Xie Qingcheng did not expect that he would ask such a shocking answer. For a while, he was struck by lightning, buzzing in his head, as if something had cracked, and the waves and tides poured into his heart, filling him with something. Can't speak.
He Yuhe hugged him so tightly, like he was his eyes, his internal organs, his ribs, and his life.
He was shocked to the extreme, such a calm person, at this moment, his mind was completely blank, and he didn't know what to do at all.
To be honest, Xie Qingcheng has been confessed many times, and he has had many suitors since childhood, both men and women.
But most of the people liked his face, thought he was handsome, thought he was masculine, and wanted to play with him.
Expressing love to him so enthusiastically, even to the point of tears, in fact... In fact, Li Rouqiu is the only one...
Xie Qingcheng married Li Rouqiu back then, but most of it was worn out by Li Rouqiu's hard pursuit. At that time, his disease was completely controlled, he would not die prematurely, and he could live an ordinary life. He finally agreed. Try to socialize with her.
So it is not difficult to see that Xie Qingcheng is actually a person who is not very willing to hurt others' true feelings.
Back then, he couldn't say anything cruel to Li Rouqiu, who really pursued him, and even in the end he couldn't bear it anymore, and finally agreed to date her, and then she compromised step by step, to the point of getting married. Now, for He Yu, who hugged him so tightly and confessed to him, although he couldn't use such a way to deal with it, he absolutely couldn't say anything sarcastic.
Xie Qingcheng was just too surprised, so surprised that he stood there for a while, not knowing what to do.
After a while, he regained his senses and said with difficulty: "He Yu, ... let me release first."
"… "
"Let go of me first, and I'll talk later, no?"
Damn, it's actually a negotiated tone!
Vaguely do not know how to be nervous!
You must know that Xie Qingcheng's words to He Yu were never "fuck", or imperative, or a mockery like "you can come every 15 minutes".
Because he knew that He Yu was just messing around.
But now He Yu told him it was true and discussed his true love with him, which inevitably caused Xie Qingcheng, whose father was full of sex, to inexplicably give birth to a very strong guilt and responsibility, so he communicated with He Yu. At that time, he suddenly became cautious.
He Yu's chin rested on his shoulder, long eyelashes "hair" weeping and said: "No... Xie Qingcheng, laugh at me."
"… "
"You must be trying to laugh at me."
"… "
"Hurry up and laugh."
"...I can't laugh, please let me go."
He Yu was dull for a while, but there was a real grievance in his voice: "Do you want to ask me?"
Xie Qingcheng didn't know how to deal with it at all. He felt that He Yu was like a top-level glass work of art worth hundreds of millions of dollars that he would definitely not be able to pay for if he broke it. swing.
He considered his words for a while before saying to the glass, "... Now... Then I'll let it go, okay?"
After He Yu let him go without saying a word, Xie Qingcheng stared at him for a while, but felt embarrassed. He really didn't expect things to develop in this way.
"He Yu... Are you kidding me?"
"Does it look like I'm joking?"
"… "
Xie Qingcheng raised his hand and touched his forehead, as if he was having a hard time digesting this information.
He didn't laugh at He Yu, satirize He Yu, didn't disrespect him, and didn't scold him.
But his mind was broken.
He Yu likes him...
How the fuck does this happen
You know, with He Yu kissing him, hugging him, and having sex with him, he never thought about liking him.
Both of them are straight men, and they developed this kind of bed relationship. At the beginning, they had a revenge "sex". Later, although the revenge "sex" disappeared, Xie Qingcheng only thought that it was a little virgin's desire to stop after the early adopters. , love "fascinated" meaning "chaos".
Even if they both lost their heads on New Year's Eve and acted so enthusiastically, he was only afraid of the violent reaction in his body and felt very uneasy, thinking that if he continued to entangle with such a hot guy like Qing, he might be in some way. Lost control and fell with him.
Of course he knew that He Yu was in love, but he never thought it was true love.
Love and love are different.
One is for the body, the other is for the heart.
After all, He Yu is a young man who is still in his freshman year, so why can't he play? When I was on the top, I wished that all the stars were taken off and given to me, but when it was dull, I began to regret it, and I had to search for the so-called "true destiny" again. Enthusiasm comes and goes quickly. For him, falling in love is like playing a new and exciting game. If he succeeds, he will give up. Isn't that what Li Rouqiu was like back then
Therefore, talking with young people is "fuck", the light in his eyes and the words in his mouth, even if you have heard it, you can't take it seriously.
He Yu is always skin thirsty. If he wants to kiss him, he will think that He Yu is addicted to playing, and he doesn't bother to drag him any more. Anyway, the more you drag him, the more interesting it is. It's an ineffective struggle. As long as you don't make it to the end, it's up to him. If you don't respond, he might get tired of it soon.
But Xie Qingcheng did not expect that He Yu would not get tired of it.
Not only was He Yu not tired, but he cried so sadly, spoke so sincerely, did so much, and suppressed it for so long, and then under his "forced" question, he gave this answer that caught him off guard.
He said he loved him.
That's it.
Xie Qingcheng thought, what the hell should I do with this
Dr. Xie's mind was "chaotic", what was wrong with what he thought, but he didn't know how to face the sincerity He Yupin gave him.
As calm as Xie Qingcheng, when faced with such a thing, he actually panicked. He didn't move his face, but his heart was "chaotic", and he thought for a while at a rapid rate - suddenly, Doctor Xie, like a life-saving straw, found an answer in his mind that he thought was very correct - yes, it must be like this of.
After thinking of this possibility, he first breathed a sigh of relief, and then looked at He Yu seriously, just like seeing a doctor for this child, it was almost a standard psychological diagnosis and treatment posture: "This, He Yu Yu, in fact, I think... I must have misunderstood my feelings. Do you understand?"
He Yu: "… "
"Look." Xie Qingcheng said patiently, "I'm more than a year older. Dad is forty-one this year. There is not much difference in age between me and Dad. How can you like me?"
He Yu: "It's ten years older than me, yes, but it's also eight years younger than my dad. How can I get to where he is, there's not much difference."
"Eight is not the same as ten."
"Why is it different?"
"…None of them are over ten."
"But eight is only five years younger than ten."
Xie Qingcheng had a severe headache, why did this conversation suddenly become naive.
He didn't settle the first grade arithmetic problem with He Yu, but said, "He Yu, it's impossible to like me, you know? Be responsible for yourself, don't misunderstand your thoughts. Think about it carefully, you will like someone better than yourself. A woman ten years older? No, it's even more impossible to like a man. This age gap is completely counterintuitive. Even if I don't discuss seniority with my father, I am also an uncle and uncle. Do you think this is normal?"
He Yu shook his head.
But Xie Qingcheng didn't even breathe a sigh of relief, he said again: "But if it is, it's normal."
"… "
"If it is, I also like women, not to mention uncles and uncles, I also like fathers."
"..." This crazy thing is really outrageous.
Xie Qingcheng felt that he was just making trouble out of nowhere. That's how young people are, with a little bit of honey in their mouths, and dare to say anything bee.
After hearing He Yu's idea of love, he only felt that He Yu was even less reliable than Li Rouqiu.
Now he is even more certain that the boy is a "tide", he doesn't distinguish his emotions, he is crazy, his rationality disappears, and he is talking nonsense and talking nonsense.
He had to be patient with "sex", and in the tone of explaining 1+1=2, he said to this young man who couldn't understand his feelings: "First of all, listen, the case just now was called "ran"/lun, although I am not a pro Uncle and uncle, let alone father, but the assumption is wrong, so you shouldn't think like this."
He Yu looked at him from his loose forehead, his eyes seemed to be listening to Xie Qingcheng very seriously, but he also seemed to be mocking Xie Qingcheng very seriously, as if he was saying bitterly: " Look at what I guessed right, I really don't believe it."
Xie Qingcheng ignored the irritating eyes of the little cub. Since He Yu confessed to him so seriously, he will definitely reply to him seriously.
It was Professor Xie who continued to explain his 1+1=2: "Second, do you know what love is?"
The boy's eyelashes were still stained with tears from his confession, and he raised his head without thinking:
"I like it."
"..." Xie Qingcheng didn't dare to look into his eyes for a while. When the boy said this, the light in his eyes was so hot that it scalded him somewhat.
The man lowered his eyelids and was silent for a while before sighing: "This child..."
"Listen, love is responsibility, restraint, and family. He Yu, none of this could have happened between me."
He Yu vented such a strong feeling to Xie Qingcheng in one breath, and it was not uncomfortable anymore.
This allowed him to listen to Xie Qingcheng's words quietly and say:
"Hmm. I mean half a word."
Xie Qingcheng was stunned when he heard the words: "Do you mean it?"
"I mean, I also think that love is a responsibility, a constraint, and a family." He Yu said, "But Xie Qingcheng, let's not say one more thing."
"what?"
He Yuyuan wanted to answer directly, but suddenly thought about it, and changed his words: "I agree with this sentence, and what did I say?"
Xie Qingcheng frowned and thought for a while, and when he remembered it, he mechanically repeated He Yu's words: "I like it?"
He Yu burst into tears and laughed. Although the smile was bitter, he still laughed, which meant that he was having fun, and then he pressed his forehead against Xie Qingcheng's.
"Yes, me too."
"… "
"I would also like."
Only then did Xie Qingcheng realize that he was earning himself.
He Yu is not Li Rouqiu, he will not obediently listen to his teachings, he will not only refute him, but even set him up.
Xie Qingcheng was caught by him for a while.
He distanced himself from He Yu: "I'm talking seriously. What are you playing?"
"But I'm also serious." He Yu wiped away the tears he shed when he confessed, and now his heart was so calm that he couldn't shake it.
"… "
"I agree with responsibility, restraint, marriage. But what about 'I like'? What about 'I love'? Where is it?"
Xie Qingcheng: "!"
He Yu added: "I always despise me for being young, saying I'm only nineteen, but have I forgotten when I'm twenty? And why do I look down on me when I'm young and think I don't understand anything. I want to think about everything. It's wrong, like I don't even know if I like it or not. I'm not stupid."
"Xie Qingcheng, I know very well."
"The most important thing in love is that I like it. Without this sentence, it is nothing. You have to talk about responsibility first, otherwise what are you doing, are you giving love?" He Yu hit the nail on the head, " Being with Li Rouqiu is like this, it is wrong to not love her at all, because I feel guilty, I make do with someone I don't love, and in the end I hurt myself and her, and my marriage has become It's a volunteer activity, why do you still say that I don't understand love?"
These words undoubtedly hurt Xie Qingcheng.
Xie Qingcheng finally showed an extremely ugly face. He gritted his teeth and said, "This little bunny, what do you know—"
But He Yu looked at him.
A pair of almond eyes stared straight at him.
"I'm an adult now, Xie Qingcheng," he said.
"… "
"Have you noticed?"
"… "
"Yi always ridicules me, saying that in ancient times, I had not even reached the age of the weak crown, and I was a child in ancient times. Now, even in ancient times, I can marry and have children. I'm twenty years old."
"... a false calculation, the real calculation has not yet come."
He Yu stared at him with red eyes: "I think even if I am ten years old, I will still think I am a child."
Xie Qingcheng said: "...I don't talk about age anymore. But be clear, it's really impossible for me to like it."
He Yu said, "It's not me, how do you know if I really like it?"
If you are not a fish, how can you know the joy of a fish, and when you discuss the writings, you even have a debate on the machine.
Xie Qingcheng only felt that He Yu was 100,000 times more difficult than Li Rouqiu back then, and he didn't want to bring up the topic of "sex", so he could only explain it now: "He Yu, this is a kind of chick. Psychologically. I know very well that I am the first person to have a relationship."
He Yu: "… "
"Even though he told me that he had sex with a lot of people, I knew it was a lie. Because he didn't act like a person with any 'sex' experience."
He Yu's face couldn't hold back, so he moved aside.
Xie Qingcheng finally regained a sense of master control, his father's back was straightened a lot, and he said to the boy: "In this case, I would be wrong in my thinking, from the perspective of human nature. , I can understand."
"The desire of the body is not love, it is just a physiological response. Although it is not very appropriate, I can give an example - a person will watch a film, he must be interested in the "character" in the film, and even keen to watch a certain The performance of a certain actor - is this love? No, this is a very pure desire for 'sex'. It's just this feeling for me."
"...I didn't become Yui Hatano."
Xie Qingcheng: "Look, the instinctive reaction is that of an actress. Her own sexual orientation is normal, and she likes female "sex". I still remember that when I was in Hangzhou, a girl who pursued school failed. Bar."
This time it was He Yu's turn to have a headache: "I didn't understand my feelings at that time—"
Before he finished speaking, he knew he was wrong.
Sure enough, Xie Qingcheng immediately calmly said to him: "How can you confirm that you have figured out your own feelings now?"
"… "
"Only nineteen."
"twenty… "
Xie Qingcheng ignored him, stood up, put one hand in his pocket, raised the other hand, and poked He Yu on the forehead.
"Ah, I'm still young, don't waste time on the wrong person, don't misunderstand your own consciousness. You must understand that it's just a physical habitual 'sexual' desire for me, and a... Maybe something like making up for a father's love Desire for flaws. And with two men together, I feel like...it's wrong in itself."
He Yu: "The mistakes we made together are enough for us to be sentenced to death 18 times."
Xie Qingcheng: "Then don't be sentenced for the nineteenth time."
He Yu was silent, looking at him as if hurt.
Although Xie Qingcheng didn't laugh at him, didn't ridicule him, and even talked to him so earnestly to teach him to look back, but even such a reaction was frustrating.
"I can be sentenced to death for an unlimited number of times." He Yu said stubbornly, "Xie Qingcheng. If reincarnated, I would be willing to die 10,000 times 100 million times with him."
"As long as one of these times, you can believe that I am true love."
Xie Qingcheng: "…"
It's too outrageous, this is not the level of bee words with honey on the lips, how can a child be outrageous to this point.
Uncle thought—
It's really dying.
How the fuck is this disease treated