Ren Zhouyuan coaxed An An for a long time that night before he finally calmed An An down. Seeing An An still clutching his arm while he fell asleep, with tears still on his cheeks, Ren Zhouyuan felt distressed.
This is the first time that Ren Zhouyuan saw An An crying like an ordinary child to express his feelings. In the past, An An would always secretly observe his expression to judge what he would be happy about, and what he would be sad about. please daddy.
When An An didn't notice, he had become able to honestly express his true inner thoughts, but it was rare for him to be willful, which actually caused Ren Zhouyuan such a headache.
Ren Zhouyuan held An An in his arms and thought for a long time, whether he should be born or not.
There is no doubt that he has considered this question hundreds of times during this period of time. He wants to fulfill Leonid's dream and make this house more lively, but if he ignores An An's opinion, it will hurt An An's heart. Then Ren Zhouyuan was absolutely unwilling.
An An is his heart, this child is sensitive and not confident, very much like him when he was a child. Ren Zhouyuan put this situation on his past self for a while, and soon understood why An An didn't want younger siblings.
Ren Zhouyuan has never been adopted, and grew up in an orphanage since he was a child, but he imagined a little bit, if he had a new family to adopt him back, he would have received all the love from that family, but this If his adoptive mother suddenly became pregnant, he would definitely feel uncomfortable.
It felt like being left out by parents. From then on, they only had newborn babies in their eyes.
Ren Zhouyuan stroked An An's hair, kissed him on the forehead, and patted his back to make him sleep more peacefully.
Although An An is young, he lacked too much in his growth process. Before meeting Leonid, An An grew up in a single-parent family. Ren Zhouyuan often ignored An An's needs in order to make a living.
When he was in the archaeological team, An An suffered a lot of injuries. It took a long time for Ren Zhouyuan to lead him out of the original shadow step by step. It was not until Leonid appeared that An An finally completely eliminated himself. Ren Zhouyuan's child's doubts.
It can be said that An An's introverted personality is all caused by Ren Zhouyuan's early life experience. He didn't want his son to experience what he had experienced when he was a child, but unconsciously led him back to a similar path.
Today he watched An An and Anatoly play, and to be honest he felt very relieved. I am gratified that An An can also meet friends of the same age like ordinary children, and share what she likes with Anatole. At the same time, I am also gratified to see that An An has begun to break free from the shadow of the old time, no longer afraid to make new friends, and take the initiative Joking with Anatoly in unfamiliar Russian.
He hopes that An An will become more and more lively, her personality will become more and more complete, and she will become a responsible, responsible, cheerful and lively child. This is probably the hope that every parent places on their children, and Ren Zhouyuan hopes even more An'an can make up for what he lacks.
That night, Ren Zhouyuan had almost no sleep all night. He held An An in his arms and thought about it all night, and finally came to the conclusion that he still had to have this child.
It's not that he selfishly disregards An An's thoughts, but that this child must be born just for An An's sake.
An An is obviously caught in a strange circle of thinking now. Even though he has become more lively recently, deep down in his heart he is still not confident. In the past, he felt that Leonid was here to rob him, and now he felt that his future siblings would compete with him. This kind of insecurity was directly engraved in his heart.
At the beginning, Ren Zhouyuan chose the name "Ju'an" for An An, hoping that he would be comfortable and happy all his life, but after such a long time, An An still lacked self-confidence, and whenever something happened, he became paranoid and lived in fear of being abandoned by his father all day long. middle.
He hoped that this child would let An An know that no matter what changes happened in life, his position in their hearts would always be the most important!
Ren Zhouyuan waited until the sky was bright before falling asleep. He felt that he had slept for less than two hours, and his belly felt like something was rubbing against him.
He opened his eyes with difficulty, and after adapting to the light in the room, he lowered his head and looked down.
An An was nestled in his arms, that little head was resting on Ren Zhouyuan's arm, bending her body and dawdling, not knowing what to do. Ren Zhouyuan reacted for a few seconds before realizing that An An was touching his stomach secretly?
Ren Zhouyuan was stunned for a moment, feeling a little uncertain about An An's thoughts. He thought for a while, closed his eyes and turned over, his body that was originally lying on his side became supine.
An An was taken aback for a moment, and quickly withdrew her hand, nestling beside Ren Zhouyuan without moving.
Ren Zhouyuan counted silently for a minute, then pretended to stretch his waist, opened his eyes, and saw An An pretending to be just waking up, sat up, rubbed his eyes, and called out to him obediently, " Morning dad."
Ren Zhouyuan couldn't laugh or cry, if he didn't wake up early, he must have been tricked by him.
He didn't expose An'an, kissed him and said good morning, and took him to wash and change as usual. He saw An An observing his expression secretly, and he was secretly relieved when he found that there was nothing unusual about him.
An An seemed to be fulfilling yesterday's declaration. Today, when Anatole came to play with him, An An proudly refused to give him a straight face, leaving Anatole confused and skipping back to Dali Beside Liya, leaning against Dalia with a pitiful look, her eyes were still looking in An An's direction.
An An also had a guilty conscience when she did this. She took a peek at Ren Zhouyuan and found that he was looking at her. She immediately took out the shelf again and sat alone in the corner dismantling the parts in her hand.
Ren Zhouyuan sighed, and after apologizing to Dalia and the others, he went over and picked up An An, took him into the room under the strange gazes of everyone, locked the door, put An An on the bed and sat down on his own Then moved a chair to the side of the bed, and sat face to face with An An.
He thought about it for a while, and said to An An as if he was facing an adult: "Dad asked you, did Anatole do something wrong? Why did Anatole come to play with you just now and you ignored him."
An An curled her lips, and said stiffly: "I don't like him anymore."
"Liars are little liars, and no one will like them in the future." Ren Zhouyuan said with a stern tone.
An An pouted, shaking her legs and saying, "I just don't like him! I just don't like him!"
"Okay!" Ren Zhouyuan suddenly raised his volume, grabbed An An's hand and said, "If you don't like Anatole, you have to tell him why you don't like him, and you have to make sense, and then tell him that I can't in the future Be friends with you, Dad is listening by the side."
As soon as An An heard Ren Zhouyuan yelling at him so harshly, she felt aggrieved immediately, held back for a while, and burst into tears.
He struggled to take back the hand held by Ren Zhouyuan, sniffled his nose and cried, "Dad, you just don't like me! You don't like me before my brother is born. I don't want my brother! An An doesn't want my brother!"
An An whimpered, tears fell down like money, and kept wiping away her tears with her two little arms, but the tears continued to flow down.
Seeing him like this, Ren Zhouyuan's heart ached, but he also knew that this problem must be solved, so he could only resist coaxing him, and waited for him to recover slowly.
An An's crying quickly attracted the attention of people outside. After a while, the door was knocked, and Anna's voice sounded outside the door, with a little nervousness: "What's the matter? I seem to hear An An Cry, what happened?"
Ren Zhouyuan paused, stood up, walked to the door and opened a small gap, said a few words to Anna with an apologetic face, and temporarily dismissed the people outside the door.
He closed the door, turned around and saw An An lying on the bed, burying her head in the quilt and crying non-stop. Ren Zhouyuan sighed, went to sit beside him, and stretched out his hand to give him a hug.
An'an shook his hand, but still refused to raise his head. Ren Zhouyuan was really helpless, afraid that he would bore him, so he could only use brute force to lift him up.
As soon as An An sat up, she plunged her head into Ren Zhouyuan's arms, and Ren Zhouyuan's chest was wet in a short while. He patted An An's back with one hand, stroked his hair with the other, and said softly, "Why doesn't An An like my brother, can you tell Dad?"
An An sobbed a few times, twisted her body again, and said nothing.
Ren Zhouyuan was very patient this time, and continued to coax him: "My brother will play with you like Anatole in the future, won't you?"
"I don't want it!" An An answered quickly this time, with a cry in her voice.
"Is An An afraid that Dad will not love An An when he has a younger brother?" Ren Zhouyuan said: "But no matter how many younger brothers and sisters there will be in the future, An An will always be Dad's first child and Dad's favorite child, so what about Dad? Maybe you don't love An An?"
An'an listened, her sobbing became quieter, but she was still unhappy. He raised his hand and wiped his face indiscriminately, then grabbed the buttons on Ren Zhouyuan's shirt and played with them. After thinking for a while, he said: "But my brother is also my father's child, and my father must also love my brother. My father's heart is so big. How can I still love An An after losing my brother."
Ren Zhouyuan was in an unspeakably complicated mood. He flipped his legs, hugged An An tighter, and said, "Dad has only one heart, but Dad can also love his younger brother and An An at the same time." He put his palm on An An's heart mouth position, "Daddy asks you, do you love Big Daddy?"
An An pouted when she heard the words, a little unconvinced, but finally replied obediently: "Love."
"Okay," Ren Zhouyuan asked again: "Then do you love Dad?"
"Of course I love you!" An An said firmly.
"That's it." Ren Zhouyuan smiled and pinched his nose, "Before the big daddy appeared, An An only loved her dad, but now An An loves her dad and also loves her big daddy, why is An An's heart only so small, but still Can you love us at the same time?"
An An had already stopped crying, listening to Ren Zhouyuan's words thoughtfully.
Ren Zhouyuan kissed him again, and said, "Each of us has only one heart, but this heart is very big. It can hold many people and put down many things." Counting with her fingers, she said, "An'an likes the small models of Maker, the teacher in Vichy who teaches you lessons, and playing with Anatoly. These are all little loves."
"An An loves Daddy, and also loves Big Daddy. This is a big love. Each of us is filled with these little loves and big love. But sometimes we obviously have so much Love, but still feel sad, feel lost, why is that?"
An An looked up at him with a serious face.
Ren Zhouyuan said: "Because in addition to loving, we will also be loved. Now my father loves An An, and my eldest father also loves An An, so An An feels very happy. When An An grows up, we will find that we not only have the ability to love, but also capable of being loved."
He looked into An An's eyes and said, "In the future, besides father and eldest father, there will also be brothers and sisters who will love An An together. Isn't that good?"
Leonid, who was rushing home after finishing a stage, was grabbed by Anna nervously as soon as he entered the door, and signaled to him that the father and son were arguing on the other side of the door.
Leonid stepped forward quickly, but heard the conversation between Ren Zhouyuan and An An outside the door. He withdrew his hand that was about to push the door in, stood outside the door and thought for a while, but finally he didn't go in to disturb the father and son.