chance is very low, and now there are means to early detection and prevention, not to mention, the level of medical care has risen to another level after 30 years." Of course he knew, from what he knew Ren Xiangrong Since the beginning of his illness, he began to adjust the proportion of scientific research topics in the hospital. In the past, his hospital focused on cardiovascular and cerebrovascular diseases, myocardial infarction, cerebral infarction, stroke and other diseases with high mortality and disability rates. Alzheimer's disease was only a part of it. Beginning this year, he has increased the budget by an additional 30%, cooperated with top universities at home and abroad, and allocated half of the resources of the entire hospital to this topic. He would never let Ren Yi fall into such pain.
"Thirty years later, I don't feel worried. I just... feel a little uncomfortable today." Ren Yi held Ren Xiangrong's hand, which was covered with various scars, burns, scalds, collisions, chemical injuries, etc. Corroded by the agent, rough and somewhat deformed, these are a pair of hands that rely on life, a pair of hands full of honor.
Gong Yingxian stretched out his hand, and put his palm against Ren Yi's warm cheek: "No matter what happens, I will always be by your side."
Ren Yi was silent for a few seconds, and said, "Ying Xian, in my profession, I am most afraid of being uneasy. If I can't keep my mind on the battlefield, accidents will easily happen."
Gong Yingxian realized what Ren Yi was going to say, and what he said would definitely not be what he wanted to hear, but he could only bite the bullet and listen.
"But now my mind is full of you, all of our entanglements. I think of your good for a while, and think of your bad for a while. I don't want to hurt you, and I don't want you to hurt me. I don't know how we will go. Go down, but you are still approaching step by step." Ren Yi's expression and voice are very calm, like the windless water surface under the warm sun in early spring, brewing a whole winter, just for this moment of silent ice melting, So I couldn't find a trace of wrinkles, "I said I hope to calm down for a while, not to escape, I really want to... calm down, and you keep appearing in front of me, I can't calm down."
Gong Yingxian's heart and lungs ached so badly that he forgot or temporarily lost the ability to breathe. He stared blankly at Ren Yi, his eyes gradually getting wet.
"I'm going to go off-duty to study soon. In half a year, I will go back to the Armed Police University to finish my master's degree. This is arranged by the detachment, and it is also a cooling-off period for me. I have not been given up yet, and I am already very content." Ren Yi Wangjin In the depths of Gong Yingxian's eyes, "During this time, can we not see each other for a while?"
Gong Yingxian's tears hovered on the edge of the eye sockets, and they were about to fall but not fall.
The crystal tears were like too dazzling light in the night, piercing Ren Yi almost unable to open his eyes, he was so distressed that he was overwhelmed, and even wanted to take back word by word, but he knew clearly in his heart, The hurdle between him and Gong Yingxian has grown violently against the wind and has become a wall.
In the past, even if it was a mountain, he would have to climb over it, but now he is afraid, he is afraid that if he climbs over one mountain, there will be another one, and all the sacrifices will be in vain.
Gong Yingxian asked tremblingly, "Is this what you want?"
"This is what we need." Ren Yi replied, "Emotionally, I am more mature than you. If I only act on impulse and ignore the consequences, it may end up hurting both of us."
Gong Yingxian endured the pain that pierced his heart, and nodded with difficulty: "Okay."
Ren Yi turned his face away.
"Then, can I send you a message?"
"… Ok."
"Then when can I see you?"
"When I'm ready to face you."
Gong Yingxian really wanted to get to the bottom of it, when exactly was that, but he didn't ask.
Ren Yi hardened his heart and said, "You go back, I want to watch the night here tonight."
Gong Yingxian stood up slowly, froze for a moment, bent down again, pressed a kiss on Ren Yi's lips, and whispered: "I like you, I love you, I will die for you without hesitation, don't give up on me .”
Ren Yi stretched out his hand unconsciously, as if he was going to grab Gong Yingxian's clothes, but he immediately came to his senses, and instead used his palm to stick Gong Yingxian's heart, this vigorous heart, at this moment Do you dance just for yourself
Ren Yi patted that heart: "Take care of yourself."
Gong Yingxian got up and left.
Hearing the sound of the door closing, Ren Yi burst into tears.
He suddenly remembered Qiu Yan's warning to him.
Did he become an irresponsible "adult"
But that "child", he is naive and cruel.