Xin Ai's body shook twice as she bent down to get out of the car. The bad feeling was getting stronger and stronger. She wanted to shake her head to stop herself from thinking too much. What could happen? What else could happen
After getting off the car, Xin Ai smiled and said: "Why calm down? Captain Shen, what you said is incomprehensible, so you can't give me a happy word."
"Let's go in first." Shen Ce sighed. This was undoubtedly a huge blow to Xin Ai.
He didn't know what would happen when she really faced the cruel reality. She was still a young girl, she was only in her second year of college, and the things she had experienced were already beyond what she should bear at her age, and now... reality But another more brutal fatal blow came.
Shen Ce took Xin Aijin into the police station. She had been summoned for questioning, so many people knew her.
When passing by some police officers, they all greeted Shen Ce. Xin Ai felt that they would look at her subconsciously after greeting Shen Ce, and there were two words in their eyes - sympathy.
Xin Ai always had a smile on her face, but her fingernails were dug deep into her flesh. She didn't even feel it. She was nervous and afraid.
Xin Ai followed Shen Ce through the office on the first floor, then walked upstairs, turned a corner, and stopped at... the door of the forensic room.
When Xin Ai saw those three words, his body suddenly shivered, and then
Without saying a word, he turned around and left.
After Shen Ce found out, he chased after him and shouted: "Xin Ai, Xin Ai..."
Xin Ai walked very fast and arrived downstairs in a blink of an eye. He took Xin Ai's arm and said, "Xin Ai, wait a moment."
Xin Ai's body was trembling, and she clenched her teeth very tightly. She tried very hard to control the panic on her face, but she couldn't control it. She trembled and tucked the hair behind her ears. It was so simple. She tried the movement four times in a row before she succeeded. She did not look at Shen Ce. She kept looking at the passage ahead with uneasy eyes. It seemed that as long as she walked out of here, she would not have to be afraid.
Seeing the three words "Forensic Medical Room", Xin Ai felt bad. He had only one thought in his mind, to leave quickly, as far as possible.
Xin Ai said to Shen Ce: "I remembered something that I am very anxious about. I have to go and do it. I'm sorry, I may not be able to cooperate with you today. Later... I will talk to you when I have time. I will leave first..."
Xin Ai spoke very quickly, her voice and lips were trembling.
Her whole body, even every strand of her hair, betrayed her fear at the moment.
Shen Ce looked at her appearance and felt very sad and distressed. He had been troubled ever since he knew about that incident. If he was not a policeman, he would definitely not let Xin Ai know. He hoped to hide it from her for the rest of his life.
But
, as a policeman, the truth must be told to Xin Ai. This is his duty, and Xin Ai... also has the right to know the truth.
Shen Ce put his hand on Xin Ai's shoulder and said, "Xin Ai, you..."
He wanted to persuade Xin Ai to face it, but he couldn't say it. It was too cruel. Finally, he said: "Okay, if you don't want to do it today, forget it, I will send you back first..."
Looking at Xin Ai's appearance, Shen Ce didn't have the heart to pull her back.
Xin Ai stood there without moving, her head lowered, her hair hanging down, covering her face, and only a thin and pointed chin could be seen.
Shen Ce sighed, gently held her shoulders, and led her out.
He walked to the car, opened the door and helped her get in.
On the way back, Shen Ce wanted to comfort Xin Ai but didn't know how to speak. Later he thought about it and said: "When I was a soldier, you probably can't imagine what I looked like. I was very irritated when I first joined the army. , everyone refused to accept it, and always felt that I was the best in the world. Because I was sent to practice martial arts by my father when I was very young, I thought I was very powerful, but later I was beaten so hard by the commander of our recruit company that I couldn't get up, so, He became my target and the first person I admired; later, I joined the special operations team with that company commander. On one mission, my old company commander was injured in order to save me and other team members.
He was shot and fell into the hands of militants. He was already seriously injured and in critical condition. He made a gesture that we all understood and asked us to kill him... He didn't want to be a burden to us. "
A smile appeared on Shen Ce's face, a rather bitter smile, and he said: "But after we saw it, no one moved. We all wanted to give it a try and see if we could save the person. I also I think, it’s a pity…”
Shen Ce paused for a moment and then said: "Those militants were extremely vicious and cruel. I didn't want to see my old company commander being humiliated by those people, so... I fired a shot and shot him in the head, killing him on the spot. Later... I retired and came to work as a criminal police officer. I never visited his gravesite once or offered him a cigarette because I didn't dare."
These are all things that happened a long time ago. When Shen Ce talks about these, it seems that he can still see the scene of going through life and death with other comrades amidst the sound of gunfire.
However, the reality is that he killed his brother who lived and died with him.
He will never be forgiven by others, and he will never be able to face the family of the old company commander.
Over the years, Shen Ce has lived like an ascetic, masochistically trying to atone for his sins in order to have a moment of peace in his heart.
Since that incident, he has never told anyone about these words.
Today is the first time.
The dusty memory is the color after being dyed red by blood. It is so bloody that I dare not look back.
Every time they look back, what awaits them is heartbreaking pain and another torture.
When Shen Ce told Xin Ai this, it was as if he was holding a knife and cutting his own wounds. He said slowly: "Xin Ai... There are not many people in the world who are relaxed. Everyone has it. We all have heavy shells, and every step is difficult. Like me, I live to atone for my sins. In fact, I don’t know why I am telling you this. It seems to have no effect on you. Probably, I just want to tell you. , no matter how long the darkness is, it will pass, no matter how difficult the road is, we can finish it. The reality is indeed cruel, but we still have to face it, because we are all still alive... "
Shen Ce was not a person who preached, and he didn't know if it would be useful to tell Xin Ai this.
But you have to say something, you have to find a way to relieve her. Xin Ai can escape for a while, but she can't escape forever.
She always has to face it, if she is not strengthened in advance, she will collapse.
Human life, how can it be easy
Stopping at a red light intersection, Shen Ce heard Xin Ai's voice: "Go back..."
Shen Ce was stunned for a moment, "What did you say?"
Xin Ai's voice was hoarse: "Turn around and go back."
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