"Do you think the girl is happy?" Hu Ningning suddenly laughed and said, "Is she really happy?"
I saw a trace of sadness in Hu Ningning's eyes.
Hu Ningning took a deep breath and closed his eyes. After a while, as if exhaling the foul breath in his heart, Hu Ningning looked at the heavy rain that was still falling outside the window, and said: "Then I will tell you about a little girl story."
I shrugged and said, "All ears."
Hu Ningning spoke slowly; "It's this little girl. Since she was very young, her parents have to go out to work. At a young age, little girls are very clingy. She has used various methods Leaving her parents behind, she cries, she makes noise, but it doesn't help."
"They go out to work for you to have a good life," I said.
Hu Ningning pouted, nodded in agreement, and said, "Yes, I was too young at the time to understand the difficulties of my parents. If it were changed to now, then I would definitely understand. But my parents went out to work to earn money It’s normal to raise a family, and it’s also normal for children to need their parents to be by their side.”
"Who is wrong?" Hu Ningning stared at me and asked seriously.
I spread my hands and said: "No one is wrong, but life is like this, there are many little girls like you, but other little girls don't lie, don't bully others, don't know double-faced, let alone murder .”
Hu Ningning shook his head, showed a wicked smile, and said, "That's because those people are too stupid. Do you watch TV, brother?"
"TV?" I asked. "What's the matter?"
Hu Ningning said: "Then did you say on TV that life is like playing poker. Some people are born with a good hand of cards, and they can win no matter how they play. But some people are born with a bad hand of cards, just watch How did the card players play? You know, the difference between me and others is that I can play this bad hand well."
"Some people follow the rules and hold this bad card. They think this is their destiny, so they play along with this bad card. They don't expect to win, but they just hope that they don't lose completely. I am different from them. I've got a bad card in my hand, and I'm not happy with it."
A nine-year-old girl has no less understanding of life than some old people. And I don't understand how a nine-year-old girl came to this conclusion.
"What you want, you have to fight for it. No matter what means you use in the process, it doesn't matter. What matters is that you have it." Hu Ningning looked outside and said, "When I was young, my family Very poor, so poor that there is no TV at home, no radio, nothing.”
A nine-year-old girl said that when she was a child, I always felt that this was a bit weird.
But Hu Ningning continued: "Nothing, you don't understand the feeling of being laughed at by others. During the Chinese New Year, other people's families can eat dumplings, but my family can't. Because of what, because after giving birth to me, my mother gave birth A serious and serious illness will only recover when I am sensible."
"When I was sensible, I understood that all the money in the family was used for my mother's medical treatment. Fortunately, my mother recovered from the illness, but the family had no money. We used to have everything at home, but after I was born, there was nothing. Everyone is talking behind my back, saying that I am a disaster star, and fortune tellers say that my fate is bad, and something will happen in the future."
Hu Ningning smiled softly, as if telling a story about other people, without any feelings of her own: "When I was three years old, my mother also decided to go out to work and go to the city to find my father. Our family Owing a lot of money, my grandpa even planned to go out to work, but my father and mother stopped him."
"Children always want to go out to play. Do you know that the villagers look at me with gloating eyes? During the Chinese New Year, I can't even eat a dumpling. When I go out to visit the New Year, they say, you call us like a dog." I'll give you some meat."
I frowned and listened to Hu Ningning's own story.
"They give me meat, as long as I bark like a dog. They are not much older than me, but why do they know this? Their parents are right next to them, but they treat it as children's fights and don't care at all. I wanted to eat dumplings, I wanted to eat meat, so I learned how to bark like a dog, since I was five years old."
Hu Ningning said with a smile: "When I was five years old, the family's debts were finally paid off. The family began to improve, and my family could eat meat. But since then I understood that no matter what children do, Adults don’t care about it. It’s like those brothers and sisters let me learn how to bark like a dog and feed me like a puppy, they all think it’s a fight between children.”
"But the really interesting thing is that people say that girls need to be rich, otherwise they will easily do something because they can't resist the temptation. What they say is very reasonable, just to eat a piece of meat, I will Let's learn how to bark like a dog, what's next?"
It suddenly occurred to me that these adults talk about any child in the same way. What does a child know
Hu Ningning continued: "When I was five years old, I went to Dongxing City for the first time. Dongxing City is so big, you must know it. I don't understand why we are not so far away, but Dongxing City is so big. The city is so good, but our village is so bad. I ate KFC for the first time and it was delicious. Although I ate it many times later, it was far from as good as the first time. It was the worst I have ever eaten. Delicious food."
"Really?" I asked shyly.
Hu Ningning nodded, still without any emotion: "Yes, my mother told me, remember that this is the taste of KFC, and you will be the one who has eaten KFC in the future, no worse than other people in the village. In the future, you It can also be said that you came to Dongxing City to eat KFC."
As she said that, a firm light suddenly appeared in Hu Ningning's eyes, and she said: "I am five years old, and I firmly remember what my mother said. I have also eaten KFC. Those The more people look down on me, the more I want to be the best at everything.”
Hu Ningning snorted coldly: "When I was at home, I taught myself the first grade of elementary school. Fortunately, my family is getting better every day. So when I was five years old, I went to kindergarten. In kindergarten, I always take the first place in the exam. People in the village suddenly said that I will grow up to be a good seed who can be admitted to university, and that I am the only hope in the village."
Hu Ningning laughed loudly: "Is it interesting? They seem to have forgotten how they evaluated me a year ago. So you have to understand that because you are a child, no matter what you do, They won't care. As long as you have good academic performance, as long as you have the hope of being admitted to university, then they will all turn to you. "
"So your grades are very good, and you have always been number one." I said.
Hu Ningning shrugged: "If you want to play this bad hand well, it is not only useful to be smart, you have to work very hard to make others think you are a genius. I like watching TV, and TV can teach us a lot Smartness is mostly determined by genes, but if you want to become a person at the top of the pyramid, a little bit of intelligence and 200% hard work are enough to make yourself become that 20% person."
"As long as you pay attention, there is nothing you can't get. My family is doing well, but there are many people who are richer than me at school. I want to play with toys, I want to eat good food, I don't want to spend The family’s money, but I understand that learning how to bark is never the right way, so is it possible for these people to take the initiative to give me something?”
I stared at Hu Ningning: "So you start to use various means to get what you want?"
"Of course." Hu Ningning stood up and asked, "I will make friends if I can, but if they don't want to share, I will use some tricks."
"Like you started a group?" I asked.
Hu Ningning smiled and said: "It's very simple, the premise is that you know what they want. As long as you know what they want and slowly control them, that's a very simple thing."
"So you use these bullies to achieve what you want. They can help you solve the things you like and the people you hate. And even, you told Zhang Zijun and Hao Limin who bullied their children, they The reason why I believe you is because you know the inside story in detail, because those are what you let them do."
Hu Ningning looked at me with a mentally retarded look and said, "Even if I am not their boss, will they not bully others? Even if I don't, they will become good boys? I just use It’s just these cards, they are like this, how can I educate them well?”
"What kind of person to be is everyone's own choice. I can't control it. I just do whatever I see." Hu Ningning said.
"Are you afraid of being poor?" I looked at the nine-year-old girl and said slowly, "You are only nine years old, so what?"
"Nine years old?" Hu Ningning said, "Like you, in your twenties, you are still doing a job with a salary of only a few thousand dollars? Do you know how much the most expensive sports car in the world costs? Do you know how much you can eat authentic Western food once?" How much do you want, you don’t want it? You don’t want to eat it?”
"Then the rest of the people don't tell, what about Gu Hui?" I asked, "Why did you kill Gu Hui? Was it because you were afraid that Gu Hui would reveal your secret?"
"Do not."
Hu Ningning looked at me with a smile in the corner of his eyes.
"I'm just happy."