Lin Yao was a little angry, to be exact, he was very angry. He didn't know what kind of magic skill Guan Ze used to maintain such a calm and peaceful state. In his rage, he quickly planned out a plan to pounce on him and kiss him madly to see if he could break Guan Ze's magic skill. Even a rabbit can jump onto the wall when it is forced into a corner!
But... my front tooth hurts.
He rode on Guan Ze majestically, holding Guan Ze's chest with one hand like Uncle Wu Song fighting a tiger, and touched his teeth with the other hand to make sure they were not loose, then turned his head and stared fiercely at Guan Ze who was frowning.
Two seconds later, he lowered his head and kissed her again.
If you have the guts, hit me.
Guan Ze's lips are soft, with a minty scent, and you can also smell the clean and refreshing scent of soap on his body.
Lin Yao felt his whole body trembling. It was Guan Ze's lips. He was kissing Guan Ze's lips. Guan Ze had beautiful lips with the corners slightly turned up when he smiled... He closed his eyes.
This was his first kiss.
Guan Ze didn't move and just lay there quietly.
Lin Yao's lips trembled slightly as he pressed against his lips, but he did not take any further action.
This feeling... the man's scent, the almost indistinct smell of tobacco on Lin Yao's body, the feeling of being kissed on the lips by a man, he had almost forgotten it.
A long time ago, deep in Guan Ze's memories, there was a kiss like this, a simple, not deep kiss, a kiss that left after a light touch.
He couldn't even discern the true meaning of that kiss.
The same feeling brought back memories he thought he would never remember again.
Guan Ze didn't move, and Lin Yao didn't move either. After the chaotic emotions calmed down a little, he dared not move even more.
Lin Yao, you are so brave!
After being pressed down by him for a few seconds, Guan Ze pushed his shoulder and turned his head away. Lin Yao heard him sigh softly: "Master, please put away your magical power."
"Huh?" Lin Yao was stunned. He thought that now was the time for Guan Ze to beat him and for him to fight back. He had already prepared himself to be thrown off the bed by Guan Ze. He had even thought about what kind of landing posture he should take when he fell off the bed. He didn't expect Guan Ze to say such a thing.
Guan Ze turned around and faced him. The distance was so close that he felt like they were almost making eye contact. He adjusted the distance between himself and Guan Ze, blinked, and regained his focus.
There is another very embarrassing thing.
He raised the flag, and Guan Ze probably could feel it from the way he looked at it.
But the point was not that he raised the flag, but that Guan Ze seemed to have no physiological reaction. He felt like a puppy in heat, hugging a human leg and struggling, which was extremely embarrassing.
When Lin Yao was thinking about whether to lower the flag with his mind, Guan Ze asked, "Have you ever kissed anyone?"
"No," Lin Yao looked at Guan Ze who was still calm as usual, and felt that he probably didn't have the ability to break Guan Ze's magic. This man was almost like a monk. He sighed, "Why, do you want to teach me?"
Guan Ze didn't say anything. Without warning, he raised his hand and pushed his waist, while suddenly bending his legs upward. In an instant, before Lin Yao could figure out what was happening, he was thrown onto the bed by Guan Ze. If there hadn't been a wall over there, he might have rolled down the bed like a barrel.
Lin Yao was very angry about his behavior in front of Guan Ze, where he would chew the quilt when his wrist was twisted, and chew the quilt again when his waist was pushed, and he quickly turned over on the spot.
But before he could sit up and get angry, Guan Ze suddenly turned over and pressed on him, without giving him a chance to react, he kissed him directly and pushed his clothes up.
Lin Yao seemed to be thrown into molten iron. He was stunned at first, and then his whole body was boiling from head to toe as if it was set on fire.
Guan Ze pinched Lin Yao's chin, pushed open his teeth with the tip of his tongue, and probed inside, teasing him without hesitation, stirring and sucking in his mouth in a domineering manner.
Compared to Lin Yao's kiss that rubbed his lips, Guan Ze's kiss was really a kiss.
Lin Yao had watched quite a few pornographic films, and his imagination and sexual fantasies were not good at it. Every time he masturbated, he could create an action movie in his mind, but when it came to actual combat, he was completely blank. Facing Guan Ze's attack, he was completely unable to control himself and could not make any response in the chaos.
If Guan Ze had just kissed him, he might have been able to keep pestering him with a lot of effort, but after Guan Ze's hands pushed up his clothes, they began to wander over his body, stroking and kneading him lightly and heavily, making him unable to tell whether his eyes were open or closed, except for trying hard to keep breathing and not suffocate himself in extreme excitement.
Guan Ze bit his lips lightly, then slowly left his lips. He also stopped moving his hands and placed them on his waist.
Lin Yao panted and grabbed Guan Ze's arm that was supporting the bed. He had not yet recovered from his previous excitement and felt a little dizzy.
"You really have no experience at all?" Guan Ze touched his forehead.
“… Well,” Lin Yao finally spoke after taking a breath, “I’m basically a model secret admirer.”
Guan Ze smiled and tried to turn on the light, but Lin Yao quickly raised his hand and hugged his neck: "Don't turn on the light, or I'll hit my head on the pillow and die."
"Yeah." Guan Ze withdrew his hand, lay on his side beside him, put his hand back on his waist, and stroked his waist with his fingers.
Lin Yao closed his eyes, his desire was still surging. He really wanted Guan Ze to continue, but Guan Ze didn't seem to have such intention. This made him feel a little uncomfortable, but he was not bold enough to ask Guan Ze to continue.
He quietly pulled up his pants to make the little brother more comfortable. After adjusting his pants, he thought of a problem.
So he plucked up the courage to move towards Guan Ze, and found that Guan Ze's reaction was no less than his, and he was also hard and tense. His brain, which had finally calmed down a little, was boiling again, and he couldn't help but say, "You're hard."
"Is it strange that I'm hard?" Guan Ze was happy, "It's so fresh."
"Can you get hard when doing this with a man?" Lin Yao felt that if he were to do this with a girl, he probably wouldn't have such a strong reaction.
"It's mainly because of you..." Guan Ze hesitated and didn't say anything else.
"What's wrong with me?" Lin Yao looked at Guan Ze's profile in the dark, outlined by the faint light coming through the curtains.
"I'm really excited about the state of not understanding anything and not even knowing how to respond." Guan Ze smiled.
Guan Ze's words were quite straightforward, making Lin Yao feel his face burning. Fortunately, the light was not turned on, otherwise he would have looked like a fried prawn.
"Go to sleep." Guan Ze lay down.
"Can I... sleep here?" Lin Yao asked carefully.
"Well, don't fight over the quilt at night."
"I can..." Lin Yao wanted to ask, "Can I hold you while you sleep?" But now he was not as dizzy as before, so he didn't have the courage to say it. "Forget it."
Guan Ze didn't ask him what he wanted to say. He lay on his back and didn't say anything. Lin Yao turned his head and stared at him. After a while, he realized that there was nothing under his head. He had to sit up reluctantly: "I'll get the pillow."
He didn't want to go over to get the pillow. He always felt that Guan Ze was a little unpredictable. Now that he had agreed to sleep on this side, he didn't want him to say "you should sleep over there" when he went over to get the pillow.
Guan Ze also sat up, got out of bed, took the pillow and threw it to him.
Although the light in the room was very dim, Lin Yao still relied on his keen eyes to see the state of Guan Ze's crotch, relying on his previous experience of seeing his seniors' QQ numbers at a glance when he walked past them in the Internet cafe. Although the force had faded a little, he could still see that his pants were bulging, which was very tempting.
Lin Yao quickly fell back onto the bed, hugging his pillow, unable to watch any more.
Guan Ze was still lying on his back, and Lin Yao was lying on his side beside him, curled up obediently.
"Can you sleep straight? You're taking up space." Guan Ze patted his leg.
"Well," Lin Yao stretched out his legs and leaned against Guan Ze, "Mr. Guan, I want to ask you something."
"What's up."
"Have you ever had this before?" Lin Yao probed carefully.
"What happened? Have you ever been hit in the face by someone?"
"Fuck, can you stop bullying me!" Lin Yao muttered softly, "I mean doing this with a man."
Guan Ze was silent for a long time. When Lin Yao wanted to prop up his head to see if he had fallen asleep, he said, "It didn't come to this. We just kissed."
"...Ah!" Lin Yao's eyes widened in surprise. The desire in his body was suppressed by curiosity and an inexplicable expectation. "You..."
Guan Ze turned over and lay on his side facing Lin Yao. He had never told anyone about these things before. He had no habit of confiding in others. He just kept many things in his heart, but he didn't feel uncomfortable.
But tonight, he didn't seem to mind telling Lin Yao.
"He's a friend of mine from a long time ago. We had a very good relationship. No one cared about me back then, so I usually hung out with him." Guan Ze spoke slowly, his voice a little low.
This was Lin Yao's favorite voice. He didn't want to interrupt Guan Ze, so he just responded in a low voice.
"I didn't have any thoughts about him, we were just good friends," Guan Ze paused, as if recalling, "There was nothing specific, anyway, he was the most important person in my life at that time."
"Does he like you?" Lin Yao asked softly.
"I don't know. We didn't have the chance to discuss this issue. I only found out later that he likes men." Guan Ze smiled.
"Later? You didn't keep in touch? How could there be no chance?" Lin Yao sniffed, somewhat confused.
"He..." Guan Ze's voice suddenly sank, and it took a long time for him to speak, "He committed suicide."
"What?" Lin Yao's eyes widened. "Why?"
Guan Ze closed his eyes. These things happened so long ago that when he talked about them, he no longer felt the shock and pain he had at the beginning, but he still felt a sense of loss as if he was in another world.
"The place where I lived when I was a child was a very small county town. Liking a man was very...perverted," Guan Ze flicked Lin Yao's nose with his finger, "He never told anyone, but his family accidentally found out..."
"And then he committed suicide?" Lin Yao couldn't help but interrupt. No matter what, even if he was seen as a pervert, it shouldn't be a reason for suicide.
"Not for this reason," Guan Ze sighed, turned over and sat up, "He was locked up at home and took medicine every day, saying it could cure him. His family thought he was mentally ill and asked someone to get him a lot of medicine. I don't know either, but after being locked up for more than half a year, he jumped off the balcony of his house."
Lin Yao felt so choked up that he couldn't utter a word for a long time.
"I'm going to wash my face." Guan Ze got out of bed and walked into the bathroom.
Guan Ze did not close the bathroom door, and Lin Yao could hear him running water to wash his face. When Guan Ze talked about these things, his tone and emotions did not fluctuate much, but Lin Yao's heart was like a tidal wave, and he felt very uncomfortable.
Guan Ze's story was really a good medicine to eliminate his desire. He had no desire at all now. He sat up and stared at the bed, feeling like crying.
"Why are you up?" Guan Ze came out after washing his face and saw him sitting, so he turned on the light.
"It hurts." Lin Yao lowered his head and stared at his feet.
"It's all over," Guan Ze touched his head, "Remember to open the window if you want to smoke."
"No," Lin Yao raised his head, "What should I do, hero? I want to cry."
Guan Ze was stunned for a moment and then laughed, opening his arms: "Come here and cry."
Lin Yao rushed over without hesitation, hugged Guan Ze and buried his face in his shoulder, tears started to flow, and he couldn't stop them.
"Lin Yao," Guan Ze hugged him and patted him on the back, just like he usually coaxed Lu Teng, "You must have had a nickname called 'crybaby' when you were a kid."
"Get lost," Lin Yao cursed in a tearful voice, and after a while he added, "It's true. My brother always chases me and calls me a crybaby."
"Hey..." Guan Ze rubbed his hair helplessly, "Why are you crying about this?"
"I was thinking about myself." Lin Yao felt more and more uncomfortable the more he thought about it.
"Cry." Guan Ze didn't say anything else.
Lin Yao cried very sadly, Guan Ze could feel his shoulders shaking slightly. He told this only because Lin Yao asked and the atmosphere at that time made him want to say it. If he had known that this would hurt Lin Yao, he should not have said it.
"Tell me," Lin Yao cried for a while, raised his head and rubbed his face with the back of his hand, "You are so good to me, is it because of this?"
"Maybe, but not entirely," Guan Ze thought for a moment, "If you don't ask, I usually won't think about it. It's been more than ten years... Have I been good to you?"
"It's okay," Lin Yao got out of bed and prepared to wash his face. "It's okay if you don't play tricks on me."
"You can just make do with what you said?" Guan Ze smiled and sat on the bed opposite. "You are just a child who has not grown up. I don't want to make you feel bad. This kind of thing will fade away after a while. There is no need to make it so serious."
"Indifferent? In the past?" Lin Yao was walking towards the bathroom. He stopped when he heard this and turned to look at Guan Ze. "What do you mean? Are you saying that I like you now, but I won't like you anymore after a while?"
"Yeah." Guan Ze looked at him and nodded.
"What if I keep loving you? What if I can't get over it?" Lin Yao walked up to him, "Are you going to stay with me like this forever?"
"What do you like about me?" Guan Ze smiled, "My face? My body? My voice? Anything else?"
"Of course, if you like someone, you will be attracted by their appearance first before you pay attention to them," Lin Yao did not bother to wash his face. He had to explain this to Guan Ze. He took a cigarette from the cigarette box on the table and opened the window. "You will like other things after you pay attention to them."
"What's something else?" Guan Ze leaned against the head of the bed.
"I can't explain it. I just fell into it because it felt right." Lin Yao frowned.
"I don't feel like it anymore. This thing is too unreliable."
"Can you explain the matter of feelings so clearly? Lay out one by one? You're writing a report. You're an old man after all, don't you understand this?" Lin Yao blew a puff of smoke out of the window, thought about it, turned back and pointed at Guan Ze, "I like you, but I didn't want you to know. If I didn't let you know, it would be just like what you said, maybe it would fade away after a while."
Guan Ze said nothing and looked at Lin Yao with great interest. This kid is quite smart when he is not being stupid.
"But now you know it, and you've known it for a long time. You don't hide from me, and you don't think I'm disgusting. It doesn't matter whether you admit it or not. You're very good to me, otherwise I wouldn't like you so much!" Lin Yao said while habitually blowing out a smoke ring, "So in other words, I'm pursuing you now, do you understand? If you accept it, accept it, if you don't accept it, reject it. If you feel undecided, just hold on like this and see whether I will give up or you will obey me in the end."
"I'm going to wash my face. You figure it out." Lin Yao flicked the cigarette out of the window, leaned out to see if it hit anyone's head, then closed the window, ran into the bathroom and slammed the door.
After standing in the bathroom for two minutes, Lin Yaocai sat down on the toilet lid, hugged his head and let out a long sigh.
He spoke this conversation without taking a breath, for he was afraid that taking a breath would give Guan Ze a chance to reject him. He was afraid of Guan Ze's rejection. If Guan Ze did not accept his intention, he would rather Guan Ze never make up his mind.
Lin Yao lingered in the bathroom for nearly half an hour before slowly walking out. Guan Ze had already lay back on his bed, resting his head on his arms, thinking about something.
He stood beside the bed, not knowing whether he should climb onto the bed and sleep next to Guan Ze or take his pillow and go back to his own bed and stay there.
"Go to sleep." Guan Ze moved to the edge of the bed and made room for him.
"Yeah." Lin Yao climbed onto the bed, pulled the quilt over him, thought for a moment, and then shamelessly turned over and hugged Guan Ze.
"Lin Yao," Guan Ze didn't push him away, "Are you afraid that I will reject you?"
"Isn't that nonsense? If I'm expecting you to reject me, why would I bother? Am I sick?"
Guan Ze couldn't hold back his laughter, and he smiled at the ceiling for a long time before saying, "I like you very much, but it's definitely not the kind you want. There are some things I think about much more than you do."
"I know what you're thinking," Lin Yao closed his eyes, "Don't think I'm heartless. Do you think I'm just thinking about how to play a hooligan on you?"
Guan Ze smiled but said nothing. Lin Yao sighed, "Well, maybe you don't think as much as you think. I'm just this young. I've liked a few people before, but I could only hide and like them secretly. You know, I just want to have a good relationship, and the person I like also likes me. That's it. Maybe it's stupid, but really, I just want someone to respond to my feelings."