Ren Zhouyuan felt a little annoyed. Even though the two of them were doing harmonious things on the bed, he was thinking about other things. While thinking, Leonid desperately lit a fire on him, which made him feel even more irritable .
After finally finishing a round, Leonid held Ren Zhouyuan in his arms, and both of them fell down on the bed gasping for breath. After a sigh of relief, Leonid broke Ren Zhouyuan's face and asked, "What's the matter, since I didn’t pay much attention at first.”
Ren Zhouyuan frowned lightly and broke away from his clasped hand, knowing in his heart that you can do a complete set if you don't concentrate, and it's okay.
He closed his eyes and took a breath, turned over and sat up, took his clothes from the chair not far from the bed and slowly put them back on, saying while putting on, "I'm a little tired recently, so I won't do it."
Hearing this, Leonid got up and leaned over to Ren Zhouyuan's side, his eyes glowed and he asked him what was wrong.
Ren Zhouyuan glanced at him, feeling even more upset, and said in a tone of impatience: "Why are you so happy when I'm not feeling well?"
Leonid coughed dryly twice, rubbed his nose and said no. He paused for a moment, stretched out his hand and pinched Ren Zhouyuan's waist, pressed a few times and then probed towards his stomach, he didn't dare to use force but just rubbed it lightly and asked: "Is it uncomfortable here?"
Ren Zhouyuan patted his groping hands away with one hand, and gave him a warning look. He didn't know whether it was his own delusion or his irritability, but he always felt that Leonid was acting weird tonight.
He got dressed and went to the bathroom in the room. After taking a quick shower, when he came out, he saw Leonid's eyes drifting towards his belly. Ren Zhouyuan frowned, feeling a bad premonition.
Sure enough, when he returned to the bed and was about to lie down, Leonid's big palm reached out from under the quilt and accurately covered his stomach.
The doubts in Ren Zhouyuan's heart became deeper and deeper. He turned around tentatively and found that Leonid did not hug him as usual, but followed his movements and put his palm on his belly again. .
This time Ren Zhouyuan is really blind if he can't see anything.
He jumped up and sat up, staring at Leonid's eyes with shock and anger that he couldn't hide. Leonid sat up belatedly, afraid that he would fall and touch him, and put his hands on his sides , but was shot off by Ren Zhouyuan.
"What did you do?" Ren Zhouyuan suppressed his anger, but his words still trembled with anger.
At this moment, Leonid finally realized that his behavior was too conspicuous. He looked back at Ren Zhouyuan silently. Although he guessed that Ren Zhouyuan might be angry when the matter was discovered, he did not expect him to be so angry.
Seeing that he didn't speak, Ren Zhouyuan walked to the small cabinet beside the bed, opened the drawer, took out all the condoms and contraceptive pills inside and dumped them on the bed.
He checked one by one, his hands trembled more and more, and finally when he opened the medicine bottle cap, he almost couldn't unscrew it. He was held down by Leonid with one hand, and then he shook it off. He stubbornly poured out all the pills and took out one. Lick it, then sweep everything to the ground.
He stepped forward and grabbed Leonid's clothes with both hands, with disbelief written in his eyes, and the anger burned him almost out of breath.
Leonid had never seen such a furious Ren Zhouyuan before, but subconsciously he still raised his hands to circle him, put his hands on his waist, and stabilized his swaying body.
"How dare you, how dare you!" Ren Zhouyuan never thought that Leonid would do such indecent things for the sake of the child. Contraception, in fact, every time he takes the medicine, maybe he is still laughing.
His eyes were red with anger, his lips were trembling, and he kept asking Leonid how dare he do such a thing.
Leonid was a little guilty when he stared at him. He knew that he was not honorable for doing such a thing, but apart from using this method, he didn't think his starting point was wrong.
He met Ren Zhouyuan's glaring eyes without defending himself, and only after Ren Zhouyuan's most angry moment passed did he dare to reach out and caress his back.
Ren Zhouyuan slapped him away with one hand, and he stretched out his face again, was slapped away again, and stretched out again, until Ren Zhouyuan glared at him angrily and stopped moving, then he stretched out his hand to wrap Ren Zhouyuan into his arms, and let him struggle no matter what Also hold on tightly and don't let go.
Leonid said softly, "I want one more, isn't it good?"
When Ren Zhouyuan heard this, his anger rose again. He put his elbow on Leonid's chest, and it took all his strength to push him away a little. He glared at Leonid fiercely, and said, "I said I don't want it now! You promised me!"
Leonid frowned and said, "Then why don't you want it?"
"I said that I don't think it's suitable now, and have you considered whether I want to have a baby? I'm a man, not a woman! It's an accident to be pregnant with An An, if you treat me as a machine that can only give birth," he said in his heart Suddenly and suddenly, he exhaled heavily, and finally said that sentence: "Then let's just break up."
Leonid's face darkened, and his arms tightly wrapped around him, "I have never regarded you as a woman, neither before nor now. Whether there is Ann now, or whether you are fertile or not, I will Impossible to let you go."
Ren Zhouyuan sneered, and said, "Really?" He looked a little sarcastic, "But what are you doing now? You didn't treat me as a woman, you didn't treat me as a reproductive machine, but you used such despicable means to make me Pregnant? Without An An, I am nothing, we will not meet again, and you will not remember me. To you, I am just that ridiculous 'An Yi'. If I lose this identity, I may not even be an ordinary None of the staff!"
"I should be grateful for my abnormal body. Without it, there would be no An An. Maybe today you can marry other women and have children, and live an ordinary life instead of forcing yourself to entangle with me. Every day Force yourself against someone you don't even like!"
Ren Zhouyuan spit out all the words in his heart in one breath, panted lightly and rolled his eyes, he didn't want to see any embarrassment in Leonid's eyes after being pierced by him, even though he now almost speculates about Leonid with malicious intent Regarding his feelings, somewhere in his heart he still hopes that everything is just his own boring venting.
Leonid didn't know what to say now, he felt that what he said was wrong, and no one Zhou Yuan would listen to what he said.
He has spoken to Ren Zhouyuan without reservation since a long time ago, and has always shown his concern for Ren Zhouyuan and An An with practical actions, but until today, he realized that everything he did seemed to be useless.
He let go of the hands holding Ren Zhouyuan, and said a little disappointed: "You have always refused to believe me, have you?"
Ren Zhouyuan paused and did not speak.
"Even though I said I fell in love with you at first sight, I've been looking for you all these years and done so much for you, do you still think I forced myself to be with you?"
There was a bit of self-deprecation in Leonid's voice, Ren Zhouyuan turned his head away from him, so he missed the disappointment and hurt in his eyes.
"I thought An'an was our beautiful crystallization. His existence commemorated our first meeting, and my first time with you." He paused, "But you don't seem to think so?"
"I missed the process of you Huai An'an, I missed An'an's birth, I missed the first time An'an called Dad, and I missed every little thing growing up with him, so I want a second child and want to make up for it. At that time, I didn't participate in your mistakes, and wanted to be by your side when you were pregnant with another crystallization of our love, this time, I wanted to participate in it from beginning to end, is this idea wrong?"
Probably because Leonid's tone was too sad, Ren Zhouyuan's anger was extinguished a lot, but even though his words were so touching, when he thought of his deeds, Ren Zhouyuan couldn't forgive him easily.
As if aware of his thoughts, Leonid said again: "I admit that my method is not good, but I don't think my starting point is wrong. You said that three people do not represent a family, and the four What about one person? Five people? I want you to be pregnant, not for the child in your womb, but because you gave birth to the child, so I want it."
Ren Zhouyuan felt that he was about to forgive him, but when he thought of his family, the anger he had just suppressed was overshadowed by another burst of irritability. He didn't forget that Leonid's family was coming, but he didn't plan to take him to meet them, and he still remembered the "female companion" who came from nowhere.
Perhaps as he said, Leonid has feelings for him, but can feelings be eaten? Today is a "female companion". In the future, in order to cater to his family, he and An An will be abandoned sooner or later. If he knew the result earlier, why would he need more, which would only increase his pity.
"Your words are always so beautiful, so beautiful that I almost believe that we have a future." Ren Zhouyuan said a little numbly: "But what you have done makes me wonder if there is me in this future."
After finishing speaking, the two sitting opposite each other fell into silence, and even the eloquent Leonid felt a little tired for a while.
For the future of the two, if one person is desperately pulling ahead, while the other is standing still, even if the pace of progress is not consistent, the distance will only be further and further apart.
Leonid felt that the two of them had fallen into such a situation. He sighed and said weakly, "Calm down first. After you calm down, we'll talk about this issue again."
The night in early winter is very cold, but no matter how cold it is, it cannot be as cold as two hearts that have been hurt by each other.