Seeing that Ren Zhouyuan had no other questions, Leonid started from the beginning and finished his apology.
"First of all, I have to admit that I didn't lie when I said that night that I hoped to participate in the whole growth process of the second child," Leonid looked at Ren Zhouyuan seriously and said, "But I also have to admit, In addition to this, I also hide some selfishness."
Ren Zhouyuan's expression changed.
"I hope to use my child to keep you by my side, so that you can never leave me again. I am jealous that you have other close friends besides me. In your world, I am not the only one."
Leonid spoke very slowly, saying these words word by word, and Ren Zhouyuan was shocked when he heard it.
He never thought that Leonid's so-called "hidden secrets" refers to this, that a person as proud as him would admit his jealousy, let alone that the object of his jealousy is Fan Wenfeng? !
For some reason at that moment, he suddenly remembered that An An had done similar things a long time ago. He suspected that Fan Wenfeng treated him well because he liked him. At that time, An An was coquettish and jealous. But I didn't expect that the brain circuits of the two men had turned together.
Ren Zhouyuan was helpless and found it a bit funny. An An was young and loved acting like a baby, so he could express his jealousy to him well, but this person in front of him only used such domineering methods to show his care.
Leonid said that he hoped to tie him up with a child, so why didn't he have this idea. He once wanted to use An'an as a bond to hold the family together, and even this idea came up when he stepped into this place just now, the only difference is that he didn't really put his thoughts into action.
At that moment, Ren Zhouyuan suddenly felt relieved, just as he guessed, this person was also like him, not confident because of love.
Leonid continued: "You asked me if we wouldn't be together without Ann, although I really want to say no, but I can't deny this fact."
Ren Zhouyuan was taken aback, a little surprised.
Seeing his face change suddenly, Leonid squeezed his hand and explained: "We can never make too many guesses about what has happened. It is a fact that I met you. Because of that encounter, we With An An, this is also true. You asked me this question, I have guessed, maybe I have not met you, I will find another person who is equally pleasing to the eye in ordinary days, and form a new family like now, Maybe they will be equally happy, maybe they will be even happier.”
"But," Leonid raised a hand, gently rubbed Ren Zhouyuan's frown, and said softly, "If I had to choose again, I still want to choose you."
Facing Leonid's focused eyes, Ren Zhouyuan's tense mood gradually eased.
The lack of self-confidence in his character is doomed that he often thinks wildly, and always guesses some "if" things that will happen, but as Leonid said, these "if" will not happen, and it is impossible for the current impact on life.
If it was the former self, maybe after hearing what Leonid said just now, he would start to think about whether they would still be together if they hadn't met, if Leonid loved someone else, if they didn't have An An.
But if there is no such thing in this world, if they meet, everything that follows will happen naturally.
Leonid cleared his throat, and turned to speak the following words in his broken Chinese: "I met you, we have An An, we have the same desire for 'family', hope to build a happy family, yours Everything felt so 'just right' to me."
"'Just in time' you can speak Russian and met me when you were helping your classmate; 'just in time' the person Vicki was looking for was you, you and I met again; 'just in time' you gave birth to Ann, 'just in time' we We all tried our best to start a family, and just when I needed you, you showed up."
"Everything is so just right, even if it is because of An An that we are connected together, it is also a part of fate. From the beginning to the end, there is no 'if'."
Ren Zhouyuan listened to his words quietly, his inner shock was no less than ever.
Although the words spoken in the second language are awkward, they are more touching. The words with a little accent are just like the person in front of me, a little clumsy and surprisingly charming.
Leonid's words untied Ren Zhouyuan's long-standing knot, no matter their background, growth or future, the moment they are together is what is destined to "just happen" to happen.
The two looked at each other, no one spoke for a while, and the air seemed to freeze, and in each other's eyes, only the other was the only one.
After a long time, Ren Zhouyuan moved his hands, let go of the hand held by Leonid, raised it to cover Leonid's face, and gently rubbed his thumb across his lower lip.
He looked intently at his lips and said, "I'm jealous of the days you didn't participate in in the past, and I'm jealous that you once had a fiancée." He paused, and continued: "I've heard that you have a favorite girl." I'm also jealous of the 'female companion' I overheard in the office that day."
Seeing that Leonid wanted to explain, Ren Zhouyuan pressed his lips lightly to let him finish his sentence, "I always like to think about things, I am not confident, and I also like to doubt, I have been used to it over the years If you keep the words in your heart, it will be very tiring to be with me."
Leonid held his hand tightly, and he heard him continue: "When I was in Huaian'an, I wanted to die in the past."
Leonid was taken aback, hearing Ren Zhouyuan say this lightly, his heart hurt without any warning. He leaned forward and hugged Ren Zhouyuan into his arms, his arms became tighter and tighter, fearing that once he relaxed, the person in front of him would disappear.
Being hugged by him like this, Ren Zhouyuan suddenly chuckled. He put his hands on both sides of Leonid's waist, and patted him twice with comfort, "I don't think about it now." He continued the topic just now in a relaxed tone, "At that time, I felt that I was What the hell is a man like me? I don't know if I am a man or a woman. When I found out that I was pregnant with An An, my stomach was already bulging. At that time, I didn't dare to go out until the few days of giving birth. I stayed at home almost every day for three months, and when my belly was so big that I was terrified, I thought of contacting a friend I knew before to help me take a look."
"At that time, I had severe depression. When I saw the scissors, I wanted to poke my stomach. I lay on the bed and imagined what would happen if I rolled down and landed on my stomach. I couldn't see the picture of other people's family of three enjoying themselves. I will always think of you."
Leonid trembled, buried his head on Ren Zhouyuan's shoulder, and sucked hard twice.
"I was thinking, if I didn't know you at the time, maybe I would still be a college student with a bright future; if I hadn't been pregnant with An An, that night was just a ridiculous night, and I would forget it after a while, and occasionally take it out to recall Young madness; if I were like those people and had a happy family... If you were here, wouldn't I be so miserable."
He raised his head from Leonid's arms, saw his heavy expression, and pressed a kiss on his brow, "But when I gave birth to Ann and held Ann in my arms, all of these All my troubles were left behind, and all I wanted to say at that moment was, thank you."
Every time he said a word, he printed a kiss on Leonid's face, "Thank you for making my dream come true, thank you for giving me a family," from the forehead to the nose, and then to the cheeks, "Thank you Pursue me in those cute ways," the last kiss was printed on the lips, and at the same time, he said, "Thank you for falling in love with me again."
The two embraced and kissed, from the gentle probing at the beginning to the deep and intense kiss at the end, it seemed that they wanted to confirm each other's existence in this suffocating kiss, until they died.
After the kiss, the two of them pressed their foreheads against each other and panted heavily. The breaths they exhaled merged together, and they could no longer tell you and me apart.
What Ren Zhouyuan said was not to make Leonid feel guilty. These words had been kept in his heart for so many years. Until this moment, relying on the courage Leonid gave him, he said the deepest words in his heart one by one, that is, hope From now on, he can forget the hurts of the past, no longer complain about himself, and open his heart to truly accept a new life.
Leonid left small kisses on Ren Zhouyuan's face, he thought for a while, and said to Ren Zhouyuan: "I'm sorry for this incident, from now on, as long as you don't want to, we will only have this child An An in this life. He leaned over and kissed Ren Zhouyuan's mouth, and said: "I regret that I missed the growth of my son, but I'm even more honored that I didn't miss you."
"The child is the crystallization of our love, but this love can only be established if you have you." He brushed the broken hair in front of Ren Zhouyuan's forehead, and said devoutly as if he was about to make an oath: "I love you."
Ren Zhouyuan's eyes were watery, as if trying to hide his tears that were about to fall, he held Leonid's face and covered his kiss again.
The two kissed unrestrainedly, and the hearts that had been pulled apart for a while finally moved closer again at this moment.
Ren Zhouyuan was pushed down on the sofa by Leonid, and the two of them tore each other's body with their hands and lit fire everywhere. It seemed that at this moment, only the close body could feel each other's existence.
The sound of heavy breathing rang in the ears, and everything was going well, and suddenly there was a knock on the door, accompanied by a woman's voice calling Leonid's name.
The two immersed in lust paused for a moment, and when Ren Zhouyuan frowned and wanted to ask who it was, Leonid exclaimed—
"Oops! I forgot that my parents are still waiting!" He quickly adjusted Ren Zhouyuan's messy clothes, pulled him up and said, "Go, I'll take you to meet my family. "
Ren Zhouyuan's expression at this time is =口= like this.