Bump Again If You Have The Guts

Chapter 18: It hurts my self-esteem

Views:

After hanging up the call, Guan Ze stared at his phone for a while, feeling a little worried. He had promised Lin Yao to go out for dinner, but he didn't think it would be so early. He wanted to delay for a while so that Lin Yao could react on his own. Unexpectedly, this kid was so stubborn that he didn't realize anything for such a long time.

I really don't know if he is stupid or too naive.

Guan Ze couldn't predict what would happen when Lin Yao met him. Given Lin Yao's personality, would he say "fuck you"? Or would he just say nothing and endure it

Or will you rush over and fight him

Guan Ze shook his head and said, forget it, let’s just deal with it when the time comes.

He took a shower, opened the refrigerator and started looking for something to eat. After flipping through the refrigerator for a few times, he heard his cell phone ringing.

This Doraemon ringtone belongs to Ning Juan. He didn't set it specifically. That day, Ning Juan played with his phone for a while, and when she returned it to him, the ringtone became this.

"I want something in your life that belongs only to me, even if it's just a ringtone." Ning Juan smiled happily when she said this, but there was still something indescribable in her eyes.

That look made Guan Ze feel depressed.

He took a biscuit and went over to answer the phone: "Juan'er."

"Well, I'm downstairs from you. Should I go upstairs or should you come down?" Ning Juan was still the same as before. She would not ask for his opinion, but would only give him multiple-choice questions with limited answers.

"I'll go down." Guan Ze didn't ask any more questions. He knew that Ning Juan must want to go out for dinner with him.

In fact, Ning Juan would rather cook a meal for him at his home. Ning Juan’s cooking skills are quite good. To be honest, Guan Ze likes the food she cooks very much.

However, in his home, Ning Juan was busy in the kitchen like a master, and this scene made him uncomfortable.

He is not a loner, but his experiences over the years have made him unaccustomed to having other people in his space. No matter who it is, he will feel insecure.

"Let's go eat at a food stall," Ning Juan was standing by the flower bed downstairs. When she saw him coming out, she naturally walked over and walked side by side with him to the parking space, "Why are you dressed so formally?"

Guan Ze looked down at his clothes and said, "I just got home from get off work and haven't changed yet. Do you want me to go back and change?"

"That's good. I like seeing you in a shirt," Ning Juan smiled and looked him up and down. "When you wore a T-shirt and jeans before, I always wondered what you would look like in a shirt and a suit. You must be very handsome."

Guan Ze smiled and said nothing.

In the past? The past that Ning Juan missed was something he no longer wanted to recall.

It was tiring to have dinner with Ning Juan. She didn’t talk much, but her natural intimacy was a little overwhelming for Guan Ze.

Perhaps it was because the two of them had lived together like siblings for many years, so Ning Juan's little actions had become a habit. For Guan Ze, all of this was now a pressure.

"That kid, is he in elementary school now?" Ning Juan asked while eating skewers.

"Well, first grade," Guan Ze rolled up his shirt sleeves and held a chicken wing, "quite naughty."

"Let's take him to the amusement park this weekend," Ning Juan said naturally, "I've always heard you talk about it, and now that I'm back, I want to see him."

"Let's talk about it later." Guan Ze did not give a direct answer. He did plan to take Lu Teng out to play on the weekend, but he had not thought about taking Ning Juan with him. He also knew very well that Ning Juan did not really want to see Lu Teng.

"Guan Ze, have you been alone all these years?"

"Um."

"When I asked you before, you said no, so I thought you were lying to me." Ning Juan took the Coke can and shook it.

Guan Ze stood up and went to the freezer of the stall to get her another can: "What's so deceptive about this."

"Why not find one?"

"Wait until you find it." Guan Ze said absentmindedly.

But he regretted it after he said it, and the expression on Ning Juan's face froze.

Guan Ze knew that her reaction was not only because this sentence showed that he didn't want to be with her, but also because it hit her sore spot.

She is a cripple, a cripple who is almost thirty years old.

"I'm sorry." Guan Ze put down the chicken wings in his hand and held her hand.

"What are you sorry for?" Ning Juan quickly put on a smile. "Eat quickly. I ordered so much. It won't taste good if I take it home."

After eating at the food stall, Ning Juan was obviously not in a better mood than before, and she didn't ask for a walk as before. When Guan Ze said he would take her home, she nodded.

Guan Ze took off all his clothes as soon as he got home. After taking a shower, he stood naked on the balcony for a long time. He sneezed three times before returning to the house.

This meal was so tiring that he closed his eyes. He couldn't understand why Ning Juan refused to give up such a delicate and tiring relationship.

There was a text message on his mobile phone, which Lin Yao had sent half an hour ago, asking if there was any special method to relieve the skin burns on his face caused by garlic paste.

Guan Ze couldn't help but laugh again when he thought of Lin Yao's spotted face and the mask he was wearing today. How did this unfortunate child grow up

He replied with a message: Don't worry, it will be fine in a few days.

I just looked in the mirror again. At this rate of recovery, I will definitely still be wet when I treat you to dinner. I'm afraid I'll scare you. Lin Yao came back quickly.

Guan Ze held back his laughter and replied, "It's okay, I'm glad I didn't scare you."

Lin Yao had no idea what Hengdao's text message meant, and he didn't think much about it. His father told him that he could apply some aloe vera on the wound on his face. He excitedly went to the balcony, cut two aloe vera leaves, split them in half, and put them on his face.

Then he just lay on his side and fell asleep.

When I woke up in the morning, the aloe leaves were stuck to the bed sheets and had been pressed into small thin pieces by him.

The face seemed to be getting better, but compared to the wound on the face, the toothache had been significantly alleviated, which made Lin Yao feel full of strength all over his body. He no longer had to draw maps for the enemy and be a traitor. This feeling was really wonderful.

Lin Yao posed in front of the mirror and shouted happily: "Give me strength!"

During the past two days, Lin Yao has been working on the design of the toy advertisement and carefully tearing off the white skin that has been raised from the broken skin in front of the mirror.

After two days of tearing, the harvest was pretty good. He had basically harvested all the seeds on his face, leaving behind beautiful irregular white circles inlaid on the red spots.

This shouldn't scare Hengdao. Although he only cares about his image in front of Guanze, he has a good impression of Hengdao, especially his voice, which often makes him imagine a lot. So he can't be too extravagant when inviting Hengdao to dinner.

Before booking the private room, Lin Yao called Hengdao to confirm his working time. Hengdao's working time was the same as his, which was good since they didn't have to make do with each other.

However, when Lin Yao got off work, Jiang Yifei dragged him to help with the drawings, which delayed him for a while. When he drove out, he found that there was a traffic jam.

Along the way, relying on the small size of the Xiali, he managed to overtake many cars by squeezing through the gaps between other cars. When he arrived at the restaurant, he was ten minutes later than the time he had agreed with Hengdao.

While he was looking for a parking space in the parking lot, he called Hengdao and asked, "Is he here yet, hero?"

"Just arrived, in the box." Hengdao heard the voice and was drinking tea.

"Sorry, I just came out late and there was a bit of traffic. I'm in the parking lot now. I'll just..." Lin Yao was halfway through his words when he suddenly saw Guan Ze 444's Cherokee among the numerous cars in the parking lot, "Oh my god!"

"What's wrong?"

"I saw our director's car!" Lin Yao stared at the license plate again, "Really, 444, Cherokee! What a coincidence!"

"Fate." Hengdao smiled.

"Yes!" Lin Yao nodded vigorously. Unfortunately, there was no empty parking space next to the Cherokee, so he could only move forward. "Then wait for me for two minutes, I'll get in right away."

When Lin Yao trotted to the door of the private room and was about to push it open, he suddenly remembered that he hadn't asked Heng Dao's name yet. It would have been fine if he had just called her, but now that they had met, they nodded to each other, and said, "Dao Xia, Yi Xiao Jie..."

"So silly," Lin Yao couldn't help but chuckled twice, stretched out his hand to push open the door of the box, and without taking the time to look inside, he said a series of words, "Sorry, sorry, no..."

The person sitting in the box stood up and smiled at him: "It's okay."

Lin Yao still had his hand stretched out to push the door, and he stood at the door in a daze.

Guan Ze

It was not until the door of the private room slowly closed behind him with a click that he said as if startled, "I'm sorry, Mr. Guan, I... went into the wrong private room?"

Without waiting for Guan Ze to speak, he turned around and ran out of the box, wanting to see the name on the door. He ran too fast and hit his forehead when he opened the door. He covered his forehead with his hands and didn't bother to rub it. He froze as he stared at the words on the box door.

Yes, this is the room we booked.

What's going on! Did Guan Ze enter the wrong box

Lin Yao thought that maybe the toothache had caused him to lack some intelligence, and he couldn't turn around no matter how hard he tried standing outside the door.

Guan Ze walked to the door, took his arm and dragged him into the private room, then said to the waiter outside: "I'll call you when the food is served."

"Okay." The waiter bowed.

Guan Ze closed the door of the box and pulled Lin Yao to the table: "Sit down."

Lin Yao felt his legs were stiff and he couldn't bend them. He stood at the table for a long time without sitting down. He watched Guan Ze pour him a cup of tea. He spoke with great difficulty, his voice a little hoarse: "What's going on?"

"Aren't you treating me to dinner?" Guan Ze didn't sit down either. He took the teacup and took a sip of tea.

Lin Yao stared at him for a long time, took out his cell phone, found Hengdao's number and dialed it. Guan Ze's body made a buzzing sound, he took out his cell phone and answered it. Lin Yao was still a little unconvinced, so he said "hello" into the phone, and his own voice came from the receiver.

"Fuck," he cursed softly, looking up at Guan Ze, "Where do you have a cell phone?"

"Yes," Guan Ze nodded, "this one is a personal number, and the company one is a work number."

Lin Yao couldn't describe his feeling. He felt his hands trembling. It was as if he was standing on the stage and dancing happily. The people in the audience cheered for him. But after dancing happily for a long time, he finally realized that he was not wearing any clothes! Everyone in the audience saw it, but no one reminded him that he was naked!

He now didn't even dare to think about what he had said to Hengdao on the phone. A strong feeling of being tricked quickly overwhelmed him.

Every night he talks to Hengdao like a fool about Guan Ze this and Guan Ze that, but the person on the other side is the real boss! What the hell is this! Is there anything more fucked up and embarrassing than this in the world

He glared at Guan Ze, said nothing more, turned around and walked towards the door.

"Lin Yao," Guan Ze took two steps over and grabbed him, "What are you doing?"

"What? What else can I do!" Lin Yao turned his head and said, "I'll find a drilling rig to drill a hole and stay in there!"

"Let's eat first." Guan Ze's tone was still calm, but he held his arm tightly and did not let go.

"What the hell are you eating? It's worth it for you to watch a show for free. You've been entertaining people for a whole month and you've developed an appetite, right?" Lin Yao shook his arms fiercely.

"We said that day that whoever doesn't leave after finishing his meal will have a toothache for a month." Guan Ze smiled.

"One month is just one month!" Lin Yao didn't care that Guan Ze was his superior. He felt so aggrieved that he wanted to find a place where no one was around. He even wanted to cry. "If you have the guts, let me suffer for a year!"

Guan Ze's palms were a little sweaty. He didn't expect Lin Yao to react like this. He even saw that Lin Yao's eyes were a little red.

"Can you please sit down and listen to my explanation?" Guan Ze walked to the door and stood there. If Lin Yao really wanted to break in, he would have to bump into him first.

"What do you want to explain?" Lin Yao looked at him. "What do you want to explain? You knew it was me, didn't you? Are you satisfied listening to me talking like an idiot about how much I like you? I've been an idiot for so long, and I don't even need to listen to any explanation! What do you have to explain? Bullshit! Bullshit!"

After Lin Yao shouted this, he felt his teeth starting to hurt again, so he simply squatted on the ground and buried his face in his arms.

Guan Ze was blocking the door, so he couldn't get out. He didn't want to fight with Guan Ze, because Guan Ze was taller than him, had good muscles, and had fucking tattoos. He might get beaten up...

He didn't care about anything, he didn't care whether Guan Ze was standing by and doing something wrong, he only cared that the thoughts he had been hiding were exposed in front of Guan Ze without any cover.

This fact instantly shattered his self-esteem into tiny pieces, which were scattered all over the floor. He couldn't even pick it up, and even if he did, there was no guarantee he could glue it back together.

"Lin Yao," Guan Ze squatted down in front of him and touched his head with his hand, "I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to keep it a secret."

"Shut up." Lin Yao still buried his head and replied in a muffled voice, with a nasal tone in his voice.

Guan Ze really didn't expect a scene like this. He knew Lin Yao didn't want him to know that he liked her, but he didn't expect it to be so serious.

There's really no way this could end.

"Crying?" Guan Ze had no experience in comforting others. From childhood to adulthood, he had never comforted anyone, nor did he feel that anyone could comfort him. Now he had no idea what to say.

"Cry your grandpa," Lin Yao couldn't hold back his tears any more after being asked this question. All of them burst out, and his voice was trembling. "You should leave now. I will go to the company to resign tomorrow!"

"It's really that serious," Guan Ze squatted until his legs were numb. After thinking for a while, he sat down on the ground. "Actually, I wanted to tell you that day at the training camp, but you always looked so nervous when you saw me. I was afraid that you would feel uncomfortable if I told you..."

"Yes! Now I feel fucking comfortable, right? You are so considerate, Director Guan!" Lin Yao held his head and rubbed the tears on his face on his pants, then continued to lie in his arms without looking up.

"I didn't expect it to turn out like this," Guan Ze sighed, reaching out and pinching a handful of hair on his head, "Why don't you tell me, how can I make you not angry?"

"I'm not angry now," Lin Yao slapped his hand away, and finally raised his head, his eyes still a little red, "I'm embarrassed, do you understand? Have you ever run wildly on the street and found yourself naked when you got home?"

"No." Guan Ze answered truthfully.

"Fuck, do I have any!" Lin Yao really wanted to stand up and punch and kick Guan Ze, "This is called a metaphor! You have never been to school, hero!"

"Not too much," Guan Ze smiled, "Don't be depressed, is it embarrassing that you like me?"

Lin Yao opened his mouth but couldn't say anything. Guan Ze said the words "You like me" so bluntly that he wanted to rush out and drown in the abalone pond outside.

"I didn't want you to know." Lin Yao pressed his eyes.

"Well, I'll just pretend I don't know."

"Stop talking nonsense, okay?" Lin Yao frowned. "I just feel like you watch me make a fool of myself there every day. How do you feel about that? Is it fun?"

"I didn't think you made a fool of yourself. I just thought you were funny," Guan Ze thought for a moment, "I just thought this kid was funny."

“Aren’t you stupid?” Lin Yao’s legs were numb from squatting, so he sat down on the ground.

“I don’t think so.”

Lin Yao didn't say anything else. He hugged his knees and remained silent for a long time. After venting his anger, he calmed down a lot, and the roars in his heart like a tsunami slowly subsided.

"Are you hungry?" Guan Ze stood up and patted his shoulder. "Let's talk while we eat."

Lin Yao hesitated for a moment, then stood up and sat on the chair, grabbed the menu and began to flip through it slowly.

After turning a few pages, the phone rang. He took it out impatiently and took a look. It was Lian Jun.

"What's going on? I'm in a bad mood here. If you have nothing to do, hang up!" He shouted into the phone.

"Yaoyao, come here for dinner, I'll entertain you!" Someone on the other end replied with a smile.

Lin Yao was stunned for a moment, then he took the phone and looked at it. It was Lian Jun's number, but the voice was not Lian Jun's: "Who are you?"

"Your brother Qi!"