Ling Yi looked at Lin Si.
During the years he left, Lin Si has been sleeping, time has not left a trace on him, and it is still the same as in memory.
After the initial period when he couldn't control his emotions, he became a little dazed and didn't know what to say. He only held Lin Si's hand, and his fingers scratched Lin Si's palm uneasily through a transparent protective film.
Lance's hand was beautiful, with long, slender fingers and well-defined knuckles, the one he had liked since he was a child. When he was fine at that time, he liked to stick his palm on top of Lin Si's fingers, and Lin Si's fingers would always be longer than his own, but not now.
——He suddenly realized that he really didn't seem to be a child anymore. The things he liked to do when he was a teenager, being tired of Lin Si, or leaning in his arms, were all unspeakably awkward.
When he left Linsi, he wanted to get rid of the oppressive and inescapable state of being like Linsi's little pet, but now that he has really grown up, he doesn't know how to get along with Linsi, which makes him He panicked inside, eager to grab something, but he didn't know what it was.
Lin Si saw that he hadn't spoken for a long time, but was staring at his fingers, so he didn't do anything, and just let him hold his hand for a long time.
However, there is one thing that cannot be ignored.
Lynch withdrew his hand.
Ling Yi looked up at him.
There is a slight purple in the black pupils, and the eyes are neither joyful nor sad... There is a little daze in it, but it is not the naive daze of when I was a child, it looks like I have something on my mind.
This look was fleeting, and after a while, those eyes became clearer, Ling Yi tilted his head slightly, and asked him what's wrong.
Lin Sidao: "Why did you leave before?"
Ling Yi blinked, trying to avoid the question by pretending to be innocent.
Lin Si looked back blankly, his eyes made people feel creepy.
Ling Yi tried to get away with it: "I want to go out and play."
Lin Si's expression clearly said: Do you believe me
Ling Yi and Ai Ai: "Really."
Lin Si said lightly: "So you let me inhale an excessive amount of sleep spray, and then leave a word and run away from home, just to go out to play? I don't think I'm a person who is easy to deceive... You want me to consult a psychiatrist What was your motive at the time?"
I'm afraid I can't hide it.
Ling Yi lowered his eyes and organized his words... Anyway, he never kept anything from Lin Si.
"During the time before I left, I was very sad." He said.
Lin Si was slightly taken aback.
Ling Yi didn't wait for him to ask, and continued: "A lot of things happened, you may not know."
He raised his head and looked at Lin Si: "You didn't have a project during that time, but you were very busy. You came back late every day and wouldn't tell me what happened. I often... a little worried, but if you send a message, you will also It will be a long time before you get back to me."
During that time, Lin Si had the impression that there were indeed many things on the spaceship, and the crisis of the Berlin virus leak in the storage room, he really did not have a good conversation with Ling Yi.
"You were still young at that time, and many things were not good," he frowned, and said, "That's why I didn't say it, but you can ask me directly."
"No." Ling Yi shook his head, "I don't want to know what you're doing."
"Um?"
"At that time, I couldn't do anything on the spaceship. Even if I knew what you were busy with, there was no way to intervene. So I thought, if I grow up, and then have a higher status on the spaceship, yes No, I can also share some things, so that you don't have to work so hard." He smiled: "Or, a little more broadly, if I become a marshal one day, I can treat you well, and you can do it if you want to be limitless. You can do any project, you can unfreeze whoever you want to help you, and you won’t be deducted resources by the second district... that’s about it.”
Lin Si was really stunned this time.
As soon as Ling left, he thought of many reasons, but he never thought of this, not because he was young and rebellious, but because he wanted to get something—for himself.
"Thank you..." he said, "But do you have to leave?"
"Well, I think this is the fastest way." Ling Yi said earnestly, "I went out with the expeditioner, I had my own plan, and I would make many meritorious deeds. Then there was a virus, and there was something wrong with Lucia, I probably It can be regarded as a great achievement. After returning to the third district, there will be an award. The marshal doesn’t hate me, um... It is said that my father is still his old acquaintance, just like my mother and Mrs. Chen are good friends, so I As long as I can come back, back to the third district, I will not be an ordinary soldier."
He paused for a moment, then said, "Then, I can start walking up."
As Su Ting said, Ling Yi is not a person who makes decisions on impulse. He has his own decisions and is thoughtful.
—well, maybe he and the others would feel thoughtful, except Rins.
The decision to leave the Voyager will indeed bring a bright future to Ling Yi, provided that he can come back.
Although the matter was irreversible, and Ling Yi had indeed returned, he obviously did not return safely.
"It's my fault," Lin Si said to him, "We lacked communication during that time, you can tell me what you want to do, I will support you, and I will also tell you why I didn't care about you at that time, It’s not like you have to go on an expedition, you’ll grow up, and these things can take their time.”
"I don't want to wait anymore, I can't grow up by your side." Ling Yi whispered, "I feel bad, every day, I don't want you to wait anymore, I hope you can sleep for a short time, and then As soon as I open my eyes, I can protect you."
Lin Si didn't speak for a long time. In fact, he didn't know how to express it. He obviously had a lot to say, but in the end he only said, "What if you didn't come back?"
Planetary exploration is full of dangers, a virus can kill a person, Lucia may collapse completely, and there is no guarantee that the expedition will not crash.
"If I can't come back, I must have tried my best to protect myself and the expeditioners. It's the same for anyone who comes here. I won't regret it, although..." He unconsciously tightened the hand holding Lin Si , with a trembling voice, "I'm sorry..."
"It's okay," Lin Si looked at him, "It's not just you who can't leave me."
If Ling Yi was buried in Xinghai, then the moment before he lost consciousness, the pain caused by the permanent separation from Lin Si, and the loss when Lin Si woke up from a deep sleep and learned that Ling Yi would not come back, could not be related. Who gets more.
"I know," Ling Yi had red eyes, but after hearing this, he smiled again, "So I'm back."
he knows.
The reason why he was able to act like a baby with Lin Si unscrupulously was because he knew that Lin Si always loved him. He always knew that he was important. He knew that Lin Si would sleep more deeply at night when he was with him, and he would feel much better when he was teasing himself. Beneath the cold exterior, there is actually a very, very gentleness—the gentleness of tying a bow tie for oneself every day, the gentleness of adding sugar to one's own nutrition.
So he couldn't accept that he would never see Lin Si again, and likewise, he couldn't accept that Lin Si would never see himself again. This thought never disappeared, and made him struggle back from the brink of life and death many times, and finally returned to his hometown.
Lince: "But you're very sick."
"Aren't you a legendary wizard..." Ling Yi blinked, "So although it hurts, I think as long as I see you, it can be cured. I left a lot of samples, will it work?"
"Very useful," Lin Si said.
"That's good." There was a bright smile in Ling's eyes, as if the person who was tortured to the point of collapse was not him.
"Lance," he called out.
"Um?"
"I think… "
After thinking about it for a long time, there was nothing to say, and even Ling Yi himself didn't know what he wanted to express.
Finally, he said, "You sit down."
Lins didn't know what he wanted to do, but sat down anyway.
There was no chair in the temporary ward, so he could only sit by the bed with his back to Ling Yi.
The next moment, Ling Yi stretched out his hands from behind, encircling him, and then leaned close to him, burying his head on his shoulder.
Ling Yi finally found a comfortable position, squinted his eyes in satisfaction, and hugged Lin Si a little tighter.
There are indeed advantages to being a small one when it is a small one, but it is not that there is no way to do it when it grows up.
Lin Si felt Ling Yi's satisfaction, and his reading of Ling Yi's action language was always very accurate.
He relaxed his body and leaned against Ling Yi, he could clearly feel the heartbeat of the person behind him, and felt that there was something wrong with this overly intimate posture.
It can be seen that upon waking up, the small one suddenly becomes a big one. Although there is no major change in personality, it still takes some time to get used to it.
The author has something to say: Happy 520! candy~
This part mainly follows the emotional line~