The sun woke up Xianquan Town, and Jin Yi woke up to the sound of carriages and horses. He opened the door and saw Fang Fan who was taking care of the trees and grass in the yard. He lowered his head slightly, his long hair covered his side face, and his movements were meticulous and gentle. When Jin Yi saw it, he felt that Fang Fan seemed to be growing among them, bathing in the morning light with them, showing his most beautiful posture and appearance.
At this moment, even though he was in a busy city, he no longer heard the hustle and bustle of cars and horses, but the courtyard in front of him was the only place.
Fang Fan finished the work at hand, turned around, and said to Jin Yi, "After breakfast, the general is going back to the barracks, right?"
In a word, it is like an inquiry, more like a chasing order.
Jin Yi replied, "Well, I'll leave later."
Fang Fan nodded, stopped talking, and went into the house, hiding his expression where Jin Yi couldn't see it.
After breakfast, Jin Yiguo really left, but he didn't go back to the military camp. Instead, he walked around Xianquan Town and rented an empty room to live in, not far from Fang Medical Center.
Therefore, Fang Fan could meet Jin Yi several times every day, sometimes walking on the street or in front of other people's stalls, sometimes in the places where he took Jin Yi for a walk, sometimes It was Jin who came to buy some herbs for making herbal tea or send him some inexpensive but practical things such as fresh vegetables...
Jin Yi's attitude is self-evident, but Fang Fan just responded politely, although not very repelling, but never close.
Jin Yi didn't know how long it would take for a person's sealed heart to open again. Although Fang Fan seems to be peaceful and never rejects himself tyrannically, it is precisely because Jin Yi once owned it and knows how intimate and warm this person would be if he gave you his sincerity, so his current attitude is clearly just treating himself as a gentleman's friend. . Therefore, although Jin Yi swore to himself that he would have to let Fu Ming return to his side, he occasionally felt powerless. But more often, he is still determined to win. This confidence does not come from the other party, but because he knows that he cannot let go. Fu Ming is the most important existence in his life besides defending the family and the country.
Sometimes, Fang Fan would accept Jin Yi's kindness and return him a pack of candied fruit, which was just right for him to drink after drinking herbal tea. Such a small gesture was a great encouragement to Jin Yi.
It's just that time flies, and when the autumn mood is getting stronger, it's time for Jin Yi to take office.
It hardly rained here all summer, but it started to rain when Jin Yi was about to leave.
The rain made the whole Xianquan Town quiet. People and cars disappeared on the streets. Most of the people stayed at home. Only a few people were hurrying or huddling under the eaves to avoid the rain. The sound of the rain silenced all the noise.
Jin Yi held an umbrella and went to say goodbye to Fang Fan.
The door of the Fang Medical Center was not closed, but closed it vacantly. At this time, the person knocking on the door might not be able to hear clearly, so Jin Li pushed the door directly and entered. Passing through the yard and coming to the main room, the door was also closed, and there were voices coming out, it seemed that a patient had come to consult. Jin Yi took the umbrella and stood it by the door. He didn't enter the house, but just stood outside and waited silently. He is a martial artist, and he has good ears and eyes, so he can hear what the people inside are saying through the sound of the rain through the door and wall.
It was a woman of some age who came to the consultation. She asked Fang Fan: "Doctor Fang, I know that my face can't go back to its original shape. I've gotten used to it over the years, but now... Now I've found someone. My old friend, although he doesn't despise me, but I'm embarrassed, so I wanted to let you see if I can change it a little bit? As long as... as long as it's not so scary."
It was quiet for a moment, and then Fang Fan's voice came: "Xu Niang, you are an old injury, and it is impossible to completely heal it, but here is a prescription left by my father. I dispensed medicine, You can pick it up in two days, apply it to the wound after cleansing your face in the morning and evening, and stick to it for a few months, it should improve."
The Xu Niang thanked and left, opened the door, and saw Jin Yi outside the door, she hurriedly lowered her head, put on a hat, and walked into the rain.
Jin Yi pushed open the door again and entered, Fang Fan saw him coming, with a look of doubt in his eyes, and asked, "Are you coming, is there something wrong?" Perhaps because of the rain, Fang Fan was more troubled than usual. Soft, and the question is not a cold "what is your job".
Jin Yidao: "That Xu Niang just now... I saw it, who is so bitter and grudged to be so cruel?"
As a doctor, Fang Fan should not disclose the private affairs of the sick to others, but since it was Jin Yi who asked the question, if Xu Niang was here, he should not have concealed anything, although Jin Yi probably just asked casually and did not Looking forward to an answer, but after thinking for a while, he still replied: "Xu Niang drew it with broken pieces of porcelain when she was young. The border was not peaceful at that time. I can't leave my hometown. Xu Niang is good-looking, in order to... In order not to fall into the tiger's mouth, she is cruel to herself. Xu Niang said, thanks to the fact that the court began to take more force, this place gradually became peaceful. Especially you, Jin General, Xu Niang often tells the neighbors that you are the benefactor of Xianquan Town."
Jin Yi smiled softly when he heard the words. This smile was not because of the facts in Fang Fan's words, but because Fang Fan's tone of voice showed a rare touch of kindness, perhaps even he didn't notice it.
Fang Fan continued: "After Xu Niang destroyed her face, although she was spared from being abused by gangsters, she never married again. Now, she has finally found someone who can be with her for the rest of her life, and I am really happy for her. It's a pity that the healer is not the creator, and can't remove the pain and scars from the past for her, only to lighten it up a little."
Jin Yi shook his head and said: "You don't have to regret, some hurts are too deep to be completely eliminated. But as long as she lives well in the future, even with these scars, she can comfort the past. She has looked forward. , that's good."
Fang Fan heard the words, smiled and said, "You are right."
It is not easy for a doctor to heal others, and it is even more difficult to heal oneself. These days, those memories that were deeply buried by Fang Fan have often reappeared from time to time. He went through the joys and sorrows one by one. He thought that he could achieve "nothing beyond the self, no delusion and no disorder, and prajna contemplation", but the dream returned. At that time, he clearly had loneliness, grievances, and melancholy haunting in his heart. After all, he is an ordinary man, and he cannot forget his feelings and cannot be exempted from the commonplace.
The person in front of him is a hero praised by many people such as Xu Niang, so, will he be the one who can let him stop caring about the pain in the past and regain the courage to look forward
Fang Fan couldn't be sure, just when he was dazed, he was gently embraced by someone, his embrace was wide and warm.
"You once asked me if I had broad shoulders and a broad chest, if I could allow you to settle down in this life. What I promised you that day has not been fulfilled. I think I have not lost the chance to fulfill it forever. For the second half of my life, let me fulfill it truly. ?"
The words are in the ear, deep and affectionate. Fang Fan wanted to raise his hand to push away the person who suddenly hugged him, but he couldn't move, letting his body temperature come through his clothes, letting his heart beat like thunder against his chest, and letting a drop of hot tears wet him. cheeks.
After a long time, Fang Fan escaped from Jin Yi's arms. The other party's eyes were slightly red, but there was no wetness, but his eyes were eager and he was still waiting for his answer.
Fang Fan opened his mouth slowly and said softly: "Now, I don't know, let's see - in the future."
Jin Yi left for the barracks with an answer that could make him feel at ease. He still hasn't returned to the house in Xianquan Town, and plans to come and stay for a day or two when he has time.
After arriving at the barracks, he handed over military affairs to Jiang Yisun. Jiang Yisun planned to go back to the capital to find Yan Le, who has now disappeared, so he has taken a one-year leave from the imperial court.
A few days later, he left, all the soldiers saw him off, Fang Fan also came, this time, when Jiang Yisun called him Ming brother, he agreed, Jiang Yisun hugged him tightly, just a moment, then in Jin Yi. His eyes let go.
At the farewell banquet, Fang Fan played a piece of qin, which he composed based on Su Zizhan's term "Shui Tiao Song Head", and sang it three times in a row while playing the song, and finally the soldiers in the camp sang with him:
... I hope people last forever, I hope people last forever, and we live together in a thousand miles! Thousands of miles together Chanjuan...
Ten days later, Jiang Yisun sent a letter saying that Yan Le had been found, and now he was practicing in a mountain temple on his behalf. Jiang Yisun told Fu Ming not to worry about them, saying that when Yan Le was willing to walk out of the mountains and return to the world, they would look for an opportunity to reunite.
At this time, it was the end of autumn in Liangzhou, and the desert Gobi, which was already desolate, was even more depressed. But perhaps because of the different mood, Fu Ming felt that "autumn is better than spring".
On the way back from the medicine delivery from the military camp, he rode the horse presented by Jin Yi, looked at the boundless blue sky, the fine clouds were elegant, and he exhaled, as if he had spit out the depression in his heart for many years.
He thought that he might be able to look forward, and the way back was narrow, but the sun ahead was bright and the road was long. He whipped the horse and galloped.
Another winter and summer. The heaviest rain here last year came at the end of summer, but this year it fell at the beginning of summer.
Recently, Jin Yi was free and came to Xianquan Town again. The house that day has been rented out, and now he lives in the Fang Medical Center.
The sound of the rain pattering all night was also a good night's dream.
Woke up early the next day, but no one was around. Jin Yi raised his eyes to look for someone, and by the window saw Fu Ming who was reaching out to catch the water droplets on the leaves. He got up, walked behind the person, stood behind him, and asked, "I didn't hear it when it rained at night."
However, Fu Ming didn't laugh that he was not so vigilant as a military general, he only said: "Yinqin was raining at the third night last night, and it was a cold day."
The rain last night may have made the earth muddy and embarrassing, but it is a pleasant summer day when the rain falls.
The author has something to say:
"The self-nature is nothing else, without delusion and disorder, and contemplation of Prajna with every thought" - "Altar Sutra"
It's over! Thanks for reading this~