Didu No. 3 Middle School is famous for advocating the all-round development of students, and its teaching style is westernized and highly free. It has been given mixed reviews.
Some people think that this can maximize the hidden potential of children and let them feel the joy of learning. Some parents also think that most children of this age have no self-control ability. In the environment of exam-oriented education, this loose management method students Can't restrain myself at all.
This unique teaching feature has also caused the polarization of the students' performance in the No. 3 Middle School of the Imperial City.
The best is real. Last time, the national training team for the Olympiad entered several subjects, and the food is also real. It is estimated that the results can compete with Ji Fan.
On the first day Tao Zhi arrived at the school, he heard the publicity committee and the head of the propaganda department of the student union talking about organizing a winter cultural festival.
Tao Zhi glanced at the calendar in shock, and confirmed that it was indeed the end of February and almost March.
In the second semester of the second year of high school, which is about to enter the first semester of the third year of high school, these student union cadres are still focused on organizing the winter cultural festival.
She suddenly felt that Tao Xiuping brought her to this school because he couldn't understand her improvement in grades.
But in such a relaxed learning environment, Tao Zhi really felt that his whole body was also infected, and he relaxed a lot.
It's not that the students in No. 3 Middle School don't study. The school has strong funds and strong teachers, and the teachers' lectures are also lively and interesting. At least Tao Zhi's class has an unexpectedly good atmosphere during class.
Her new deskmate is a nonchalant boy named Lin Suyan, who enthusiastically introduced himself to her on the first day of school.
Listening to his poetic name, Tao Zhi guessed, "The Su Yan from 'Brush, Ink, Paper and Inkstone, Han Hai Su Chao'?"
"No," the boy said proudly, "my father's surname is Lin, my mother's surname is Su, and my grandma is a calligrapher."
"..."
Tao Zhi felt that sometimes, one should not think too deeply about problems.
Out of politeness, as well as care and compassion for the simple minds of the new students, Tao Zhi didn't speak, just nodded, and continued to read the textbooks just handed out.
Lin Suyan waited for her to complain for a long time, but he didn't get anything. He felt that his new deskmate was really cold.
Within a few days, the news spread throughout the sophomore year of high school. A taciturn, high-cold and beautiful girl came to Class 5. Apart from reading books every day, she did papers and was suspected of being a primary school bully.
Less than a week after the start of school, Tao Zhi has already been branded as a sophomore in high school by an unofficial group of boys.
It wasn't until the first monthly exam that everyone realized that the grade flower who usually looked like a primary school bully had mediocre grades.
Except for the excellent English, the scores of other subjects are not outstanding.
The No. 3 Middle School had a large number of outstanding people, and the young people liked to be fresh. After the excitement was over, there was no big disturbance.
The all-powerful experimental school bully hid his identity, and then fell silent, becoming a pretty little girl who studied hard.
Tao Zhi didn't expect that without those bloody rumors, there would be more people chasing her.
She began to receive frequent confessions and love letters from some boys. Gifts such as snacks would appear on the table between classes inexplicably, and Tao Zhi didn't keep any of them.
"Your arrival is like a generous philanthropist supporting impoverished mountainous areas. Now people in our school go to the lost and found office to get some snacks when they are free." Shaped jelly, commented inarticulately.
Tao Zhi glanced at him: "I think you run the most every day."
"Then no one will take it, and they feel ashamed, so they leave it alone," Lin Suyan said nonchalantly, "They don't know you too well, we Taozi only study in our lives."
He said, and asked curiously: "But seriously, what kind of boy do you like? The one who came to block your door in the classroom yesterday is not very handsome."
Tao Zhi froze for a moment, the tip of the pen rested on the scroll, and did not move.
She didn't know what kind of boy she liked before.
But now, every point of the standard in her heart can correspond to a certain person, and every point seems to have a prototype.
After a while, she calmly said, "Score above 700."
Lin Suyan's eyes widened: "You yourself only scored more than 500 in the exam."
"Then what's wrong?" Tao Zhi rolled his eyes, "I just like a man who is so much stronger than me that I can't catch up in my life, and then enjoy the pleasure of riding on his neck, can't I?"
"..."
Lin Suyan cupped her fists at her: "That's great, I underestimated you, you are the real queen."
Tao Zhi's new life in the new school is much more enjoyable than he imagined. He goes to and from get out of class day after day, and goes to the hospital to chat with Ji Jin on weekends.
Ji Jin's first stage of radiotherapy has ended, and she was transferred to the oncology department, where she received chemotherapy and drug treatment every day.
Chemotherapy drugs are very irritating to the blood vessels, and the liquid is cold. Tao Zhi filled a small plastic bottle with hot water and pressed it on the hose at the static point to make the liquid warmer. A little excitement.
When I got home in the afternoon, Ji Fan was sitting on the sofa watching a movie when he heard a voice raise his head: "You're back?"
Tao Zhi gave a "hmm" and looked at him hesitantly.
She doesn't know if the current situation is good or not. When she first found out about this, she was full of thoughts of not wanting to make Ji Fan sad, but there are some things that cannot be hidden.
It is impossible for him to remain ignorant, always ignorant.
He is no longer a child, but a mature individual with the ability to make independent judgments. He should have the right to know everything.
Tao Zhi took off his coat and threw it aside, stood in front of the sofa, trying to make his voice sound calmer: "I went to see my mother."
Ji Fan's eyes froze.
His eyes stayed on the tablet screen for a long time, as if he was engrossed in watching the plot of the movie, but also as if he didn't watch anything.
After a while, he said slowly, "How is her condition now?"
Tao Zhi was stunned: "What?"
"I'm in the hospital," Ji Fan closed his eyes, "I felt something was wrong when I called her before but no one answered. Strange, so I followed him."
"I wanted to see if he was really going to go bankrupt and secretly picked up junk behind our backs." Ji Fan pulled the corners of his lips with difficulty, "I saw him running all the way to the hospital."
Tao Zhi stood there, even a little at a loss, she didn't know what to say: "A Fan..."
"Anyway, I probably guessed what was going on," Ji Fan took a deep breath, "So Mom is really sick? What kind of disease?"
Tao Zhi pursed his lips.
Ji Fan grew up lawless since he was a child, mischievous, heartless and heartless. After a long time, Tao Zhi almost forgot that he actually thinks deeply about issues, and occasionally reveals a sensitive and delicate trait. It's time for her to be enlightened.
The two of them have indeed inherited Tao Xiuping's and Ji Jin's character traits separately, one is stubborn and straightforward, the other always likes to keep his feelings in his heart without telling anyone, and then make some innocuous jokes as if nothing happened.
He is not a fragile and ignorant teenager.
He is even stronger than her.
Tao Zhi blinked, then leaned over and hugged him.
She patted the boy on the back lightly: "Go and see her."
Ji Fan buried his head on her shoulder, and said in a muffled voice: "She doesn't want to, she doesn't want me to know, I can pretend not to know."
"She thinks," Tao Zhi choked his voice, holding back his crying, "She wants to see you, and what she wants to see most is you. You always know that she likes you the most."
Tao Zhi wondered if Ji Fan had visited Ji Jin.
But one night later, the boy suddenly came home very late, and Tao Zhi was walking around in the living room with a pair of earphones, covered with English words.
His eyes were red when he looked up at her.
"Zhizhi." He called her hoarsely, "I will protect you."
One end of the earphones is a soothing and quiet English song. On the other end, the boy’s voice is deep and deep. He looks at her firmly with red eyes: “I will grow up and become a man. Mom, Lao Tao, and you , I will take good care of this home."
Who said that it is only a moment for everyone to grow up.
At a certain moment, I suddenly realized that I was no longer a child, could no longer act according to my emotions and temperament, and understood that this world is actually cruel to everyone.
It tells you soberly and clearly that one day you will walk out of the protected and peaceful land above your head, and then become the guardian of others.
Tao Zhi spent a more comfortable life in No. 3 Middle School than she imagined.
The tutor is still in the class, and it seems to have become a habit to concentrate in class and the papers that cannot be finished one by one. The red color on her paper is getting less and less, and the speed of doing questions is from slow to fast. The thickness of the book ranges from thin to thick to thin.
She was so used to all of these that she couldn't quite remember what she was working so hard for in the first place.
The name Jiang Qihuai seems to have become an opportunity, not a goal.
She never met him anywhere again. After she deliberately avoided all the places where he appeared, she realized that it turned out that in such a big city, it was very difficult to run into someone by chance.
In the third year of high school, she scored 700 points for the first time.
Standing on the top of the mountain, she remembered the time when she first made a bold statement.
At that time, she always felt that if she could accomplish this goal, she would have reached the end.
Now, standing here looking at the thick rolling clouds below and the people below climbing up in groups, she suddenly felt a little dazed.
It took her nearly two years to finally stand here.
But she didn't know where her end point was.
At the end of June, the last time I came to school after the college entrance examination, the senior three teaching building of No. 3 Middle School was so lively that the windows could be smashed.
Lin Suyan held Tao Zhi's hand tightly, and said with tears in her eyes, "Taozi! Am I liberated? Am I liberated?"
Tao Zhi patted the back of his hand, and said humbly, "You don't need to call him Dad, just Grandpa."
Lin Suyan didn't compete with her for the quickness of the tongue at this moment, he was immersed in joy: "You can call the ancestor! How about it, let's have a whole meal tonight? It's also a year of deep love and righteousness." Half of the same table relationship, in another month, we will go our separate ways."
Tao Zhi sighed, the phone was vibrating in her pocket all the time, she took out the phone, and all the wechat groups that had been silent for a long time suddenly exploded.
Tao Zhi dragged the chat list to the end, and Li Shuangjiang and the others in the group called Pretty Girls League still talked a few words every day, but the WeChat of the other person never appeared again.
Although she has transferred to No. 3 Middle School, she still keeps in touch with the experimenters. It's just that in the third year of high school, each of them is so busy that they don't even have time to chat.
After the college entrance examination was over, Li Shuangjiang was completely revived and began to make troubles.
He called a few who had played well in high school, and even specially patted Tao Zhi.
Tao Zhi raised the mobile phone in front of Lin Suyan: "I have an appointment tonight."
Lin Suyan looked at it: "Your friend who was experimenting before?"
"Um."
"All right," he nodded, "We'll meet again when we have time."
The restaurant Li Shuangjiang chose was still the Chinese restaurant.
This person is very affectionate, sixteen and eighteen have the same preferences, when Tao Zhi arrived, the table was already full, and Fu Xiling stood at the door poking his head out to wait for her.
The last time Tao Zhi met Fu Xiling was a few months ago. The little girl got a little taller and the baby fat on her face faded away. She hugged Tao Zhi and rubbed her head against her chest. Then raise your head.
Fu Xiling blinked, and said honestly, "Zhizhi has grown up again."
Tao Zhi raised his hand and tapped her forehead: "Shut up."
Fu Xiling: "Hey."
She was about to say something when Ji Fan came out of the box and glanced at her: "Why are you so slow?" He lifted Fu Xiling's collar, "What are you smirking at, everyone is here, go in and eat."
Fu Xiling let out an "oh", and reluctantly grabbed Tao Zhi's hand, pulling her in.
Li Shuangjiang and Zhao Mingqi were still the same, they sang one and another as if they were singing a double reed, Jiang Zhengxun's complaints became sharper, Fu Xiling hadn't seen her for a long time, and he stuck to her talking like a piece of rice cake.
The boys and girls who used to sit in the same classroom are about to go their separate ways. There is a new environment, new friends and a new world of their own. Everyone is reluctant and excited, and they have no restraint in drinking.
Tao Zhi didn't know how many bottles she drank, or even if she was drunk. She leaned back in the chair and watched Ji Fan and Jiang Zhengxun arguing shoulder to shoulder over who was Ultraman. Zhao Mingqi held Fu Xiling's hand Crying bitterly: "Sister Ling, all my English homework in the past two years is thanks to you."
She stood up amidst the noise and walked out of the private room without a sound.
In the early summer of June, the cicadas were chirping loudly, and the evening wind enveloped the gentle temperature. She stood at the door with her eyes downcast, and then walked aimlessly.
Not far away is a bus station, and it has been nearly two years since she last took a bus.
She walked up to the bus stop sign, pointed at all the buses and stations on it, and swipe past them one by one.
She thought her memory was blurred.
She thought that after such a long time, she should not remember.
She spent two years of high school happily, made new friends, and met a good teacher.
As he wished, she walked forward proudly and smoothly, and never thought of turning back.
But when she got on the bright and empty last train, when she subconsciously chose the single-row seat by the window in front, and couldn't help but look at the seat behind, when she was standing on that bustling street, that deep and At the mouth of a narrow alley.
The memory told her so clearly that she hadn't forgotten even a single minute.
With lowered eyes, Tao Zhi walked into the alley step by step, walked through the blue carport, and walked into the old residential building.
She didn't know what she was doing, probably because of alcohol, she didn't care, she just wanted to act on her desires impulsively.
She stood in front of the gray security door and knocked on the door.
After waiting for a while, the person inside opened the door.
As the woman opened the door, she complained, "Why are you so slow? I asked you to buy a bottle of soy sauce and you opened a soy sauce factory for me, right?"
When she saw Tao Zhi, she was stunned: "Hey, who are you looking for?"
Tao Zhi raised his head in a daze, and looked at the woman's strange face: "Isn't this Jiang Qihuai's house?"
"Oh, Xiao Jiang, he quit the rent and moved out here at the beginning of the year. I am his landlord and I moved back only two days ago." The woman looked at her and asked, "Are you his friend?"
Tao Zhi hesitated.
"It just so happened that he moved with Mr. Jiang in a hurry, and I put away his stuff, and I was thinking of calling him in a few days." The woman said bluntly, "Can you contact him now? "
Before Tao Zhi could speak, the woman said again, "Wait a minute."
She said, turned and entered the house, and then moved out a small cardboard box.
"Here," the woman stretched her hand forward, "It's not heavy, just some photos and so on. I'll keep it for him, but I don't know where Xiao Jiang and the others live now. If it's convenient for you, just give it to him."
Under the influence of alcohol, Tao Zhi felt that her brain seemed to be half a beat behind, and by the time she realized it, the box had already been handed over to her.
Tao Zhi lowered his head: "How do you know I'm his friend?"
"It must be." The woman smiled, raised her hand and tapped the small cardboard box: "You are in this photo."
The woman closed the door, and Tao Zhi stood at the door holding the box, staring blankly.
The evening wind poured into the corridor along the shabby wooden windows, Tao Zhi walked slowly to the stairs and sat on the dirty steps.
The box was placed on her lap, it was obviously very light, but it seemed to have a heavy weight.
She pursed her lips, raised her hand, pinched the lid of the box with her fingertips, and gently opened it piece by piece.
There are many, many photos in it.
They used to be neatly pasted on the wall of his bedroom, but now they are scattered in a pile, lying quietly in the cardboard box.
Tao Zhi took out those photos one by one, such as the cat on the street corner, the mottled wall, and the broken jigsaw puzzle.
It was the first time for her to look at these photos so closely in her hand. With the dim light, she saw the small words in the corner above.
At the beginning, it was a somewhat immature, crooked font:
— the first gift.
—Always steal my fish intestines.
— the walls of the home.
One by one, Tao Zhi looked at those secrets that she had been craving for but didn't dare to touch. Those strange times when he was a child were like movie clips, and scenes unfolded before her eyes.
The last shot was taken on the Ferris wheel, the sky under the fireworks, bright fireworks illuminated a large deep purple sky.
The day she saw this photo for the first time, she just realized that she might like Jiang Qihuai.
Impulsively, she ran to the door of the convenience store and secretly looked for him, but was caught, and followed him carefully back home. Then, she saw that he didn't choose the one with her on his photo wall.
Tao Zhi stared at the photo for the first time seriously, looking at it carefully.
She remembered that Fu Xiling took many pictures that time, but this one was actually not very good, probably because the angle and distance were not chosen properly, the fireworks only took a small part, and the cabin of the ferris wheel took up more.
The main shot is the back of her head, the bright light in the Ferris wheel, and the glass windows reflect the small people in the cabin like a background board like a mirror.
Li Shuangjiang was smiling, Zhao Mingqi was tilting his head, and Fu Xiling was holding a mobile phone.
Then she saw herself.
She was sitting by the window at that time. From this angle, her face occupied more than half of the space on the glass window. The outline of the girl's facial features was hazy but clear. Her eyes were wide open, looking out of the window in amazement, with the corners of her eyes turned up Upturned, the corners of the lips curved slightly.
Tao Zhi's eyelashes trembled, and the fingertips holding the photo turned white.
She looked down.
In the dark place in the corner of the photo, on the glass window next to her hand, there was written in very small words in the same dark handwriting:
-sun.