"unwilling."
He whispered, his voice as low as the whimper of a small animal.
He is not willing to let it go, how could he let it go.
Shi Xiaonian watched him bury his face in her palm, her heart felt like it had been repeatedly twisted by a sharp knife, but she felt a faint sense of relief.
She turned around to face him, held his face in her hands, and slowly pressed her forehead to his. There was sweat on his forehead.
"Fortunately, you can't bear it." Shi Xiaonian said softly, word by word, and only she herself understood how much happiness each sound contained.
"I will kill you." Gong Ou leaned against her and said, persisting in mentioning this point, his hoarse voice filled with fear, "I will send you to a dead end, I will kill you with my own hands, I don't know What am I doing, I can’t do anything, I can’t do anything, I can’t do anything…”
His slender fingers gripped the quilt hard, wanting to scratch it.
When Shi Xiaonian listened, she directly put his head into her neck and hugged him tightly, "Don't be afraid, Gong Ou."
A voice as gentle as drizzle.
Gong Ou curled up his legs and his body shook violently.
The next second, Gong Ou suddenly hugged her soft body tightly, hugging her tightly, wishing to press her whole body into his body, and murmured, "I will listen to you, I will listen to you in everything, Don't blame me, don't blame me... I beg you."
He said, I beg you.
Shi Xiaonian was strangled tightly and her breathing was not smooth, but Gong Ou's movements made her feel distressed and the pain was severe.
Faced with great danger, they all forgot how to love each other correctly.
In this world... many things are not so right. It doesn't matter if they are wrong, as long as they can go back.
"I have never complained about you." Shi Xiaonian gently stroked his short hair, like holding a helpless child, and said softly, "Mong Ou, as long as you are willing to look back, you will find that I have always been Waiting for you to really slide down the ladder and take me with you."
This is his promise, have you forgotten
“…”
Gong Ou leaned hard on her neck and breathed heavily.
"As long as you are willing to look back, I will not let myself fall. Even if I only hold on to the edge, I will wait until you look back at me." Shi Xiaonian said with her soft lips against his hair.
Gong Ou hugged her tightly again, especially hard.
When Xiao Nian was talking in his ear, Gong Ou leaned on her and gradually fell asleep, but the hand holding her did not let go at all.
The two of them were entangled in the bed and were already covered in sweat and sticky.
Shi Xiaonian spent a lot of effort to free Gong Ou's hands, lift the quilt, let him lie down comfortably, then unbuttoned his shirt one by one, and wiped his sweat stains with a towel.
During this sleep, Gong Ou slept in a dark place. Feng De told Shi Xiaonian that since he sent her away, Gong Ou had never slept for such a long time.
Shi Xiaonian found a lot of plans made by Gong Ou in the safe. Just a protective site, Gong Ou, had to be designed to be foolproof from all aspects. Many places were written directly by hand. Some of the imperfections in Gong Ou's handwriting would become It was extremely sloppy and heavy-handed, which shows how much pains he put into planning it at that time.
The information was so thick that she couldn't hold it in her hands.
Only then did she understand that communication was the way for both of them to be freed at the same time.
He calculates every day how to give her the best protection and how to eliminate the enemies as soon as possible so that she can come back. He doesn't sleep well every night and is tense every day. Now, he can finally sleep without having to calculate like this. Have a good sleep.
Gong Ou slept for a whole day and night.
Shi Xiaonian walked into the bedroom with a cool soup. As soon as she entered, she heard a slight sound. She took two steps quickly and said happily, "Mong Ou, are you awake?"
Then, she stood there stunned.
I saw Gong Ou sitting on the bed, with his bare chest, biting a leather rope between his thin lips and preparing to tie his hands. When he saw her walking in, Gong Ou was stunned and stared at her like an idiot. .
The image was both eerie and comical.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian was also stunned and looked at him stupidly.
The two of them stared at each other, Shi Xiaonian blinked a few times inexplicably while holding the soup, "What are you doing?"
Isn't this kind of leather rope that locks oneself put away long ago? When did it be put in the room again? How long has he been doing this.
Gong Ou sat there with an embarrassed look on his face, his thin lips slightly opened, he loosened the leather rope in his mouth, coughed twice, leaned back and said, "It's nothing."
Shi Xiaonian walked over, put down the soup, and took off the leather rope from his wrist. She stared at him and asked, "Why are you tying yourself up?"
Haven't you vented enough for being so crazy
Gong Ou lowered his head, his eyes still bloodshot, "I thought you were gone."
"Then you tie yourself up? Aren't you afraid that I will be in danger?" Shi Xiaonian stood there and asked, wondering how his brain circuit developed.
"The more I take care of it, the worse it gets." Gong Ou said hoarsely and sat leaning against the bed.
"I left, but halfway through I found that the people on the road looked at me wrong. I thought there was something wrong with them, so I came back." Shi Xiaonian said casually and threw the leather rope into the trash can.
Hearing this, Gong Ou sat up straight and stared at her, "Are you injured? Where? What time? What location? What are the characteristics of the other party? Have you noticed that they followed you back?"
The husky voice was so nervous that it was out of tune.
Seeing that the veins on his forehead were about to pop out again, Shi Xiaonian hurriedly said, "I lied to you. Didn't I say that I was afraid that the more I took care of him, the worse it would get? Why are you still so nervous?"
Gong Ou's breathing slowed down slightly, and then he glared at her fiercely, "Can this kind of thing be used as a joke?"
"I'm not kidding, how do I know you still can't let me go?" Shi Xiaonian chuckled.
Gong Ou leaned back, staring at her face with his black eyes, gritted his teeth, and said in a low voice, "When did I say I could let you go?"
He was just afraid that the more he interfered, the faster he would push her down the road.
Hearing this, Shi Xiaonian's heart ached. She looked down at his handsome face and said seriously, "Mong Ou, I don't want to leave, and I don't want to give up. I just want to climb the ladder with you. "
“…”
Gong Ou's eyes deepened.
"I don't know how high or long our ladder is. I only know that I don't want you to have to work hard to climb to the top alone and then pull me up. I want to walk with you and climb together. Even if we fall, the two of us will be together." They all fell together." Shi Xiaonian looked at him and said.
She was not afraid of falling from a high place, she was just afraid that one day he would fall and she would still be on top.
This is what she fears.
Gong Ou sat there and didn't speak for a long time. It was so long that the air was silent and pure. Then he lowered his eyes and said, "I don't think I can do it."
There was no way he was going to let her fall before his eyes.
Shi Xiaonian smiled bitterly, "I know it's difficult."
"Mu Qianchu can do it." Gong Ou said suddenly.
“…”
Shi Xiaonian looked at him a little surprised, why did he mention Mu Qianchu again.
Gong Ou stared at her and said solemnly, "Luo Lie said, Mu Qianchu is more suitable for you than me, and he knows better how to make you live freely."
Mu Qianchu, Mu Qianchu did understand her very well. He never used his own thinking to fix her, and he would not let her endure so much for no reason... But Gong Ou didn't do it on purpose, right
Shi Xiaonian's eyes dimmed, and Gong Ou immediately said, "You are thinking about him."
His tone was guarded.
Shi Xiaonian looked at him and asked calmly, "What should I do? Do you still want me to accept closed protection?"
“…”
Gong Ou was silent.
Shi Xiaonian's heart sank slightly, and she didn't know what else to say, but she really couldn't bear to force him. He had paranoid personality disorder, and it would be even harder for him to change his usual thinking.
Shi Xiaonian turned around silently, not wanting to force him anymore, and reached out to bring the soup. Before her hands touched it, she heard a hoarse male voice ringing in the room, "I... listen to you."
Shi Xiaonian looked at him in shock.
"From now on, whatever you say will be whatever you say." Gong Ou looked at him and repeated it again, his thin lips pursed tightly.
Shi Xiaonian looked at him blankly, and it took him a long time to realize that this was not his emotional back-and-forth yesterday. He was awake now, completely awake.
"Isn't it too forced?" Shi Xiaonian asked.
"Shi Xiaonian, you got a lot of advantage and you behaved well. Anyway, I am willing to do this!" Gong Ou said in a somewhat unkind tone, his black eyes staring at her, "From now on, you will be on top and I will be on bottom."
“…”
Shi Xiaonian was shocked. Such a proud Gong Ou actually said such words. Did she hear it correctly
"What are you looking at?"
Gong Ou felt uncomfortable staring at her.
"Listen to me, what does it mean?" There must be something specific in mind. How could he be so strong and authoritarian and listen to her in everything.
This unscientific.
Gong Ou stared at her, gritted his teeth and said, "As long as we have differences, I will listen to you."
"Can you do it?" Shi Xiaonian couldn't believe that he could make such a big promise. Is this too difficult for him
He was used to controlling everything, how could he listen to her? If she denies his idea, won't he jump in and out
"I can do what I say!" Gong Ou stared at her, "Do you doubt me?"
"No." Shi Xiaonian said quickly, glanced at the soup on the bedside table, and said, "You haven't eaten for a long time. Go wash up and drink some soup."
"Wash up?" Gong Ou's eyes changed slightly, he coughed again, looked at her and said, "Go get my bathrobe for me, I want to take a shower."
"It's already been placed in the bathroom." Shi Xiaonian said.
"Then go get a spoon." Gong Ou said again, Shi Xiaonian looked at the spoon in the soup bowl, "Isn't there a spoon?"
what else
"I don't like the shape of this spoon." Gong Ou said coldly.
Shi Xiaonian looked at him inexplicably, "A spoon is a spoon, does it need any shape?"
It's okay if you can drink soup.
"It's too ugly." Gong Ou said seriously in disgust. (To be continued)