Hearing this, Luo Qi nodded and said sadly, "Yes, it's this that has prevented me from truly giving up on him for decades."
“…”
"If he hates me and has other women, I will give up. But he is cold to me, and even colder and harsher to others. I always hope that I am different from others, and I have many extravagant hopes. Ten years." Luo Qi raised his eyes and looked at Shi Xiaonian's calm face, "Women are just so suspicious and delusional, right?"
"yes."
Shi Xiaonian nodded in agreement. She had all kinds of suspicions about Gong Ou.
When Xiao Nian finished speaking, both of them were silent. Luo Qi sat there, no longer anxious to go to the engagement ceremony.
After a while, she looked at Shi Xiaonian and asked with some disbelief, "Are you serious about cultivating that soil and those flowers specially for me?"
After decades, Luo Qi couldn't accept that Gong Jue ever cared about her.
"Otherwise, I can't think of any other reasons." Shi Xiaonian said, looking at Luo Qi with clear eyes, "I believe that if you think about it carefully, there are many things that fathers do for mothers, but they may have been ignored."
Hearing this, Luo Qi suddenly became nervous as he sat there, "There are more, right?"
She was like a woman who had just entered love, confused, disbelieving, inferior, and eagerly looking forward to it.
Shi Xiaonian felt a little guilty for deceiving such a woman, but she still said, "Well, just like this flower, if I hadn't asked someone about it, I wouldn't have known it was so difficult to grow. My father made it for you." Don’t say more than a few words about the matter.”
"Then did you see anything else from the log?"
Luo Qi asked, looking at Shi Xiaonian with such expectant eyes.
Shi Xiaonian shook his head, "The diary only records your activities. I can't tell much about it, but I think my father has great ambitions in his life. Apart from the Gong family, he must not be able to leave you either."
“…”
Luo Qi's eyes dimmed.
"Didn't father leave anything for you when he went?" Shi Xiaonian asked.
"Just a Gong family, a substitute, as you have seen." Luo Qi smiled bitterly, "Besides these, he left me nothing."
"Really?" Shi Xiaonian responded lightly, "I thought someone with such a temper as my father would leave something for you silently."
"No." Luo Qi shook his head. "He was already extremely ill when he left. Apart from me, there was only his favorite watch and nothing else."
So how could she not complain, but no matter how much she complained about the man, she had gone through all the hard work to marry her.
"Is it the watch my father is wearing?" Shi Xiaonian asked, "Why does my father like that watch so much? Was it a gift from my mother?"
"It's true that I bought it, but he liked it because the watch has collectible value, it also has a date, and the time is extremely accurate."
Luo Qi said.
Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian smiled lightly.
"Why are you laughing?" Luo Qi asked.
"I remembered that Gong Ou is a very duplicitous person. Every time he said that one of the things I bought was bad, this one was bad, but he liked it so much that he always carried it with him." Shi Xiaonian said without saying too much. clear.
Luo Qi is a smart woman. If she speaks too plainly, it will arouse suspicion. As long as she speaks half of it, she will be tempted to think about it.
This is what Gong Ou taught her.
But Shi Xiaonian didn't know if he could succeed, so he could only wait secretly.
As expected, Luo Qi was stunned for a while after hearing her words, then stood up and left suddenly. Shi Xiaonian pretended to look at her in shock, "Mom, where are you going?"
Luo Qi stopped, turned to look at her, and said, "You also come with me."
"good."
Shi Xiaonian followed.
Luo Qi walked all the way to Gong Jue's study, opened the bookshelf and walked inside. The air-conditioning inside still made Shi Xiaonian shrink back unconsciously.
Luo Qi hurriedly walked into the partition door, pressed the button, opened the glass coffin lid, reached out and took off the watch from Gong Jue's hand.
"What are you doing?"
Shi Xiaonian asked pretending to be puzzled.
"My husband has been wearing this watch for a long time, and it has become a symbol of him. Even if the stand-in has plastic surgery, it doesn't look too similar, so it is easy to tell. So I asked the stand-in to wear the watch and turn sideways when meeting people close to him. Or if you turn around, you won't be easily recognized," Luo Qi said.
"So that's it."
No wonder the substitute saw her wearing a watch last time. She probably thought she was someone close to Gong Jue and knew about the watch, so she hurriedly took it off Gong Jue's hand. That's why the watch was so cold.
Luo Qi put the cold watch in his hand and looked at it carefully. After looking at it for a long time, he said with some disappointment, "I don't think there will be any words left."
She was somewhat self-deprecating.
Any woman who falls in love with a character like Gong Jue will become extremely unsure of herself.
Shi Xiaonian stood beside Luo Qi, stretched out his hand and took the watch from her hand.
Luo Qi let her take it and looked at Shi Xiaonian with eyes full of expectation and trust. Shi Xiaonian knew that he was deceiving someone who had been looking forward to feelings for decades, and guilt spread in his heart.
She avoided Luo Qi's gaze, pretended to look at the watch in her hand, and said, "Yes, this watch doesn't have any mechanism. Hey, what do the numbers on the back of this watch mean in English?"
Hearing this, Luo Qi took a look and said with some disappointment, "It was engraved on it when I bought it. It was engraved with our initials and date."
"That's it." Shi Xiaonian chuckled and said, "I thought it was some kind of library sequence number."
"library?"
"Yes, when I went to the library to read books, the arrangement was like this." Shi Xiaonian said, "The front is the category, and the back is the vertical and horizontal bookshelf serial number, which row is which book."
"Arrange the serial number?" Luo Qi's eyes were shocked, and he looked at her blankly, then took the initiative to pull her out, took her out of the room, walked to the study room in front, closed the bookshelf, and said, "My husband He often stayed in this study when he returned home, and it has not been touched since his death."
“…”
"Come on, Xiaonian, you know the layout of the library. See if you can find any books from this sequence of numbers." Luo Qi said, placing all his hopes on Shi Xiaonian.
"good."
Shi Xiaonian nodded, biting her lip, lowered her head to look at the cold watch in her hand, and pretended to search according to the English and numbers on it, "This English letter should represent this area, the letters can match it." .”
In the huge and ancient study, Luo Qi looked at Shi Xiaonian nervously, followed her, and asked, "What next?"
"This number classification is different from what I saw in the library. Maybe it's a different classification method." Shi Xiaonian said lightly, running his fingers across the rows of books, looking for the top row of books, and then pointed to a row of books. After arranging the codes, he shook his head and said, "Mom, I don't know anymore, but according to the library's arrangement method, it should be one of these books."
Hearing this, Luo Qi quickly stood on tiptoes and took down all the books and put them on the desk.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian felt a little uncomfortable looking at her anxious look.
Luo Qi stood there and quickly flipped through the books. Shi Xiaonian also walked over to help flip through the books, and his eyes fell on the pile of books.
That book is in Luo Qi's hand.
Soon, Luo Qi picked up the book and opened it, and a piece of yellowed paper fell from it. Luo Qi froze there, staring blankly at the folded paper.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian stood there silently.
Luo Qi's exquisite makeup couldn't block her paleness. She raised her hand but retracted it, not having the courage to open it, "Xiao Nian, take a look first."
"Mother?"
"You look first."
Luo Qi said again, turning his face again, with water shining in his eyes, trying his best to control his demeanor.
"Okay." Shi Xiaonian took a deep breath, reached for the paper, opened it, and looked down at the writing on it. Every word on it was thought out by her and Gong Ou together. She thought about the content, and Gong Ou decided. The tone and method were finally written by a master of copying.
This is a huge deception.
Shi Xiaonian glanced at Luo Qi, and then slowly read out, "Qi, I'm sick. I didn't expect that I would suffer from such a disease at such a young age. How should you deal with it? How should you deal with the future of the Gong family? Gong Ou You are arbitrary and have all your talents but refuse to use them to the Gong family. If the Gong family loses after me, how will you deal with yourself? If you don’t have a strong family to protect you, how can you be worthy of your disregard for everything? Marry me."
“…”
Luo Qi stood nearby and listened, covering her face with her hands, tears streaming down her face.
Shi Xiaonian paused and continued to read, "No matter what, I must arrange everything for you before I die so that you will not be looked down upon by others. This family must also be glorious, so that you can always have a good reputation among the nobles." A place for one.”
“…”
Luo Qi sat down in front of the bookshelf, already crying.
"It's over." Shi Xiaonian looked down at her and said, "Mother, this doesn't seem like my last words to you, it's just my father's temporary emotion."
Luo Qi took the paper, her fingers trembled, and she lowered her eyes to look at the handwriting on it. It was Gong Jue's handwriting, but the handwriting was messy and rapid, "This should have been written when he first got sick. He has always been calm, even when facing a terminal illness. It turns out that he was also in a state of confusion, but I didn’t even notice it, and I never noticed it.”
Luo Qi spoke a little incoherently.
"Mother, don't do this. Father will be sad when he sees it."
Shi Xiaonian said calmly, feeling tortured by his own deception.
"I always thought he didn't have me in his heart, only the Gong family." Luo Qi said with tears, without caring about his image, he pulled Shi Xiaonian and said, "But you see, when he was sick, he was thinking of me. He thinks that only by shining brightly on the Gong family can I live a better life. It turns out that’s what he thinks.”
she does not know.
She never knew that her husband was so confused when he was ill and that he was always thinking about her future life. (To be continued)