Shen Shuyan said cautiously: "Say it!"
She knew that today's criticism was unavoidable.
However, Wei Changying did not immediately lower his face and scold her, but said calmly: "Your father doesn't like you for some reasons..."
Shen Shuyan's expression suddenly changed, and she said stiffly: "Aunt, can we not talk about this?"
"Look, I've sent everyone away now, and you can't stand it if I mention it to you in such a nice and angrily way. If someone has bad intentions and tells you this on purpose, what will you do?" Wei Changying He shook his head and said.
"Who dares to mention it when uncle and aunt are here?" Shen Shuyan smiled mockingly to herself.
Wei Changying shook his head and said: "In your mother's family, of course we will not let you suffer any more grievances. But if you leave the pavilion later, what if your sister-in-law or sister-in-law, as well as your parents-in-law and elders... If they bring it up, you have to what to do?"
Shen Shuyan showed a hint of boredom on her brows and said, "I don't want to get married."
"Children's talk." Wei Changying sighed, "How can a girl's parents not marry when they grow up?"
"Why not?" Shen Shuyan was familiar with poetry and books and immediately wanted to give examples.
But Wei Changying waved his hand to stop her and said: "Okay, let's not go that far, let's just talk about it right now - don't tell me about poetry or not. In these days, there is no line of poetry you have written that is not full of sorrow, sorrow and anger." Why do you need to go to the garden to recite poems? If the people in charge of the garden hadn't seen you from a distance, I wouldn't have known you were so senseless!
Shen Shuyan has always been sensitive, so Wei Changying pays great attention to the words he chooses when talking to her, and never scolds her unless they reach a certain level.
Now directly saying that she has no sense of proportion is tantamount to scolding her.
But Shen Shuyan knew she was in the wrong, her face was so red and white that she couldn't speak, so she just remained silent.
Wei Changying said again: "Your mother and sisters are gone, but your father still treats you like this. We all know the pain in your heart. But have you ever thought about the benefits of tormenting yourself like this now?" ?”
Shen Shuyan pursed her lips and said, "I... I just want to see the lake in the morning."
"You think you have tortured yourself to the point where you are bedridden. To put it bluntly, you have made yourself really dying, with only one breath left. Do you think that your father will regret it and return to Xiliang immediately? Visiting you?!" Wei Changying looked at her with pity and sigh in his eyes, but his words were like knives, making Shen Shuyan suddenly burst into tears without even having time to hide them!
Wei Changying watched her burst into tears, but he did not stop talking. He still said coldly: "Do you think he will regret it? Will he leave the army alone and come back? Will he pity you, his only daughter? Will he regret doing that? Treat you? Will you realize that you are his only child now?"
"Wrong!" Wei Changying sighed deeply, "leaving aside the current situation, it is impossible for your father to come back in a short time. Even if he can come back... he... may not come back!"
"If he really cared about you, his only daughter, he would never leave you alone these days!"
Shen Shuyan looked at her and suddenly cried "Wow"!
"You are torturing yourself like this now... Only us, your uncles and aunts, and your eldest sister who has married to the Central Plains are watching. They were worried about you before leaving..." Wei Changying leaned down and held up On her cheeks, Shen Shuyan's tears flowed onto her fingers, dripping down her palms into her wrists. They were hot at first, then warm, and then cold... just like Shen Shuyan's deeply buried, longing for Shen Lian. Really change your mind and love yourself.
From the initial reluctance, to later disappointment, to now almost despair but still can't let go...
"Who can live a happy life?" Wei Changying slowly wiped her face with a handkerchief, his voice soft and soft, "I know, even if we uncles and aunts all regard you as our biological son, Your father's neglect of you is irreparable after all. But think about Xi'er, she has no father and mother, so she can only be raised by your aunt... At least your father is still there, right?"
But I would rather he was gone, but still the father who would hug me and smile at me in my memory!
Shen Shuyan couldn't help but shed tears in her eyes - as if aware of her thoughts, Wei Changying stopped wiping her tears and said word by word: "You know Xi'er once heard a saying, 'Money can make money. She is still trying to save a private house, thinking that one day she will buy back the lives of her father, mother, and brother... If she were asked to choose, why would she not want to have someone who would beat her and scold her, but at least she would still Is your father still alive?”
"I don't mean to sow discord between your father and daughter. I just want you to think about it. Is it interesting for you to treat yourself so badly?" Wei Changying stuffed the handkerchief to her, retracted his hand, and regained his calm tone, " Although your mother was very tight on you back then, how much she liked you... I'm afraid only you will know it when you become a mother. Don't think that she really likes your concubine Sheng because she was kind to your concubine before. It’s over you.”
Seeing that Shen Shuyan's lips curled up, as if she didn't agree, Wei Changying said casually: "I didn't want to tell you this matter originally. But with you now like this, I can only tell you - you know why your father Do I hate you so much?"
Shen Shuyan whispered: "Father regrets that Shen Shuyi died but I am still alive..."
"You were far away in Xiliang when Yi'er died. What does this have to do with you?" Wei Changying took a breath to calm down a little. She hesitated for a few breaths before speaking with difficulty in the eyes of her niece's doubtful eyes. The truth, "The reason why your father hates you so much is because when the imperial capital fell, your father wanted to take only Yi'er to break out. And your mother... She hoped that Rou'er could also be taken along! The problem is that the situation was very critical at that time. Your father has no chance of taking away the two children!"
Shen Shuyan's expression immediately changed: "Could it be that mother...?"
"Your mother killed Yi'er, in front of your father!" Wei Changying stretched out his hand to hold her hand, feeling that her niece's little hand was as cold as a piece of ice and without any warmth, she whispered, "Do you know that you How much did your mother love you? If you were in the imperial capital at that time, she would definitely have tried to find a way to keep you alive... Do you think she treats Yi'er better than she treats you? You feel sad, doesn't she? ? But the world is like this - you girls can't live without a brother! Do you understand? If you or Rou'er are a son, even if you have him, your mother Whether you want to raise him yourself or not is a question!”
… This is the biggest tragedy in Duanmu Yanyu’s life. It’s not that she’s not virtuous enough or that she’s not wealthy enough. In the final analysis, it’s that she has no son! But she married a husband who values children!
Shen Shuyan, who was famous in the imperial capital for her talent at the age of three, had no idea how happy the second wife of the Shen family would have been if he had been a son!
But she is a girl.
The Shen family doesn't care about talented women or not.
Shen Shuyan was the most favored by her elders among the sisters. She was the youngest granddaughter at that time and her cuteness was the bigger reason. As for her talent... In fact, the Shen family is very proud of it, but they don't take it seriously.
With the family name of the Shen family in Xiliang, why should a talented girl add glory to it
Shen Shuyan was able to compose poems at the age of three, but Shen Shuguang was able to plot a brother-killing scheme at the age of eight that would even ensnare Shen Zangfeng and make the entire Shen family take notice...
Shen Lianshi doesn't care much about a talented daughter... If he had a choice, he would rather trade this talented daughter for a mediocre or even unsatisfactory son!
In fact, isn't this Shen Shuyan's sadness? This world despises women. If she, like her sisters, is just an ordinary lady, outstanding and more gentle and virtuous, then she can live a better life.
But she was unwilling to give in. She believed that she was no worse than men, and even far better than most men... In terms of talent and learning, Wei Changying also admitted that many men, including her studious and intelligent eldest son Shen Shuguang, were actually far behind in literary matters. Not as good as this extremely talented cousin.
But she is a girl.
She was born in the Xiliang Shen family, a well-known family in the world.
It was destined that in her life, Miss Shen Si's status would be higher than that of a child prodigy or a talented woman.
Big tears fell from Shen Shuyan's face, and she asked infatuatedly: "What about my second sister? When she broke out... No! I heard someone in the imperial capital said that the second sister was buried together with my grandmother and the others. "Father?"
"No!" Wei Changying looked away sadly, calmed down for a moment, and then continued, "It's your second sister who can't stand such a thing... She's crazy! Several people who made a big fuss after she went crazy also got involved. I couldn't help but take her away, so your grandmother endured the pain... and let her die with her! Your mother didn't think about herself at all before she died. All she wanted in her heart was that her two biological daughters could survive... You … How could you…”
Shen Shuyan sat there in a daze, her whole body trembling as Wei Changying held her hand...
After a long time, she broke away from Wei Changying's hand, took out the handkerchief from her arms slowly and stiffly, and wiped her face slowly.
She wiped slowly and carefully.
After a while, she stopped and said in a low voice: "I know!"
"We originally agreed not to tell you about this matter, but you really can't handle it now!" Wei Changying stepped forward to straighten her clothes and whispered, "Last time, Divine Doctor Ji said However, if you don't cherish yourself, it is very likely that this will be the fate of Wen Yulan... That girl, I still can't bear to tell her - she can no longer be a mother! You are still young and you don't know what this means! "
"My natal father was in poor health in his early years, and it took ten years for my mother to have me. You don't know how she came to live in those ten years. Even before I came out of the government, the aunts and grandmothers around her mentioned those days. I can't help but shed tears!" Wei Changying put his hand on her shoulder and choked, "You know, my mother is my grandmother's niece, and no one among my sisters dares to treat her with a good temper. She was so angry, but her desire for a child almost crushed her! You feel so bad that nothing matters, even your reputation... There are so many people in this world who have a bad reputation but live a good life! So many people are shameless? Only those who are in poor health, lying on the bed dying all day long, are really worse than death, just because thousands of people say good things to you!"
Shen Shuyan's eyes sparkled with a little sparkle and a slight coldness. She said in a very soft voice: "Aunt treats me as her biological daughter, so she takes such pains for me... I understand!"
"Since you know how to cherish yourself, I feel relieved." Wei Changying wiped his face, took a breath, sat back and said, "But I want to say one more thing to you: don't hate your father!"
Shen Shuyan lowered her eyes and remained silent.
"He has been looking forward to having an heir for too long." After Wei Changying said this, he didn't know what to say next. After a moment of silence, he said, "And he thought that his fate of having an heir was over, and there would be no other ones in the future. Heir. I am so angry with you out of desperation."
"My mother was killed by my father, right?" Shen Shuyan suddenly said abruptly.
Wei Changying's heart sank - she had tried her best to avoid this question - looking at Shen Shuyan's quiet eyes, Wei Changying calmed down and said word by word: "Your mother was martyred!"
"Ha!" Shen Shuyan seemed to laugh, lowered her head and said, "Martyry? I understand, thank you aunt... I want to go back and think about it now, is that okay?"
As if she was afraid that Wei Changying would not let him go, she added, "Don't worry, aunt, I won't treat myself badly... not even a little bit!"
"...Lianju!" Wei Changying bit his lip, reflecting on whether he was right or wrong in telling Shen Shuyan today. But now that it was all said and done... She called the ambassador, "Go back with Yan'er. Be careful on the way."
I just hope that this smart and stubborn niece won't be like the gentle Shen Shurou, who can't bear the excitement...
... Watching Lianju leave with Shen Shuyan, Wei Changying sighed heavily, picked up the tea on the table and took a sip: "Ask the kitchen to make a quick soothing soup and deliver it to Yan'er later!" (Unfinished) to be continued)