The absurd atmosphere in the bedroom dissipated, and it was full of silence.
Tao Zhi hung his head and said nothing, he grabbed Jiang Qihuai's hand to play, from the fingertips to the slender fingers with well-defined joints, the back of the hand with clear metacarpal bones to the thin wrist, and then grabbed his wrist bone.
For Tao Zhi, the past is actually the past, and there is no need to bring it up again. There have been grievances and complaints, but more of them are distressed and reluctant.
People seem to be like this, they can go on persistently and firmly when they are hurt, but once they indirectly affect important people because of their own reasons, they will start to question, get confused, and don’t know what to do for a while. Go on, not knowing whether your choice is right or wrong.
Tao Zhi even put himself in his shoes and wondered if she would have made exactly the same choice as him if she had been Jiang Qihuai at that time.
She didn't want him to be imprisoned in the past, what she was looking forward to was the future and the future they would walk through together.
"That's what it's like to be in love," she said softly, "you will cry, you will be unhappy, two people have different personalities and ideas, and you have to work together. The gears have to be bitten bit by bit, but most of the time they are still happy. "
"Besides, why do you take all the faults on yourself? It's not entirely your fault." Tao Zhi raised his head and looked at him dissatisfied. It was absolutely right at the time, and I was also a little impulsive at the time."
Reluctantly, she reluctantly said: "I just felt betrayed by you for a moment, and I knew that you were the kind of shit character who couldn't fart without asking you, and I knew that you were Why did I say that, I still didn’t ask anything because I was angry for a while.”
When Jiang Qihuai was a teenager, she lacked honesty, but she was actually a little more impulsive.
It is too difficult to be a perfect person.
It is because it is difficult, it is because you will hit a wall, do wrong things, regret it, and be unwilling, so people will continue to grow up.
No one can be perfect in every aspect from birth.
She held his wrist and lifted it slightly, her fingers burrowed into his, intertwined her fingers, and pressed her warm palms together: "Look, we both obviously made mistakes and missed, but in the end It's still come now, this matter itself is rare enough, it shows how much I like you."
She repeated: "Jiang Qihuai, I like you very much."
Jiang Qihuai's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he looked at her deeply.
She was alive and awake all the time.
Don't stick to the things that have passed, don't get entangled in irrelevant people, just follow your purest desires all the way forward.
Because of this, she is like an eternal firework, always warm and bright.
He didn't speak, Tao Zhi clasped his hand and shook it: "Why don't you say you like me too?"
She turned around with a flick of her hand, raised her hand to grab his ear, and said dissatisfiedly: "Hurry up, don't you like me?"
Jiang Qihuai let her pinch her ears, and the pinnae stood up, looking like a big dog.
He was pinched and pulled forward by her, and he lowered his head, his cool lips touched her forehead, he paused, his voice was so soft that it seemed to melt into the air: "I love you very much."
Tao Zhi was silent for a moment.
She was distracted for a moment, and had the illusion that she didn't even hear it. After she realized it, she opened her eyes and looked at him: "Say it again."
Jiang Qihuai twitched the corners of his lips: "Say what?"
"That sentence just now! Don't pretend to be stupid." Tao Zhi jumped out of his arms, and sat on him with long legs, his thighs were stretched and sore.
She let out an "Aww", she let go of her strength, and limply lay on him again.
Jiang Qihuai sighed, put his hands under the quilt and rubbed her legs in a leisurely way: "Can't you be honest for a while."
"Whose fault is this?" Tao Zhi asked depressedly.
Jiang Qihuai said leisurely: "Mine."
Tao Zhi raised his head, accusing with a blank face: "Jiang Qihuai, every time you admit your mistakes, you are very insincere, especially when you say 'mine'—these two words, you are not serious at all. "
"..."
Jiang Qihuai wants to take back his previous thoughts about her not sticking to the past, this little girl has always held grudges and loves to bring up old scores.
"It's not serious, it's mine."
He lowered his eyes and smiled: "The princess is never wrong."
Tao Zhi slept late the next day, and when it was daylight, she felt the movement of the person next to her getting up. She opened her eyes and subconsciously glanced to the side.
Sitting by the bed, Jiang Qihuai noticed that she was awake, leaned over and kissed her: "I'm going to work, you sleep for a while."
Tao Zhi retracted into the quilt, and nodded in a daze.
Jiang Qihuai continued: "I'll make you some porridge later, if it's cold, warm it up before drinking."
She buried her head in the pillow, too sleepy to speak, shook her head twice to show she heard, and fell asleep again.
It was almost noon when I woke up.
She yawned and sat up, looking at the unfamiliar bedroom and the quilt on her body, and took a few seconds to reflect on where she is and what happened last night.
Tao Zhi decided to ask himself a day off in bed.
She sent Xu Suinian a wechat message telling him that she would not go to the studio today, then she squirmed, got into bed again, and clicked on Fu Xiling's wechat.
[Zhizhi Grape]: I fell asleep.
[Fu Xiling]:
[Fu Xiling]: I can sleep well, isn't it cool
Tao Zhi didn't know how to describe it, so he only sent one word.
[Zhizhi Grape]: Ah...
[Fu Xiling]: Okay, no need to say too much, I understand.
Tao Zhi was in a happy mood. She played with her mobile phone and lay comfortably on the bed for a while, got up and got out of bed to wash, went to the kitchen to fill a bowl of tomato egg porridge, and drank it slowly.
After drinking, she went to Jiang Qihuai's bookshelf to pick out a few books, and read them on the sofa.
When you are free, time flies by so fast.
After ordering takeout at noon, Tao Zhi received a call from Jiang Hesheng.
She picked it up while reading the book, and replied lazily: "Hello."
"The phone was answered quickly," Jiang Hesheng said, "Why didn't you reply to WeChat?"
"I didn't look at my phone," Tao Zhi flipped through the pages, "Why is Dr. Jiang looking for me today?"
"I'm going to city A for further study tomorrow. I don't know when I'll meet again next time. I have something to tell you," Jiang Hesheng said, "Let's have lunch together at noon?"
Tao Zhi: "Leave tomorrow? Isn't it almost the Chinese New Year?"
"Well, I won't be back during the Chinese New Year, I have to be on duty, and the vacation is only a few days away," Jiang Hesheng said with a smile, "How can a doctor have a year?"
"It's hard work." Tao Zhi raised his eyes and glanced at his watch, "I have eaten at noon. If you are not on duty tonight, I will treat you to dinner and I will send you your address later."
Jiang Hesheng responded.
Taozhi Restaurant was chosen near Jiang Qihuai's company. Jiang Qihuai had to work overtime today. She calculated the time and it happened that she could go directly to his company to pick him up after dinner.
She went home and changed her clothes and put on some makeup, and when she arrived at the restaurant, she just stepped on the appointed time.
Jiang Hesheng was always the kind of person who would arrive ten minutes early, and when Tao Zhi arrived, he was already sitting there waiting.
The two of them ordered a good dish, and chatted casually about the current situation while eating.
Jiang Hesheng has strong abilities and a good personality. He was sent out to study before the age of thirty, and he will have a bright future after returning in a year or two. Tao Zhi teased him: "Dr. If the little girl is chasing after you, you should also find someone you like, so that Uncle Jiang won’t have to urge you every day.”
Jiang Hesheng laughed: "There are so many little girls chasing after, there is no one."
Tao Zhi took a sip of watermelon juice, and said solemnly: "Old Tao has done a thorough research on the blind date market recently. Now the two most popular types in the blind date market are female teachers and male doctors. They talk about it so much that even I know it."
"So didn't you ask me to have a date with you before?" Jiang Hesheng glanced at her and said jokingly, "As soon as my father came home, he talked to me about you, saying that he regarded you as his own daughter and compared you to you." It seems that my own person has no status at all."
"This is a very normal thing, just get used to it," Tao Zhi said with a smile, "After all, I am loved by everyone."
"He also asked me how I thought of you." Jiang Hesheng said.
"Huh? What do you say," Tao Zhi said casually, "You said that I could get 400 points in the exam when I hired you as a tutor in high school?"
Jiang Hesheng: "Is it four hundred? I remember three hundred and five."
"..."
Tao Zhi looked at him expressionlessly, and warned: "Doctor Jiang, I advise you to cherish our friendship."
Jiang Hesheng laughed.
He looked at her lowered her eyes and pursed her lips. The little girl's eyelashes were long and thick, like two small brushes, which made people feel itchy.
His smile faded, and he said in a gentle voice, "I told him, I think you are very good."
Tao Zhi waved his hand: "Of course I'm fine."
Jiang Hesheng continued: "It's just that I'm a little timid. After waiting for many years, I haven't dared to confess my love once."
Tao Zhi paused with his chopsticks and raised his head.
Jiang Hesheng looked at her with a smile, with a serious look on his face: "At the beginning, I thought you were young, and I could barely be your teacher. I always felt a little guilty when I thought about it. Later, after you finished your college entrance examination and went to university, because you had known each other for too long, it became more serious. It’s not easy to speak.”
He lowered his head and smiled wryly: "I always feel that if I say something, I can't even be a friend."
Rao Tao Zhi, who is extremely insensitive to this aspect, completely understood what he meant.
She stared at him blankly, a little surprised and a little frightened.
They have known each other for so many years, Jiang Hesheng has never shown any ambiguity towards her, and the two of them don't even communicate very frequently. Sometimes they chat on WeChat, and sometimes they have a meal appointment.
He is like a gentle big brother who will solve her troubles and listen to her talk patiently.
Tao Zhi put down his chopsticks, a little at a loss.
"After dinner some time ago, I told my dad about this," Jiang Hesheng continued, "I think our family understands each other, and we know each other well in terms of character. It shouldn't be bad, and your personality is not bad, and I always... like you."
He took a deep breath, and said as if he had made up his mind: "I won't be in the imperial capital for a long time, and I was thinking, if I don't say anything, it might be too late."
Tao Zhi rested his fingers on the edge of the table and lightly rubbed it, and said at a loss: "I..."
Seeing her reaction, Jiang Hesheng smiled again: "Why are you so nervous? I just think I should tell you about this. If you don't meet someone you like, why don't you just think about me?"
Tao Zhi lowered his head, licked his lips, and said softly, "I have a boyfriend."
Jiang Hesheng was startled.
Tao Zhi has always been able to reject people she doesn't know very well, but in the face of so many years of friends, she suddenly felt that she couldn't even organize her sentences fluently.
"I have always regarded you as a very, very good friend, just, one of my best friends, I will also want to tell you when I encounter something that I can't figure out," Tao Zhi said slowly, "When my mother had an accident, , you and your uncles and aunts helped a lot, I always remember, thank you very much, but... "
Tao Zhi paused, and said with some difficulty: "I have someone I like. I liked him when I was in high school. I liked him for many years, and I met him again recently."
When she said this, Jiang Hesheng inexplicably remembered that many years ago, at a certain sports meeting when she was still in high school, the boy had undisguised cold eyes full of hostility, and the vague figure striding away with her in his arms.
"Ah..." Jiang Hesheng quickly covered up his momentary gaffe, and laughed again, "Is that so, we Zhizhi have also met someone we like."
Tao Zhi pursed his lips, like a child who has done something wrong, and did not speak.
"It's okay." Jiang Hesheng waved his hand and looked at her amusedly, "Don't look so serious, can you? It's not a big deal. It's so normal to be rejected when you confess your confession. You will still treat me as a brother and a friend in the future." , you can tell me anything, it’s no different from before.”
Tao Zhi nodded.
When he said that, she didn't say anything, but both of them knew clearly that some relationships would be different.
After the meal, Tao Zhi's mood was obviously lower than before, but Jiang Hesheng still acted like a normal person, and Tao Zhi didn't want to show it, so he cheered up and finished the meal.
Because of what happened at the dinner table, it ended much later than expected, and he didn't look at his phone during the period. Jiang Qihuai sent her several messages, but Tao Zhi didn't see them all.
When we left the restaurant, it was snowing outside, two people stood at the door, Tao Zhi pulled up the scarf, thinking of something else.
She watched him hesitate to speak.
"Oh, I'm really fine," Jiang Hesheng laughed, "I'm leaving tomorrow, and I don't think there will be many chances to see each other in the future, so give me a hug?"
He watched her open her arms, and joked: "The kind of friend, it should be a comforting end to the relationship that I haven't had time to start."
Tao Zhi hesitated for a moment, but still took a small step forward.
He moved politely and measuredly, kept a little distance from his body, touched her arm weakly with one arm, patted her back lightly twice, and said in a gentle voice: "Okay, I'm consummated, I wish Xiaotao In the future, Zhi will make his wish come true, and he will always be with the person he likes.”
"Thank you," Tao Zhi whispered, "I also hope that you can find someone you like, and I will definitely give you a super big red envelope when you get married."
Jiang Hesheng let go and took a step back.
Tao Zhi said goodbye to him, turned around and walked forward without saying anything else.
She didn't look back, but she always felt that someone behind her was watching her all the time. She uncomfortably pulled out her phone from her coat pocket, only to see the message Jiang Qihuai had sent her.
There are two missed calls, the most recent two minutes ago.
Tao Zhi didn't know why, he felt a little guilty when he obviously hadn't done anything.
Just as she was about to go back, the third phone rang.
The phone vibrated suddenly in her hand, Tao Zhi shook her hand, and quickly picked it up, she cleared her throat and said, "Hello?"
Jiang Qihuai didn't speak.
Tao Zhi: "Hello? Moshi Moshi? Sawadika?"
"Turn back." Jiang Qihuai said.
Tao Zhi felt a "thump" in his heart.
She turned her head and saw Jiang Hesheng was still standing at the entrance of the restaurant. He stood with his head down for a few seconds, then turned around and walked to the car next to him, got in the car and drove away.
"I didn't ask you to look at him," Jiang Qihuai said without emotion, "Look at the other side."
Tao Zhi trembled and turned to the other side again.
Jiang Qihuai's car was parked on the side of the road diagonally opposite to the entrance of the restaurant. He was leaning against the car and standing beside the car. From this distance, he couldn't see his expression clearly. He could only see his figure holding the phone and looking over.
Tao Zhi's heart suddenly began to panic.
She said cautiously, "Are you off work?"
Jiang Qihuai didn't speak.
Tao Zhi was so flustered that he started to jump, and said, "Then why didn't you call me when you got off work?"
Jiang Qihuai smiled indifferently.
Tao Zhi thought of the several missed calls on her mobile phone, and felt even more guilty. She also didn't know when he arrived here, and whether she saw anything, although she kept a safe distance from Jiang Hesheng when she hugged him just now. A symbolic touch on the arm.
She softened her tone and asked tentatively, "Have you waited long?"
Jiang Qihuai didn't answer her directly, but said: "Look at the snow falling on my head."
Tao Zhi: "..."
Jiang Qihuai: "Did you see it?"
"I see." Tao Zhi said dryly.
"Do you see what color it is?" Jiang Qihuai continued.
Tao Zhi: "..."
"You can, Tao Zhi," Jiang Qihuai's voice came over the phone, it was so cold that he could fall off ice balls in this cold winter and snowy day, "Get out of bed and plan to turn your face and deny anyone?"