“…”
His daughter is more than three months old, and he has just seen the photo for the first time. Better than her, she has never even seen Holy's photo or heard Holy's voice.
It's all about imagination.
"Did you draw Holy?"
Gong Ou asked, staring at the painting on the photo.
She drew Holy and Xiaokui so much that they looked more like sisters than brothers.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian lowered her eyes in silence. Every photo she took of Xiaokui would be painted with a picture next to it, depicting the presence of her son.
Occasionally looking at the photo from a distance, it feels like her twins have never been separated.
"You drew it wrong. Holy's eyes are not as big as Xiaokui's, they are slightly smaller, and the color of her eyebrows is a little heavier than Xiaokui's." Gong Ou said as he handed the photo to Shi Xiaonian, "You modify it and I'll tell you .”
Shi Xiaonian stared blankly at the photo in his hand, moved his lips, and said with some difficulty, "I don't want to listen."
Gong Ou stared at her, while Shi Xiaonian lowered her head and pinched the photo with both hands, her nails turned white, revealing her little emotion.
Only then did Gong Ou realize that she actually made a lot of little moves. She used this method to control her emotions.
Was it the same every time she met him before that
"You never asked me what Holy looks like." Gong Ou asked in a low voice.
"I do not want to know."
Shi Xiaonian said, her voice was jerky.
"Why?"
Gong Ou asked.
Shi Xiaonian closed her numb eyes and put the photo into her bag. She was silent for a long time before saying, "You don't know the mother's obsession with her child. You know too much. I'm afraid that I will rush to see him and take it away at all costs." he."
Holy.
The baby she had never even seen, she had done nothing for him.
She could do nothing but draw a little on the photo and pretend that he and Xiaokui had grown up together by her side. Even now that she had completely given up on him, what qualifications did she have to know what he looked like.
"Is it?"
Gong Ou looked at her and asked, suddenly changing the subject, "Shi Xiaonian, tell me, how have you been spending the past six months?"
Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian understood the real reason why he was caught in the rain last night. It was Xu Bingxin's words that hurt him.
"You don't have to worry about this, it's all over."
Shi Xiaonian lowered his head and said calmly, trying his best to speak calmly and turn it into something not worth mentioning.
"Now that it's over, what can't be said? Say it, I want to know."
Gong Ou asked in a deep voice. A gust of wind blew, and he coughed lightly. A pigeon pecked at the upper part of his shoe, but he remained indifferent.
cough.
He is still sick.
"Miyao, if you don't feel well, go back to the hospital. There are so many things waiting for you to do in NE. You can't collapse from exhaustion."
Shi Xiaonian said.
Because he was looking for her, he had been silent for more than half a year, and he could no longer waste his time for her like this.
"If you don't tell me, I won't leave."
Gong Ou is paranoid.
Shi Xiaonian pursed her lips and was silent for a moment before saying, "It's really nothing. It's just that my body was exhausted when I gave birth to twins. Look, I'm pretty good now."
The body is exhausted and still like this.
"What else?" Gong Ou asked.
"Gone."
"How did they treat you in the tower?" Gong Ou asked.
"They are very good to me. You also know that the Gong family wants the child in my belly, so even for the sake of the child, they will not do anything to me." Shi Xiaonian said lightly, "Charles He is also a good person and he always takes good care of me.”
Gong Ou stared at her with deep eyes, "I want to hear the truth. Cough."
Gong Ou coughs when the wind blows.
Shi Xiaonian felt uncomfortable listening to his coughing. She frowned tightly, closed her eyes, and finally said truthfully, "I haven't liked the feeling of being restrained since I was a child. At that time, you abandoned me and I was trapped in the palace." Being imprisoned in a high tower is painful enough in itself."
"Then what?"
Gong Ou asked, his thin lips pursed.
"Actually, when I was first imprisoned, I thought you would come to rescue me, but they always revealed to me, intentionally or unintentionally, how well you lived and how happy you and Mona lived." Shi Xiaonian smiled bitterly. He said, "It's my fault that my ears are soft. At that time, I believed you. So, I hate you more and more, and I hate you more and more every day."
“…”
Gong Ou listened to her voice and clenched his hands casually on his lap.
"Later, I knew there was no hope of escaping, so I accepted my fate. Then on the day of delivery, the Gong family deliberately sent me the news of your engagement and oath. For some reason, I gave birth ahead of schedule." Shi Xiaonian was the first. For the first time, he talked to Gong Ou about his experiences in the past six months.
"What about after returning to Xi's house?"
Gong Ou continued to ask. He actually wanted to know more details, but she softened deliberately.
He believed she had suffered more than that.
"After I gave birth in the UK, I was taken away by Qianchu overnight and brought to Italy. I was very weak. At first, Qianchu tried his best to hide that one of my children had been taken away, but I still knew." Shi Xiaonian said. , looking at the pigeons foraging on the lawn, said, "Since then, my health has become worse. But my family has taken good care of me, hired the best doctor and given me the best medicine, and I am recovering well now." Okay, I can continue to work.”
“…”
Gong Ou listened silently, staring at her with a pair of eyes, dark and deep, with a cold face.
He just kept looking at her.
Every time she was in poor health was caused by him, such as the severe fever at home, the premature birth in England, and the sadness of losing her child in Italy.
Every time, every time it's because of him.
After a while, Gong Ou said hoarsely, "It's right for you to hate me, and it's right for you to want to kill me."
He simply destroyed her whole being.
Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian said calmly, "Gong Ou, I don't hate you anymore, really. After going through so many things and saying so many things before, I still resent you a little in my heart. But now, I can clearly say Let me tell you, I don’t hate you anymore, Gong Ou, not at all.”
She didn't hate him, he had suffered a lot, and she couldn't bear to blame him anymore.
She only hoped that he would live a safe and healthy life in the future and that he would not have any more disasters because of her.
"There's no hate, and there's no love anymore, right?"
Gong Ou whispered, his voice was extremely hoarse, and there was a sense of sadness in the wind. .
He slowly became nothing more than a stranger's shadow in her life.
His voice made Shi Xiaonian's heart tremble.
Gong Ou sat there, put away his long legs, and said in a hoarse voice, "Next month, Mona and I will be truly engaged."
He stated one thing without any vehemence.
Shi Xiaonian raised her face, faced his deep gaze, and looked at him in astonishment.
Since their reunion, almost every time they met was bloody, and it was the first time they were so peaceful like today.
It was the first time that Gong Ou talked to her so calmly.
She couldn't figure out what he was thinking.
Seeing her silence, Gong Ou's eyes were full of disappointment, "Don't you have anything to say?"
"I… "
"It's better to say congratulations." Gong Ou interrupted her directly.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian bit her lip, not knowing what to say for a moment. She lowered her eyes, and Gong Ou's voice sounded above her head again, "Look into my eyes and answer me!"
His voice was hoarse and his tone was strong.
Shi Xiaonian raised her face and looked at him.
Her whole body was bathed in the sunshine, her small face was white and soft, and her eyes were black and white, especially clear, reflecting the sadness and gloom.
"Isn't following Mu Qianchu better than following me?"
Gong Ou looked down at her and asked.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him in shock, how could he ask her such a thing
"Is it happier to follow him than to follow me?" Gong Ou stared at her, "Answer me."
Shi Xiaonian's long eyelashes trembled slightly and she looked at Gong Ou blankly.
She could explain to anyone that her relationship with Mu Qianchu was innocent, but she couldn't explain it so clearly to him.
Because she heard a hint of compromise in his words.
How difficult it is to make a paranoid compromise.
"Answer me! Do you need to think about this question for so long?" Gong Ou stared at her and asked aggressively, his voice hoarse.
Shi Xiaonian sat there, her long hair flying gently in the breeze. After a long time, she whispered, "I dare not say how happy I can be with Qianchu, but it must be peaceful."
calm.
She just needed peace.
It's okay, she can't be hurt by him anymore.
"You showed affection to him when he rescued you from England."
Gong Ou said, not a question, he had already confirmed it.
In such a desperate and painful time, she hated him so much that she hated him, but Mu Qianchu rescued her. Such a huge contrast, of course she would be tempted.
Ah.
There were times when he couldn't compare to Mu Qianchu, and he, even in this matter, wanted to thank Mu Qianchu.
It was Mu Qianchu who took her out of the tower.
"I'm very grateful to him." Shi Xiaonian said ambiguously.
When Gong Ou heard these words, it sounded like a strong show of affection.
Gong Ou's face darkened, his upper and lower rows of teeth were grinding together, wanting to bite them into pieces, and his thin lips were pursed tightly.
"Shi Xiaonian, if I let you and Qianchu be together now, can I still win the last bit of gratitude from you?"
Gong Ou asked. It was extremely difficult for him to say this sentence, and his voice became hoarse from his throat.
No hate.
There is no love.
It’s nice to be a little grateful, isn’t it
“…”
Shi Xiaonian sat there in shock, looking at him in disbelief.
Her look turned into expectation in Gong Ou's eyes. Gong Ou curled his lips in a self-deprecating manner, and quickly stopped his smile. His black eyes stared at her, "Don't even think about it!"
"..." Shi Xiaonian couldn't adapt to his attitude today.
"Don't forget, we have a "Breakup Contract" and you can't fall in love until two years later!" Gong Ou glared at her.
Shi Xiaonian nodded, "I know."
"It's good to know!"
Gong Ou stared at her, stood up from the steps suddenly, and walked a few steps in place, as if he was extremely uncomfortable, and his steps were a little messy.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian lowered his head in silence.
Suddenly, Gong Ou's decisive voice sounded in the air, "Cook me another meal!" (To be continued)