In the middle of the night, the popular Xiaosheng Chen Ziran fell asleep for less than half an hour when he was woken up by his friend's deadly serial call.
"Xiang-guess!!!" Chen Ziran shouted loudly, before opening his eyes, the scolding had already spread. "Did you know that I have only slept three hours a day for a week? Did you know that I am only 23 years old this year and already have crow's feet?? Did you know that I have run a total of more than 50 halls in Dianying today??? Do you know what time it is????"
"..." A friend's soft words came from the other end of the phone, "That... I was kissed by someone else."
Chen Ziran was so sleepy that he murmured, "Just kiss me. I'm acting on stage, how can I not kiss and hug."
"Not a co-star... my landlord."
Chen Ziran woke up instantly and sat up from the bed: "Landlord??? Your landlord sexually harassed you???"
"No, no, it's not sexual harassment." On the other end of the phone, Xiang Gu hurriedly denied, "We watched a movie together at home at night, and then I was confused... and kissed him."
Chen Ziran let go of all his strength, and lay back on the bed again, sullenly: "Oh, I'm so confused, I'm half-assisted. It's just that the moonlight is so beautiful, not you."
Xiang Chai whispered, "But after the kiss, he didn't say anything and went back to his own room to sleep."
Chen Ziran rubbed it and sat up again: "Fuck, scumbag!! Only responsible for flirting, not responsible for putting out fires, is it a job for people to run away after kissing?"
"No no no, it's all my fault." Xiang Guai turned off the light and buried himself in the quilt to prevent the moon from peeping at his flushed cheeks. "The atmosphere was very good at the time. I was dazed by his kiss, and I felt his hand reach into the hem of my clothes. I was startled and my whole body was stiff. His expression at that time was very... I also said If he didn't come out, he looked at me with a complicated look. Then he whispered sorry, pulled my clothes back up, and left."
Chen Ziran sighed and lay down again: "No, what the hell did I do? Why should I listen to a gay guy tell a story about him and his landlord gay coming and going at two in the morning?"
Chen Ziran asked again: "By the way, before you moved in, did you know that your landlord was gay? I remember you said that this house is very cheap, is it that he was trying to make you beautiful, thinking about letting you pay the rent with yourself? what?"
"He's not that kind of person!" Xiang Gu immediately clarified. He protects his shortness, and he is the least likely to hear bad words from others, "I met him a long time ago, and I didn't know he liked men at first. We lived together for so long, and he took special care of me, I noticed it. He must have liked me. But before, I couldn't believe it, thinking I was thinking too much, but... "
But yesterday, they kissed.
It was a kiss that 17-year-old Xiang Chai longed for, but when it happened, 23-year-old Xiang Chai didn't know how to deal with it.
Shyness, nervousness, resistance, longing, attachment, yearning... These countless completely different emotions are mixed together, making the little swan lose its way.
Chen Ziran was very curious: "You said that you two knew each other a long time ago. Is this 'long time' 'how long'?"
"Five years ago." Xiang Gu replied, "I was in a bad mood when I first switched to singing and dancing. He was the one who accompanied me through the low ebb. ... Actually, you also know my landlord, who was with you that time. The show, and the chat with you who PKed."
"My day?!!!!" Chen Ziran sat up again, this time he was completely awake, and even felt that he had never been more awake than now, "Xiang Gu, you are really my big brother! How many more words do you have? Can you say it in your breath? Do you know that I have done three sit-ups on the bed during this time?"
"… "
There was no way, Xiang Gu, at Chen Ziran's urging, could only pour out everything that happened between him and Tan Yiming.
As he spoke, he recalled. He is not only narrating a past event, but also sorting out this elusive mood.
He has experienced too many things in his short 20 years of life. He thought that the past five years ago had long since faded in the depths of his heart; but it was only then that he discovered every bit related to Tan Yiming, It's all so clear.
Except for work needs, Xiang Guai is a person who doesn't like sensationalism. He told the story of his peace with Tan Yiming in the calmest tone, but at the end, Chen Ziran, the listener, actually cried.
"What are you waiting for?" Chen Ziran wiped away her tears, "You two are 'destined to be gay' and you can live under the same roof as your first love five years ago. This is in the hands of the screenwriter, at least I can write fifty episodes!"
"...because I'm afraid."
"What are you afraid of?"
"I remember that I told you when I broke up with my ex-boyfriend that I don't want to fall in love in a short time." Xiang Guai said softly, "At that time, Manchuan and I really liked each other, but a relationship, only light. It's not enough to like it. We didn't make it to the end because of all kinds of differences."
"… "
"So I'm really afraid. I'm afraid that I can't see my true heart and mistake Tan Yiming as a healing tool; I'm afraid that Tan Yiming will find out that the guess he's been looking for in the past five years is just a dummy made up by his brain. , I am not as good as one ten thousandth of his fantasy; I am more afraid that our love will eventually become a short-lived fireworks show, brilliant and beautiful, and then disappear into the night sky."
Xiang guess lost a lot of things in his life. He lost his parents' affection, lost his health, lost his ballet, and lost a relationship that was drifting away.
Therefore, he understands the pain of loss.
Therefore, he is more afraid of "losing again" than anyone else.
"Ziran, tell me, what am I going to do?" Xiang Chai asked in a low voice, "Even if I recall that kiss now, my heart is pounding. Is this a dream come true? I can… Do you have him?"
Xiang Chai didn't know that, when he was stuffed in the bed and talked to his friends about his troubles, Tan Yiming stood outside his bedroom and listened quietly.
Tan Yiming was holding a steaming cup of sleep-aiding milk in his hand. He originally wanted to apologize for his abruptness. As a result, he unexpectedly overheard Xiang Guai's conversation with his friend.
The boy's soothing voice drifted out from the crack of the door, mixed with the aroma of milk.
When Tan Yiming heard Xiang Gu say that he had broken up, his heart was immediately filled with secret joy. But after hearing Xiang Gu say that he was afraid of a new relationship, the man's heart sank.
He didn't blame Xiang Gu for being cowardly - he was patient enough to wait for his swan to fly towards him.
…
The days that followed seemed to be calm again.
It's just that this kind of calm is an illusion deliberately disguised by the two. They still eat together as usual, go to the supermarket together, Tan Yiming will drive Xiang Guai to the rehearsal room before going to work, and they will sit in the living room watching movies at night.
But something has quietly changed.
Whenever their eyes met, it seemed like a fire was burning in their pupils, and the occasional physical contact would trigger a heartbeat.
The two avoided talking about the kiss that day, and they didn't know that this state of self-deception could last for a few days.
In order to keep himself from thinking wildly, Xiang Guai has been interviewing for a new job recently. Happy Pancake’s tour has ended. The next tour will be in March next year. There are several months in between. Of course, we can’t sit and eat at home.
He is a little bit famous in the industry now, plus he has a good personality and has a wide range of friends, and friends often introduce him to the crew for interviews.
There are very few actors in the musical theatre industry who have managers, and most job opportunities are obtained through mutual introduction.
It's just that several of the crews he has been in contact with recently are all dramas - musical performances, singing, and dancing. Many musical actors will perform in dramas across borders.
Anyway, whether it's a musical or a drama, you only earn a little bit of money. Everyone's life is not easy. If you can take on more work, you will naturally have to work hard.
But Xiang Gu doesn't want to act in a drama.
He stepped on the stage of musicals just to maintain his dance dream. He was so stubborn that he wanted to devote all his limited time to rehearsals for the musical.
But the musical theater market is generally not large. If you want to be a role and lead actor, there are even fewer opportunities.
He has been looking for a headless fly for a long time, and it is almost winter, but he has not had any income for a long time.
Chen Ziran was very loyal, so he called him and asked him if he wanted to play a cameo role in the reasoning web drama he was filming, even if he only appeared in three episodes, the pay was definitely higher than his one-month continuous musical. earn more.
Xiang Gu naturally refused.
Chen Ziran scolded him: "Big brother! If people want a good meal, it's okay if you don't start work for a month. If you don't start work for two or three months, you won't be able to pay the rent by then!" He lowered his voice again, gossiping. Asked, "Or, you and Tan Yiming are making rapid progress and have moved into the same bedroom, so you don't have to pay rent anymore?"
"...Don't talk nonsense." Xiang Guai was extremely embarrassed.
"Hey, you are really contradictory." Chen Ziran has been with his classmates for many years and naturally understands his character. "You are afraid of losing, so you dare not even own it. But how long can Tan Yiming wait for you? Let him wait for you for another five years, until you dare to take this step?"
Xiang Guess did not speak.
"Cub." Chen Ziran said, "I'm not alarmist! Tan Yiming's conditions are good, you hesitate to hesitate, don't hesitate to the end, Tan Yiming thinks you are hanging him, turn around and run away with others!"
Xiang Guess panicked, and hurriedly said, "I didn't hang him. I just—"
"—You just don't feel safe!" Chen Ziran said in one sentence. "What should I do if I'm worried about breaking up before we're together? Why don't you change your mind and think 'how can I not break up after I'm with him'?"
After chatting with Chen Ziran, Xiang Guess seemed to have figured out some things.
It's strange, he is obviously not a timid person, but every time he faces Tan Yiming, he always looks forward and backward, which really corresponds to the poem - "Love is a hand that wants to touch and withdraw".
…
Xiang Guessing was confused, but his job luck has risen.
A few days later, Xiang Gu received a call from a musical producer he knew before.
On the phone, the producer said that he was rehearsing an original musical and that he had finalized the male lead half a year in advance, and even delayed the rehearsal until now in order to match the male lead's schedule.
As a result, the male protagonist suddenly quit!
"Huh?" Xiang Gu thought it was incredible, because he had also heard of the male protagonist. He was a very dedicated senior. He sang and acted well, and he had never been blush with anyone.
The producer vomited bitterly: "He signed a brokerage company at the beginning of the year to send him to participate in a closed talent show, and he is a seed player, so he can be recommended to the finals." He sighed, "People go to high places, we It’s not always good to stay strong.”
As for liquidated damages? A musical actor only earns four figures per performance, and ten times the liquidated damages is just a drizzle in the eyes of other brokerage companies.
The producer said, "Xiang Guai, I heard that you have a vacancy recently? You don't have to audition. The director and I have seen your play. If you come now, you can sign it now!"
The producer is very enthusiastic, for fear that the cooked swan will fly away.
He crackled and said a long list of old people with a certain reputation and experience in the industry, in order to show how reliable their crew is.
But Xiang Guess is not so easily fooled.
Xiang Guai asked cautiously, "Then who are the dance director and music director?"
The final effect of a musical is not only related to the actors and directors, but also the two directors who guide the rehearsal.
The producer first said the name of the dance director, such as Lei Guaner, but at least he was familiar with it.
"As for the music director..." the producer coughed. "Famous too! He's scored a lot of Hollywood movies, but this is the first time he's been in charge of a musical."
No matter how fancy the foreshadowing is, to put it bluntly, this music director is a crossover newcomer.
"Oh? I don't know what he's called?"
"Melody Yao," said the producer, "Yao Yin in Chinese."