Indifference, profit-seeking, and rule-abiding are all things she has seen in the Gong family before.
Gong Ou couldn't tell the difference between normal and abnormal. To him, normal was something far away from him. Therefore, he subconsciously regarded the epitome of those people as a normal standard.
Walker looked at her and couldn't help but smile when he saw her accepting his bold hypothesis, "That's great, Miss Xi, you didn't say I'm a lunatic."
This sounds ridiculous.
"You are my adoptive father's friend, of course I believe you." Shi Xiaonian said, his body getting chills inch by inch, "Please continue."
"This can explain why Mr. Gong didn't see you first after he returned to China. It's because he suppressed his feelings for you. He thinks that normal people's feelings are like this, and he thinks that he is a normal person like this."
Walker continued, "But when he ran to look at your paintings secretly, it was because he couldn't control himself. He missed you too much. He needed to see things and miss people, otherwise he would collapse."
“…”
Because I can't control it, because I need to see things and miss people.
Shi Xiaonian didn't dare to imagine what it felt like to be a person trying so hard to control something that he still couldn't control. Her fingers were even colder.
"Perhaps this is also the idea that Dr. Mona gave him." Walker said to her. "As for the behavior of being jealous of yourself, as you said, it is also an inhuman torture to him, because he He knows how much he suffered before he got over it, and he is still suffering without knowing it. When you show your nostalgia for the past, he will feel extremely frustrated, and he will have the idea of hating himself, and he will have a lot of negative emotions. .”
“…”
Shi Xiaonian sat there, covering her face with her hands, her lips trembling violently.
What has she done.
What did she say to Gong Ou during that time? She said she just loved that paranoid man. She said she missed the past, when she was simply an executioner, Lingchi Gong Ou's executioner.
She never thought about how much pain and torture he suffered in order to be reborn as he is now.
When Walker saw that, Xiao Nian agreed with his statement, and became more and more excited as he talked, "If all this is as I said, then Mr. Gong is the person with the most terrible restraint I have ever seen. I believe no one can be as restrained as he is." Transform yourself into a completely different character.”
A paranoid person turns into a person with terrible restraint. This process is definitely not something ordinary people can imagine.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian couldn't stand listening anymore.
"Miss Xi, you said that after the lights flickered and he was drunk, he returned to his previous appearance. I believe that is because something happened when the lights flickered that caused him extreme pain. It may also have something to do with you. The pain was like being controlled by alcohol. He couldn't control himself, so he vented it out," Walker said, "but after venting, he regretted it."
"It's all my fault." Shi Xiaonian said with a trembling voice, low to the point of hoarseness, "I know he loves me so much, but I don't know what I was doing some time ago."
Only now did she realize that after he returned, every time she made trouble was a torture to him, and what she had done.
Seeing that Xiao Nian was sad, Walker hurriedly persuaded her gently, "Miss Xi, don't be like this. You have done a good job. At least after you proposed to him, you found that he occasionally had shadows of the past. You Do you know what this means?"
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him blankly.
"This means that you have fully accepted his two changes. With him, he won't be so tired, so his restraint will be relaxed accordingly, which is a good thing." Walker comforted her.
"is that so?"
Shi Xiaonian asked, so she made the right decision at the last minute, right? She didn't continue to torture Lingchi Gongou like crazy, did she
"Miss Xi, don't be so sad," Walker said, asking gently, "What are your thoughts next?"
"I want to kill Mona."
Shi Xiaonian spoke out with trembling lips, hatred bursting out of her eyes.
She has never hated Mona as much as she does now. She hates herself even more. She has been Mona's accomplice all the way.
It was she who insisted that Gong Ou go to see Mona, which made Gong Ou insist that only Mona could cure him. Four years later, she and Gong Ou had an endless quarrel, which increased Gong Ou's pain.
Hearing her speak like this, Walker was startled and said quickly, "Miss Xi, you must not have such thoughts. I said, these are just a hypothesis that I analyzed. Maybe this is really just a treat."
"I understand that in the psychological field it all depends on personal analysis and personal belief." Shi Xiaonian looked at him and said slowly, "But I trust your judgment, Doctor Walker."
Because she always felt weird.
But she didn't understand until now.
"I'm glad you believe me."
Walker said.
"Then please come with me to see Gong Ou, tell him these words, and don't let him hold on any longer." Shi Xiaonian said and stood up.
Hearing this, Walker shook his head, "I'm afraid this won't work, Miss Xi. Mr. Gong is an arrogant person. He now firmly believes that he is a normal person. He even thinks that normal people should suffer like this. Suddenly tell him at this time, He was tricked, and I'm afraid he won't be able to bear it, and something more difficult to predict will happen."
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him blankly, "Is there no other way?"
Should Gong Ou continue to be so restrained? too tired.
"Let nature take its course, Miss Xi. Isn't Mr. Gong's condition getting better now?" Walker looked at her and said, "I heard Feng De also mentioned something about you. Your love is so shocking. I believe it can... You are the only one who can really help Mr. Gong."
She was alone.
But she was the only one who turned Gong Ou into what he is now.
Shi Xiaonian didn't know how she left the club. She walked out step by step, opened the car door, and sat in the car, looking forward with dull eyes like a zombie.
For a long time, she leaned on the steering wheel and cried bitterly. She kept hitting her car with her hands, feeling full of regret.
She should have noticed it long ago.
She should have noticed when the lights flickered in Beibu Bay. He had not changed at all, and he had not been cured at all. She should have noticed it at that time.
Why so late, why so late!
Xi Xiaonian, why are you so stupid? Why did you become Mona's accomplice to hurt the man you love the most!
"sorry Sorry."
Shi Xiaonian cried bitterly, tears of regret kept flowing down her face.
…
When Shi Xiaonian arrived at Gong Ou Company, it was already three hours later.
Gong Ou is in a meeting.
This is a glass conference room. Shi Xiaonian stood outside and saw what was going on inside. Gong Ou was sitting there, looking at everyone coldly with his black eyes, listening to the reports of his subordinates, and touching his own with one hand. Sleeves, rubbing cufflinks.
The small gesture of touching the cufflinks is probably because I can't restrain myself and use this to express my longing.
But she never saw it clearly.
She foolishly became Mona's tool and a tool to hurt Gong Ou.
Shi Xiaonian lowered her head and looked at the pile of documents in her arms. This was what she did after taking over Feng De's job. Now that she thinks about it, with Gong Ou's brain circuit, she is probably thinking that normal people don't have so many When they are stuck with each other, using her identity as a housekeeper, she can stand beside him legitimately.
Only he can think of a way to do this with such low emotional intelligence.
Shi Xiaonian lowered his head, blinked his sore eyes, turned around and left holding the document.
She walked into the president's office, entered the drawer password, opened the drawer, put the medical records back, and closed the drawer again.
Gong Ou hasn't noticed that she took away the medical records, otherwise he would have scolded her.
The door was pushed open from the outside.
Gong Ou walked in from the outside, closed the door, and walked towards him along the floor-to-ceiling windows, with a pair of cold black eyes and a cold voice, "Three hours, you are three hours late. As a housekeeper, being late is the most serious taboo. "
Shi Xiaonian was sitting at his desk. Hearing this, he turned his head and looked at him, looking at this face that he was very familiar with.
Why was she so stupid? Why couldn't she realize that there was another meaning behind her words before? It was that he had waited for her for three hours. Because he cared, he would remember how late she was.
Gong Ou's eyes fell on her eyes, which were red and swollen from crying. His eyes froze for a moment, his brows were slightly twisted, and his tone was colder, "You are late and still shed tears, and you are so busy with the housekeeper's business." Are you scared? You are not good at being a rich wife."
Shi Xiaonian was sitting there. He was standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window. The sunlight slanted down on him, coating his whole body with a layer of illusory gold.
"I suspect that this Dr. Mona was not treating Mr. Gong for paranoid personality disorder, but forcing him to practice restraint for nearly four years."
Dr. Walker's voice echoed in her ears.
Shi Xiaonian's tears suddenly fell down.
“…”
Gong Ou's tall body froze in the sunlight.
"I don't want to be the wife of a wealthy family, I just want to be Gong Ou's wife."
Shi Xiaonian said with tears.
“…”
Gong Ou's eyes moved slightly, and a hint of discomfort flashed away, "Are you afraid that I won't let you be Mrs. Gong, and you will cry? Don't worry, I have no special reason not to marry you, unless you really have to take on the task of being a housekeeper. Finished badly.”
Being late once or twice is understandable.
Shi Xiaonian looked at him, her tears still flowing down uncontrollably and she couldn't hold them back at all. She stood up and forced a smile, "Then you come over and sign, I will do my job as a housekeeper, as you said , give me ten days and marry me.”
Only now did she understand that the ten days he mentioned were just a reason to get married. Perhaps, he had been so twisted that he didn't know how to talk about getting married, which was normal behavior.
"Um."
Seeing her crying like this, Gong Ou became a little less indifferent. He walked over and sat down on the chair.
Shi Xiaonian shed tears while giving him a pen. Gong Ou looked at her coldly, "Can you stop crying?" (To be continued)