When Lin Yanchen woke up, he found that the sun had reached three poles. He first squinted his eyes and touched his side. After a long time, he only touched the quilt and pillow. He slowly realized that Chu Xun was not there, but he didn't care too much at first. He took the mobile phone on the bedside table to check the time, it was already one o'clock in the afternoon.
He hasn't slept so late... Was he so tired last night
Has Chu Xun woke up? Lin Yanchen sat up, stretched, and yawned. Seeing that the drowsiness that Chu Xun wore last night was hanging on the back of the sofa, he smirked, Chu Xun must love him, seeing him sleeping soundly, he was reluctant to cry He gets up.
Lin Yanchen called twice: "Axun... Axun... Axun?"
No one responded to him, maybe he went downstairs.
Lin Yanchen was a little suspicious, but when he went to wash his face, brush his teeth, comb his hair, and put on his clothes, he still saw Chu Xun's clothes in the closet, as well as the small bags of Chu Xun's stuff, souvenirs they bought from traveling around. He felt that everything was there, and Chu Xun was definitely there.
Lin Yanchen didn't think about it too much. After cleaning himself up, he felt hungry and was going to find Chu Xun. It was time for lunch.
Lin Yanchen looked around, but didn't see Chu Xun's figure, went downstairs to the living room, saw Ed, and asked, "Where's Chu Xun?"
Ed said honestly: "He's gone."
Lin Yanchen didn't react at first: "He left? Where did he go? In the yard?"
Ed said, "Mr. Chu returned home by plane on the plane that departed after six in the morning."
Lin Yanchen lost all his drowsiness in an instant, and was completely frightened, stunned, and regained his senses: "He has returned to China?! Why don't I know? Don't lie to me! How is it possible? Are you kidding me? Chu Xun, please. You scare me with him? Don't scare me, it's not fun at all."
Ed said seriously: "Master, I didn't lie to you, Mr. Chu left, and I drove him to the airport."
Lin Yanchen was instantly furious: "The airport you took him to! Why did he leave? I don't know at all! What the hell is going on?"
He was angry, flustered and aggrieved, and said incoherently: "Impossible! He promised to fall in love with me... He said he liked me, we even raised kittens together, and he said I was 'the child's father', Ah Xun won't lie to me... He wanted to leave last time, I didn't force him, he offered to stay, how could he suddenly leave without saying goodbye? Ah Xun is not such a person, even if he wants to leave, he will definitely Tell me. And I have opened the closet, and his things are still in the closet. He obviously didn't leave. Don't play with me, is he hiding where I am worried? I am very worried, where is he? where?"
Ed shook his head: "I don't know, young master, I only take him to the airport, I don't know which flight he took, but you..."
Lin Yanchen was very angry: "I said stop joking!!"
Ed was paused for a moment by his roar, and then said, "He told me before he left that he left you a letter, which should be in your room."
Lin Yanchen gradually realized that Ed was telling the truth, but he didn't want to believe it. He was still holding on to the last bit of luck. He stared at Ed angrily for a while, then turned around in silence and went back to the room. Walked, then walked faster and faster, then trotted and rushed back to the room.
Lin Yanchen was in a state of turmoil, panicked, rummaging through boxes and cabinets in the room, like a blind man. He looked at the bedside table first, no. Then he ran to the wardrobe and took out Chu Xun's things. The clothes were probably all there. He couldn't remember which ones Xun bought, and it seemed that there was one set missing. Chu Xun's backpack was still there, and Lin Yanchen poured out all the contents in the bag. There was still cash in it. There was not a lot of banknotes, but the bank card was no longer there. The marriage application is gone.
A few days ago, he took out this piece of paper and said to Chu Xun, "Are we going to submit this application someday?"
Chu Xun said: "If there is a chance in the future, let's do it."
Lin Yanchen wrote down his name without hesitation and said, "Just fill in your name."
Chu Xun smiled and said, "I didn't fill in, and I wasn't kidnapped by you so easily."
But Lin Yanchen was confident and felt that it was a matter of time.
Lin Yanchen sat by the wardrobe with a pile of banknotes scattered around him, raised his head, and finally saw a letter on the table, under the vase.
Lin Yanchen didn't even dare to approach, he mustered up his courage, finally walked over, and pulled out the letter.
He took a deep breath, opened the folded letter, with Chu Xunjunxiu's handwriting on it, and the words that made his heart bleed: "Xiao Lin, I'm sorry, I'm leaving, please don't come to me."
Lin Yanchen closed his eyes, his fingertips trembled, he felt that he couldn't keep watching.
He stopped, took a deep breath, and sat down on the sofa dejectedly, allowing himself to continue reading the letter.
"It has nothing to do with you if I leave, you did nothing wrong, it's all my fault.
I was too selfish and indecisive. I agreed to leave, but I came back, giving you hope you shouldn't have. sorry.
I didn't tell you that I was terminally ill and had only a few months to live when we first met. I've been hiding from you, sorry.
Because I'm dying, I just want to find someone to accompany me. You are a good person, the greatest luck in my life is to meet you, but I should be your misfortune, sorry.
I've had a really good time this month.
After I came to the manor, I finally understood that our encounter was probably a misunderstanding. You are not selling yourself. Although I still don't know who you are, because I am leaving, I have not asked you, and you do not have to tell me.
A selfish person like me is not worthy of your liking, and drags you down for nothing.
I know you will think when you see this, you don't really mind my illness, maybe you want to come to me. I have to tell you clearly, I don't want you to come to me at all, although we have only been together for a short period of time, but you should know me a little bit, I am very stubborn and sometimes have high self-esteem, I don't want to When you saw that I was seriously ill, I was thin and skinny and looked haggard. That was so embarrassing.
Letting you watch me die day by day is a torment for you and me, and it's better not to see it.
I also know that you are rich, maybe you are trying to find a good doctor for me. Please don't do this, I have checked, and there is no example of my disease being cured in the world. If I had chosen treatment at that time, I might have lived a few more months. But I chose to stay with you, and the treatment time was delayed. You don't have to blame yourself. I have no regrets. I have spent a year and a half in the hospital bed for a month and a half with you. I think it is very, very, very worthwhile.
The aurora of Moraine Lake and you are the miracles that I can't find in my life.
Thank you, Lin.
I don't expect you to forgive me for being brazen, untruthful and lying, I'm so bad I really don't deserve your liking.
You are still young, the days in the future are still long, and you are so good. In the future, you will definitely meet someone who is also very good, not as bad as me, and grow old with you. I am here to bless you in advance.
I'm sorry, Xiao Lin, if you really liked me, please respect my will and don't come to me.
Really sorry.
Chuxun
201x/1/5”
Lin Yanchen saw that there were several small circles on the letter paper, which were dried tears.
He saw the tears fall on them again, splattering fresh tears.
Lin Yanchen had never thought in his life that he was so flustered and helpless at this moment, even more so than the last time he couldn't save Chu Xun.
He finally figured out what he had vaguely felt all along, Chu Xun tried to hide the lingering sadness.
He wanted to put the letter away, but for a while there was nowhere to put it.
His hands trembled uncontrollably, and the letter fell to the ground. He bent over to pick it up, and accidentally hit the table and the glass vase fell.
"boom."
The vase shattered, the glass shards splattered, the water splashed on the letter paper, and the withering rose fell into the mess.
Lin Yanchen remembered these few flowers, Chu Xun told him not to pick them at that time, and let the flowers grow on the branches.
He prefers to pick, even if the water is changed well, the flowers are gradually withering day by day.
Lin Yanchen was half-kneeling on the ground, regardless of the glass slag, and hurriedly picked up the letter, half of it was wet, the ink melted, and the words became blurred.
This is what Ah Xun left to him, but he got it dirty as soon as he got it.
What has he done
The hand was cut by the glass, and blood beads poured out immediately, making the stationery even more dirty.
Ed heard the sound of something smashing upstairs, hurried to catch up, and saw Lin Yanchen's hands full of blood.
He walked over and held Lin Yanchen's wrist: "I'll clean it, your hand is injured. You need to calm down. Calm down."
Lin Yanchen asked abruptly, "He loves me."
"He loves me, that's why he doesn't want me to go to him."
"I still want to find him, should I go?"
Ed thought for a while and said, "This is your life, and I am not qualified to make decisions for you. However, I think you have always been a determined person."
Lin Yanchen finally calmed down, he stood up and said, "You are right."
"I'm going to find him."