Chu Xun sometimes felt that Xiao Lin was eighteen or nineteen years old, not in his twenties, otherwise why would he be so energetic, like a high school boy, full of yellow waste. This makes him love and fear at the same time. He likes the young and lively feeling of Xiao Lin, and needs him with satisfaction, but time is not forgiving, and his sick and old body cannot keep up with the fast pace of young people.
He doesn't want to cooperate with Lin Yanchen in everything, it should be Lin Yanchen to cooperate with him, otherwise, who is who is whoring
Chu Xun pretended not to understand what he meant: "I'm so tired by the plane, I have to sleep and recharge for the next trip."
Lin Yanchen was quite disappointed. He thought that Chu Xun would be more interested in him than him. Wasn't Chu Xun proposed to play in the car last night? Wouldn't it be more fun to be on a plane? Chu Xun was actually indifferent? Lin Yanchen watched Chu Xun take off his coat and shoes, lie down on the bed, and cover with a blanket.
He was silent for a moment, then quietly approached, and found that Chu Xun really fell asleep, peacefully.
Did you make a mistake? Lin Yanchen was convinced.
He's not so anxious to take action on the sleeping person, it's best if you love me.
The turbulent air flow and the high pressure in the sky made the sleep very restless.
Chu Xun had a dream. It is said that dreaming is a manifestation of light sleep, so the more he sleeps, the more tired he becomes.
He dreamed that when he was a teenager, he racked his brains to write a love letter to Ji Tianze. He wanted to take out his heart, but he was not satisfied with what he wrote. But he didn't remember the specific content, he just remembered that he secretly hid in the inner pocket of his clothes and gave it to Ji Tianze when he was hot, but Ji Tianze laughed at him after seeing it: "Chu Xun, I regard you as a friend, but you are using Looking at me dirty? Didn't expect you to be a disgusting gay monster."
Suddenly, many silhouettes with unclear faces appeared beside him, and they laughed and echoed:
"It's disgusting."
"I didn't expect Chu Xun to be such a person."
"I've heard that Manager Chu is gay. Shouldn't he try to rule me out? I have to be careful."
"He's gay and must have a messy private life."
"Maybe he has a venereal disease."
"Hahaha, maybe he has a terminal illness because his private life is too promiscuous."
Chu Xun couldn't argue, he just wanted to run away, ran all the way home, and wanted to find a place to hide.
Dad didn't allow him to enter:
"You wicked son of a bitch! It's immoral!"
"It's better to die outside, one hundred times! If you die, don't even think that I will bury you in the ancestral grave of our hometown!"
"How did I give birth to such an unfilial thing as you, and it made me lose face as well."
Chu Xun was driven around, the world was so big that there was no place for him to stand.
He was anxious, dazed, sad, and desperate.
why? What did he do wrong? Just because he was born a man, and naturally likes men? Just because of this, does he have to suffer and die
Suddenly someone grabbed his hand and called his name: "Axun, Axun..."
Chu Xun was finally awakened, he opened his eyes, and Lin Yanchen's face came into view, a little blurry.
In hindsight, he found himself in tears.
Lin Yanchen clenched his hand and pressed it against his face to warm Chu Xun's cold palm: "You have a nightmare, you cry without a sound, so you shed tears silently, only then did I see that the pillows were crying Wet."
He was cautious and did not dare to ask what Chu Xun dreamed about, for fear of touching Chu Xun's sadness.
For the first time in his life, someone cried and made him feel distressed, Chu Xun looked so vulnerable and helpless.
Chu Xun sat up, had a nightmare, was very tired, and said, "Xiao Lin, you hold me."
Lin Yanchen hugged him.
Lin Yanchen's hot chest and generous image gave Chu Xun a place to return, allowing him to settle his unsteady heart.
At least at this moment, someone is willing to hold him. He didn't speak, just held Lin Yanchen quietly, while Lin Yanchen stroked his back, as if coaxing a baby, making his breathing gradually steady.
He felt cold on his body, then realized that it was because of the cold sweat, and said, "It's better not to hug, I'm sweaty and dirty."
Lin Yanchen refused to let go: "Not dirty."
Xiao Lin is really conscientious and responsible for this position of lover. Chu Xun was pleased at first, but after thinking about it, he felt even more lonely. Unfortunately, no matter how real the acting is, it is not real. He bought it with money, and no one in the world loves him at all.
He has seen someone spend money to buy a young body, but he couldn't help himself. He begged his little lover to stay and continue to play the role in the game of true love. He probably met a master like Xiao Lin. Fortunately, he is about to die so that he can keep his head awake, otherwise he might spend a lot of money to please his little lover.
Chu Xun patted his shoulder lightly: "You asked me to change clothes. My clothes are all wet, and I will catch a cold if I wear them again."
Only then did Lin Yanchen let go of his hand, looking at him with worry in his eyes, as if he was sincere.
Chu Xun took off his shirt, and when he looked at him like that, he suddenly wanted to drop his head and be fascinated, and blurted out, "Let's do it."
Xiao Lin's fiery body immediately came up against him, and his chilled body seemed to be hugging him on his own.
Lin Yanchen whispered in his ear: "You are really thin, did you eat well before?"
Of course... no, he is busy at work and under a lot of pressure, sometimes he can't take care of eating, and sometimes he fills up a stomach of greasy wine and meat, and when he goes back to the toilet, he spit it out. He has high self-esteem, and he can't indulge himself into a bald and protruding old man no matter what. , thin is better than fat.
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Lin Yanchen didn't speak, just hugged him and stroked the back of his neck and back with his hands.
I don't know how long it took before Lin Yanchen asked hesitantly: "Can I ask? I really want to ask you, but I don't know if I have the qualifications... What sad things did you dream about? Maybe, you can talk to me. Tell me."
Chu Xun felt that he was ashamed. At such a young age, he still cried like this.
His father taught him since he was a child that a man should not shed tears easily. If he cried, his parents would stare at him with disappointment. They would tell him not to cry, but they would not step forward to comfort him. If he was injured, he would get up by himself.
Lin Yanchen didn't ask, but when he asked, Chu Xun suddenly cried even more. Chu Xun never cried in front of people he knew, probably because Xiao Lin was half a stranger, and it wasn't ashamed to cry in front of him, he let it out in one breath.
Lin Yanchen was at a loss.
I don't know what else to do except hug him.
Chu Xun cried for a while and said, "Because I like men, I broke with my parents and haven't seen each other for five years."
Lin Yanchen was filled with pity, he thought for a while, and said naturally: "...My mother died when I was a child, and my father and I also quarreled. The relationship was very bad, and we haven't seen each other for three years."
To comfort other misfortunes is to expose one's own misfortunes.
These two poor people met by chance and cherished each other.
Chu Xun sighed, he still wanted to talk about Ji Tianze, but for some reason, he couldn't speak in front of Lin Yanchen: "Alas, there is a hard-to-read scripture in every family."
Lin Yanchen slowly recalled, Chu Xun said that because a man broke with his parents, it would never be just a personality orientation. Who was that man? What is their relationship
I can't think about it further, just thinking about it casually makes Lin Yanchen feel that his heart is blocked and depressed.