I don't know what to say.
He seems to be too.
In a state of confusion, he sent me back to the company dormitory. We didn't say a word along the way. Even when I got out of the car, he just nodded.
I watched his car drive away until it disappeared.
The next morning, I had two dark circles under my eyes again without any suspense.
Before the start of the work music, I couldn't help looking at his empty office several times, but when it was time for work, the office was still empty.
Soon President Zhang called me into his office. "Xiao Nie, has President Lin contacted you?"
I shook my head.
"I called him and he turned off." Mr. Zhang was a little anxious, but he looked at me and didn't ask any more questions. Instead, he mentioned my father, and after a few words, he politely sent me out.
I looked at my phone several times throughout the morning, but still didn't call.
In the afternoon, Mr. Zhang called another person from our department for a short meeting, saying that the recent work was directly handed over to him, and Mr. Lin went on vacation.
just to travel
I breathed a sigh of relief, but inexplicably, there was another burst of tightness in my chest.
I called my father and described the whole incident in a dispassionate tone. I thought I would not add any personal emotions, but after that, I couldn't help but sneer.
"Dad, does this mean that if there is a mother, there must be a daughter."
Ma Nianyuan's mother disliked her father's poverty and climbed a so-called Gaozhi at the time, while Ma Nianyuan refused to even visit when she heard about Lin Yusen's car accident. She would take the initiative to tell my dad, and she probably wanted to play pity on my dad first. Really, could Lin Yusen still rely on her to hold her responsible
It's really ridiculous and hateful.
After several days, Lin Yusen still didn't show up, I couldn't help but wonder, where did he go? Alone, or with friends
Could he have gone too far and simply couldn't remember me
No, no, what am I thinking.
But I couldn't restrain myself and started to go to the Internet to read some travel advice for no reason.
In the blink of an eye, it was Friday. At noon, I went to the restaurant with Yin Jie and the others for dinner. When I was about to leave the office building, I was stopped by the front desk.
"Nie Xiguang, I have your letter."
I haven't received a paper letter since the popularity of email. Holding the thick envelope in his hand has a strange texture.
Yin Jie leaned over curiously: "What letter, love letter?"
I shoved it into my pocket subconsciously and said casually, "Bank statement."
Yin Jie immediately lost interest and guessed what was being burned in the cafeteria today. I dealt with it casually, holding the letter in my pocket tightly in my hand.
While queuing in the cafeteria, I quietly dragged out a corner of the letter—
That fluent handwriting.
It is the word of Lin Yusen.
I couldn't bear to watch it until after get off work.
This weekend, I had already told my mother that I was going to go home, so I went to the station with my things after work.
I chose to go back by car.
The bus was driving on the expressway from Suzhou to Wuxi. I looked at the road extending out of the window and couldn't help but wonder, could Lin Yusen have an accident on this expressway? So last time he drove me back, what was in his mind when he passed by here
At that time, he thought that the person sitting beside him was the one who invited him to come, and then ignored him, so that he could no longer pick up the scalpel.
Thinking of this, I couldn't bear it any longer. I took out the letter I had been touching many times from my pocket and carefully opened it.
The letters are very thick, but they are mostly postcards, and the letter paper is only one page.
Xiguang, the first time I saw you was at the lady's banquet. It was a banquet I didn't want to go to, everything was so boring, so much less than reading a medical journal alone at home. until I found you.
You're mad at a girl at the time, and everyone in the room is attracted. I should have felt sympathy for the girl who was about to cry after being reprimanded by you, but I was completely attracted to you, and I just thought you were so dazzling.
When I was so arrogant? Probably out of anger? When I saw my father bring Ma Nianyuan to my godmother's birthday party, I was really mad. My mother would have been so embarrassed to bring that woman's child to a relative's and friend's banquet. Especially that girl likes to pretend to be pitiful. I didn't say anything and looked like I was being bullied.
I thought I had to find a way to get to know this girl, who just happened to introduce me to his friends, including you. I am now absolutely sure that you paid no attention to me at the time, so that you did not have the slightest impression of me. I tried to approach you without a trace, but you quickly disappeared at the banquet. I think maybe there is no need to worry, I can make a more complete plan first.
So, a few days later, when I received your invitation to appreciate plums, I was ecstatic.
I had a very successful operation that day. After getting off the operating table, I drove to Wuxi. I never imagined that this would be the last time I would be on the operating table.
On the highway, I had a car accident.
My life is not in danger, but I will never be a top surgeon again. The reason is not only my hands, but also my eyes. During that time, I was lying on the hospital bed covered with gauze, thinking that this is the price I paid for seeing that girl? I won't anger her and hate her, even I didn't tell anyone that I had an accident because I went to see her, but why didn't she come to see me
In the absence of light, you have become my demon.
and never lifted.
So when I learned from other people that you were an intern in this company, I left Shengyuan headquarters and went to Suzhou. Unexpectedly, you don't know me at all.
Yes, how do you know me, the person who invited me to Wuxi is not you at all.
But Xiguang, I have always been here for you.
- You have become my demon.
I stared at the stationery in a daze.
In fact, it was Ma Nianyuan who made him so miserable from beginning to end, so shouldn't his inner demon be Ma Nianyuan.
No, no, no, the idea just came up, and I immediately deleted it mercilessly.
How could it be someone else? In Lin Yusen's eyes, he always thought—
It's me!
"I have always been, for you."
It was clearly a sentence on paper, but in my mind I had already deduced Lin Yusen's appearance and tone, that gentle and low voice.
I involuntarily pressed my face against the cold car window, and a strange emotion like never before rose up in my heart. It could not be happiness, anger, heartbeat, or something else.
Suddenly, I had an urge to pick up the phone, flip to his number, and pressed my finger before I could think about it. They didn't give me any chance to go back, so I got connected quickly.
But we didn't speak to each other. For a long time, I still spoke.
"Linyu Sen."
He seemed to be sure it was me, "Xiguang."
"I got your letter."
"Ok."
"The postcards are beautiful."
"As long as you like it."
"Are you still playing outside? When will you be back?"
There was a pause: "I'm already at the train station, and I'll be in Suzhou tomorrow morning."
"Well, when you go back to Suzhou, you usually pass through Wuxi, or you can get off at Wuxi."
I don't know how I said this, but when I said it, I was silent, and there was silence over there. It took a long time to hear him ask softly, "Xiguang, are you sure?"
"Well, what time do you arrive in Wuxi, I'll pick you up."