After a while, Qiu Minghua came down. He walked and looked around. After a while, he saw Lin Weixia leaning against the wall and scratched his head:
"Let me take you back."
Lin Weixia shook her head, her eyes cold: "No, I can go back by myself."
Qiu Minghua wanted to say something but stopped himself. Lin Weixia didn't care that it was still drizzling outside, she walked straight into the rain, stopped a car on the side of the road and went back.
After returning home, Men Zi said that she would sleep at her place tonight, but she was still in the studio editing videos and had not returned. Lin Weixia lay exhausted on the sofa, and the puppy jumped up, licked her palm, and then crawled into her arms again.
Lin Weixia picked up her phone, found the contact with the note "Asheng", opened the dialog box, and wanted to say something. In the end, she found that nothing she said would be effective, so she deleted the words she had typed.
Finally, Lin Weixia got up and took a shower. The water was very hot, and her skin was red. After taking a shower, Lin Weixia returned to her room, ordered a lemon-scented aromatherapy for herself, and lay down to sleep.
In the dream, Lin Weixia felt her whole body burning hot, and every inch of her body from her lips to the ground seemed to be pressed down by someone, causing a tingling sensation.
The camera goes back to that summer again
On the day when the typhoon passed and the sky was covered with thick clouds, the boy had an obvious scar on his brow. The wind was surging behind him, his eyes were wet, and he asked in a hoarse voice:
“What is true and what is false?”
She said half truth and half lie. Then he looked at her and said slowly: "I will forget you."
This frame of the picture stopped at the last moment of the dream. Lin Weixia was awakened by a cold sweat and found herself lying on the bed. When she opened her eyes, she saw the ceiling.
Lin Weixia put on a coat and walked out of the room, and found Men Zi making banging noises in the kitchen. She stood at the dining table and poured herself a glass of warm water. She had a splitting headache and felt uncomfortable after the hangover.
"Good morning." Men Zi walked out and said.
"Good morning." As soon as Lin Weixia opened her mouth, she found that her voice was hoarse.
Men Zi took a look at the horrible kitchen, sighed, pulled out a chair and put it down: "I didn't expect that there would be a day when I would cook hangover soup for you. Haha, I almost blew up the kitchen just now."
"I gave up. I ordered takeout for you on my phone and had it delivered together with your breakfast," said Men Zi.
Lin Weixia raised her head and took a big gulp of the water cup. Her throat finally felt better. She replied, "Thank you."
"Oh, you're welcome." Men Zi glanced at Lin Weixia's pale face and saw that she was in a trance again, so he asked, "What's wrong with you? Did someone force you to drink last night? You have a low alcohol tolerance, and someone forced you to drink. If I know who it is, I will beat him to death."
"No one forced me to drink." Lin Weixia came back to her senses and smiled.
She was the one who took the initiative to drink last night.
"Then what about you—" Men Zi said with concern.
The answer to Men Zi was silence. Lin Weixia tightened her grip on the transparent wind-line glass cup and spoke after a while:
"I met him yesterday and we kissed."
Men Zi's mind froze for a few seconds, and it took her a long time to come to her senses: "Ban Sheng?! He's the guy you almost dated but didn't. He kissed you, so did he send you home yesterday?"
Lin Weixia shook her head, a bitter smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she said, "You may find it ridiculous. We were both drinking at the time. I was probably a little drunk. When he approached me, my mind was buzzing and I couldn't control myself and kissed him."
"When we were together, I didn't give him my whole heart. I kept half of it. Later, I did something wrong and hurt him, so he was sent abroad."
"So you are going to America this time." Men Zi continued.
Lin Weixia did not refute. For some reason, she suddenly shed a tear when she thought of all the things that had happened recently. She wiped it away because she felt it was hypocritical. This time, she finally admitted:
"I just want to see him from a distance and know if he is doing well."
But she didn't expect that he would fall like this, a dark classmate. He did not choose to pursue the dream he loved in his youth, but instead appeared in places of sensual pleasures all day long.
Lin Weixia didn't continue talking. Men Zi also knew the current situation. They were all from the same school, and everyone knew that the School of Biological Engineering had produced a genius. However, this genius had a chaotic private life. He often hung out in bars and often ran to Dazhui Mountain with a group of people in the middle of the night to play the most exciting and life-threatening mountain racing.
"Xia Xia, I know what's going on in your mind. You're wondering if you're the reason why he's like this now. I tell you that the possibility is very small. Maybe something else happened to him. Don't take the blame on yourself when something happens." Men Zi analyzed the situation for her in a logical and reasonable manner.
Men Zi put his hands on Lin Weixia's shoulders, asked her to look straight at him, and said seriously:
"What you need to make sure of now is, do you still like him? This is the key point. If you still have feelings for him, get him back."
Men Zi is like this. She has always been bold and passionate in love. She will definitely get what she wants or what she likes.
Men Zi's words were like a basin of ice water that woke Lin Weixia up. In fact, these were the voices in her heart.
In the past two years, after he left, Lin Weixia's heart has never been filled with anyone else. She thought that the world could turn around without anyone, but in the past two years since Ban Sheng left, Lin Weixia often thought of him, and every time she thought of him, her heart was sad.
Only after they broke up did she realize how important Ban Sheng was to her.
She had met many different kinds of people, but only he would make her heart beat again when he got close to her. Ban Sheng was like a curse on her, and Lin Weixia fell into a repetitive mood because of him.
The sour, the distressed, the sweet, the sad, it's all because of him.
After talking with Men Zi, Lin Weixia thought about this matter from time to time during classes in the past two days.
In the psychology class, the teacher opened the courseware, swiped his finger on the touchpad, and eight big words appeared on the blackboard curtain - Zeigarnik Memory Effect.
"Come, let's see what the book says - various experiments have shown that people tend to have a deeper impression of completed things and unfinished things, and they always think about unfinished things... Now, some people are applying this psychology to the study of love." The teacher was lecturing at the blackboard.
"Teacher, for me, the only thing I can't forget is my first love!" a boy raised his hand and said.
Then there was a burst of laughter in the classroom. Lin Weixia was listening to the class with her head supported by her hands. When she heard the word "first love", the pen she was holding tapped her head unconsciously.
The word "first love" prompted Lin Weixia to take out her phone from the drawer, find the number in the address book that had changed so much, and type in the dialog box with her head down:
[Are you free? I have something to tell you.]
After sending the message, Lin Weixia put her phone in the drawer, waiting for his reply with a hint of anticipation in her heart.
But until the end of the psychology class, Lin Weixia's phone screen did not light up.
As soon as the bell rang, Lin Weixia and her classmates followed the crowd out to the cafeteria to eat.
After dinner, Lin Weixia and her classmates sat face to face to eat. Her classmates told her gossip about other colleges. As they were talking, they noticed that Lin Weixia was absent-minded and her eyes kept looking at her phone from time to time.
"Weixia, do you have a boyfriend living in your phone?" a classmate joked.
"Ah, no." Lin Weixia withdrew her gaze from the phone.
The classmate scooped a piece of mashed potato with a spoon and said with a smile: "I wonder what kind of boy can make a girl like you lose your mind."
Lin Weixia pulled the corner of her lips without saying anything. She picked up a piece of lotus root and put it in her mouth, chewing it slowly.
After finishing her meal, Lin Weixia stood in front of the sink to wash her hands. Suddenly, she heard a buzzing text message reminder from her coat pocket. She turned off the faucet and took out her phone before she had time to wipe her hands. It was a message from Ban Sheng:
[4 o'clock, Teaching Building C.]
My heart, which had been hanging in the air, finally settled down.
Lin Weixia stayed in the library to review in the afternoon. When she was about to go out, she found that Ban Sheng had sent her a message an hour ago, but she didn't hear it because her phone was on silent mode.
[I took a leave of absence in the afternoon and didn’t go to class.]
[If you have any questions, you can call me.]
Lin Weixia felt a little disappointed, put her phone back in her pocket, and returned to the library.
It was dark when Lin Weixia returned home after dinner and took the dog out for a walk. The dog was almost blown away by the wind.
Tired from walking, Lin Weixia pulled the leash and sat on a bench in a nearby park. The puppy stood aside, panting heavily, obviously tired from the recent run.
She took out her cell phone, stared at it for a moment, and dialed the number. There was a beeping sound and the call was connected after a short while.
There was a noisy sound coming from the other end of the phone. Lin Weixia heard the sound of a door being pushed and closed, and soon it became quiet over there.
He must have changed his place to answer the phone.
There was a crackling sound from the phone. No one spoke at this moment, but she could hear his breathing.
"It's me." Lin Weixia said.
When the sound of a lighter lighting a cigarette came from the other side, Ban Sheng said slowly: "Yeah, I know."
Then they fell silent again. I don't know if it was because they had been apart for too long and had become estranged, or if it was because the years had changed each other's personalities. She had been tempered by time and her personality was not as sharp, while he had become a little colder instead.
"I just want to say, Shengxia, I have taken good care of it. If you have time, you can come and see it." Lin Weixia's hands unconsciously picked at the paint on the chair.
There was no immediate response from the other end. There was a whistling sound of wind. After a while, he said, "Okay."
Xiao Shengxia seemed to understand what Lin Weixia said. She looked up at her master with a pair of watery grape eyes.
Lin Weixia stretched out her hand, and Shengxia obediently took two steps forward and raised her head to let her touch her.
"That night, I hadn't finished what I was saying," Lin Weixia stroked the soft fur on the puppy's head, her throat a little dry, "If you are willing to believe me, I want to show you seriously that I will not be the same as before."
"If you still want to."
The girl's gentle voice came through the unstable radio waves. The cigarette in the boy's hand was almost burned to his butt, and a layer of ash was piled up. The tall and silent figure leaned against the wall.
Lin Weixia didn't know Ban Sheng's expression and reaction, she could only imagine. However, the longer he remained silent, the more unsure she became.
This could all be just her wishful thinking.
Lin Weixia's phone sent a reminder that the battery was running out. Her heart went from expectation to anxiety, and then to disappointment. Just when she thought there would be no response, it seemed like a century. Ban Sheng's low and deep voice came through the phone. He said:
"good."