He had never liked the smell of paint since he was a child, and besides, there was no way he could just paint a big witch.
But it was too late, the deep red paint had already been sprayed on Mu Qianchu's hair.
"Qianchu..."
Shi Xiaonian frowned, and without much thought, she reached out and wiped the red on his hair, but did not wipe off the paint on his head. She continued to wipe it unwillingly.
Mu Qianchu blocked her hand. Shi Xiaonian was stubborn, and so was he.
The two of them were arguing like this. Suddenly, Mu Qianchu stopped moving. Shi Xiaonian stood on tiptoe and wiped his hair, trying to prevent the strong-smelling paint from being wiped off.
Mu Qianchu didn't like this smell since he was a child, but now he was standing there smelling it without even covering his nose.
The wall behind him was covered with graffiti. It was not a blank wall at all. He wanted so much to remember the content on every wall here and to enlighten her.
Shi Xiaonian looked at the color that couldn't be wiped off his hair, slowly lowered his hand, and said bitterly, "Maybe I should have had a good chat with you from the beginning."
After that, she closed herself off and was not willing to talk to Mu Qianchu anymore. But in fact, Mu Qianchu understood her better than the psychiatrist. Maybe if we talked earlier, she would not be like this.
As soon as she finished speaking, Mu Qianchu suddenly rushed towards her and hugged her.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian was stunned, with her eyes open in a daze, standing there stiffly, her hands hanging in the air, and she forgot to push him away for a moment.
Mu Qianchu hugged her tightly without saying a word, putting his hands on her back and hugging her tighter and tighter.
She didn't know why Mu Qianchu hugged her, and she couldn't ask.
At night, fireflies were flying between the broken walls. Maybe they had lost their way and forgot how to get out.
The night is as cool as water and the wind blows softly.
I don't know when Mu Qianchu let go of her, and the two sat down on the grass in front of the broken wall, as if this hug had never existed.
"What happened to the Hill Tribe before has reached the edge of my ability to bear it. In that place, my nerves were tense every hour, and my life was worse than death. I finally thought I was saved, but when I woke up here, I understood everything. It was all Gong Ou's fault, and I realized that all the things he did to me before were just to allow me to safely spend the next period of time alone."
Shi Xiaonian leaned against the broken wall and whispered, "I admit that I was hit hard by this incident and cast a deep shadow, especially after knowing that both children are not doing well."
This is the first time since arriving here that Shi Xiaonian has completely revealed her heart to others. In the past, she had held back a little bit this way and a little bit that way, unable to fully confess herself.
"You should talk to someone." Mu Qianchu said. He knew that he was not the best candidate, but Gong Ou left Luo Lie to her.
Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian smiled bitterly, "Who am I looking for?"
Who could she find in this place
"Doctor Luo."
"I know he is a very good doctor, and he can consider the problem from my perspective. He thinks it is Gong Ou's problem, but every time he mentions Gong Ou's problem, I don't want to listen." Shi Xiaonian laughed at herself. , "I feel strange about the contradiction, right? Maybe when Gong Ou appeared here, I would scold him severely, but when he was not here, I wanted to hate him for being self-righteous and domineering, but I didn't want to listen to what others said about him. "
She loves Gong Ou, and she knows that Gong Ou is even more paranoid and crazy about her, so she can't blame and hate her.
"So it's like you're going around in a maze and can't find the right exit." Then she attributed all the problems to herself.
"Then I couldn't get out." A gust of cool wind blew, and Shi Xiaonian leaned against the cold wall and whispered, "Actually, I just watched myself become like this."
She was sober as she watched herself reach this point today.
Mu Qianchu listened with distress on his face, "Xiao Nian, you have encountered many, many things since you were a child. If you completely give up on yourself this time, the person you are most sorry for is yourself."
“…”
Shi Xiaonian's heart was shocked.
"I'm sorry for the self who knew how to use painting to relieve negative emotions since childhood. I'm sorry for the self who couldn't break down no matter how much he went through." Mu Qianchu's voice was gentle, "If you completely give up on yourself now, it's equivalent to giving up on the person you were in the past. The worst possible ending."
She lowered her eyes, "I know I shouldn't be hateful, cowardly, or let myself become like this. I should be good and send Miyao off properly, take care of the child, give birth to the baby, and be more mature, but I I can't control myself. Qianchu, I have long lost confidence in myself."
She no longer knows what confidence is.
"You will have confidence. You have not broken down after severing ties with the Shi family. You have not been broken down after being forgotten by me for six years. You have not been broken down even after being loved by a paranoid like Gong Ou. You have also found your own happiness from it. In this way How come you don't have confidence? You just gave up thinking." Mu Qianchu said, "You shouldn't be like this, this is not the Shi Xiaonian I know."
Shi Xiaonian sat on the grass and looked at Mu Qianchu blankly. For some reason, every word Mu Qianchu said touched her heart.
He mentioned it over and over again, and then she thought that she had been brave before, and she had lived desperately.
"But what else can I think about? What else can I do? Gong Ou will think about it for me. If I think too much, it will only hinder his plan." Shi Xiaonian lowered his eyes and walked into the grass with a humble tone.
If you do too much, you will harm others.
After finishing her words, Mu Qianchu suddenly faced her and "looked" at her, "Of course you can do something. Did you hear the sound of the cannon? It is very likely that Lancais is testing our specific location. We We have to come up with a plan.”
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him in astonishment, wondering what she meant by this.
"Now that Gong Ou is gone, I am not Gong Ou. I don't have his decisive killing power. I need someone to discuss with me and decide what to do together." Mu Qianchu looked at her and asked in the most serious manner, "Xiao Nian, are you willing?"
“…”
Shi Xiaonian was stunned. She didn't expect Mu Qianchu to say this to her. She couldn't answer, but subconsciously wanted to escape.
"The history of the Hill tribe will not repeat itself. I will not let all your hard work turn into a premeditated futile effort. The children are yours, and you should bravely stand up and take responsibility for them." Mu Qian saw her for the first time. He continued without saying anything, trying to inspire her weak hope.
Shi Xiaonian still sat there in silence. Mu Qianchu's tone became more and more insistent, which made her panic. Her eyes flickered uneasily, and she stood up and wanted to run.
Mu Qianchu listened to the voice, grabbed her wrist accurately, and said anxiously and loudly, "Xiao Nian, I promise you that I will never let the people around you leave you again!"
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him in shock.
"I can't guarantee that everyone will not be hurt, but I can guarantee that no one will leave you, and you will never watch the people around you die again!" Mu Qianchu grabbed her hand and stood up, her voice hoarse. , "If this is the case, can you cheer up and really face the future?"
She was just afraid that she would cause trouble to others again, and he would cut off her fear. As long as she got through the sound of gunfire, she would definitely be able to regain her confidence.
Everything will be fine.
"How can you guarantee that?"
Shi Xiaonian asked blankly.
"Use all the guilt I feel towards you to guarantee it." Mu Qianchu said decisively.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him stupidly. The Mu Qianchu in front of her was different from the Mu Qianchu she had known at every stage.
"Try it, be brave for yourself and your children, think again, and do something again." Mu Qianchu persuaded her, "Believe me, it won't be useless, and it won't only hurt others."
When Xiaonian stood in the night, a firefly stopped at the corner of her clothes.
Every word Mu Qianchu said was madly confusing her, trying desperately to say that she was useful and not useless.
But soon, the spark that Shi Xiaonian had ignited was poured down by cold water. She looked down at her swollen belly, and crazy guilt hit her, "It's too late, Qianchu, it's too late."
She has harmed the child in her belly.
How could she come out? Her coming out would be a betrayal of Little Pumpkin.
Shi Xiaonian struggled to break away from his hand, turned around and left, biting her lip with her teeth. She should have talked to Mu Qianchu earlier, she should have done it earlier.
It's too late now...
"Do you really think Dr. Luo dares to abort your child?" Mu Qianchu's voice suddenly sounded in the night, "That's just a delaying trick he used to arouse your maternal instincts."
Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian stopped and turned back in disbelief, "What did you say?"
What does this mean
Mu Qianchu followed her voice and walked forward, smiled, and said in a brisk voice, "The medicine he gave you are all vitamins. Didn't you feel anything when you swallowed it? He thought you would regret it after taking the medicine, which aroused Motherhood, maybe even the heart disease will be cured.”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him blankly, unable to believe it for a moment, "Are you serious?"
Is her little pumpkin still there
Can her little pumpkin still survive well
"Why should I lie to you?"
"But when I faced Gong Ou..."
"That's just a psychological effect. What Dr. Luo said is right. You clearly know that you are mentally weak. This is not bad. At least you can control yourself. So you are mistakenly thinking that you are sedated. After taking the medicine, my mentality will be better." Mu Qianchu said with a smile.
Shi Xiaonian listened blankly and reached back to scratch his hair. He couldn't tell what kind of mood he was in at the moment, but it must not be too bad.
There was even the ecstasy of regaining something. This joy instantly washed away everything, as if everything was fine.
It turns out that she has always been contradictory. (To be continued)