Ren Zhouyuan always felt that Leonid probably got a perfect score in terms of love talk.
But even knowing that this might be his sweet talk, Ren Zhouyuan was inevitably moved.
Leonid’s words made him jump out of the shackles of his own thinking for many years. Although the logic of Leonid’s words is so simple and direct, as he himself said, Chinese is really a very interesting language. There is no problem with the understanding of his own name. Similarly, Leonid's interpretation of his name has his reasons.
Ren Zhouyuan had a good night's sleep that night, feeling more relaxed than ever. Those things that held him subconsciously in the past seemed to have disappeared that night, and even disappeared for a long time afterwards.
The conversation between the two of them that night seemed to have never happened, and the topic of the second child never came up between them. Everything was so natural, and life was gradually getting on track. Occasionally, Fan Wenfeng brought up similar topics, and Ren Zhouyuan He can also face it with a smile, as if the matter of having a baby has never bothered him.
At first, Leonid was still worried about whether Ren Zhouyuan’s performance was deliberately hiding his true inner thoughts. He secretly observed Ren Zhouyuan. Once he saw him with An An, he would feel uneasy, and he would accompany An An when he picked him up. Go, lest he see a child and start to get into trouble.
But gradually, Leonid realized that he was making a fuss out of a molehill. Not only did Ren Zhouyuan not overreact, nor did he feel depressed and frowning. Reading the parenting book he secretly hid!
Before discovering this, Leonid had already noticed that Ren Zhouyuan was a little different. Although he often accompanied An An in the past, recently Ren Zhouyuan spent more and more time with An An, and would also whisper to An An, and even occasionally ran back to sleep with An An for a night or two, even An An secretly He ran over and asked him if he had a fight with his father.
Of course they didn't quarrel, and their relationship became better than before, which was why Leonid found it strange.
Later, Leonid discovered that Ren Zhouyuan would occasionally stare at the children in the community in a daze, watching them play in the garden of the community, looking thoughtful, which made Leonid terrified, but Ren Zhouyuan He didn't say anything, what to do after he was in a daze, Leonid was confused.
The most obvious change is the last few times when he had sex, every time he tore off the condom, Ren Zhouyuan would always stare at the condom, his eyes seemed to stare at a hole, if it wasn't for Leonid's amazing "self-control", Being so stared at by him will make me vent every minute.
These changes accumulated, and it was difficult for Leonid not to notice something. He thought that Ren Zhouyuan still cared about having a baby, so he hinted many times during the conversation that he really didn't mind, but he didn't expect that the progress of the matter was beyond his expectation.
He just came out of the study that afternoon, and saw Ren Zhouyuan reading a book in his hands in the living room. He didn't think much about it at first, but he glanced at the cover of the book, and it became more and more familiar. When he got closer, he realized that it was him. That parenting bible I put away some time ago!
Leonid's heartbeat suddenly accelerated. He hid the book after the two argued last time. He was afraid that Ren Zhouyuan would think too much when he saw it, thinking that he still had the heart to let him have another baby. Pretending to be calm, he walked over to Ren Zhouyuan and sat down, put his arm on the back of the sofa behind him, and asked pretendingly, "What are you looking at?"
Ren Zhouyuan automatically and consciously sticks to him, and finds a comfortable position in his arms to lean against. He showed him the cover, then went back to read it again, and said: "This book is quite well written. I found that the thinking of Chinese and foreigners is really different. Look here," he pointed to the book. A certain part of the article said: "Chinese parents will pick up their children when they hear their children crying, but the foreign practice is to let them cry before hugging them."
Ren Zhouyuan only gave a few more examples, all lamenting the differences between Chinese and Western education. Leonid observed Ren Zhouyuan's expression carefully, and found that he was really discussing the contents of the book with him, and he didn't react too aggressively as expected, and he didn't go into a corner like before.
There was a movement in his heart, and there was a guess somewhere in his heart, and even his heartbeat began to speed up. He pondered for a while, and said, "Well, raising children is also a kind of learning, and there are too many things to learn."
Ren Zhouyuan was silent for a moment when he heard the words, and after two seconds he closed the book, put it on the coffee table in front, and turned to face Leonid with his legs crossed. He looked at him for a while, then silently took one of his hands, put it on his heart, looked into Leonid's eyes, and said slowly: "If I can't do well, you have to help me." .”
This sentence seemed to be responding to Leonid's last conversation. When Leonid heard it, his heart beat faster, and he was so excited that his heart was about to jump out of his throat. With a backhand, he wrapped Ren Zhouyuan's hand in his palm, held him firmly, and asked excitedly and uncertainly, "Is that what I mean?"
Ren Zhouyuan suddenly laughed when he saw him. The afternoon sun came in through the window and poured on his face, making his smile look even warmer. Ren Zhouyuan pressed his free hand to Leonid's face, leaned over and kissed him on the mouth, nodded and said, "I hope it won't be too late."
Leonid suddenly hugged Ren Zhouyuan into his arms, shrinking his hands tighter and tighter, as if he wanted to melt him into his body.
He kissed his head several times, and kept repeating in his ear: "It's never too late, it's never too late, thank you, thank you..."
Ren Zhouyuan relaxed himself, hugged him back, buried his head on his shoulder, breathing in the smell of Leonid, his heart was actually peaceful.
Maybe he still can't do well this time, he will hide, and he will be afraid and sad because of other people's eyes, but after so many years, some things have become very blurred, but the feeling he felt at the moment holding An An is something he will never experience in his life forgot.
He never thought that one day he would be able to consider having another child, but Leonid gave him the courage to believe that he could face his body honestly without being afraid of other people's eyes. This time, he hoped that Leonid could share this joy with him, so that he would no longer miss every moment of his child's growth.
After Ren Zhouyuan nodded and agreed to try to have another baby, Leonid almost didn't delay for a moment. He was like a man who just became a father, with a smile on his face that never diminished. Before there was any news from Belly, he had already planned for the child to go to college.
Ren Zhouyuan watched him do this with a little helplessness, he could fully feel his enthusiasm for the child, and felt guilty for a moment when he rejected him before. But no amount of guilt was worth watching his more and more exaggerated actions. When watching piles of baby clothes being transported home, Ren Zhouyuan stopped him in time, and a basin of cold water quenched his eager behavior.
Ren Zhouyuan raised his forehead and reminded Leonid: "Have you overlooked one of the most important things?"
Leonid, who was immersed in the fantasies of the groups of children, naturally did not understand what he was talking about, and looked at him suspiciously.
Ren Zhouyuan sighed helplessly, and looked down at his belly. Seeing that Leonid still didn't understand, he pointed to his belly angrily, and said word by word: "I.not.not.pregnant ·superior!"
Ren Zhouyuan's words were like a slap in the face, waking Leonid up and giving him a reminder. He immediately stopped the hand that was still browsing the baby product website, stood up abruptly, picked up Ren Zhouyuan and walked straight to the bedroom.
Ren Zhouyuan was taken aback, and after realizing it, he patted Leonid fiercely to make him put himself down. He glanced at the serious face of the man, finally gave up struggling, and plunged into his arms.
Well, you have to bear the blame yourself.