Xie Qing petitioned for leave and wanted to rest at home for two days.
He has been lying in bed almost all the time. No, the monitoring data of the machine has been set by him. Once the threshold value exceeds the safety limit for a long time, an alarm will be issued to tell him.
But the alarm never sounded - He Yu didn't want to disappoint Xie Qingcheng, so he tried his best to restrain himself and tried his best to prevent himself from getting sick.
In this way, on the afternoon of the second day, Xie Qingcheng woke up from a vague sleepy sleep and found a person sitting in front of him.
He thought Li Miaoqing, so he said to her: "Aunt Li, go with your business, I'm fine..."
"elder brother."
A soft call full of hurt and worry brought Xie Qingcheng back to his senses. He took a closer look and saw that the person sitting beside his bed was not Li Miaoqing, but Xie Xue.
"… "
He and Xie Xue have not gotten along well for a long time. Since Xie Xue and Wei Dongheng's relationship was made public, Xie Qingcheng has no good face to his sister. Xie Xue was still a little worried when facing him now, but because he was obviously ill, he couldn't help hanging up.
A mix of emotions crossed her face, making her expression even funny.
Xie Qingcheng: "...What are you doing back here? No class in the afternoon?"
"Aunt Li said that you are not feeling well, so I asked for leave to accompany you." Xie Xue helped Xie Qingcheng sit up and took a duck down pillow for him to lean against.
Xie Qingcheng had changed into clean clothes. The headlights were not turned on in the room, and the light was dim. Xie Xue could not see the hickey on Xie Qingcheng's skin.
She held his worriedly and whispered softly, "Brother, how are you, have you been to the hospital?"
Xie Qingcheng was originally in a bad mood, but after looking at her for a moment, he felt even worse, and Yu turned his face away without saying a word.
Xie Xue knew the interest and stopped asking.
She sat with Xie Qingcheng for a while, suddenly thought of something, and said, "Brother, wait a moment."
The little girl went to the table and fiddled with something. After a while, she went back and opened a can of yellow peaches.
"Look, when I was a child, I wasn't feeling well, so you coaxed me with this kind of canned food and asked me to obediently take the "medicine", and then I would have the yellow peach syrup to eat." Xie Xue scooped a spoonful and made it so sweet at first sight The fruit in it was handed to Xie Qingcheng, "I was coaxed by you. For a while, I thought it was the "medicine" from the Yellow Peach Canned Hospital, what else did I think about the "medicine" so delicious, I can take this kind of "medicine" when I'm sick So happy."
Xie Qingcheng took the spoon and ate two mouthfuls expressionlessly.
Then he finally spoke: "That's because you were not smart since you were a child, and you are easy to be deceived."
Xie Xue: "..."
"Grow up the same."
Xie Xue knew that he was talking about Wei Dongheng again, so it was a little difficult.
Xie Qingcheng slowly finished eating the canned yellow peach, and Xie Xue never said a word during this process.
He put the empty glass jar aside and regained some strength. At this time, he noticed that among the things that Xie Xue brought home, there were bird's nest, ginseng, propolis, cordyceps, and iron maple buckets. In short, eat all these supplements. Either dead or disabled.
It's too exaggerated. The gift-giving portrait has no medical knowledge at all. He just caught an opportunity to please, and he almost moved the entire "Medicine" Food National Medical Center to show his sincerity.
Xie Qingcheng was silent for a moment: "Wei Dongheng brought you here?"
Xie Xue hesitated and nodded.
Xie Qingcheng: "What about others?"
"He sent me here and left, he was afraid that you would see him angry..."
Xie Qingcheng snorted coldly: "Then Xiaobai 'Mao' is still afraid?"
Xie Xue's eyes showed a bit of hurt: "Brother, don't do this... I know, you are doing it for my own good. You are worried that I will be deceived, you are afraid that he will bully me, that he will not learn anything. I know that I was brought up when I was a child. I was afraid that I would bump into each other. I always hoped that I would be safe and smooth. That's why you are so wary of him."
Xie Qingcheng: "…"
Xie Xue: "I know it all."
"But... But sometimes, can you trust me a little bit?" Xie Xue whispered.
Because Xie Qingcheng was ill, Xu didn't have the strength to quarrel with her, and Xu Heyu's incident devastated him too much. Xie Qingcheng finally felt a little shaken in the depths of his heart, thinking that sometimes even the parties could not figure out the relationship, not to mention the bureaucrats. .
Anyway, this time, Xie Qing leaned on the pillow with a dull expression, but did not speak.
Seeing this, Xie Xue gathered up her courage and said, "Brother, I told you that I've been with Wei Dongheng for a year, and in Xu's eyes, this year is not a long time, but We both know that every day we don't see each other, we will miss each other. When he was in the northwest, I wrote Xu's letter, you know, he was not very fond of writing..."
Xie Qing had a cold face.
It seemed that he really wanted to evaluate Wei Dongheng for being ignorant.
Xie Xue took him by the way: "Wei Dongheng has never let his parents save him since he was a child. He played truant, bombed the street, played pranks... I know all these things. I used to hate him because he always bullied me. , I thought his eyes were very bad at the time. Until one Christmas in high school, when I came home from school, I saw him swimming around in the alley - I was very scared at that time, thinking he would see me again Pulled my braids, so I hid. Brother, do you know what I saw?"
"… "
"I saw him coming out of the convenience store with a pile of snacks and drinks. There were homeless Xu lying on both sides of the alley. He quietly put those things beside them while they were asleep, and then rode his bike quickly. He ran away, probably because he thought it was not cool to do good things, and he was afraid that his little brothers would find him. Even the man and the car fell to the side of the road."
Xie Xue fell into memory and couldn't help it.
"He staggered up on the ice, looked around nervously, stroked his hair, then pretended nothing happened, straddled the car again, and rode away."
"… "
"At that time, I felt that he might not be as bad as others say."
Seeing that Xie Qingcheng was willing to listen to her speech, Xie Xue slowly told him all the things that had been under pressure.
"Brother, you taught me when I was a child that you should see people with your own eyes, and don't completely trust other people's evaluations. I have watched Wei Dongheng for ten years. He is not an obedient and sensible person, but I can Sure, he is kind and responsible. In the past ten years, I have seen him send stray cats and dogs to pet rescue stations more than once, and beggars give food and drink, you know... He even faces the roadside Looking at a wild flower in bloom for a long time, and then stupid. He has a spirit that can find the weak and beautiful." Xie Xue said, "He just never wanted to let others know."
Xie Qingcheng raised his eyebrows: "Why doesn't he want others to know?"
"Because everyone scolded him, ridiculed him, compared him with He Yu, and when he contradicted him, the more he didn't want to be like He Yu, a noble son who was praised by everyone. He has a lot of self-esteem in his bones. It's a bit similar to He Yu." Xie Xue said, "After I met him, I asked him why he always let others see his bad side, but hid his kindness and softness, and he kept his face for a long time. He refused to say it, and I couldn't help but keep asking, so I shouted angrily, who wants to be like He Yu."
"He said that Wei Dongheng is just Wei Dongheng. Why do you want another He Yu? Could it be that a child can only be as good as He Yu, polite and cautious? He just doesn't want it."
"Actually, I have observed both of them. I know that Wei Dongheng's 'nature' is actually simpler than He Yu's. He wrote all the bad things on his face, but he was very soft inside."
Xie Qingcheng: "…"
"Brother, I really like Wei Dongheng."
Xie Qingcheng seemed to be very tired: "Do you like it?"
Xie Xue thought about it and said, "Irreplaceable."
Xie Qingcheng didn't expect her to say such an answer, so he shuddered abruptly and opened his eyes to look at her.
In the same words, He Yu said to himself - I like you, I want to be with you every minute and every second, you can't be replaced by anyone or anything.
Xie Xue said: "Brother, I have liked him for ten years. I know that I will never like another person in the future, as much as I like him."
Xie Qingcheng suddenly turned his face away.
"I have a diary with very interesting things written on it. I think you will get to know him better after reading it, if you wish..."
"Then I won't look at your privacy."
"… "
Xie Xueyu was silent for a while, and some dared not speak again, hesitating, and finally she said: "That's it, brother, if you really don't want to talk about it, I won't talk about it, I'll tell you the story, Talk, coax you to open, okay?"
She grabbed his shake, squatted on the edge of the bed with some discomfort, and looked up at him: "We haven't had a good chat for a long time. Brother, are you really mad at me?"
Xie Qing was quiet for a while, and finally said, "I'm not mad at you, I just blame you for being too aggressive."
"what?"
Xie Qing said: "You girl, if you want to contact him, you should learn to protect yourself, but you..."
He didn't continue, but Xie Xue froze for a moment, turned pale, and immediately flushed.
Xie Qingcheng coughed and hated that iron was not steel: "Do you think it's ridiculous to say you?"
Xie Xue knew that her and eldest brother's old-fashioned "sex" behavior was useless, and Li Ruoqiu complained to her, saying that when Xie Qingcheng was in love with her, he didn't even have a kiss with the master. It's so uninspiring, it's like doing some kind of work according to the "fuck" guide.
Xie Xue only said: "Speaking of this... Brother... In fact, there is one more thing that I have always wanted to tell you."
"what?"
Xie Xue hesitated again and did not write.
"..." Xie Qing said, "don't tell me, the two of you have already discussed getting married."
Xie Xue was stunned for a moment, and said in a daze: "How do you know?"
Xie Qingcheng froze for a long time, but his back was expressionless and his voice did not waver: "... go and bring me the cigarettes from the table."
Although Xie Xue didn't want Xie Qingcheng to smoke, how could she dare to say nothing to Xie Qingcheng under this pressure? Obediently, he brought Yan Xie Qingcheng.
Xie Qingcheng didn't even care whether Xie Xue was around or not. He lit a cigarette, smoked half a cigarette, and didn't speak.
The room was very silent, the light from the window flickered with the swing of the curtains, the light fell on Xie Xue's face, and Xie Qingcheng's rouge color did not disappear when he looked at that face.
Finally, Xie Qingcheng asked, "When did you have any thoughts?"
"He... He went to Northwest China for half a year..." Xie Xue stammered, "You know, his eldest brother is from a military family, but his personality is really not suitable for the army. His parents plan to slowly help him do business in the future, but At that point, they said they wanted him to go to the Northwest to exercise, and he agreed, with only one request..."
"What request?" Xie Qingcheng curled his knuckles and tapped the ash lightly.
Xie Xue's cheeks were already flushed: "He told his parents that he wanted to wait until he came back from training and graduated, so he would... marry me."
After she finished speaking, she buried her face lower immediately, as if afraid that Xie Qingcheng would directly smash the mug on the side of her head in the next moment and let her get out.
Unexpectedly, she waited for a long time, and there was nothing quiet.
After a long time, she heard a soft "click" sound, which seemed to be broken in the silent bedroom.
She smelled the faint smell of tobacco, Xie Qingcheng ran out of one cigarette, and smoked another.
"Brother..." Thanks for summoning up the courage, panicked, and raised his face in a daze, the right Xie Qingcheng was trapped in the thick green haze, and he couldn't see his face clearly.
Xie Qingcheng smoked the cigarette quietly, and did not look at Xie Xue. He leaned against the back of the bed, holding the cigarette end between his long fingers, his eyes seemed a little "blind", and he cast it in the center of the snow-white ceiling.
If he didn't speak, Xie Xue didn't dare to say another word, clutching her skirt and waiting tensely.
This cigarette is finished.
Xie Qingcheng dusted off the ash and threw the last cigarette butt in the ashtray next to him.
"Then what do you think?"
Xie Xue was stunned again.
She was ready to be scolded by Xie Qingcheng, but she didn't expect Xie Qingcheng to ask her like this.
The eldest brother of the Xie family has always been a dictator/dictator. He has Xie Xue's strong protection, but he never cares too much about her thoughts. So when he really asked Xie Xue "what do you think", Xie Xue's first reaction was unexpectedly, she couldn't respond.
"Since you have been frank with me today, let's talk about it all." After being extremely ashes, Xie Qing appeared to be calm, and he raised his peach blossom eyes to look at his sister, "What do you think? Marry him?"
"I… "
Xie Xue blushed as if she could drip blood, but there was an inexplicable light in her eyes. That kind of light is very familiar, Xie Qingcheng seems to have seen it somewhere, but can't remember it for a while.
"Brother... I really like him... I... "
"You know that marriage is no joke. It's not the same as you simply fall in love. It's a responsibility to another person, a kind of responsibility and contract. Do you think you are suitable for him?"
"… "
"I know you think he is kind and loyal. But after all, he is younger than you, and he is impetuous. He is famous for being capricious in life and doing things. You will be very tired when you are with him. Xie Xue. "
"He, he has changed a lot in these places... You don't know him..."
"Then do you know him again?" Xie Qingcheng coughed lightly, "You don't have to tell me that you have observed him for ten years - he went alone, not to mention that you only saw part of it."
"… "
"Do you know what his family plans for his life? Do you know what his plans are for his future? You just said that he wants to marry you after graduation, and then go into business. That business, thank you. Xue, that's not a school. How old are you?"
"twenty five."
"What about him?"
"… twenty-three."
"He's only twenty-three years old, and it's been ten years before your brother and I are as old as you are today. The letter you have in ten years can guarantee that he will always like you? A young and good-looking girl in the business field, to be in his place. You will also hang out with people in the entertainment industry, your own art school teacher, you know what the entertainment industry is like. There are temptations and conspiracies.”
"But he won't, he grew up—"
"He's only twenty-three this year, Xie Xue. When I was twenty-three, I never imagined that I would become like this today." Xie Qingcheng said here, and after a pause, he thought of He Yu-he was twenty-three years old. At that time, He Yu was only a ten-year-old child. Who would have thought such crazy things would happen between them later
"Xie Xue, Wei Dongheng's life has just begun, and things are uncertain."
Xie Qingcheng lit another cigarette and smoked, coughing slightly.
Before he could finish smoking, he put out the cigarette.
"Just take a step back and say, even if he really doesn't know what to do with him. With his status in the world, he can't be without hugs, socializing and socializing. Can you bear it?"
"He told me he wouldn't."
Xie Xue was very firm, and there was a certain light in his eyes. Xie Qing felt that the light was very familiar. He seemed to have seen it somewhere, but he couldn't remember it.
Xie Qing was quiet for a while, but when the big event reached this point, he would not be angry. He just asked very coldly: "There are many kind and loyal people in this world, Wei Dongheng is not the only one, what do you like about him?"
"I don't know, I like this kind of thing... It's just... It's hard to explain... I'm very happy when I see him. Just like him, I have a lot to say when we are together, and I miss him when we are apart."
"I have always been happy and safe with him. I don't think he will hurt me. The feeling of safety is the same as when I was with my brother and you."
"Brother... can you be white?"
Xie Qing was silent.
If Xie Xue told him these things for a year, he would not necessarily be white about her feelings.
But at this moment, when he listened to the things she described, there was a string in the depths that was gently touched - there was another person playing on this string, and only that person, Xie Qingcheng could never respond. of.
Xie Qingcheng was quiet for a while, and said, "Don't you regret it?"
"I'm not going to die."
"I don't regret it after asking you."
"If it really breaks my head, I don't regret it." Xie Xue said at the end, her voice trembled slightly.
Xie Qingcheng stopped answering the call.
He narrowed his eyes and opened his lips slightly through the lingering smoke, inexplicably, as if looking at Zhu Chengbi and seeing He Yu, who was holding him in tears on the day of the confession.
He suddenly remembered the light in Xie Xue's eyes, where did he see it.
When He Yu expressed his feelings to him, and finally told the love in him.
- "I'm going to bleed my head, and I want moths to chase the light... I don't think this is right, but I still love you."
"Because I'm really crazy, I fucking know the ending, and I have to go to the end in a black way. So embarrassed and bruised, I still want to hug you."
"I'm in the dust, but I still like the snow in the sky. What I'm doing is wrong, no you..."
"Love you is very painful, Xie Qingcheng, loving you is very painful, I can't... I know I want to let go, but I am still... I still love you day by day... "
Xie Qing felt that somewhere in his chest cavity seemed to collapse.
He closed his eyes slowly.
At this moment, he seemed to be very old.
"Xie Xue."
"elder brother."
"What if I insist on not."
"...I..." This time, the voice was trembling. Xie Xue was trembling slightly. She showed the pain and torture visible to the naked eye, "If you...you insist on..."
"I insist, what are you going to do?"
Xie Xue knelt down on his bed, almost collapsed, her eyes quickly filled with tears, after a long time, she choked: "...I...will listen to you. Because I love you. I love you the most. You brought me up, no one knows what you have suffered, and I don't even know there are many things. If you really don't like him, and you really insist that you don't want me to be with him, I will listen to you yours."
"But bro, I'll never be happy again."
"… "
Xie Qingcheng opened his eyes and didn't reply for a while.
He finally lowered his head and seemed to endure a certain emotion in his eyes that should not belong to him. He was very emotional.
Then he got up—he lay down with his clothes on, and getting out of bed was easy.
At that moment, he didn't want to stay in the house anymore. He felt very uncomfortable, and this "forced" space would only make him more unable to breathe.
"elder brother-"
When Xie Qingcheng walked to Xie Xue's side, he didn't lower his head or look back. He only stretched out the top of her hair with great strength, just like when she came back to him crying every time she encountered difficulties.
Xie Xue raised her head, but could not see Xie Qingcheng's face.
She only saw a tall silhouette of him, and then heard him say: "Then you go. ... You remember, you chose the road yourself, I hope you don't regret it."
"Brother..." Xie Xue trembled even more.
"But if you really regret it in the future, you will feel that you have made the wrong choice. Don't feel ashamed, it is the first time that people come to this world, and when they make a lot of choices, they have no experience and make choices for the first time. Wrong or right, no one can predict. If it is really wrong, just remember that as long as I am alive, you will still have a home anytime, anywhere."
"I will take care of you and be your backer until the day I die."
Tears welled up in Xie Xue's eyes. Why didn't she expect that she had always been afraid to tell Xie Qing about this matter. In her eyes, her eldest brother was strong and powerful, but he was one-of-a-kind, dictatorial and domineering.
Why didn't she expect that when she really digs her lungs and tells him her decision sincerely, he will give such an answer by himself.
She couldn't hold it any longer, and burst into tears, she got up, hugged Xie Qingcheng's waist, and pressed her cheek against his back. Tired of playing, injured, and tired, she went home...
Such a happy thing, Xie Xue actually burst into tears, saying that he would not let him go: "Brother! Brother..."
"Why are you crying?" Xie Qingcheng still didn't look back, who didn't know how he looked, his voice was still calm, "You have to grow up by yourself in the future, Xie Xue, although I will always help you, but..."
He didn't say any more.
At this point, he paused.
In the end, he patted Xie Xue's: "Let go, they are all grown ups, so shameless."
"shameless."
"release."
"I'm shameless."
"… "
"Brother, hug me, I love you so much."
"...You didn't fucking wake up?"
"I'm shameless."
"… "
The cold light in the room seemed to be softening in an instant, Xie Xue faintly came out of the window with a choked and a little sullen voice—
"Brother, I'm going to Wei Dongheng's house for dinner next week... What do you want me to wear... "
"The skirt can't be knee-length."
"... ah... why is this... "
The words gradually became dull and warm.
Room.
He Yu, who couldn't let go of Xie Qingcheng, was actually there all along.
He leaned against the cold wall, and after listening to the conversation in the back room, he straightened up, and before the siblings came out, he brushed off the dust on the wall, and walked away slowly by himself.