The night passed.
When He Yu woke up, the sky was already bright.
He blinked and saw Xie Qingcheng dressed and sitting by the window smoking a cigarette.
The window opened a crack, the smoke flowed out from the fingertips, and the morning light streamed in from outside.
Xie Qingcheng's overall state is not very good.
He is very haggard, no one can be tossed like this by He Yu for a night without being haggard. Although he was wearing a casual suit, there was a faint mottled hickey at the neckline.
And that lip, you can see the bite marks completely.
Xie Qingcheng looked very agitated, and the cigarette butts in the ashtray had piled up like a mountain.
He didn't know when he woke up, his sleep was much lighter than He Yu's.
Hearing the rustling on the bed, Xie Qingcheng turned his head: "... wake up."
"… Ok."
On such a morning, any relatively gentle conversation can occur between them.
For example, how are you
Like, would you like to have some breakfast
No matter how bad it is, you can also say, put on your clothes, it's cold in winter.
But Xie Qingcheng was silent for a moment, looking at the boy who had had too many intimate relationships with him, and finally, he chose the calmest and most ruthless sentence—
"Let's go when you wake up."
He Yu was stunned for a moment.
He really didn't expect Xie Qingcheng to be like that with him last night, but he could say such cold words today.
He was stunned for a while before saying, "Last night..."
"You didn't force me last night, I lost my mind and I couldn't control it."
Xie Qingcheng seemed to think about how to face him for a long time, and his answer was very quick and ruthless, almost mechanical.
"I don't blame you, just go."
He Yu sat up like a little dragon who tried his best to please his master, but was ruthlessly abandoned in the end.
His hair was still a little messy, and it was standing there, with scabbed blood on his forehead, and the wound on his lips that was bitten by Xie Qingcheng last night.
Xie Qingcheng glanced at him and turned his eyes away.
The sky light outside the window washed him away as if he didn't have half an inch of human vitality.
What happened last night was crazy. The two of them seemed to have fallen into evil. On New Year's Eve, they did things that each other did not expect each other to do. Looking back on it now, I can't believe it.
One night is like falling into a dream, and neither of the two people in the dream is so real.
But perhaps it was because too much heat was consumed. This frantic and completely unplanned lovemaking took Xie Qingcheng's last breath away.
It can be seen that Xie Qingcheng is very regretful.
He Yu looked at him silently, the dragon cub who had worked hard all night was thrown away when he was told that he was not wronged.
But his self-esteem made him unwilling to show any grievances.
He Yu finally sank his face and said softly: "...You don't have to send me away in such a hurry. The cowherd who came to the door should not be treated like this."
Xie Qingcheng: "What is Cowherd?"
He Yu: "... male/prostitute."
Xie Qingcheng: "...then you are not a male/prostitute."
He Yu kept his face and said nothing.
Xie Qingcheng sighed, put down the phone that he glanced at while smoking, and walked to He Yu's bed.
He Yu's out-of-the-way vision swept to what he was watching just now - a video of jellyfish.
He only thought it was funny before, and he didn't know why Xie Qingcheng always watched this kind of thing. Now he understands that this video is a kind of psychological sedative for Xie Qingcheng, similar to the conditioned reflex that he has developed. Those who have no brain and no heart but still live tenderly are the only comfort in Xie Qingcheng's painful past. .
Therefore, he knew that Xie Qingcheng must be very uncomfortable and had a mental breakdown, so he repeatedly smoked a cigarette and watched this video.
Although Xie Qingcheng is voluntary.
Although Xie Qingcheng was annoyed by him, teased by him, and did it with him.
But he knew that Xie Qingcheng regretted it later. And unusual regrets.
Sure enough, Xie Qingcheng came over and the first thing he said to him was: "He Yu, we shouldn't go on like this anymore."
He Yu didn't speak and sat silently.
There are also scars on the boy's back that Xie Qingcheng grabbed out of control last night.
But the man who arrested him told him that we should not go on like this.
He Yu was very resentful and sad.
He raised his head, stared at Xie Qingcheng's eyes, and asked him silently.
Xie Qingcheng's response was to go silent for a while, then turned around and went to the drawer to get the medicine box, gauze, iodophor, and cotton swabs. Little by little, he silently bandaged the wound on He Yu's forehead.
"New Year's Eve, don't go out with blood."
The cotton swab was dipped in iodine and gently wiped around the wound. The boy didn't make a sound at all, and Xie Qingcheng gave him this little aftercare.
The pure white gauze was wrapped around his forehead. Xie Qingcheng's fingers stopped on a row of tapes when fixing it. Finally, he took a children's Band-Aid with a small cartoon dinosaur printed on it and stuck it on He Yu's forehead.
"Okay. Let's go."
"… "
"Xie Xue will be back in a while."
"… "
"It's really not right for us to do this. Yesterday I was impulsive."
"… "
"He Yu."
He Yu finally spoke. He sat on the bed, raised his head, and a little messy hair fell in front of the gauze: "Xie Qingcheng, I'm so thirsty. I'm tired. I want to drink water."
Xie Qingcheng sighed, he couldn't help it, his thinking was like this, as long as he took the initiative to want, and others gave it, he would feel that he should give something regardless of whether he suffered or not, after all He is a big man.
So he went to pour water for He Yu.
Seeing that he was really willing to pour water for himself, He Yu seemed to be in a better mood. When Xie Qingcheng was busy in front of the tea table, he still probed his head and raised his hand from time to time to touch his forehead and the cartoons on his forehead. band Aid.
But when Xie Qingcheng came back with the water, his face sank again when he saw the cup.
Even heavier than before.
"Here. Drink."
Xie Qingcheng handed him the disposable cup.
He Yu stared at this paper cup of the same style as Li Rouqiu, stopped drinking, pursed his mouth tightly, and turned his face away.
Xie Qingcheng didn't know what was wrong with him. His concubine seemed unhappy and frowned, "Drink it."
He Yu glared at him, suddenly raised his hand and knocked out the cup, and the warm water was spilled on the ground.
Xie Qingcheng: "What are you doing!"
He Yu still glared at him: "What are you talking about me doing!"
"How do I know what's wrong with you?"
"Why can't you understand what I think?"
Xie Qingcheng was speechless.
He didn't even know why he would be so crazy to provoke such a thing. When he poured water for Li Rouqiu, Li Rouqiu would always say thank you brother, He Yu fucking fucked him/he dared to knock over the cup he handed over all night!
"I'll tell you He Yu, go back when you've had enough trouble, and you can just pretend it didn't happen last night. I've said it many times, it's just an impulse..."
"Then if I were a woman, you were impulsive like this last night, I should be pregnant!"
"… "
Xie Qingcheng's head hurts to death when he sees his righteousness.
No, judging from what they did yesterday, it wouldn't be He Yu's pregnancy if they wanted to get pregnant, right? How does he have a face
But on second thought, He Yu said, "I should be pregnant", which is better than when he kept saying "You give me one", "Brother, you give me one of my seeds." ." Or "you should be pregnant" comes less difficult to accept.
Xie Qingcheng gritted his teeth: "You are not a woman. If you are a woman, I will not lose my head and be like you."
"Why can't you do this when I'm a girl? Are you gay?"
Xie Qingcheng's face turned blue: "I'm not."
"Then why are you?"
"… "
Xie Qingcheng didn't want to mess with him anymore. He looked at the clock on the wall and said, "I can't tell you, anyway, I won't. Don't talk about this anymore, it's getting late, you hurry up and leave. , don't let Xie Xue come back and hit him."
"Xie Qingcheng, you are a man and you are responsible, right?"
"I'm to blame for you!" Xie Qing became furious, "I tell you, He Yu, there should be nothing between us. What happened last night is the end of all this, and there is no future. Once. Now you get up for me. You get up—"
He didn't finish his sentence.
He Yu suddenly reached out and hugged his waist.
"I don't want to. I don't want to go back."
"I'm the only one in my family, I want to be here, Li Rouqiu has nowhere to go and you still take her in, why can't I..."
The boy pressed his forehead against his waist, rubbing lightly, his eyes were a little stubborn and crazy, but also a little chaotic and confused.
He rubbed against it, as if feeling that the container in his heart was overflowing, filled with a feeling that he was unfamiliar with and that he had not named.
That emotion made him very painful, his heart needed a medicine, he instinctively felt that the medicine was on Xie Qingcheng's body, and Xie Qingcheng's breath could become his slow-release agent.
Let his heart not be twisted by invisible knives.
He closed his eyes and hugged Xie Qingcheng for a while, and suddenly noticed that Xie Qingcheng's body seemed to be shaking slightly.
When I touched it again, I felt the body temperature was a little hot.
He Yu suddenly raised his head from his waist: "Brother, do you have a fever?"
"Why are you so hot..."
"...It's okay." Xie Qingcheng took his arm and wanted to take his hand away.
He Yu refused to let go. He stared at Xie Qingcheng for a while—
"Are you sure that the medicine that can maintain your health can always be effective? Otherwise, how could your body be so bad, every now and then... "
"No normal person can stand your tossing like this." Xie Qingcheng said, "Let go of your hand."
He Yu's frown deepened: "And your eyesight is getting worse..."
Xie Qingcheng didn't want to hear him say these things.
The mentality of tabooing diseases and avoiding doctors is not only common to ordinary people. In fact, as long as they are sick, they are reluctant to face the diagnosis certificate full of problems.
Xie Qingcheng was somewhat stung by his question, and he used more strength in his hands to push him away.
"He Yu, medicine can prolong my life, but it doesn't mean that it can keep my physical strength at its peak. I will always cherish my body, as long as you don't provoke me."
He Yu silently turned his eyes from his face to the ashtray by the window sill behind.
There was too much soot in there.
He stared at Xie Qingcheng, and did not know where the deep resentment came from: "What do you call, love your body?"
"If you hadn't bothered me, I wouldn't have smoked so much today."
"… "
"You go."
"… "
"I want to be alone for a while."
The feeling in He Yu's heart seemed to suddenly grow into a giant beast that gnaws its teeth and sucks blood. From twitching in his chest little by little, it turned into sharp claws and tore at his internal organs.
He Yu said, "No, I want to take you to the hospital."
"I don't fucking want to go to the hospital!"
here we go again! How many times do you go to the hospital a year? It's all because I can't stand being slapped by a boy!
"Why don't you go to the hospital when you're sick?" But after He Yu asked, he felt unsure. After all, he was the eldest young master. "...Is the hospital open on the first day of the new year?"
Xie Qingcheng looked at him as if he wanted to do something, but was at a loss.
I suddenly felt very tired.
Still a child after all.
He sighed lowly: "That's it, He Yu."
"You go back first, and I'll take care of it myself." To the boy's eyes, Xie Qingcheng lied, "And the hospital is not open today."
"Then I'll get you in touch with my personal doctor—"
"You want to make our relationship known to everyone, don't you?"
He Yu paused.
Xie Qingcheng took his mobile phone, turned it off, and threw it to him.
"I beg you not to do this, if you really see me as one of your kind. Save me some face."
He doesn't quarrel with He Yu anymore, but when he doesn't quarrel, he seems to be farther away, as if he will disappear in front of He Yu's eyes in the next moment.
Even the soul has become very weak.
He Yu found that he was a little panicked.
Xie Qingcheng: "Go back. Let me invite you."
"But I—" He Yu turned pale, "you shouldn't..."
"There's nothing wrong. I'm an adult, thirteen years older than you. Do you think I can't take care of myself? I don't need you to teach me anything."
"… "
He Yu looked at Xie Qing's pale, weak, indifferent, strong, and distant appearance. In an instant, he was bitten by the evil beast in his chest, so he could hardly breathe.
what happened to him
He is...
"That's what happened yesterday."
"Why... Xie Qingcheng... Why? Are we not doing that well?"
"not good."
"But why..."
Xie Qing was quiet for a while: "Because I don't like you, and you don't like me either, He Yu. So that's wrong."
"Didn't you say that men should be responsible? Then let me tell you, responsibility means that in the future, we should only do such things with those we like."
"Otherwise it's torturing each other."
Suddenly.
Everything was quiet.
"Like" is two words in my ears.
The beast in the chest swallowed the heart.
The heartbeat stopped suddenly. The ears were empty, and nothing could be heard.
He Yu's last bit of blood faded from his face.
He raised his head suddenly, staring at Xie Qingcheng's eyes. It seems that I suddenly want to understand something, it seems that I suddenly want to touch the truth—
like…
- I don't like you, and you don't like me either.
In the future, we should only do this kind of thing with the people we like.
Otherwise, it is torture for each other...
The distant mountains seemed to tremble, the earth trembled, and He Yu's heart, which was swallowed by the evil beast, caused a shocking earthquake. His broken, sick heart became the source of the shock, and the huge shock spread to his whole body. The tip is doomed.
like
The giant beast seemed to be called out majestically by the god awakened in its heart, and the name was like a hoop, instantly tightening its fangs and claws.
"like."
The name hovered over and over again in his heart, and over and over again in the monster's ear, the monster narrowed his eyes with enjoyment, and responded to the two words in a low, unavoidable way.
Yes, it says.
I'll just call that name.
I am this feeling.
Do you understand... You... finally called my name in the landslide and found the key to tame me
The giant beast slowly spit out that stagnant heart.
After a few seconds—
"Bang Dong" sound.
The blood-stained heart started beating again.
One by one, faster and faster, more and more urgent, uneasy, mad, it became the sound of drums, which made his eyes red...
He Yu's face was very ugly.
In Xie Qingcheng's cross-examination, he suddenly noticed these behaviors that he acted instinctively, but never thought deeply about the motivation.
all of these…
All this love is deep, and the fingers are soft.
It's all entangled and unstoppable.
- Is it...
Is it all because you like it
He, he is... Do you like Xie Qingcheng? !