Tang Yi:
By the time you read this letter, 80% of the time I'm gone. Maybe I went to the Western Paradise of Paradise, maybe I saw the Queen Mother of the West and ate the little pan peaches, or maybe I was slapped into hell, and slammed into the sea of fire in a frying pan, just to not drink the bowl of Mengpo soup.
Of course, it is most likely to be packed in a small boxy box, one meter eighty-five in size (may shrink a little when old), and the burned ashes are not more than a stick. Tsk, it hurts a bit to write this, and I suddenly died of reluctance.
I forgot to introduce myself, I am twenty-eight years old who wrote the letter. Today you told me about my life experience. You explained Shen Fan and every bit of information you found very slowly and clearly. I don't know what my performance looks like today, it should be very calm. Because I already guessed it.
Just still sad.
I don't remember most of the things when I was a child. I didn't hurt badly in the car accident, but my brain may have been knocked out. I can't remember a lot of things, but there are some episodes intermittently, such as when a little kid scolds me. I remember very clearly the fact that I was a wild species, and I also remember the expressions of my parents when I first came home.
I vaguely knew that I was adopted by my parents, but they were really kind to me, and they made up for all my shortcomings. When I was a kid, I would eat the stewed pork ribs at home. When I was in high school, I didn’t get enough grades. In order to buy it for me, my father also borrowed from the Western family and caused a lot of famine. It's not that I didn't think about my biological parents, but when I thought about it at that time, I hoped that I would earn money in the future and let my parents have a good life, and then when those two came to recognize me, I would take the money hard Slap them hard in the face and make them go away.
But I learned about it today, but I found that the scenes that I had rehearsed many times in my mind were not useful at all.
I have an impression of the fish tank Vivi said today.
The same fish tank that has appeared in my dreams countless times is an absurd story. There was a middle-aged man with a gentle face. I called his father, and he would cook for me, teach me to read, and often trot over to lift me up, turn around in high circles, and then coax me. Like a little girl, she took out a big white rabbit toffee from her suit pocket and gave it to me.
I'm not sure if he's the guy you're talking about, and it's ironic whether he is.
When you said the first sentence, I knew what you were going to say, but when you said the three words of Zhou Dongzhuan, I still couldn't restrain my body from chilling. At that time, I opened my mouth to ask you for a glass of water, and you were stunned for a while, and then I realized that the water glass was in my hand, and there was only half a glass of water left in it, and there were faint signs of tipping out as the glass trembled.
At that moment, the word "biological father" became more vivid and real than ever before, and it was also unprecedentedly hideous.
I don't want to recognize him, and I don't want to hate him. But my heart is still blocked.
However, after I calmed down, those strong emotions slowly dissipated, and I began to feel fortunate again. I am so fortunate to have met my current parents, and I am also fortunate to meet you.
That is why I am writing this letter to you.
Because tonight you have been carefully observing my expression, but you don't know how distressing your own expression is.
You have been taking care of my emotions, and you have even thought about it, what if I don't want to recognize my relatives and force me, or I want to recognize that someone obstructs me. You said that you already have your own small independent company, and you are not afraid of anyone’s threats. As long as I am happy, you will take the whole company with me, carry the knife when it’s time to go up, and the queen when it’s time to go down.
I then understand why you suddenly want to acquire this subsidiary. You looked indifferent when you said this, but I laughed slyly.
You ask me what's wrong.
I said that you are like a domineering male lion at the moment. In order to protect me, you face up to death and carry all your belongings, ready to die with the enemy at any time.
You laughed dumbly, but I got wet eyes when I bowed my head.
At that time, I thought that the only regret in my life was that I couldn't write the word Tang Yi in the spouse column on my account.
The matter of my biological father had long since been thrown out of my mind, and all the feelings of melancholy and helplessness were replaced by even greater fear. I have never been more afraid of losing you, and I have never been more afraid of you being wronged.
So I wrote this letter while you were asleep.
As long as I am here, I will try my best not to let you suffer any grievances. If, in case one day, I go first. Tang Yi, the following things are all I have. This may be the last thing I get to for you, but don't be sad, I love you no matter where I am.
[My surname is Gu, Ming Yanting, 28 years old, native place: T province. There is only one lover in this life, surnamed Tang and given name Yi.
I have the following properties under my name: 320W fixed deposit in the bank; 85W balance in the stock account; one property: Room 6#402, Green Garden Community, No. 28, Jianghuai Road, the center of T City, with an area of 88 square meters. One motor vehicle, Volvo S60.
If I unfortunately pass away due to illness or accident, all my property will be given to my lover Tang Yi unconditionally.]May his life be prosperous and peaceful.
Gu Yanting
December 26, 200X
Chapter 60 He remembered what Tang Yixiao looked like when he asked him, "Let's give it a try" (Part 2)
Tang Yi imagined many scenarios when he talked to Gu Yanting about his life. Either way made him nervous and sad, and he couldn't predict Gu Yanting's reaction, let alone the impact on the latter. Therefore, he became sluggish, but he didn't want Gu Yanting to be kept in the dark, or to be informed and used by people with ulterior motives.
He hesitated and swayed back and forth for a long time, and finally after Christmas, he put everything he knew to a showdown.
The reason was that he heard Gu Yanting's conversation when he passed by Weiwei's door that night. Gu Yanting was interested in a fish tank in Zhou's house. Tang Yi smiled and shook his head. Just as he was about to walk away, Gu Yanting asked Weiwei in a low voice, "Weiwei, is that so?"
His voice trembled a little, but it was still clear, "Are there two peach blossoms on the base of that fish tank?"
"It seems like..." Wei Wei said, "the flowers are so big."
"Yes, is it going this way, that's all?" Gu Yanting raised his voice a bit, then lowered it again, "No, it's going this way, so folded..."
Weiwei didn't have many words, so he could only vaguely give a general idea. Gu Yanting repeatedly changed the words that children could understand, and compared them little by little.
The texture of the fish tank, the size, the color of the base, the pattern of the carvings, the position of the missing corners, and... The simple lines drawn on it are small fish and the sun.
He spoke slowly and slowly until all the details were lost.
In the end, Weiwei had forgotten what he was crying about. He blinked, raised his face in surprise and asked Gu Yanting, "Uncle, what you said is exactly the same, do you have one too?"
Gu Yanting did not speak.
After a long time, Tang Yi heard him sigh softly, and replied in a low voice, "Well."
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Tang Yi couldn't tell if it was because of the faintly discernible choking in the low-pitched answer, or because the pressure brought about by this secret had already made him unbearable, he didn't even have time to prepare, and made a belly draft, just as Gu Yanting came out of the second bedroom. At the time, he grabbed him abruptly and said, "Let's talk."
They talked smoothly.
Gu Yanting was silent the whole time, Tang Yi couldn't help staring at his facial expression when he spoke, so he saw his Adam's apple rolling up and down, and his right hand that trembled slightly until he could barely hold the cup.
When Tang Yi finished speaking, Gu Yanting suddenly smiled.
He said, "Hey, I'm fine."
Tang Yi couldn't help being a little surprised, and heard him say again, "It's almost New Year's Day, can you go home with me?"
good or not? Naturally is good.
Gu Yanting had been apart for two years, during which time he only called home during the festivals. When he came back from a business trip this time, he went home for half an afternoon, looked after Gu's father and Gu's mother, and hurried back to the city in the evening.
Tang Yi felt a sense of guilt that Gu Yanting had "married his wife and forgot his mother". At this time, he contacted back and forth and reviewed his family together as a matter of course.
So he quickly bought a massage seat and a foot tub and let the manufacturer deliver it. Then he called Secretary Zhao to come and pick up Weiwei. When everything was packed and loaded into the car, Tang Yi suddenly hesitated.
He slowly selected clothes one by one, and then took Gu Yanting as a reference, and finally spent half an hour choosing the clothes. Gu Yanting was immersed in the joy of going home, and seeing that he was dressed, he went downstairs first. Who knew that just as he went downstairs and touched the car door, he saw Tang Yi stick his head out from the balcony and called him, "Come up again."
Gu Yanting could only lock the car and go upstairs again. Tang Yi was frowning when he opened the door, but he said, "Can I do this?"
"..." Gu Yanting didn't dare to be impatient, and nodded like a chicken pecking at the rice, "Okay!"
"Is it too formal? A suit and tie, it's like going to a negotiation." Tang Yi stood in front of the mirror again, and finally said decisively in Gu Yanting's stunned eyes, "Wait a while, I'll change. "
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Tang Yi is very nervous. In the past two years, he has actually sent a lot of things to the Gu family, but most of them have been faked by others. On the official level, the last time he and the second elder of the Gu family met was when he broke up with Gu Yanting.
Fortunately, the tension didn't last long. When Gu Yanting drove him back, he introduced the scenery on both sides and counted the rarer and rarer street lights and trees. In front of the staff dormitory.
Few people live in this area, and only a few families are drying towels or clothes on the balcony with peeling walls.
Tang Yi was stunned for a moment, then saw Gu Yanting pointing his finger at him, reminding him: "Look, that's my house."
Tang Yi turned his head to the side, and finally found a dark balcony under the guidance of Gu Yanting. Gu Yanting smiled and said after a while, "When I was sent here, my first reaction was that this place is really old."
"I was still a little bastard at that time. I don't know if I said anything ugly or did some bastard things. But I'm afraid it won't be much better." Gu Yanting put his arms on the car window, squinted and smiled, "My parents didn't throw me out, it's really kind."
Tang Yi didn't expect that he would take the initiative to mention these, and he didn't know what to say for a while.
Gu Yanting didn't pause for a long time. He glanced outside and said, "He has a wide network of people and a lot of money. If he really wants to find a lost mother and son, he won't be without news for so many years. It's not difficult. So Most of the time, he didn't want to look for it. My mother should have been the third child he raised in the south. Whether she knew it or not, this marriage was wrong after all."
"When I was in middle school, I was sensitive and had low self-esteem, and then gradually developed into autism. Most of it has something to do with this. I was five or six years old when I was put up for adoption, and I was fully sensible. My biological father and mother disappeared one after another, and only I was thrown around and ended up in a completely unfamiliar family. That feeling must be very uncomfortable."
Tang Yi didn't speak, reached out and grabbed his hand, and squeezed it twice. He remembered the time when Gu Yanting sent text messages pitifully when he was on a business trip.
"I just want you to know my past," Gu Yanting also grabbed Tang Yi with his backhand, and finally pulled his fingers together, "know my thoughts."
"I know." Tang Yi smiled.
Gu Yanting also smiled and looked outside with him for a while. When it was getting dark, snowflakes suddenly floated in the sky, and large tracts fell quietly and quietly. Gu Yanting rubbed his hands, restarted the car and drove out.
When the two of them went all the way to Gu's house, it was completely dark. Gu's mother stewed a table of dishes and waited at home with Gu's father. When Gu Yanting and Tang Yi knocked on the door, they saw that the second old man was wearing brand new clothes, and they came to greet them as if they were New Year's Eve.
The massage chair manufacturers have already delivered to the door in advance, and placed them in the most conspicuous place in the living room. While mother Gu blamed Tang Yi for spending money, she happily pushed Dad Gu up to demonstrate to Tang Yi.
A meal, eating and joking, did not withdraw until nearly ten o'clock. Gu Yanting hurriedly washed all the tableware and chopsticks, and pushed Father Gu and Mother Gu to the bedroom to let them sleep first, and then carefully got into the second bedroom.
Tang Yi was sitting in front of his small desk reading a book, and when he looked up, he smiled and smiled.
Gu Yanting also smiled at Tang Yi. He didn't move forward in a hurry, but stood in the same place and looked at Tang Yi's profile with the light from the side of the lamp.
The corners of Tang Yi's mouth are slightly upturned, and when he is in a good mood, he will bend into a very beautiful arc. In Gu Yanting's heart, it was a perfect lip shape, even if he looked at it from a distance, his heart would soften.
He remembered how Tang Yixiao looked when he asked him, "Let's give it a try".
It was an autumn afternoon, Tang Yi was walking seriously on the Ginkgo Road in the school, the golden leaves fell to the ground, and there were many students on the road taking pictures. Gu Yanting followed Tang Yi and peeked at him, who knew that Tang Yi suddenly stopped when he reached the corner. Gu Yanting followed closely, almost bumping his head into his arms.
Tang Yi smiled and rolled his eyes. Gu Yanting blushed unconsciously and took a step back, but was caught by him.
"Gu Yanting, can you try it with me? If not, we will divide it."
"it is good."
They have all gone through hardships and missed each other, and now there are still various unpleasant things that are ready or about to happen waiting for them. But this did not prevent them from finally coming together again, and nesting in this hut warmly and comfortably.
It was snowing heavily outside, and a layer of water vapor quickly condensed on the bedroom window.
Gu Yanting smiled and leaned over, and kissed Tang Yi's mouth lightly, "What are you looking at?"
"Read the book," Tang Yi squeezed his face with a smile, and turned to the last page to show him - "Only when we wake up, will the dawn break. It's not just the dawn that breaks. The sun is just a morning star. ."
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